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            post story 'always and forever" nicole sulky coggan
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>From nicole coggan@  pcoggan@dynamite.com.au
ALWAYS AND FOREVER
DISCLAIMER: these amazing characters just dot happen to belong to me at
the moment ,but I wouldn't mind them for my birthday( hint, hint) . Well
it just happens that they do belong to a chip or as you guys would say
it, arc's' brand CC ,
a company named after a wild animal (fox) and a set of kinky
numbers(10-13). ..Oh! and don't forget, that annoying kids voice that
goes with it!
Summary: following the leader
My turn to say something: Hello people! this is my first go at writing
fanfic so please be nice to me.
This is not a very happy story  and its also MSR so if your not a
"shipper", you may leave.
I would like to thank Sarah Howard,(aka Sarah duchovny mulder shmoulder
) or something like that ,(crazy girl)
Tina M for her help as to where to send this, and Stephanie Soriano ,..
thank you so f****** much for getting me obsessed.
Bye.!!
title:Always and Forever
Author:NIkki sulky Coggan
rating:pg
class:msr
spoilers:gethsemane?
kewords:mulder?scully romance-character dies
summary:Scully kills herself because mulder committed suicide for her.

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ALWAYS AND FOREVER
By Nicole "sulky" Coggan.
---------------------------------
10:13 pm 
Dana Scullys' apartment.

Dana Scully tossed fitfully in her sleep.
In her dream , she stood in a darkened room.Papers were scattered all
over the floor.
The air was heavy but dry.In front of her was a well worn green leather
couch.Defintiely not the type
she'd opt for.

She thought she could see a form slumped on one of the cushions, but she
couldn't be sure.
The scene was blurry in the annoying way that dreams are. She willed the
vision to clear
up but it wouldnt.Instead , the image flashed out and was replaced by
another dismal scene.

On the floor lay a body. Dead of course.His head was bleeding from a
wound that would have required a lot of force.
His hand was carelessly draped beside his head , a gun lay discarded in
his palm, 
probably the cause of death , she thought.She looked back up to his
head. 
His deep hazel eyes were open , they stared back at her lifeless and
cold.Unshed tears 
made them glisten slightly .The face looked unerringly familiar,.. just
like...>

" Mulder!"
Scully bolted upright in her bed.  Her hair a tangled mess.She looked
around 
and tied to find out where the hell she was .She recognised the neatly
arranged furnishings of her 
room and calmed down. She ran a tired hand through her hair and went to
get a drink from the kitchen.

The dream seemed so real she felt the urge to check up on him to see if
he was o.k
<geeze , chill out Day!> her little voice told her, <it was only one
little dream.>
" Yeah great, newspaper headlines, 'Dr. Ice , spooked by dreams of
partner"
really funky dont'cha think?"
She said all of this to the wall.< Great , now even I talk to walls! oh
well, first time or everything.>
Scully walked over to her phone and picked it up.
She hit the speed dial #1 and waited for an answer.The phone rang three
times and then the
answering machine came on.
"Damn."
She stated, as she switched off the receiver. She turned on her heel and
went back to bed.
                                                       
*******************
1:15 am
<The barrel of a gun, an unsteady hand,finger slowly pulling on the
trigger... soon it would be all over ,..
gone finished,.. done.Unheard words asked for forgiveness.....BANG!!!>

Bang!
Scully rolled over and her wrist successfully came into contact with her
strategically placed 
bedside table. The dull throb of pain lured her back from dreamland.A
weary yawn 
passed by her lips unheeded.She looked at her alarm clock and groaned,
it was gonna 
be a loong night.
                                     **************************
6:00am
< The sand in the hourglass poured through from one compartment to the
other at an alarming speed,.
..time was running  out fast ... the precious seconds slipping
away...the black barrel of a gun levelled with his head...
a neatly folded piece of paper being shoved gently under one
cushion...tears ..the last of the sand runs through... time is
out...>
BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP!
Scullys alarm clock woke her ever so impolitely from her dreamings.The
station it was set to 
played out some song about friendship.
<The good times, 
the bad times,
I'll be by your side forevermore,
I tell you darling that's what friends are for...>
"mmmgh" she mumbled as she slapped the darned thing off , that song
seemed to be the stations favourite as they
always seemed to be playing it every time she listened.
As she got up she remembered the first dream, the man had looked just so
much like Mulder it was not funny,
in fact it was downright 'spooky'.Telling the memory to"bugger off",
Scully stepped into the shower.
The hot water pounding down her back washed any further thoughts to
oblivion.
bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!
bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!
Her cell phone rang impatiently from the depths of her trenchcoat
pocket,forcing her to finish off her shower.
Scully got out and wrapped herself in a towel, then proceeded to drip
her way over to the annoying device.
Taking it out of  its pocket, she switched it on and agrivatedly
answered"Scully" into it.
A mans voice spoke to her in a professional tone.Telling her she was
'required to assist in a matter of importance',
which didn't tell her much, except for the fact it was urgent.
Scully ran her hands through her hair an dropped the phone whereupon she
cursed it and threw it back into her pocket.
She went back to her bedroom and made herself decent.

As she drove down the highway , she kept having flashbacks to the
dreams.<,please god , don't let him be dead> 
a silent prayer as she pulled up at Mulders place.
Scully walked down the corridor to Mulders apartment, trying her best to
look calm and professional.
Two scary looking guards were placed outside his door neither of them
seemed too happy to be there.
Scully flashed her FBI i.d badge at them and walked in.One of the
detectives looked up and called her over to where
a cloth covered body lay in front of the couch.Scully braced herself for
the inevitable as the detective pulled the sheet away.
He must have been a sucker for flare because he puled the sheet away
with all the grace and charm of a falling tree.
"Do you recognise this man as mr.Fox William Mulder?" , he asked.
Scully forced herself to look down at the mans bloodied face, a
strangled"yes" was all she could get out.
She tried hard to hold back the threatening tears but failed
misreably.She fell to her knees beside him and lay her head on his
chest.
"Oh Mulder," she sobbed, "why did you have to this ?"
The detective got up and moved away thinking that maybe they needed some
time alone.
Scully remembered her dreams and realised that they were a kind of pre
cognitic warning. If only she'd done what 
her mind had told her to do. Then this would never have happened.
The detective came back, "proclaimed dead at 6:00 am. the detective
stated. "self inflicted?'She asked pointing
to the rather obvious gunshot wound.
"yes"
she felt a slight pressure on her shoulder and realised the detective
was trying to help her up.
"Wait", she said as she pulled away from his grasp.She leant back over
Mulders lifeless form and whispered in his ear,
"I love you".
Then , ignoring the blood and gore, she trailed butterfly kisses down
his forehead and stopped at his chin.
She moved her mouth over his closed lips and gave him a kiss
goodbye.They were cold and lifeless,she ran a hand through his hair
feeling its texture , it was soft and silky.She kissed him again and
stood shakily to her feet.
"its okay m'am". The detective said , trying to sound sympathetic. He
put his arm around her shoulders and started guiding her out.
Suddenly a thought struck her , the note in the last dream! Scully
turned around and ran back to the couch .She felt around under the
cushions and found what she was looking for . It was neatly folded and
had "DANA' printed on it.She shoved it into her purse and walked out the
door , looking back once to a place shed never come to again.
Scully got into the car and flicked the radio on , the stations
favourite song came on again.
<Always when we fight , I kiss you once or twice,
 and everything's forgotten,
I know you hate that 
But it was always you and me, always,
and forever .
You and me always 
Now and forever ,
baa baaa baa baaa..>
Scully flicked it off again , she didn't feel up to the infernal
baaaaa'ings of  the "you and me " song.
                                        *****************
Scully unlocked the door to her apartment and walked in . She dropped
down onto the sofa and pulled out the note.She traced a finger over the
letters of her name then opened it up it read;
>Dear Dana ,
                  I hpoe you find this letter because 
it says all the things I 've longed to tell you 
but couldn't for the fear it would ruin all we already had.
I'm sorry I ended it this way . Please forgive me .
But I did it for you ,I want you to know that after all that
I 'd one to you . I ruined your life completely , 
prevented you from getting the things you
deserve.
I hope the bastards will leave you and your family alone now
and let you have a normal life.
I love you with all my heart and soul.
Ialways have ,
I always will.
The truth will save you Scully.
Love forever, 
your Fox.<
Dana let another tear track its way down her cheek.He killed himself for
me.
She thought.He killed himself in the hope I 'd have a better life
without him.
Well he was wrong .She lived for him . he was the one who kept her going
.
Now he was gone.
Another tear escaped and fell with a splat upon the paper, smudging the
ink.
She then went to her room and cried herself to sleep.
                           ***********************************
Day after. 6:00 pm
Dana stumbled into her apartment ,dumping an expensive bottle of wine on
the coffee table.
She fetched a wine glass from the kitchen and settled down on the sofa
turning the radio on in the process.
Scully picked up the bottle and popped the cork.
She poured herself some wine and sipped it slowly.The radio started
playing the chorus to the you and me 
song for the umpteenth time that day.
<..And it was always yoooou, and meeee 
aaaalwwaaays.
And fooreveer.
Yooou  annnd me alllwaaays 
Now and fooorever,
baaaaa baa baaaa baaaa.....>
Despite her unfounding grudge against this infernal song , Scully 
thought to herself, {I 'll be with you always Fox , just you wait for me
okay?}
A sad smile framed her face.Scully held the glass up to the light and
looked at its deep red colour sparkled in the light.
She sighed and downed the drink and poured herself another glass.{Every
girl deserves a last drink }, she thought sadly.
Scully finished off the last of the wine and picked up her service
weapon which had been lying patiently on the table .
She scribbled a note to her mother and placed it under the bottle where
it would easily be found.
She put Mulders letter with it.
Scully slid the gun barrel past her lips and clenched it between her
teeth.
{Wait for me my Fox} she thought and pulled the trigger.
She only felt the pain for a few seconds , until a bright light engulfed
her.
Suddenly she was standing in front of mulder.
"Dana  my love I knew you'd come" he said smiling.
Scully smiled radiantly and stepped into his warm embrace.
He bent down and kissed her for eternity.
***********************************************************
10:13 am
Dana Scullys apartment.

Margaret Scully rang the doorbell and waited for an answer. There was no
reply and it was 
uncomfortingly quiet save the soft noise of the radio playing inside.
She tried the door.. unlocked.
Margaret stepped insideto find her last remaining daughter -dead- on the
couch.
"Dana honey" She cried and to her daughters limp form. She noticed the
notes under the bottle.
>Dear mom,
Dont be sad.
I missed him too much ,
I couldn't live a second longer
without him.
Well watch over you in heaven 
together at last.
Love always , Dana.
Margaret stroked her daughters cheek.
"As long as your happy, I'm happy sweetie."
She said "I hope your with your dear Fox now too , you waited so long."
A *new* song came on the radio.
<And when I die , I 'll keep on living ,
You'll always have my love ,
seeing you through.
I'll be your angel up in heaven,
Forever all my light will shine on you...>
*************************************************************************************************************
THE END
(sigh)
Did you like it ? Did you think it was crap?
please send responses to
pcoggan @dynamite .com.au
please respond because as I've mentioned already, this is my first 
and I need to know what you think>
(grin)
Bye Bye.