Blest Be He!  There is a strong spirit of intercession that is gripping me.  May His unction, perfect pleasure, His delight be done.

Someone in drawing together the happenings of the past week called it “the event". I think it was Nancy.  The event is opportunity in many ways.  He has brought forth to me full specific e-mails that evoke a response.  First Lynda’s e-mail.  By way of baring her soul, desiring to be naked and open for this time she said she felt sorrow but not remorse.  She acknowledged her shortcomings and felt sorry but not remorse.  In fact, she was actually on her face and was waiting for the wrenching sobs to come and they did not come.

Phyl said she had to agree with Lyn and also Fran said…..  I have to tell you that the general tone of all your e-mails spoke this.  Even though you spoke forth the depth of the heart, the sorrow, right now you feel something is wrong.  There was a difference in your e-mails this time.  I will tell you just as He told me this morning that your e-mails reflected a “passage” into the experiential state of “there is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus.”  This time for the first time, there was straightforward confession, but there was no wallowing, no grovelling, not even Hope.  [I have a smile on my face, Hope!]  There was straightforward confession.  This was the experiencing the gift, a growth.  An acknowledgment that Satan had no power this time to condemn, to bring condemnation.  A Glory!  For when there is no condemnation light can come.  Spirit can address issues and not emotions.

With every passage there is a challenge, there is admonition, a warning. For you see, Satan doesn’t go away - he just changes his tactics.  He knows with every step there comes with it a possibility of regression, each step forward becomes more subtle. And the subtlety with this one is passivity and that is because of not feeling condemnation.

 There is not as much awareness that there is yet something to stand against.  The soul is so accustomed to fighting against condemnation that even when it is not there it is looking for it.  It has become such a garment that even when it’s been stripped off one is wondering where it is and that there must be something wrong with me because I’m not grovelling or remorseful, or, or or…  So then comes the awareness as a gift, that not only is there a scripture "there is therefore now no condemnation", there is also an experience that "there is therefore now no condemnation".  Then confession simply becomes straightforward.

 One can also make great progress as one keeps an open face before the Beloved but also before one another.  That’s what an Organism is.  That one part tends another part.  Spiritually, through exhortation and through uplifting.  Bearing one another’s burdens.  [That’s the call of the dove!! We heard the morning dove calling outside at this moment!]   But there is something greater that the soul can do, but I won’t mention it until after I then go to Nan’s issue, question, because it’s the same remedy.
 
 

It’s interesting to me that the remedy was already prepared.  Today’s lesson had been done.  Every question that came in, every…. In fact, the page is up on the Web.  I will send you the page [url for "Impeccability, Responsibility, Integrity"].  He was tying in and bringing all the issues to this focal point.

Nan’s e-mail:  “I believe for me this event has given me the answer.  Noticed in other e-mails and often in my own heart the phrase, ‘don’t know what to do .’”[A number of you mentioned that you don’t know what to do.]  Wanting to confess the sins of the heart’s attitude yet knowing it will be about self and not knowing what to do then.  Now by the grace of God through pondering before Him, I ask, Fannie, for your help.  Where am I deceived?  What is it that at this time is driving me that is not God Most High’s perfect will?  What is the one main door blockage that self keeps closed, that if opened would then lead to knowing Him, seeing Him, communication with Him?  I ask wanting unfettered truth and help in overcoming whatever it is.  There have to be doors closed or the Beloved and I would be in constant communication and I would know what to do for He would be able to guide.  I know self love is the [closed] door but in order to open the door the latch or doorknob has to be taken hold of and turned and often the shoulder to the door to push it open.  I am deceived, do not know the voice of the Beloved.  Help me to know the truth, help me to stand against what robs this heart of the Beloved.  Bowed, Nan.”

Fan:  There’s a name for it, Nan, and it’s called "growing up".  That’s His Word to you.  It’s called "growing up".  You are no more in the "baby stage".  Remember there are the "little children", the "young men" and the "old men".  You no more have to be rocked, hand held, lifted over.  Stay within the sound of His voice, being trusted to walk by faith, to do what you know, for you are past the fear of failure.  And when ye step out of the way you will hear a voice now behind you.  It’s harder, it’s more challenging and at times more scary because you are more on your own now.  Less sure.

It’s amazing our attitudes about the Christian life.  Constantly we’re told to look unto Jesus.  Jesus didn’t say I do what I heard the Father say.  He said I do what I see the Father do.  There’s childhood, there’s adolescence, and there’s setting free.  And in the earliest, He ever attends thee.  I’m thinking back now:  His Presence so sweet and the terror to give it up.  He begins to withdraw that immediate Presence.  Terror!  And also not just that, there’s the loss of the sweetness of the Presence.  But you see there comes a driving into the wilderness.  The wilderness is real, it is "less consciousness of the voice of the Beloved".  [Less, not more] And it gets less and less till there is none.  The walk of faith and trust, becoming grounded and settled.

An e-mail from Barb Ring: She said, “I did apologize to you for what I understood of my sin and thank you from my innermost heart for His/Your clear message that brought conviction".  [Could not hear all that was said here.]
 
 

“But that verse yesterday brought a flash of illumination and clear recognition.  I’ve been subject to a spirit of bitterness that has controlled my soul and, if subject, it is because I myself have yielded obedience to it.”  [Fan: True!]  “It is referred to in that passage as a root, does that mean it is the archetypal, the Edomites, Kings that have ruled my land?”

Fan:  An archetype is a propinquity, an instinct, an innate, an urging, and a drive.  It’s a drive in a psychological sense.  A drive in a psychological sense is that which just naturally happens you. The only way for you to stop it is for you to stand against yourself because it seems like yourself.   That’s what I believe when it says, “He spoiled principalities and powers and stripped them off.”  He stripped them off!  Jesus!  And He had to go into hell to do it.  And hell is a state.

She went on to say,  “There are many ramifications but He has repeatedly brought the focus back, at least in this writing, to this one main root of “self will”. [Fan:]  This is not a matter of forgiveness, that is that state, therefore now no condemnation.  As an Organism you all have now moved into that realm of knowing.  It’s in your spirit, not in your head.  You are only hearing it today to put in your head.  You know forgiveness.  The spirit within you knows it.  That’s why there was no ability for the remorse and the grovelling and the…..!  It’s a knowing that your spirit now knows it.  It’s experientially knowing forgiveness.  It is a thing to keep before your eyes against the wiles of the enemy.  Now it's your practice to agree with your adversary quickly.  Just tell him, “Yeah, I know, I know, yes, I know.”  Nah, nah, nah….you thought you were……”  “Yes, I know.”  You’re able to be done with it for that is finished.  And I believe yea, I know He has come, the Faithful and True, welding His Sword of Truth.  And when He does come, no flinching from it.

Here’s her statement:  “That the full purging of my soul seems prerequisite to what He desires of the Organism at this higher calling level.  A true, true, true abandonment and forsaking of all others, those former inclinations and attachments to enter into the openness.”

Fan:  See that’s first of all with one another.  That proceeds it all because He makes it to proceed "The All".  “If you cannot love your brother whom you see, you cannot love Me.”  Can’t, He says.  Cannot.  E-mail continues:  “To enter into the openness and intimacy of relationship represented by the embrace.  I run to Him to put this new awareness into His hand for I do know Him as Lord of Lords and King of Kings, but I yearn to know Him as my Beloved, indeed as the light of His countenance as my life.”

Fan:  The light of His countenance.  The closer He comes, the more the light shines, the more you see of self.  The more you see.  And that’s where it takes the non-flinching because the subtleties of the enemy would have you be passive and not look.  Oh, which brings to my mind, I know some of you get David Ebaugh’s Letter.  Another thing the Lord had already prepared, He had given me this particular scripture.  He first gave me some material that I’ve put on the Web.  I’m going to read this to you this morning but you can download it.
 

One word in particular is the answer to each of the questions, “what can I do?”  It is THE central issue, THE central thing.  He had given me the scripture of Job 1:1.  “There was a man in the land of Uz, whose name was Job; and that man was perfect and upright, and one that feared God and eschewed evil.”  That’s a powerful, powerful, powerful short sentence.  There’s so much in that sentence.  There’s so much to look at and the first thing is that these are God’s words about this man.  And the description of this man is here.  It’s as short and precise as could be.  Two words, perfect and upright.  He feared God and eschewed evil.  Those are four words powerful, powerful, powerful.

This ties in:  As with Job there was more he had to see, but it was to see God.  David Ebaugh… How many of you got a chance to read it?  There are a couple of things in it that I was surprised about.  They are important enough to bring up because I feel he is speaking from ignorance, a lack of knowledge.  He developed a case of Bell's Palsy, which is quite painful and has since been healed of it.  I will tell you there is nothing like a severe affliction to test you.  I have discovered that a severe affliction can be truth given that afflicts you severely.  Physical affliction that can be given that tests severely.  Psychological…because you know what it does?  It seems that it attacks you where you really are, I mean where you really are, not where you think you are, for it is a revealer of character.

All of this points to the remedy that I’m still getting to.  If pride reigns supreme and really has you, you have to change your doctrine to fit your experience, or to invent one. Just simply say, “I don’t know.”  Something’s happening and you’re just unable to even say, "I don’t know".  When pride really has you it’s hard to say "I don’t know".  Particularly when you’re a great teacher.  Or it will reveal if humility or meekness reigns.  It has you on your face seeking, saying first of all, “I’m nothing, and Thou art everything.”  Then, of course, if openness is there, then you’re teachable.

In this, he’s come up with some convolution that obviously has been….  When you start off with a little bit - like in Reta’s letter - she stated that God showed her that it’s the little things that got her here [in her predicament].  It’s the little things you overlooked early on.  You slide over this or that….

Then here comes this monster that you can now no longer control. It controls you, but you didn’t recognize it as a monster. You "recognized" it as a friend.  It tells you that you are right, what do they know, or……?  Just all the little whisperings that a friend does and so what it does is it makes you more recalcitrant.  It makes you dig in, makes you harder to come to the truth, it makes you less willing, period!

I don’t understand his [Ebaugh's] reasoning because he feels that…..  I won’t even go into the reasoning against the background, when you get it you’ll see the background, because it will take me away from what I want.  I don’t want to focus on his, I just want to use this one part that he mentions about El Elyon.  He feels that you fall into the hands of Yahweh…..I would simply say if you’re judgmental that’s all it amounts to.  If you’re judgmental everything comes back to you that’s all, it comes back to you.  The finger pointing over there?  Look how many are pointing back at you.  The Bible says the judgment with which you judge, you shall be judged. It's that simple.  But he's gone into some convoluted teaching about Yahweh and all this other... Just simply the judgment which ye judge, you reap what you sow.

Then he goes on to say because his sins are forgiven, that for something like this to happen, it’s because he fell under the judgment of Yahweh, something like the Bell's Palsy, cause he says El Elyon wouldn’t do such a thing to him.  Did you hear those words before?  Did you hear those words from my mouth before?  When I laid on the floor and said, “This can’t be You!”  I said it had to be the devil.  “You wouldn’t treat Your Son this way.”  And He said, “Oh no?”  And that’s when my head turned slowly to the  painting on the wall in the hall.  El Elyon.  He goes on to say that it can't be held against him.

Reading:  "I reason El Elyon, the Father of Jesus will not hold my sins against me.  El Elyon will not place me under law, judgment, condemnation, punishment and death.  [Fan:  Then he makes a statement that of the court of El Elyon.]  I want to be judged in the court of the name and nature of God, El Elyon, the Father of Jesus Christ."

Fan:  He’s talking about where in Job - and I had not looked at that specific sentence and heard those exact words before - where the Lord says unto Satan; “Thou movedst me against him.”  This is against Job.  Job 2:3 ~ “And the Lord said unto Satan, Hast thou considered my servant Job, that there is none like him in the earth,”  [He says the same thing about him in Job 1:1.] “a perfect and upright man, one that feareth  God,”  [See that’s what gets God’s attention.  Perfect and upright.]  “and escheweth evil?  And still he holdeth fast his integrity, although thou movedst me against him,” [even though I permitted you to sway me to move against him] “without cause.”  So he goes on to say: [reading] "You will find that the scripture said what it meant and meant what it said.  Satan moved Yahweh to destroy Job without a cause, can you believe it?  Satan doesn’t move any other names, natures of God, whether it’s El Elyon, Elohiym, El Shaddai, or El ?Olam."

 Fan: I feel he really went….  Let me tell you something, everything God knows isn’t in the Bible.  Everything Paul knows, Paul didn’t put in the Bible.  Se we shouldn’t be running around making a doctrine cause we couldn’t find this or couldn’t find that that it didn’t happen.  We better say we didn’t see it, it may have happened, I don’t know, again I don’t know.

Reading:  "I can’t find any other place or time when Satan talked to any other name or nature of God except Yahweh."  Fan:  How could he say that?  Satan talked to Jesus face to face in the wilderness.  Jesus is the express, The Express Image!  In fact, it’s such a clear picture.  The conversation was so clear.  There is more information given from that conversation, that all of those are for Satan to use, to talk and to give and he’s the god of this world, he showed it.  Said he can’t find it any other place he talked to him.  Then he says; [reading] "I want to be judged in the court of the name and nature of El Elyon."   Fan: That lets me know that he hasn’t been.  You do want to, but see it’s not sins because it’s not a sin, it’s the sin nature that’s being gotten at from El Elyon.  It’s the sin nature.

Reading:  "The Father of Jesus Christ, El Elyon grants love, mercy, forgiveness, light and life."

Fan:  Like he’s saying that’s all.  That to me strikes the message of "growing up".  The way I was treated as a child is not the way……..  The way I was treated the day I was baptized in the Holy Spirit!  Astounding Baptism!  The way He walked with me, the way He talked with me and then when He began to tell me to remember in the dark what I told you in the light.  A suffering unbearable, unbearable!  The loss of the sweet side.  Little did I know the glory in that other side until I asked Him to remove the harness, “I can’t take anymore,” and He did and in a split second I begged, “Please, please give it back!”  Such sweet… I felt dead, Reta told you [about her feeling dead], I felt dead, dead, DEAD!  When He lifted it I felt dead.  I mean, horrible, horrible, horrible.  There are no words to describe living dead.  Just as there are not words to describe the sweetness of that crushing, crushing weight of the harness, the absence of the voice, the lack of the awareness of His presence.  The sweetness of suffering, suffering pain so deep within, it was grieving, grieving, I had been abandoned.  The grief was I didn’t know where it was taking me because I didn’t know there was anywhere to go.  There was no one to tell me.  No earthly person.

Nancy, when you were saying "don’t know what to do, doesn’t tell you what to do", I would ask Him what should I do?  I would pray, “Lord, please,” He’d say, “You do it.”  He didn’t say it softly, He didn’t say it meanly, it was just totally objective, no explanation, “You do it!”  No chit chat, no communion.  Three words, “You do it.”  Little did I know then the trust in those words to me.  Little did I know the power behind the Throne.  The Holy Spirit Who was at the reins as I began the walk.

 Here is the Answer:  He sent me to look up the words "perfect" and "upright" about Job.  First of all, He gave me this paper. I don’t even know the Web site, no, I think I do.  I think I can find it again.

It’s amazing the things that…I just get on there looking for something else or I feel a stirring to go look for something, just go, I just go.  Before I know it……. Sometimes you do a web search and it tells you that they’re giving you the first ten references out of ten million.  Millions, millions, tens of millions, thousands of millions and here’s the page.

This is a message from on High!  Listen carefully!  The page will be on the Web.  You are to receive this as a prophetic utterance:

READING:  "As you move into the new millennium…." FAN: This was a message that was channelled.  I looked at that message and that was truth!  This was ringing within me and I changed some things to take it out of that…. There’s nothing wrong with it but it gives… You do know that channelling is scriptural?  But fundamentalist have done a job on it and call it New Age.  Well, I will tell you if we aren’t channels, it’s over.  Isn’t it stupid that as long as the Charismatics or the Baptists say it’s okay, then its okay?

We’re channels, we sing a song, we’re channels of blessings, right?  Yes, channels, Jesus said; “I speak what the Father says.”  That’s a channel.  A channel is a pipe or a gully, or whatever, that is touching this end and a message or whatever can flow through or out to a larger environment.  Channelling as a vessel, I’m a vessel.  This came through a vessel.

Barb R:  The problem is...we think we’re "it".

Fan:  Yes, we think we are the message, not even bringing the message.  We are supposed to be the message.  That’s what He wants to bring us to, to be the message.  Yes, that’s the problem, won’t say we’re channels, because when you’re channels you’re nothing.

The article is called: "Impeccability, Integrity and Responsibility".  That’s the answer to all your questions and all the others.  Fran said too, I don’t know what to do, Lynn, Phyl also said it. “Don’t know what to do.”  Here’s what you do.  Carolyn said it in so many words.  She was blessing Nancy for asking it because when I said I would discuss it today, that touched her heart because she was waiting for that.

READING:  "As you move into the new millennium, frequencies on your world are accelerating – pressures stepping up spiritually as well as in all other kingdoms ---"  FAN:  He’s coming! His Glory!  See, it radiates and exposes. The more we see, the closer is His coming.  See in all the goop and gook--- stop saying it’s out there: it’s in here.  There’s only One Life!  The Bright and Morning Star!  That means light, light, revelation, revealing, uncovering and opening up.  Again, you’re prone to think the negative because I did.  The first vision given me of His coming I was covering up, because I was naked.  This profound light was all around me and I was naked, which meant I was penetrated and I saw myself.

I was trying to find clothes on me. See, that’s hiding, trying to cover up.  I knew I wasn’t ready.  Now that’s a word of joy from Him.  I didn’t take it as that at that time.  “I’m not ready!”  Guess who that was a big surprise to? Only me.  Only me!

Reading:  "Human evolution – progression- is occurring quite rapidly.  There are some very important issues that each of you as individuals should hold very close to your heart.  It is important to take these ideas within yourself so they become a part of you.  These ideas are: Impeccability, Integrity, and Responsibility."

"As the frequencies"... Fan: That’s the energies that create the pressures, the inside turmoil, unrest.  It’s unrest.  See, because it’s the upheaval.  The Book of Rev. talks about the earthquakes: that’s inside.  Everybody is looking to California.  “Move out of Los Angeles”.  That is an outward sign but this is the inward side, the unrest, and the unrest comes and with the unrest is the unknowing, with the unknowing comes the unsureness, with the unsureness comes that aching and with the aching comes that yearning and all of this is just all churning together and you are saying, “I want that place of rest!”  You want to go back to the nursery.  Very plainly a place of rest. There’s only one place of rest. He has it and it will never be in here until you are in Union.

There is a death, a burial, and descending for there is a confrontation.  There is one who holds a turning sword.  There is a confrontation with one bigger than you, more powerful than you, more knowing than you and you don’t get to meet him until ~~ “Have you seen my servant Job? He is perfect and upright, eschews evil and fears God.”  Essentially He’s saying that he’s ready.  Hallelujah!  That’s the Word of the Lord.  Didn’t come from Job.  Job did all he could to keep these things from happening and so do we.  Those things are unbearable things.  Jesus said; “Why hast Thou forsaken Me?”  Jesus said it and essentially He’s saying "where is the relationship?"

“Where’s the relationship?  It’s gone, I can’t bear it, I can’t bear it.  My God, My God, why hast Thou forsaken Me?”  He told the truth.  “I did believe You, why have You forsaken Me?”  Father knows best.  My God, my God!

Reading:  "As the frequencies on your world accelerate, many of you are finding that things are being reflected back to you very quickly.  You may say or think something and it comes back quickly, [and this is true.]  Have you begun to notice this?  Therefore, you need to be saying to yourself, “I need to be a little bit more careful about the thoughts that I put out and the hidden agendas I may have within myself that I am not aware of.”  Fan:  You’ll see what the hidden agenda means later on because it ties up again in this one word.  All of this comes into one word and in the one word, you’ll know how to do it.  You’ll know what to do and how to do when you leave here."

"You are being given a key to moving into the new millennium with grace in such a way that you will cause the least amount of pain for yourself and your loved ones.  The first key is IMPECCABILITY."  Fan:  I can tell you I know what he’s talking about, this is truth.  Here’s what "impeccability" means.  Reading:  "IMPECCABILITY means that every action you take, every communication you say, must be with the intent to perfectly align with the you that you wish to become or are in the process of becoming."

Fan:  This is what matches up with when I told you when I opened my mouth, I could smell…… and I began to become careful.  It wasn’t a carefulness of action, it was carefulness of weighing.  I’m getting ready to faithfully represent that which I desire to become.  No one around me would say…if someone would say, “The holiest person I ever met was Fannie Linder.”  These five people wouldn’t say, “Who?  Are we talking about the same person?”  Understand what I mean by saying that?  They would all say, “Oh yes!”  That’s what I wanted said.  That’s it.  That’s what He was getting down to.  It didn’t matter who, whether it was my children, my husband, my friends, a stranger and believe me there are no strangers.  You meet people and you think you will never see them again.  You don’t, always, but they see someone who knows you and they will say, “Oh yes, I know who you mean.  I met them and.….” and they share that one encounter.

Reading:  "IMPECCABILITY means that every action you take, every communication you say must be with the intent…." Fan:  You intend.  You intend what you say, you intend what you do.  If you intend it, you are responsible for it.  That’s what He is saying.  “You do it!  You do it!”  When you are told by God, “You do it”. That takes more intention then you going around and saying, “Oh, He’ll tell me, He will tell me if I didn’t do it.”  This is a step beyond.  You intended. You’re not asking, you’re intending.  There’s a weight of responsibility here to align with the "you".  Make sure that it’s aligned.

"You must do a lot of soul searching, especially in the direction of 'hidden agendas'."

Fan:  Very few people approach me or give me a message without a hidden agenda.  That includes you.  And all is open before Him.  I’m not saying this in condemnation. This is for knowledge and purpose so that you….  Let me do something right now.  Tear off a piece of paper.  You are going to write something on it and fold it so no one can see and pass it on to me.  I want you to write down the two people in the Organism you "know" most fully.  You "know" them, the most fully.  I’m not talking about friendship, you just "know" them the most.  Don’t put your name on it.  All I’m interested in are two names, the two people in the Organism that you feel you "know" more than the others.  I'm talking about "knowing" them because of what they shared, what they have said, what they have done, what they have expressed.  Not going to look at them now, just a test.

"This Word from on High says that all humans have them [hidden agendas]."

Fan:  And we do, all humans have them and each human has to become aware that you have them because the person you fool the most is yourself.  Therefore, you need to be admitting them to yourself.

"They are nothing to be ashamed of.  A 'hidden agenda' could be something as simple as the priority of keeping oneself safe."

Fan:  This is the one: the most important.  The one word is INTEGRITY.  "Impeccable", "Responsibility" comes out of INTEGRITY.  INTEGRITY is THE word.  Your life becomes impeccable if you walk in INTEGRITY.  Jesus had an Impeccable Life, an Impeccable Life.  When you gain an impeccable life it is going to cost you, I will tell you, it will cost you.  People are not going to like you very much.  The people who like you now are not going to like you very much.  It’s just the fruit of impeccableness.  It is because they will fear you.  Ninety-nine and forty four one hundreds of us don’t want to be feared.  We want to be loved, honored and adored.  This isn’t the fear of God, and you know what?  This just dawns on me, you know what fear of God you really, really have the most?  It’s that He is IMPECCABLE.  What else would make you worship Him?  What else would make you fear Him?  What does it mean to be impeccable?

Oh you’ll say, “No, it’s not, it’s His power!”  Well, that gets back to impeccable, you aren’t sure of how He’s going to use it on you.  And you know He’s so impeccable you’re not sure you can persuade Him to not hurt you.  When you come to love "impeccability" and "integrity", you will simply understand that this or this or this is simply the price to pay.  It will hurt.  Some of that is good because you're losing that zest, that lust for [self] respect and acceptance that you aren’t supposed to have anyway. That shows the friendship of the world and the world system of things.

"All humans have them.  They are nothing to be ashamed of.  A 'hidden agenda' could be something as simple as the priority of keeping oneself safe."

Fan:  In other words when you were confronted with something, you lied about it.  That’s acting without integrity and you did it to keep yourself safe.  See, your ego did it to keep yourself safe.  That’s a hidden agenda.  Do you understand?  You didn’t even recognize your hidden agenda is your pride, or you want to be safe or look big in someone’s eyes.  So you are working toward that and the ego knows that and that is the hidden agenda.  So it’s working with you inside you.  Confront it like David did.  “Soul, why art thou disquieted within me?  Hope thou in God.”  That’s a simple way of pouting.  “Soul, why poutest thou, got taken down a peg or two soul?  Hope thou in God!"  Hallelujah!!

"This 'hidden agenda' is nothing to be ashamed about, but it does need to be recognized because ultimately a lack of integrity will get you into a lot of trouble!"
 
 

Fan:  See, even though this part is talking about impeccability, it keeps using the word INTEGRITY.  INTEGRITY is IT!  "Impeccable", no, "responsible", no. INTEGRITY is it!  Integrity says, “Yes, I do think I’m a cut above the rest".  I used to "mealy-mouth" around, because I wanted humility so badly, and so guess what, you develop ways that make you look like you have it.  And one of the ways is saying, when complimented, “Oh, that was nothing”.  The Lord looked at me…. And I knew that outward word was a lie.  [Even though saying "oh, it was nothing" OUTWARDLY], INWARDLY, it was "Yeah, I thought that was pretty good, that was pretty good".  But I thought to admit that I thought it was good was a lack of humility.  But what it was, was a lack of INTEGRITY [outward words and inward thoughts did not align!].

I can now say that "that was good.  Boy, that was great"!  Because, see, I’m listening to it now with you.  When you think it’s you and you think it’s this and you think it’s that…hey, guess what?  Even when it was good, guess what?  "Good" and JESUS are two different things.  As long as you’re running around being "humble", the hidden agendas you never get ["pick up on"].
Everything has to bump up against the Pattern Son.  See, you have to come to admit, “Yeah, I think I’m great, I’m great when compared to others.”  Or you come up against one and say, “Not so good compared to her”.  So the hidden agenda says, Okay. when she [someone respected] congratulates you, then you really know that that you’re right, ok.  You really want to know what she feels because if she says it, then it really is good.  [But compared to the Pattern?  CHRIST JESUS?  NO CONTEST!]

[Obversely, when someone says you are wrong and you OUTWARDLY apologize but INWARDLY you think you are right - that, TOO, is a lack of INTEGRITY!  No alignment!!]

Recognize, recognize, recognize, learn to recognize because the lack of integrity is eventually going to get you in a lot of trouble.  Reta can tell you that this is the heart of the issue.  Blest be He!  It’s wonderful, she can tell you.

Reading:  "If you begin to recognize the things in yourself that you want to protect…"  Fan:  That’s where you start, you make a list.  You sit with yourself and, in quiet, list the things you want to protect.  I don’t care what it is.  Your right to quiet time, just look and see what is it you want to protect.  Because I’m telling you, your ego is going to work with you……[to get your hidden agenda!]

Fan:  You can make a list of the things you want to protect.  Fears, every fear, spiritual ones as well.
Reading:  “Old patterns that no longer serve you.”  Fan:  Traditions, traditions, traditions, that’s all I can hear, traditions, traditions.  Reading:  “Once you begin to recognize this you can begin acting and expressing yourself…”

Fan:  Beause see now you have awareness, you know, “Oh, this is where I usually pull back.”  See, then you’re aware and you will yourself to be present, not to pull back but to be present and to listen and to become vulnerable and submissive and to say thank you.  To say thank you for the courage it took for you to tell me.  Then you think you just said something and the person says; “That didn’t take any courage.”  See because again you judge that person by yourself.  It would have taken courage for you to do it so you assumed it took courage for them to do it and you thanked them and it didn’t take them any courage.  But see, until you become open, until you get real…  You let them know what you are thinking.  That’s the whole thing, to let others know what you’re thinking.  Then you can be adjusted and they can adjust.  Ginny:  “Shut up, Reta.”  [Much laughter]

Nancy:  Can’t you just picture that?  [More laughter]

Reading:  “Once you recognize you can begin acting and expressing yourself in all aspects of life with impeccability.  Impeccability simply means acting in total alignment with the higher aspects of who you really are beyond your ego.”    Fan:  That is glorious!!  That’s glorious!  Simply acting in total alignment with the higher aspects of who you really are beyond your ego.  That’s glorious!

Reading:  “You do not have to monitor yourself to the point of a headache.”  [Fan:  Now this is coming from on High.]  “Simply take a look at and make yourself aware of your weak areas.”
Fan:  Now you know why Paul said; “I joy in my weakness, I joy in my weakness.”  Because He said, “In your weakness, that’s where I’ll make you strong.  I’m your strength”  To joy!  I pray you don’t know the time I wasted, the time, the monsoons, the years crying out to God, “Please take this from me.  Kill me from this weakness of sin.”  It’s all the weakness of sin.  Till finally He said, “No, no, that’s My place of meeting you.  No weakness, no Me.”  Paul importuned Him three times to “remove this thorn in my flesh.”  Finally Paul, too, got the message.  “My grace is sufficient, My grace is sufficient.”  Stop pretending that you don’t have weaknesses.  That was my story.  That was His word to me, stop pretending.

Do you know what?  One day my Bible Study called a meeting.  They said we were all going to get together and confess our faults.  I had a hard time thinking of some.  It’s the truth!  So I said that I had to come up with something.  He took care of it.  I walked in and we got together and guess what I told them?  “I’ll be the first one to sit in the chair.”  I meant for everyone to tell me what they saw was wrong with me, because that’s what we were going to do.

I thought that’s what we were going to do to help us.  The one person misunderstood me.  She thought that I meant I was going to be first to tell everybody what was wrong with them.  She started in on me and the whole meeting….. no one got to anyone else but me.  I’m serious, the whole meeting.  The entire meeting, but it was wonderful. It was wonderful!  Do you know what they said?  I was not approachable.  I never had a weakness in front of them.  Who’s going to approach a "holier-than-thou" person?  Who’s going to come to that person?  They wanted to come to somebody who fell down just like they did, who knew what the gutsy, gritty heart of life was about.  And I was not approachable.  They told me, “We always have our meetings and we ask for prayer and you never ask for prayer.  You never say, ‘I failed in this and I did that.’  You never did any of that.”   I couldn’t come up with anything.  I worked at it, can you believe that?  I worked at it and it’s because I was not aware.

My relationship with God was that I was not aware.  All that, though, was before "the dark night of the soul".  I truly, truly was not aware.  They did a number on me.  Anyhow, at the end of the meeting somehow or other it came out that she became aware, before the end of the meeting that… no, there was something else that she also misunderstood that I said, or someone told her, but whatever it was, it never got around to anybody else the whole while we were there.  It all took care of me.  Approachable.

Reading:  "You do not have to monitor yourself to the point of a headache."  [Fan: Which I did.  From a heartache to a headache and whatever else.]  "Simply take a look at and make yourself aware of your weak areas.  On a day-to-day basis, begin to resolutely bring these areas into balance."

Fan:  I had a "chicken heart" and I knew I had a "chicken heart".  I don’t think, no, I never did get over that "chicken heart".  His Life got me over that "chicken heart".  You know what a "chicken heart" is?  "Chicken heart" is that….it’s a personal safety issue, really.  My whole thing was I didn’t want to hurt anyone.  That was so deep in me, I really did not.  But do you know what the flip side of it is?  You do not want to be hurt.  You don’t want to be hurt.  I’d say, “Oh, that’s all right,” and it wasn’t all right.  See, there was not this perfect alignment.  I couldn’t simply say to someone, “You know that really hurt me.”  I really think I had, as Barb mentioned, a "spiritual spirit".  I had one.  That was my idea that that was spirituality, that you absorb everything.  That, you know, that you don’t tell people that your hurt or upset or whatever.

Barb:  A religious spirit?

Fan:  Yes!  Not even with my own family, I didn’t do it.  You get angry enough, then you throw a conniption fit.  I told someone way, way years ago that I’d go in the kitchen and throw pot tops.  I don’t think there’s anybody who knows me now won't doubt that I’ll throw them.  I won’t, but they know I could because, when you’re clear, there’s no agenda other than integrity. Integrity!  There’s one thing that hurts me to no end and that’s for someone to impugn my motive.  I don’t know anything else that hurts me [that much].  To impugn my motive, because it’s pure.  Blest Be He! It's His!
 
 

Reading:  “If you begin to understand these weak areas, own them.”
Fan:  Own them.  As Barb said in her e-mail, the king of Edom, or whatever was pushing her button, but she owned it, was able to push her cause she invited them.  That’s owning it.
Reading:  “Say, “Now I will use this aspect of myself as a learning tool in order to come into balance with the higher self of who I am.”
Fan:  I say “higher self”, they say “higher aspect”.  We know who the higher aspect is.  Now, leave them with theirs because there are higher aspects in all arenas and you will draw whatever.  If law is your thing you’re going to draw that higher aspect.  If justice is your thing you’re going to draw that higher aspect.  So you want to clear the deck and tell Him you want to be clear, you want His Life, you want Christ’s Life only!

Reading:  “Impeccability then leads to integrity.” [Fan:  No!  Impeccability is what you get because of having integrity.]  “Integrity is the by-product of impeccability.” [Fan:  No!  It doesn’t matter, just have integrity.  Walk in integrity.  This says integrity is a by-product.]  “Integrity means that your actions are aligned with this perfectly balanced aspect of who you are.   Integrity is the idea of walking your talk, staying in the heart.”

Fan:  Staying in the heart isn’t that elegant? Beause, see, your heart is where your hopes, your wishes, your……..  This is that inner, that inner garden.  Stand, align, your words align.  I don’t care who you’re with, the sales clerk.  A friend of mine said, “Fannie, this I do have to say to you, because my kids remarked to me about it.”  “Mrs. Linder’s voice never changes no matter who she is talking to.  She greets them all the same.  Mom, we can tell when Mrs. Linder calls you because your voice changes.”  “Oh, hello!”  “You don’t talk to us that way.”  It’s like, “Mom, talk to us the way you talk to Mrs. Linder.”  How about that, how about that?  Mrs. Linder had to learn that, too, as how to talk to her children or who ever - as if the whole public was looking in, but my whole public was the Beloved.  You have to practice these things first.  “Staying in the heart.”

Reading:  “Integrity means not being afraid of being your full self even if you think it may hurt another.”
Fan:  That’s heavy, that’s heavy!  F’s, that’s heavy.  SF’s is bad enough, NF’s, INF’s, you would rather die first.  That’s necessary.
Reading:  “To stay with your full self, even if you think it may hurt another, if you can be your full self with love.”  [Fan:  I put not with anger.  A lot of people can only be what they think is their full self, in other words, getting some respect or whatever if they’re angry.  No, with love, with love.  You can do that.]  “It causes the other person to see a reflection of who they truly are.”

“A commitment to impeccability leads to acting with integrity.  This requires just little steps to begin.  Eventually you will feel that it is second nature to you.  Then, once you begin acting with integrity, it leads you into becoming a responsible human being.”
Fan:  And that is the truth.  We try being a responsible human being by living up to our promises, sticking to our word, being loyal and all of those are exterior things.

You can do all those things while your head is saying, “This is a bunch of crap, I wish I weren’t doing it.  Boy, I’ll be glad when this job is done.  Whew, that’s over and done with and out of sight, now on to the next thing.”  This is all being done in that spirit of being a responsible human being.  That’s now what being a responsible human being is.

Reading:  “Let us define what we mean by responsibility.  Let us say that I break this window accidentally.  If I say, “You did it because you made me fling my arm toward the window”,
Fan:  Now don’t say anything.  You do this a thousand different ways.  I wish I could come up with a good one so that you could really see this. “Well, if you had just looked!   You’re supposed to be the da-da-da-…. If you’d had said just a little sooner.”

Reading:  “I am blaming you.  I’m telling you that you are responsible.  Perhaps I may say, “I am such a “ditz”,  bad person.  I do everything wrong.  The broken window is my fault.”
Fan:  That’s not a responsibility that’s blaming me, blaming yourself.  That’s still a blame game, only now you learn something: instead of blaming them, you blame yourself, but that’s still not taking responsibility.
Reading:  “This is placing blame, and anchoring in the past.  Responsibility is entirely connected to the self.  You must take responsibility for your actions and emotions no matter “who” is the cause.” [Fan:  No matter who is at cause!]  “True responsibility comes from the commitment to impeccability.”

Fan:  Now, I will give you an exact answer of this one.  Someone comes to visit my home.  One of my favorite pieces of porcelain is there.  A child breaks the thing.  Certainly, it is absolutely true that the mother is to teach the child not to touch other people’s things.  But when I take responsibility, if it meant that much to me, I should have moved it.  I’m taking responsibility.  You understand that now the way I used it?  That’s me taking responsibility, because when my children were that age, I certainly didn’t let them run around and touch.  Certain things were moved out of sight until they were older, or either I told them no, no, no.  Now, if I’m not willing to tell that child no, no, no, you better move it or it’s your responsibility.  It’s not the other person’s full responsibility.  That’s taking responsibility.   See, that’s being impeccable.  That’s impeccable reasoning because you are thinking from the place of integrity.  “No, it really isn’t just their fault.”

I want to say something here.  INTJ’s, I think yours comes down a bit differently.  You have to be aware of that, but it also comes down a little different.  Stop taking blame for everything.  Your acting with integrity is not taking the blame, not rescuing, not fixing the system.  Not fixing it, that’s acting with integrity.  Let it crumble.  INTJ’s:  INTP’s don’t give a rip!  Stop trying to fix the system!

Reading:  “True responsibility comes from the commitment to impeccability [Fan: I say integrity] and the acting with integrity.”  [Fan: But impeccability comes out of it.]  This creates a self-responsible individual. The aspect of you that goes beyond the human ego” [such as the higher self] is an entirely impeccable, integrous, and responsible consciousness.  This is who you really are.”

“As you move now into the new millennium, THESE THREE ISSUES WILL BE [Fan: I’m saying one issue, integrity] FOLLOWING BEHIND YOU VERY CLOSELY. “

Fan:  And I will tell you, the Holy Spirit is OUT of there like a shot!  The closer you get into walking into the dark night of the soul.  I have no other way to say it.  The dark night of the soul means the lack of a consciousness of His Presence.  Then integrity means everything.  Integrity means everything to the Holy Spirit.  Holy, Holy, do you understand?  Remember Jesus, Jesus forgives you everything, everything.  God gave up everything.  The Holy Spirit is zealous only because of knowing Who God truly is.  Zealous for His pleasure.  Once you’re in that path, truth, truth.  The rebuffs within, the convictions, see, instead of condemnation comes conviction and the conviction is His.  The lack of it doesn’t mean that you are not a mess, you know.  There are so few issues He chooses to confront.  It’s the central issues of knowing each individual’s life and He moves that way but it’s with integrity.  He is impeccable, unerring.

Reading:  “This issue will follow behind you very closely.  Sometimes they will bite you in the butt.  If you are not willing to look at them, you will find that your own personal transformation may become a little bit difficult.  This brings us then to the idea of contact with other life forms.  This is an interest for many of you.”  [Fan:  Don’t think….it’s going to happen.  It’s going to happen more and more and more.  By other life forms, they mean “spirits”.  It’s going to happen and people will say, “Oh, you don’t…..”  “What is this Lord?”]

“How can the principles that we’ve just outlined enhance the idea of contact?  [Fan:  Cause it’s very important!]  Let us simply say that when we are talking about contact we are talking about contact in many forms.  It may be ET contact:  [Fan: You know what that means.]  It may be contact with your higher self or spirit guides.  It can also be contact with each other. IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!”

Fan: Those are my words.  I know, I know!  I met spirits.  When I was finally, really, led into hell, guess where they all are?  All kinds, and then you start learning,  “Oh!”  You’re frantic because you don’t have that impeccable spirit as yet.  As my spirit became impeccable, I could sense when they began to move on the scene.  Then I could move to circumvent.  They were divisive spirits and I could sense when they came on the scene to create havoc….  The kids would be sweet and light and all of a sudden all hell breaks loose.  This one would yell….but a discerning spirit is able to circumvent and move with integrity in and through the situation.  I would hear them and sometimes they would be in contact with me and be planning great schemes and all kinds of stuff.  It’s a journey!

Reading:  “If you utilize [here it is] the principles of Impeccability, Integrity, and Responsibility in any attempts at contact, the resultant contact will be [Fan: Exactly what you put forth.  Do you understand?  If you’re not putting out complete integrity, you’re going to get spirit contact and it’s going to be spiritual and what have you, but it’s not going to be pure.  It’s not going to be impeccable.  There’s a difference.  There’s spirits, you start at the lowest all the way to the highest and you’re not pure so you’re not going to meet pure spirits.  There are all kinds of spirits.]  Therefore, the contact or relationship that you build from that point onward will be one that you would term “healthy”.”

Fan:  I would have to cry, “Oh God, oh God” because I could sense the ugliness and I’d say, “Take it away.”  He would say, “You do it!”  You would have to fight to get a place to where you don’t want to be possessed, you don’t want….  You name it.  “I don’t want a religious spirit.  I don’t want a deceitful spirit, I don’t want a self-righteous spirit, I don’t want a critical spirit, I don’t want a judgmental spirit, I don’t want….”  Name it!  “Drom my heart and make things true.  If I murmur and complain, don’t listen to me.  I ask that You not listen to me.”

Reading:  “You are [Fan: Listen to this.] the definer of the contact or contacts.  You are the definer of who your contact(s) will be.  [Fan:  This is my sentence here: By the practice and living out of your life daily, moment by moment.  Our lives define and determine the types of relationships we seek and the type of relationship that we will have.  What we seek is what we will get.  There are three components.  [Fan:  It’s still, it’s still “I”.  I don’t care what you go through.  All of these are a part of integrity.  As you read this, don’t say, “Oh, impeccability is not it, let me get to integrity.”  No, impeccability is a part of integrity.  To me it is the outcome.  It is the way you will live your life impeccably.  Impeccably means I didn’t miss.  Hallelujah!]

Reading:  “It creates a field of equality in which  [Fan: Equality means inner spirits and outer spirits, equality necause it’s lining up.  Everything lines up as He comes.  All the spirits are lined up together, the spirits are lined up together.  You want to be lined up with HIM.  That takes conscious, integrous living.]  This is truly the road to any of the higher potentials that you wish to create on Earth.  If you can create that field of equality where there is no separation, not demonization, no victimization, or deification, you make that conscious step into the next phase of your evolutionary growth.”

“You will find, as simplistic as it may sound that these are the building blocks of a healthy [spiritual] future within yourself and between each other.  These principles are the glue that holds you all together.  [Integrity, Impeccability, Responsibility]  You will not rise higher than your treatment of others and your relationship with others in a spirit of deep communion and truth among and between each one.  [Fan: You will not rise any higher than the strength of that communion of spirit among and between each one.] You are going nowhere alone.  Yet each alone can work… [Fan: must work] at bringing him/herself into the place where their impeccable, integrous and responsible lives will invite the same in return from God and from their fellows.”
 
 

                                                    AND HE WILL BE GLORIFIED

Fannie plays piano music here and shares during the playing.  [hard to hear so am not sure all is correct].

Fan’s comments:  Listen to how clear, and played with a delicate touch.  He is playing with integrity.  You can hear it, you can hear it.  You can tell in music what has integrity.  The Spirit wills to play you that way.  Every note, clear.  Every motive, clear.  Every intention, clear.  Every desire, clear.  Every hope, the hope that maketh not ashamed, clear.  Every action, clear.  Just to live, clear.  It was the ache of my heart to be transparent.  Just intend, intend, intend.  Holy, holy, holy!  Just think when all is progressing, when all are drawing spirits, we can have the privilege of drawing The Holy Spirit.  Come, Holy Spirit, in fullness and power to make each intention clear, each heart clear, each desire clear, to make every thought clear.  Cleanse and heal.  Blest be He!             [Music finishes]

Job 2:3  “And the Lord said unto Satan, Hast thou considered my servant Job, that there is none like him in the earth, a perfect and upright man,”
Fan: I looked up the words perfect and upright.  The word perfect meant integrity.  I couldn’t believe it.  I was astounded!  Integrity!

Barb R: In the medical field they speak of integrity [in infection control] that is something….?[could not hear]

Fan: Integrity prevents the infection.  It keeps the infection from the organism cause that’s what the body is, an organism.  Integrity [H8538] That’s the word for “perfect”.  I was shocked when I saw that was the meaning.  Perfect!  In the concordance that was the only meaning for that word.  Usually there is a long list.  That’s the word and it’s from [H8537] and in it is also “uprightness”.  The two words are probably like “impeccable” and “integrity”, the two are intertwined.  Now it comes to me that Satan was not made to crawl.  He’s no longer “upright”.  He was once “upright” and I really think that’s man.  The soul of man.  To be complete, innocent, innocent, simplicity, without spot, without blemish.  That’s integrity, without spot, without blemish, no infection.  Undefiled, sound, the truth, complete, full and real.  That’s Fran’s word, “real”.

Fran:  Maybe about ten, fifteen years ago I took a course at Broome.  It was “Career Exploration” and we had to pick a bunch of words that pertains to us.  The word “integrity” was in there and I didn’t even know what it meant.  One of the girls said to me, “How come you didn’t choose that?”  I told her that I didn’t really know what it means.  See I had shared that I had left the church.