Feelings Return
The fear of losing conrol is here and now,
I need to busy my mind some how.
The evening are long and I end up alone,
Feelings return, my Heart turns to stone.
I have to fight this and keep control,
And not sink back into the hole.
I am trying to find things to do,
To end the sinking from feeling blue.
I know its hard for most to understand,
But for me to go out is like walking in a foreign land.
I feel as though I am being awakened by a nightmare,
That I would rather sleep though than share.
Some day maybe I can change how I feel,
And overcome this shakiness that feels so real.
I Pray for strength from God above in helping me decide,
How to rid the insecurities hidden deep inside.
This is not to compain in any way at all,
Just don't understand why it is I feel so small.
JudyŠ1999
My Heart
My Heart is pounding out of my chest
How could she think its for the best.
To have to go from here to there,
And once there go to group to share.
A bus is how she want me to go,
The fear I have inside will grow.
To take a bus with a fear so strong,
Could my Dr. maybe be wrong.
Then to go to group and have to face,
So many strangers in one place.
She said the groups are going to be small,
Like five to six people is all.
To me three is a crowd,
And I Pray these groups will not be loud.
Can I do this I am not sure at all,
But she says it is a step to learning not to fall,
I am trying to convince myself to do what is right,
To learn to cope and stay strong to fight
JudyŠ1999
Thank you all for your support and friendship
Judy, Please sign the new dream book, Top One!!
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