dirty nights
Scheming twisting nights
on below-zero freezing fog roads
in love
in manic off-road journeys
to nowhere
I could remember
If this had happened to you and me
Warm wrapped in naked arms
For flirtatious tongued dreamers
Dancefloor lifesavers
Stopping each other from sinking in lonely oceans
In well oiled changing rooms
Backstage in venues
Where sweat runs down the walls
This is what I remember
Then,
Walking clammy hand in clammy hand
Along cold streets
Littered with chip wrappers
And broken dreams
Amphetamine comedown
Hitting hard in hungover bedrooms
Where identical couples look at each other and
Regret
To never repeat, this dry mouthed cheapness
Until loneliness hits again
This is what she remembers
Through the haze of fridays
Early morning lucid dreams
Of love
I lived through pain to find
This void
Pull my rings
To drag me back to the real world
Somehow I'm anchored to you
Nipple, navel and tongue
In this frame of mind
I pull abstractions from the air
And paste them to me
Ill fitting, like when I wear my brother's jumper
I take words and manipulate them
Randomly begging for screams
And searching for approval
Erotic words
Fail me
Although I writhe
My hips can gyrate
And I can moan
And oh yes can I fuck
But I find it hard to smile and mean it
In days and days and days
Painted nails and rings and rings
Nipples and tongues
Steel on steel meshing
I shiver to feel realer
And look around for eyes to drown in
Inner thigh tattoos of you
Remind me of mislaid trust
And love swept aside
Naked I spread my legs
And its like looking in a mirror
I find it hard to say 'I love you' and mean it
Copyright 1999 by _sPiDerBaBy_
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