Too Soon For Change

It's been a week and my feelings inside,
Still seem to stay and continue to hide.
Awaking each day becomes such a chore,
When depression appears with a need to explore.
Still searching but not knowing what I seek,
With knowing I am strong but feeling so weak.

Does this writing help at all,
In a world where one can feel so small?
I guess I am wondering why I feel,
The need to discover what I try to conceal.
Why can't I just awaken as so many do,
With embracing the day and not feeling blue?

So here I sit trying with all my might,
To think of one positive that I can write.
I am thankful for Friends that are True,
For my life would be even more empty without you.
May we all be Blessed with a reason to live,
And may it be shown in what we give.
Too Soon For Change?
Day 7 Of Healing
Judy©1999


Silent Tears

Always listening .. never speaking.
Nerves are bad .. Mind is weakening.
Always fear what others think,
Feel like I'm a missing link.
Watching, Listening, dare not speak,
Just what is it I do seek.

Silent tears fill my eyes,
As I try to rid the diguise.
The one that has been my shield,
That my Heart has concealed.
Tears of Anger, Tears of pain,
Confine me like a ball and chain.

Reaching .. Helping .. Here for you,
Tell me .. Tell me .. What to do.
Always listening .. never speaking,
Nerves are bad .. Mind is weakening.
Everyday there is more to see,
As to who it is .. that I call me.
Silent Tears
Day 8 of Healing
Judy ©1999

Confusion

Mind is swirling, Thoughts a plenty,
Seems I Lost my true identity.
Is this Normal, Am I mad?
Am I Happy, Am I Sad?
Confusion as to what is right,
Is it day or is it night?

Standing, Sitting, Laying down,
Smiling, Tears, Unwanted frown.
Confusion, Wanting, Needing more,
Can I open up the door?
Silence lingers here and now,
Will escape these thoughts some how.

Sharing, Caring, Loving all,
Hide behind the concealing wall.
Tell me what I want to know,
How can I make these feelings go?
Mind is swirling, Thoughts a plenty,
Seems I Lost my true identity
Confusion
Day 9 of Healing
Judy ©1999 

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