Date sent: Tue, 08 Jul 1997 17:54:02 +1000 From: Coggan Subject: [Fwd: post story 'always and forever" nicole sulky coggan] Subject: post story 'always and forever" nicole sulky coggan Date: Mon, 07 Jul 1997 11:55:32 +1000 From: Coggan Organization: Coggan CC: pcoggan@tnt.dynamite.com.au Newsgroups: alt.tv.x-files >From nicole coggan@ pcoggan@dynamite.com.au ALWAYS AND FOREVER DISCLAIMER: these amazing characters just dot happen to belong to me at the moment ,but I wouldn't mind them for my birthday( hint, hint) . Well it just happens that they do belong to a chip or as you guys would say it, arc's' brand CC , a company named after a wild animal (fox) and a set of kinky numbers(10-13). ..Oh! and don't forget, that annoying kids voice that goes with it! Summary: following the leader My turn to say something: Hello people! this is my first go at writing fanfic so please be nice to me. This is not a very happy story and its also MSR so if your not a "shipper", you may leave. I would like to thank Sarah Howard,(aka Sarah duchovny mulder shmoulder ) or something like that ,(crazy girl) Tina M for her help as to where to send this, and Stephanie Soriano ,.. thank you so f****** much for getting me obsessed. Bye.!! title:Always and Forever Author:NIkki sulky Coggan rating:pg class:msr spoilers:gethsemane? kewords:mulder?scully romance-character dies summary:Scully kills herself because mulder committed suicide for her. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ALWAYS AND FOREVER By Nicole "sulky" Coggan. --------------------------------- 10:13 pm Dana Scullys' apartment. Dana Scully tossed fitfully in her sleep. In her dream , she stood in a darkened room.Papers were scattered all over the floor. The air was heavy but dry.In front of her was a well worn green leather couch.Defintiely not the type she'd opt for. She thought she could see a form slumped on one of the cushions, but she couldn't be sure. The scene was blurry in the annoying way that dreams are. She willed the vision to clear up but it wouldnt.Instead , the image flashed out and was replaced by another dismal scene. On the floor lay a body. Dead of course.His head was bleeding from a wound that would have required a lot of force. His hand was carelessly draped beside his head , a gun lay discarded in his palm, probably the cause of death , she thought.She looked back up to his head. His deep hazel eyes were open , they stared back at her lifeless and cold.Unshed tears made them glisten slightly .The face looked unerringly familiar,.. just like...> " Mulder!" Scully bolted upright in her bed. Her hair a tangled mess.She looked around and tied to find out where the hell she was .She recognised the neatly arranged furnishings of her room and calmed down. She ran a tired hand through her hair and went to get a drink from the kitchen. The dream seemed so real she felt the urge to check up on him to see if he was o.k her little voice told her, " Yeah great, newspaper headlines, 'Dr. Ice , spooked by dreams of partner" really funky dont'cha think?" She said all of this to the wall.< Great , now even I talk to walls! oh well, first time or everything.> Scully walked over to her phone and picked it up. She hit the speed dial #1 and waited for an answer.The phone rang three times and then the answering machine came on. "Damn." She stated, as she switched off the receiver. She turned on her heel and went back to bed. ******************* 1:15 am Bang! Scully rolled over and her wrist successfully came into contact with her strategically placed bedside table. The dull throb of pain lured her back from dreamland.A weary yawn passed by her lips unheeded.She looked at her alarm clock and groaned, it was gonna be a loong night. ************************** 6:00am < The sand in the hourglass poured through from one compartment to the other at an alarming speed,. ..time was running out fast ... the precious seconds slipping away...the black barrel of a gun levelled with his head... a neatly folded piece of paper being shoved gently under one cushion...tears ..the last of the sand runs through... time is out...> BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP! Scullys alarm clock woke her ever so impolitely from her dreamings.The station it was set to played out some song about friendship. "mmmgh" she mumbled as she slapped the darned thing off , that song seemed to be the stations favourite as they always seemed to be playing it every time she listened. As she got up she remembered the first dream, the man had looked just so much like Mulder it was not funny, in fact it was downright 'spooky'.Telling the memory to"bugger off", Scully stepped into the shower. The hot water pounding down her back washed any further thoughts to oblivion. bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep! bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep! Her cell phone rang impatiently from the depths of her trenchcoat pocket,forcing her to finish off her shower. Scully got out and wrapped herself in a towel, then proceeded to drip her way over to the annoying device. Taking it out of its pocket, she switched it on and agrivatedly answered"Scully" into it. A mans voice spoke to her in a professional tone.Telling her she was 'required to assist in a matter of importance', which didn't tell her much, except for the fact it was urgent. Scully ran her hands through her hair an dropped the phone whereupon she cursed it and threw it back into her pocket. She went back to her bedroom and made herself decent. As she drove down the highway , she kept having flashbacks to the dreams.<,please god , don't let him be dead> a silent prayer as she pulled up at Mulders place. Scully walked down the corridor to Mulders apartment, trying her best to look calm and professional. Two scary looking guards were placed outside his door neither of them seemed too happy to be there. Scully flashed her FBI i.d badge at them and walked in.One of the detectives looked up and called her over to where a cloth covered body lay in front of the couch.Scully braced herself for the inevitable as the detective pulled the sheet away. He must have been a sucker for flare because he puled the sheet away with all the grace and charm of a falling tree. "Do you recognise this man as mr.Fox William Mulder?" , he asked. Scully forced herself to look down at the mans bloodied face, a strangled"yes" was all she could get out. She tried hard to hold back the threatening tears but failed misreably.She fell to her knees beside him and lay her head on his chest. "Oh Mulder," she sobbed, "why did you have to this ?" The detective got up and moved away thinking that maybe they needed some time alone. Scully remembered her dreams and realised that they were a kind of pre cognitic warning. If only she'd done what her mind had told her to do. Then this would never have happened. The detective came back, "proclaimed dead at 6:00 am. the detective stated. "self inflicted?'She asked pointing to the rather obvious gunshot wound. "yes" she felt a slight pressure on her shoulder and realised the detective was trying to help her up. "Wait", she said as she pulled away from his grasp.She leant back over Mulders lifeless form and whispered in his ear, "I love you". Then , ignoring the blood and gore, she trailed butterfly kisses down his forehead and stopped at his chin. She moved her mouth over his closed lips and gave him a kiss goodbye.They were cold and lifeless,she ran a hand through his hair feeling its texture , it was soft and silky.She kissed him again and stood shakily to her feet. "its okay m'am". The detective said , trying to sound sympathetic. He put his arm around her shoulders and started guiding her out. Suddenly a thought struck her , the note in the last dream! Scully turned around and ran back to the couch .She felt around under the cushions and found what she was looking for . It was neatly folded and had "DANA' printed on it.She shoved it into her purse and walked out the door , looking back once to a place shed never come to again. Scully got into the car and flicked the radio on , the stations favourite song came on again. Scully flicked it off again , she didn't feel up to the infernal baaaaa'ings of the "you and me " song. ***************** Scully unlocked the door to her apartment and walked in . She dropped down onto the sofa and pulled out the note.She traced a finger over the letters of her name then opened it up it read; >Dear Dana , I hpoe you find this letter because it says all the things I 've longed to tell you but couldn't for the fear it would ruin all we already had. I'm sorry I ended it this way . Please forgive me . But I did it for you ,I want you to know that after all that I 'd one to you . I ruined your life completely , prevented you from getting the things you deserve. I hope the bastards will leave you and your family alone now and let you have a normal life. I love you with all my heart and soul. Ialways have , I always will. The truth will save you Scully. Love forever, your Fox.< Dana let another tear track its way down her cheek.He killed himself for me. She thought.He killed himself in the hope I 'd have a better life without him. Well he was wrong .She lived for him . he was the one who kept her going . Now he was gone. Another tear escaped and fell with a splat upon the paper, smudging the ink. She then went to her room and cried herself to sleep. *********************************** Day after. 6:00 pm Dana stumbled into her apartment ,dumping an expensive bottle of wine on the coffee table. She fetched a wine glass from the kitchen and settled down on the sofa turning the radio on in the process. Scully picked up the bottle and popped the cork. She poured herself some wine and sipped it slowly.The radio started playing the chorus to the you and me song for the umpteenth time that day. <..And it was always yoooou, and meeee aaaalwwaaays. And fooreveer. Yooou annnd me alllwaaays Now and fooorever, baaaaa baa baaaa baaaa.....> Despite her unfounding grudge against this infernal song , Scully thought to herself, {I 'll be with you always Fox , just you wait for me okay?} A sad smile framed her face.Scully held the glass up to the light and looked at its deep red colour sparkled in the light. She sighed and downed the drink and poured herself another glass.{Every girl deserves a last drink }, she thought sadly. Scully finished off the last of the wine and picked up her service weapon which had been lying patiently on the table . She scribbled a note to her mother and placed it under the bottle where it would easily be found. She put Mulders letter with it. Scully slid the gun barrel past her lips and clenched it between her teeth. {Wait for me my Fox} she thought and pulled the trigger. She only felt the pain for a few seconds , until a bright light engulfed her. Suddenly she was standing in front of mulder. "Dana my love I knew you'd come" he said smiling. Scully smiled radiantly and stepped into his warm embrace. He bent down and kissed her for eternity. *********************************************************** 10:13 am Dana Scullys apartment. Margaret Scully rang the doorbell and waited for an answer. There was no reply and it was uncomfortingly quiet save the soft noise of the radio playing inside. She tried the door.. unlocked. Margaret stepped insideto find her last remaining daughter -dead- on the couch. "Dana honey" She cried and to her daughters limp form. She noticed the notes under the bottle. >Dear mom, Dont be sad. I missed him too much , I couldn't live a second longer without him. Well watch over you in heaven together at last. Love always , Dana. Margaret stroked her daughters cheek. "As long as your happy, I'm happy sweetie." She said "I hope your with your dear Fox now too , you waited so long." A *new* song came on the radio. ************************************************************************************************************* THE END (sigh) Did you like it ? Did you think it was crap? please send responses to pcoggan @dynamite .com.au please respond because as I've mentioned already, this is my first and I need to know what you think> (grin) Bye Bye.