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hi i would like to share a letter from Mayas dad , and he is right , he is so
right and i want you all to know , the past months has been hard but i going
to move on, thank you for loving me for me, I know some of you new people
didnt know gentle-maya she was my heart and I Loved her so much.This letter
is from her dad who also has help me so much God bless you mack i dont think
he mind i share with you Re: (no subject)
Date: 9/16/00 7:47:11 PM Pacific Daylight Time
Hi there kid ! :)
Did I ever tell ya about the time I went TDY for two weeks to Spain ? Wow !
Wonderful trip ! Saw awesome things ! Went through Queen Isabellas summer
castle in the mountains - down the street we ate squid sauteed in butter in a
little Spanish Cafe ! Want to hear all about it ? Even got pics !
Nahhh - be a waste of time - I could never convey to you the pleasant
memories I have of that trip - and the pics ? They don't show what I really
saw and enjoyed - if i tried too hard your eyes would begin to glaze over and
I would lose ya ! LOL - Laura - that was a long time ago - I still have the
pleasant memories - but that place and time only exists fully in Macks mind !
They are there for me to enjoy - they are mine to enjoy - I can't pass them
along.
And Laura ? The Princess was Gods gift to us ! Our very special little
bundle of joy ! She blessed all who knew her well but now she is gone. We all
have a very special place in our hearts that is exclusively hers. But we
can't pass that on. There is no way to really convey to others how precious
she was. And if we try, well ...... put yourself in their place. Could you
believe her if you hadn't known her ? Nahhh - she was totally unbelievable !
One in a million !
That is why I have never done a memorial to her Laura. I wanted to after
she passed away. Then I had vowed to get it done on her birthday. But the
more I tried, the more I thought about her. And the more I thought about her,
the more I realized what an impossible task it would be to describe her. What
I had in my heart, I would never be able to put on paper !
Her memory, her place in our hearts, is a special thing we will cherish
always Laura. But it is just for us. When you try to bring back her memory or
describe her to others, you are attempting an impossible task ! Kinda like
the Vietnam Memorial I think. No one that was not there or in the military
will ever understand the depth of meaning it has. It is just a feeble attempt
to make others aware. Its true meaning is ony available for those that were
there.
Its time to move on Laura. Hard I know. But it is truly what she would want
! It is only recently that I have been able to think of her and smile, or
laugh about the funny things she said. Know what bothers me sometimes ? And
if you think about this, you will know it is true ! She was a little Drill
Sgt. about the ministry ! LOL :) If she saw the condition of things now, she
would have us all at attention chewing us out ! She was a stickler for things
NOT destroying the ministry. And she would want us ministering to others,
showing Gods love ! NOT being destroyed by her memory ! She would want her
memory to be a source of joy ! Not suffering !
One week she was having a very hard time. I was working third shift then. I
went a whole week - worked over 50 hours and spent almost that same amount of
time with her. Slept several hours in a week ! But Laura, I still could not
protect her. Still could not take away her pain. There was no way to do
enough. The only way I would have been satisfied would have been to totally
protect her from mean people, take away her pain, make her happy in all of
her waking moments ! And that was impossible Laura - I couldn't do that and
neither could you !
This is a spiritual problem Laura ! It is ! The Bible said that Jesus came
that we might have life, and THAT more abundantly ! And the Princess was one
of those special blessings from Jesus ! :) But what has happened ? satan
comes to steal, kill, and destroy ! And we have let him do that ! He has
stolen the joy that God sent us through the Princess, he has nearly killed
you, and he is destroying the ministry that she started !
I started calling Jodi "little Princess " because ... dunno - the name
Princess was kinda reserved. Thats wrong Laura ! I was wrong ! Nothing will
ever replace or damage the place she has in my heart. But it is Jodis turn
now. She needs the love, the ministry, that you and I are capable of
providing in some measure. Can I make a suggestion ? Make the next " Pizza
Day " a day of celebrating our babys memory ! Get Jodi to come over and tell
her about the cute, the funny things she did ! Experience the joy of having
known the Princess ! Make it a time of laughter and joy ! And tell Jodi that
she reminds you of her. Because of her sweet, precious heart ! :) Something
just occurred to me - if you do that, its satan that will be saying "
rrrrrrrrr " - the Princess would absolutely LOVE that ! :)
Love ya buddy ! :) I hope you know I am not rebuking you or fussing. But I
have to tell you what I think is true ! Its time to rebuild things in your
family. To reach out to others in the power and the might that the Holy
spirit gives ! And to kick the " roaring lion " back to the stone age ! :)
The Princess would be pleased ! :) I can see her know, telling Hope, " thats
my Laura ! " :) :) :)
God bless you kid ! I am praying for you