im the trickster burn so brightly i still hate you motherfuckers everyone wrapped in glory bound so tightly i still crave you even when im overcome saved by the light let me go on let me go bright to be saved by the light let me go on let me go bright im the trickster burned so brightly i still hate you motherfuckers everyone wore my sickness so politely i cant be your everything to everyone void in meaning swell just slightly i still need you i still need you gone forever so concisely i still need you i still need you saved by the light let me go on let me go bright to be saved by the light let me go on let me go bright and if you hate the world lets say ive been there and if you hate yourself well don't go changing all the times i used your body done my way cant say im sorry ripped the gloss off all your memories consequences so demanding bruised and beaten conscience bleeding sexually saved by the light let me go on let me go bright to be saved by the light let me go on let me go bright
smells on the air see there its crushing the final impression the stains on the paper where words fell like water unearth all the changes that never did matter i think its beginning to freeze here caught in the rage and the fire of things all the brightness that burns me im fumbling through like a child in the dark when the nakedness comes i am shocked by the colour the glorious weight of your skin comes alive and i never thought we'd make it back so soon might be nice but i knew you'd be your own destroyer comes a time and i always thought i'd make it up to you here please forgive me how could we escape all the bitterness piled upon bitterness held in the face of the things that i don't understand intellectualize over and over this helplessness suits us its funny how quiet it has slipped to our corners and worn all our edges away you are watching breathing and baiting wanting and warming and cautiously waiting for some simple signal to creep cross your conscience uncover redemption and oh did i mention i carried you down to the St. Lawrence river the banks running dirty the waters beginning to freeze here solid by morning and i'll freeze here winter by morning comes a lie and i never thought you'd get me back so soon might be nice but its only if my own destroyer comes alive and i always knew i'd make it up to you i saw on your face such a curious grin as i let go your hand i was desperate to hold you again but you're sinking to deep in the water outsmarted myself and so easily gave up what i wanted solid by morning what i wanted winter by morning comes alive and i never thought you'd make it up so soon might be nice but i always knew you're my destroyer comes a time and i always thought i'd make it up to you solid by morning and i'll freeze here winter by morning
so he dies and im the joke a playdoh mask a million miles to go a suped up cock tease with a little twist when sex got ugly id insist hear youve taken all ive got fuckings over but i cant stop cumming still born dead or never born at all when jesus was my girl she told me when jesus was my girl its impossible for me harder even if i turn it over im not as pretty as i thought id be another symptom of my damn disease hear you've taken all ive got fuckings over but i just keep cumming still born dead or never born at all when jesus was my girl she told me when jesus was my girl im not as pretty as i thought id be another symptom of my damn disease
bound to the time on the clock bittersweet wondering the quiet transfusion hold tight nothing is complicated hold tight everythings fine confidence fell through the hold in your pocket the simples illogical so it be logic im cuaght in the diaries with all your complaining the curious scribblings of one who has everything leave me unholy dirty and beautiful ne unholy dirty and beautiful cherish the lies that you bought charming delusions go crack in the fire i know we might be mediocre i know nothings on fire confidence fell through the hole in your pocket the simples illogical so it be logic im caught in the diaries with all your complaining ridiculous grumblings from one who has everything leave me unholy dirty and beautiful be unholy dirty and beautiful
what if i were you and you were me still can't see the forest fire beyond the trees now i'm standing in a field of green the colours burning far as i can see what do you see on my tongue the galaxies so small here i'll drink it down and watch the world dissolve now i'm falling through the universe and slipping through the endless stream of time what would you find and i'm flying, floating on the wind again hoping it will drag me in can't you see i'm laughing laughing at this consequence laughing at this circumstance don't you know by now stare at all the faces they go by faster that we live the more we die now i'm crashing through the open door smiling in the most peculiar way what would you say and i'm falling faster than a waterfall opened up and after all can't you see i'm drowning right here in the open air wishing i could still go clear don't you know by now this is what we are flying floating on the wind again wishing that you'd drag me in can't you see i'm hoping wishing i could see myself wishing i was someone else but don't you know by now dont you know by now this is what we are
i am just the gray one im the darker side of you and theres a place you left inside me i hope it will amuse and see this sign carved in my arm just means ill hate you all forever its my babyskin tattoo its all the brand name that youve left its not so far from me to you circumsized myself because i knew you'd be too busy and saw the knife was dull just why the fuck do you think im crying styes caught in my eye and it swells me till im numbing but ill leave it there to punish you for leaving me so hard its not so far from me to you i deliver i will recieve all the blessings from these things given tested longer held back only here i am just the gray one im the darker side of you and theres a place you left inside me i hope it will amuse and see this sign carved in my arm just means ill hate you all forever its my babyskin tattoo its all the brand name that youve left me and i beg borrow prostrate here under cover of everything made dear fearing only you
travelled on the f train down the people press and crowd they start to fade like footprints worn away only stop and still im waiting thousand faces look the same everyone a thousand different names they come on two by two people fade as people do came here of my own volition could be my decision could be we may still get by we may still get by wandered down on avenue a the coffee shops the sweet cache of thoughts and words and laughter gone never ending stream of what youve known so long long and long ignored dont think so hard just smoke your cigarette and fade off into blue cause people fade as people always do consequence comes crashing in the scars and scrapes and scratches all the memories died so long ago time is up but still im waiting came here of my own volition could be indecision could be we may still get by we may still get by
borrowed in black you are mine dont make it easy dont make it hard dont make it so simple again so so easy bound like a child yo uare mine i cant defend you i wont complain i wont go so so quiet again go so gently again a million a million more for you to burn promised your mother id write id kill you quickly id keep you calm id make it all so simple again all so quiet here once the morning was bright but violence changes changes the light and now ive grown so empty again grown so empty again a million a million more for you to burn i can be cold dear i can be cold as you wanted living is hard here when im just the whore that you wanted me to be a million a million more for you to burn
heaven haunts me kill for a cigarette heaven is all that i got my god left me without one word of warning my god left me waiting is all that i got ive seen your face before ive seen your anger crashing down all my life ive seen your babies crashing to the ground my girl brought me confort to keep me stable needles paid for comfort is all that ive got my god left me without one word of warning my god left me my god is all that i got ive seen your face before ive seen your anger crashing down all my life ive seen your babies crashing to the ground dont be afraid were all afraid
I’m so dead and angry and just about to feel this [or maybe "fit his"] way I’m broken in pieces the only game I would not play and you might be angry and you might have the last last say and you might be waiting but that's just you so take it low low low [or maybe all the way] I don't want you anymore low low [or maybe "to play"] I don't want you anymore I’m broken in pieces and in my never normal way and kitchen as easy and I won't be the first to say and I might be over and I might be the last awakened we could be broken but I don't carry in disown my way is easier my way is easier my way is easier to find and you might be angry and you might be the last to thank me [or take me] and you might be angry but can't tell me that I can [or can't] be defined.