I gave my heart, I gave my soul,
Feeling nothing left to give
has left me with a yearning
for something I have yet to unfold.

Unable to cope with life's little games.
Insecurities and selfishness
now holds it reins around my neck
pulling on what is left of my sanity.

Inconsistent and unfulfilling loves
of past and present
have entered into my once open arms
and eternal being,
Just to punish me again
and push me further
Into the destructiveness and loneliness
of life.

Lies and deceit keep surrounding me.
Leaving me hopeless and afraid
in the hands of salvation and being.

When am I to begin anew?
Live for myself as well as others
without the cruelty and mistrust
of the men in my life?

After the glass house
in which I am living shatters?
Leaving nothing to give
the babes I have born.
The future for them is
in only my hands once again.

Yet no sanity for I too receive for myself
having spent all I had to the past
and present tortures of life.
I have been left hollow and uncaring
to the hopes and dreams
of a fulfilling future of trust and happiness
in my world of greed and hate.

I realize now that for the ones
I have brought into this
selfish and cruel world
that I am the only one
that can salvage my sanity
and make their life less incomplete.

Otherwise I shall wither away
in the nothingness that I feel.
Unknowingly needing life to lead me
into a world of unpadded walls.
For I now realize that I AM SOMEBODY
and for that SOMEBODY
Only I myself can rescue.

Written by:
Lori Perry
Feb.7,1999