Tears
Ashamed To Cry
I am ashamed to cry and to allow others to see,
That in my eyes the tears are not for sympathy.
I have always believed my tears mean that I am
being weak,
The last thing in this world I want is a tear
drop on my cheek.
To allow myself to cry means I have failed again,
And only the emptiness inside does remain.
I am ashamed to cry and I'm sure its hard for
you to know why,
Tears mean allowing myself to care which means
it is harder to want to die
Some days are worse than others it's true,
But everyday I wake up blue.
Why is life unravelled from the day we are born,
When Nurtured and Loved you don't feel the scorn.
I am ashamed to cry and always try to hide,
All the heartache that I have hidden deep inside.
The saying to know me is to Love me,
How can this be?
As I know me and do Not care for the person called Judy,
That is why awakening is so hard for me.
Ashamed To Cry
Judy ©1999
Salty Drops
Salty drops streak down my face,
As I hide in my Special place.
The place no other can be,
The place in my mind that is just for me.
Sniffling gasping from deep within,
As I eipe the tear drop from my chin
Nobody do I allow to see,
The tears that live inside of me.
I cry for my sons and family too,
I cry for my friends including you.
But to not allow others to see me cry,
Is what I always make sure to try.
Salty drops Please go away,
I want to hide you today.
I know I am weak but it doesn't have to show,
So tear drops just disappear and go, go, go.
I need not the pity that tears do bring
All I ask for in my life,
Is to be a good mom and also a wife
Salty Drops
Judy ©1999
