The Ache That Won't Stop

I have an ache within my heart and don't 
understand why,
That as I sit here typing I am wiping tears 
that I cry.
My mind is numb my thoughts are not good,
Because what I am dealing with is not 
understood.
It's like being trapped inside my own head,
I look for the good but see only the bad 
instead,

The ache that won't stop is a never ending 
nightmare,
I look and ask myself why so many people care.
I am nobody as seen through my eyes,
And if someone shows they care I get tears 
in my eyes.
Things look grimmer every day and I Pray 
to our Father in the Heaven's Above,
To show me that I am worthy of Laughter and 
of Love.

The ache that won't stop makes me feel so alone,
Almost as if I belong in the twilight zone.
Is this how life is supposed to be?
Filled with so much agony.
I know the words I write today,
Will make you think I want pity in a way.

But that is the last thing that I am looking 
for,
I am searching For Happiness and nothing 
more.
A year has gone by and still I do not 
see,
What it is that is wrong with me
So for now I will say Good-bye as I 
wipe the tears I do cry
Judy ©1999

Can You Feel
Can you feel my Heart racing,
Do you care if I am pacing?
Lost within my own mind,
Needing the release that binds.
Solitaire is my name for I feel so alone,
Thinking thoughts that certainly you would 
not condone.
A mind is truly a wonderous thing and such 
a terrible waste,
When unable to deal day to day with the 
problems we are faced.
Some times we have to search our soul,
To find out what makes us whole.
But for me I am content to not need to know 
more,
For if nothing changes for me, what else could 
be in store.
Judy ©1999

Whispers
In my heart the saddest thing is knowing 
people are rude,
And I believe with all my might that 
whispering is crude.
For when you whisper most times you're 
talking about someone's friend.
And most times these are people trying to 
mend.
To know the pain your words can cause to 
someone you don't know,
Makes me wonder what you say about the ones 
who Love you so.
Here is my definition of whispers
W - Waste of time for you and me,
H - Hateful thing to do.
I - Intentionlly hurting someone,
S - Some how you think it is fun.
P - Possibly one of the meanest things to do,
E - Espcially if this person cares about you.
R - Rude means you never know when it will be 
your turn to hurt
S - So stop dragging people through the dirt, 
Judy ©1999
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