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Deeper Death to Self
Illumination from George D. Watson
There
is not only a death to sin, but in a great many things there is a deeper
death to self – a crucifixion in detail, and in the minutia of life – after
the soul has been sanctified. This deeper crucifixion to self is
the unfolding and application of all the principles of self-renunciation
which the soul agreed to in its full consecration.
Job was a perfect man and dead to all sin; but in his great sufferings, he died to his own religious life; died to his domestic affections; died to his theology; all his views of God’s providence; he died to a great many things which in themselves were not sin, but which hindered his largest union with God.
Peter, after being sanctified and filled with the Spirit, needed a special vision from heaven to kill him to his traditional theology and Jewish high churchism. THE VERY LARGEST DEGREES OF SELF-RENUNCIATION, CRUCIFIXION, AND ABANDONMENT TO GOD, TAKE PLACE AFTER THE WORK OF HEART PURITY. There are a multitude of things which are not sinful; nevertheless, our attachment to them prevents our greatest fullness of the Holy Spirit and our amplest cooperation with God.
Infinite Wisdom takes us in hand, and arranges to lead us through deep, interior crucifixion to our fine parts, our lofty reason, our brightest hopes, our cherished affections, our religious views, our dearest friendships, our pious zeal, our spiritual impetuosity, our narrow culture, our creeds and churchism, our success, our religious experiences, our spiritual comforts; the crucifixion goes on until we are dead and detached from all creatures, all saints, all thoughts, all hopes, all plans, all tender heart yearnings, all preferences; dead to all troubles, all sorrows, all disappointments; equally dead to all praise or blame, success or failure, comforts or annoyances; dead to all climates and nationalities; dead to all desires BUT FOR HIMSELF.
There are innumerable degrees of interior crucifixion in these various lines. Perhaps not one sanctified person in ten thousand ever reaches that degree of death to self that Paul and Madame Guyon and similar saints have reached.
In contradistinction to heart cleansing, this finer crucifixion of self is gradual; it extends through months and years; the interior spirit is mortified over and over on the same points, till it reaches a state of divine indifference to it. A great host of believers have obtained heart purity, and yet for a long time have gone through all sorts of “dying daily” to self before they found that calm, fixed Union with the Holy Ghost which is the deep longing of the child of God. Again in contradistinction to heart cleansing, which is by faith, THIS DEEPER DEATH TO SELF IS BY SUFFERING. This is abundantly taught in Scripture, and confirmed by the furnace experiences of thousands.
Joseph was a sanctified man before being cast into prison; but there the iron entered into his soul (see Psalm 105:18, margin), and by suffering he reached the highest death of self. There are literally scores of Scripture passages like Psalm 71:19-21 teaching that the upper ranges in the sanctified state are wrought out through suffering. Perhaps the most remarkable passage of the Word on this subject is in Romans, fifth chapter; the first verse teaches justification by faith, the second verse teaches full salvation by faith, and verses three to five teach a deeper death and fuller Holy Ghost life by tribulation.
When the soul undergoes this deeper death of self, it enters into a great wideness of spiritual comprehension and love; a state of almost uninterrupted prayer, of boundless charity for all people; of unutterable tenderness and broadness of sympathy; of deep, quiet thoughtfulness; of extreme simplicity of life and manners; and of deep visions into God and the coming ages. In this state of utter death to self, suffering, sorrow, pain and mortification of all kinds are looked upon with calm, sweet indifference.
Such a soul looks back over its heartbreaking trials, its scalding tears, its mysterious tribulations, with gentle subduedness, without regret, for it now sees God in every step of the way. Into such a soul the Holy Spirit pours the ocean current of His own life; ITS GREAT WORK HENCEFORTH IS TO WATCH THE MONITIONS AND MOVEMENTS OF THE SPIRIT WITHIN IT, AND TO YIELD PROMPT, LOVING, UNQUESTIONING OBEDIENCE TO HIM (cooperation).
Such a soul has, at last, in deed and in truth reached the stage of “none of self, all of Thee”.