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By Iaret/Ankhre, iaret@hotmail.com
"Father Figure"
Everything is different after night falls, isn't it?
Needs change, wants change, people change, the world changes...
I watch you as you're sleeping, and I never want to leave you.
Awake, you're a laughing demon-prince, ever-moving and never- caring.
But alseep you're the most fragile of angels, with that soft sun mane falling over your
face as you try to hide from the world.
They scarred more than they knew years ago, didn't they -- your heart was as torn as much,
more, than your flesh ever was. And you still don't understand what happened, why it happened.
You may hide this from the world, dear one, but it will never be hidden from me.
If you only knew...
If I only dared to tell you...
But no. This is what you want -- what you need -- I can feel this from the depths of both
our souls. The guardian has become more than just a guardian...
I suppose that I should not be so surprised, really. There has been no other constant in
your life, why would you not turn to one you've known all your life?
I remember when your father died. I remember my only goal being to take two terrified
children away to safety. And I remember how, even then, you clung to me as others cling
to their faith. Never once did you question my reason for being there in the first place...
Did I become your father, over time? I did, didn't I. It's in every line and look of you;
your father is here, not a mangled corpse, caged, fed to vultures.
Father-guardian-mentor-companion...
I would think myself damned, if I did not know why I do this. And fire or storm, I will
keep you innocent of guilt. This is what you want, and what you need, and I swore to you
that I would always be here for you.
...And I am grateful, in some twisted manner, that I could not know, in the way I do now,
how much else tore within you when I was taken.
It burned, when I saw you for the first time in years. I didn't think -- or, perhaps,
simply didn't want to know -- how much pain my disappearance has caused. Damn Solaris...in
their mad desire to prove themselves superior ('little gods', perhaps? Such a charming phrase,
Hyu...), they will cover this world in heart-flames...
...Don't shiver like that...
Here, I'm here. There, that's better isn't it? With your sun- gold hair falling over us
both...yes, this is much better.
You aren't precisely going to enjoy everything that will happen in the coming days. Far
from it, in fact. Too much to learn, too quickly, and some of the lessons will be cruel. And
with every hurt and angry look you give me, with those sapphire eyes, I am going to wither
inside. I don't want to hurt you, but I must.
Another nightmare. I should have known. Shh, I am here, you aren't alone...
Cold fear eats away at you like frozen acid, dear one. I should have been here, and I was
not...it will not happen again.
There will not be another scar, to add to the dead scorings across your tawny skin and
fragile heart. Not while I still live. I will never leave you again.
Sleep, desert angel. Tomorrow, you learn to fly.
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Why did you change so much? Or were you always like that? I don't remember.
I do remember when you left, and it's not happening again. Don't know why, but I'm
positive of that.
Good.
I don't ever want to be alone again. That bit. But I'm older now, so everything's
working out just fine. Now all I have to do is get you to tell me where you went.
I wonder how long I can keep acting? Forever, I guess. As long as the rest don't know I
don't care...because I think he does anyway, so it doesn't matter.
...Mmm, that's nice...I wish I could ask you to do that during the day...they'd all go
berzerk if you played with my hair on deck, I bet...
...Cold...where am I...no...
...Home. Right here, right now. I want to be here forever...where the only thing I
have to wonder about is that funny amber tint your skin has now. Why were you halfway across
the bed before? I want you to stay right here with me.
...That's better. You're warm..I want to stay like this forever.
...Don't pet my hair, I want to stay awake...mmm...never mind....
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