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(He loves Aeris, not me.)
Down below, Cosmo Canyon quieted down as the shadows began to lengthen, chasing away the golden pools of retreating daylight as the sun descended over the faraway peaks of Mount Nibel.
(Not me.)
She started at the sound of soft warbling coming from Lance, the golden chocobo she'd tied to a nearby tree.
With tired legs, she scrambled up from the rocky precipice she'd been perched on and brushed absently at the back of her short black skirt. Trudging over to her faithful steed, she allowed herself once more to mull over this latest--and most painful--revelation.
She'd never seen it coming, really. It was just one of those out-of-nowhere discoveries--the kind that laid low for a while and then without warning smacked you in the face when you least expected it.
It had happened earlier that afternoon, after she'd locked up her new Seventh Heaven in Midgar. Cid, Vincent, Yuffie, Reeve--in his Cait Sith body--and Red 13 had dropped by for a sort-of reunion. Together with Barret, the seven of them had made their way toward Cloud's summer villa in Costa Del Sol, like they'd planned to do after three months apart rebuilding their lives.
Everything had gone smoothly, until they reached the outskirts of Costa Del Sol. From the Highwind, Cid had pinpointed a blond dot down on the terrain some miles away from the resort town. They'd landed the Highwind in a matter of minutes, determined to investigate.
They found Cloud, all right--in a depressed state, mechanically hacking at rocks with his Ultima Weapon, seemingly oblivious to everything but his train of thought.
They'd been concerned for him, of course. Barret, who was already accustomed to Cloud's random bouts of melancholy the first month after their Planet-saving mission, had suggested to the group that it was best to leave him alone and come back when he was ready.
She, of course, had disagreed. While she had been with him as well during those first few months, she'd assumed that this little display wasn't serious--after all, it _had_ been three months already, and the whole gang was here to celebrate the fact that the Planet was alive and that they were all alive as well--right? Right?
Wrong.
She'd gone up to him, touched him on the shoulder, and told him exactly that, in the gentlest way she could.
He didn't react the way she expected him to.
He had recoiled from her, as if her touch were the vilest thing he'd known. To add insult to injury, he'd literally shouted at her-- shouted at her words that would forever sear themselves in her heart.
"Alive? What's the point of being alive?! If you could stop bein' so damn optimistic and cheerful all the time, you'd notice the fact that one of us ISN'T alive, Tifa! Aeris is DEAD! And you know what? There isn't a damn thing I can do about it! She's dead--and there's nothing strong enough in this world that can bring her back!!"
Aeris. So _that_ had been the thing weighing down on his mind, all those months ago. Restless nights and fevered days--his entire existence, eaten up with his thoughts of her and how she'd died.
Aeris Gainsborough, the woman who had saved the planet--and paid her life for it.
How could Tifa Lockheart possibly top that?
Sure, she'd fought as well. She'd hung in there the entire time, without complaint, without protest. She'd lost her sense of innocence along the way, learning how to kill, how to destroy, with nary a thought. She'd faced up against a past she would rather have remained buried, confronted truths that she'd wished were lies, and stood by what she believed in throughout it all.
And what she believed in was Cloud Strife.
Apparently, it wasn't enough.
She could give her all, give up everything she had, offer her entire world and all there was in it, and it wouldn't be enough. Nothing would ever be enough.
Because Cloud would never love her.
Aeris had won. It was terrible to contemplate it that way, but she'd won, and Tifa had lost.
She brushed away the tears on her cheek, an impatient gesture, and mounted her gold chocobo.
Where would she go now? She certainly couldn't go back to Costa del Sol and face Cloud again--she was sure she would break down if she did. And she couldn't go to Midgar either--no doubt Barret and the others would go there looking for her--and she was in no hurry to confront them either. Not when they'd heard the words Cloud had flung at her loud and clear.
Where could she go?
She urged her steed into a light gallop and rested her face on its soft feathery neck, not caring where they were going.
Just as long as it was far, far away...
"Did you find her?" Cloud Strife asked anxiously.
Barret Wallace and Vincent Valentine exchanged glances, while Cid Highwind morosely stubbed out his cigarette on a nearby ashcan. Beside him, Cait Sith delicately cleared his throat before speaking.
"Naw," he said. "We checked everywhere 'round Costa Del Sol an' Corel. No sign of her."
"We even hauled our asses all the way back t'Midgar," Cid added, his gaze fixed on the bar counter. "Nearly turned the damn town over lookin' for her."
Cloud's countenance paled visibly, and he slid off the barstool as he leveled with his comrades. "Are you sure you looked everywhere? Anywhere she might be? What 'bout Mideel? Or Junon? Gongaga, even?" Try as he might, he could no longer conceal the growing worry in his tone.
"Whoa, whoa. Take it easy, Cloud," Cait Sith admonished, raising his hands in a placating gesture. "We'll find her. Hell, maybe she's headed home right this minute. I'm sure she's all right."
A flash of guilt wafted by Cloud's Mako-blue eyes. A brief, awkward silence descended on the party as they sat in the near-emptiness of the Costa del Sol bar.
"Ya know, Cloud," Cid spoke up quietly, shattering the stillness, "that _was_ a pretty damn stupid thing you did to her this afternoon."
Cloud didn't even bother defending his actions. He _had_ been rather harsh with his childhood friend, but then again...
"I know," he replied, running a hand through his spiky blond hair. "And I'm not saying that it was the right thing to do, but...I--I'm still having a hard time 'bout this. Yeah, I know it's been three months and all, but...sometimes, it still...it just gets to me, you know...?" He trailed off, realizing that he was probably babbling.
"Y'been thinkin' 'bout Aeris, haven'cha?" Cait Sith prompted him bluntly.
Barret waggled his thick eyebrows up and down at this, but other- wise he refrained from saying anything. Vincent looked up a little, and there was something odd in his dark eyes.
"Aeris?" Cloud repeated, his voice faraway.
"Aeris," echoed the little cat, rolling his eyes. "Ya know, Aeris Gainsborough? The one whose star matched yours perfectly? The one who died savin' the Planet?"
Cloud deigned to make a reply.
Barret couldn't withhold himself any longer, and he let out a derisive snort. "And whatta 'bout Tifa, Cloud? Huh? You jes' gonna leave her now? Whassup wit'chu, huh?"
"_Leave_ her?" Cloud stared at Barret, his face genuinely confused. "Of course not! I'm not gonna leave Tifa--I just don't understand how she could've overreacted like that! She oughta know that I didn't mean it that way. Aeris meant a lot to me, and I thought she knew that, too. I guess I can understand why she got upset, but still, she should know that already..."
The rest of the contingent shook their heads in exasperation. For all Cloud's sharp reasoning and strategic thinking, he could not seem to fathom the fact that Tifa Lockheart was head-over-heels in love with him. But as much as they were all tempted to just hit him on the head with that revelation, they all knew that it wasn't their call.
Barret was about to deliver a follow-up to his opening when suddenly Yuffie and Red 13--or more accurately, Nanaki--burst through the doors of the Costa del Sol bar. They were disheveled in appearance and out of breath, as if they'd been running.
"Yuffie! Nanaki! Did you guys find her?" Cloud queried hopefully.
The red-furred beast known alternately as Nanaki turned his unscarred eye onto the ninja Materia thief known as Yuffie Kusaragi.
"Sorry, Cloud," Yuffie offered apologetically. "But no luck. Me and Red looked all over, but we couldn't find her either."
"We did discover something, though," Nanaki volunteered. "When we conducted a search within the Highwind, the cargo man informed us that Tifa's chocobo disappeared shortly after she did, when he and the rest of the crew were out checking the Highwind's engine."
Cloud felt his chest constrict. When he and Tifa had raised chocobos over at Choco Billy's ranch, he'd jokingly promised her that if they ever managed to breed a golden one, he'd give it to her. So when the black one and the dashing one had given birth to a beautiful golden hatchling, he'd presented it to a delighted Tifa, who'd promptly named him Lance.
"Then that means that she could be anywhere," Cloud realized, the gears whirring frantically in his head. "She's got a whole planet to hide in..."
Cid straightened up suddenly, flinging his pilot's scarf over his shoulder. "Then what the hell're we waiting for?" he demanded. "Get off your sorry asses and keep on searchin'! Ya wanna wait 'till it's dark? Let's go, let's go, LET'S GO!"
The group got to their feet, momentarily revitalized by Cid's gruff announcement, and one by one they filed out the bar doors. Yuffie was muttering something about being always in a hurry, while Barret continued to berate Cloud for his behavior toward Tifa even as he exited.
Cloud was still deep in rumination when Cid caught him by the arm. "Cloud. Ya got an idea where the hell she might be?"
The younger man closed his eyes briefly, and then opened them. "Let's try Mideel," he answered, his jaw set. "That was where she helped me...find myself..."
Cid pinned him with a gaze that was sympathetic and patronizing at the same time. "You better hope so, boy," he said, and his tone was dark. "There's somethin' between you two, and if you keep up this kind of shit, then you're never gonna find out what the hell it is until it's too late."
The pilot was gone before Cloud could ask him what that was supposed to mean. So instead, he marched after him, his heart heavy, his brain whirling.
(The Forgotten City...)
The girl slowly dismounted her feathery steed, her dark ruby eyes
wide with awe as she took in her surroundings.
She really hadn't been paying attention to where she was going.
Why should she, when she was past caring about anything anymore? If
she fell off the face of the earth, who cared? _Cloud_ certainly
didn't.
A wave of shame washed over her as she reviewed that last
statement. It was unfair of her to conclude that he didn't care about
her just because she realized that Aeris was the one he loved. Cloud
did care about her--just not the same way she cared about _him_.
The same way he cared for Aeris.
Damn. Aeris.
Tifa had never hated Aeris. They didn't always agree on certain
things, and of course, there was always that matter of winning
Cloud's affections, but they were never enemies. And if Tifa was
going to lose Cloud, then it might as well be to someone she knew
and trusted--like Aeris--rather than a stranger.
Still, acknowledging that didn't make it any easier knowing that
she'd lost Cloud to a dead woman.
Tifa heaved a weary sigh, squeezing her eyes shut. She was tired.
Tired of running away, tired of being despondent, tired of everything
in general. Tired of feeling...
She stood silently for some minutes just outside the Forgotten
Capitol, investigating the rocky structures looming around her.
Inwardly, she was grateful for the change in scenery. The tranquility
of the Forgotten City was refreshing--a stark contrast to the turmoil
that raged within her.
(Any special reason you decided to take me here, Lance?) she
mentally asked the chocobo, who simply warked. Suddenly sentimental,
she pressed her face into the animal's velvety side, and she felt
Lance's head burrow into the crown of her hair.
Tifa pulled away, her eyes shining with unshed tears. This was
the chocobo she and Cloud had raised together, and over time it had
become very dear to her.
"Always there for me, Lance, huh?" she mused aloud, stroking the
chocobo's golden beak.
The animal cheeped in reply.
With a tiny smile, Tifa let go of his reins and made her way up
the shell path toward the large edifice to the left of the Capitol--
the building where they'd seen a last image of Aeris on the face of
a waterfall.
Lance watched her go, warbling softly.
{"Alive? What's the point of being alive??"}
Tifa gasped and stumbled to her knees. The sound of rushing water
roared in her ears as it streamed down around her in a liquid curtain.
{"If you could stop bein' so damn optimistic and cheerful all the
time, you'd notice the fact that one of us ISN'T alive, Tifa!"}
Her breath came out in ragged gusts, and she put a hand on her
chest, curling up in a fetal position on the cold, hard floor of the
projection platform.
{"Aeris is DEAD! And you know what? There isn't a damn thing I can
do about it!"}
Tifa clamped her hands over her ears. This was Cloud's voice--only
it this time it wasn't Cloud was flinging them at her.
{"Aeris is dead--and there's nothing strong enough in this world
that can bring her back!!"}
"Shut up," she whispered. An eerie feeling of deja vu threatened
to overwhelm her. All of a sudden, she was submerged again in the
Lifestream, searching frantically for Cloud, lost in a plethora of
disembodied voices calling out to her...
Voices...
There were voices.
Calling out to her...
{"Nothing strong enough in this world..."}
{"...that can bring her back..."}
{"Aeris is dead and there isn't a damn thing I can do about
it..."}
{"...but I would do anything...everything..."}
{"Why did _you_ have to live...while she had to die...?"}
Tifa reeled back as if she'd been slapped. The voice was Cloud's,
but the words that spilled forth from everywhere around her weren't
his. They were taking shards of his sentences and twisting them into
something else--something hurtful and perverse.
"SHUT UP!! I DON'T BELIEVE YOU! THAT'S NOT WHAT HE THINKS OF ME!!"
Her voice echoed back at her from the unyielding stone walls,
taunting her, reminding her that all she had for weapons were empty
words and helpless rage.
{He doesn't seem to return your feelings, does he, child?}
{...you were always second best to her...}
{Just a little fool to believe...}
Tifa squeezed her eyes shut. "L-leave me alone. Just...leave me
alone..." Her voice was barely audible over the gush of water. "Who
are you? Why are you doing this to me...?"
The din finally died down, and finally a single, soothing voice
wafted into her ears.
{Tifa.}
The young girl stiffened visibly, drawing up her long legs closer
to her torso. God, she hated feeling this way. Helpless and afraid.
Exhausted and beaten.
When she opened her mouth to speak, her voice was clear and steady.
"You know my name. Who are you?"
{The same ones who spoke to you when you were in Mideel. The ones
who screamed when we were hurting. The ones who congregated at Midgar
before Meteor was about to strike. The ones you and your party were
trying to save. In essence, we are the spirit voices of the Planet
itself--the Lifestream.}
She was still for a moment, digesting this new bit of information.
"The Lifestream? You are...the Lifestream?"
{Yes.}
Tifa rubbed her hands up and down her arms. "Then...what do you
want from me?"
{We were with you when you found that boy--Cloud Strife, I believe--
and healed his mind. You cared very much for him, didn't you?}
The girl stared at the structure, studying the spectrum of color
that was refracted from the water pouring down all around her. She
thought she was beginning to grow numb from the pain.
{We can help you, Tifa. If you want us to.}
"H-help me?" She looked up incredulously. "H-how?"
{Do you love him, child?}
She closed her eyes. She'd risked her life for Cloud Strife. She'd
stood by him even as he descended into madness, and she'd stood by him
to help him out of it. She would come with him to hell and back and
move heaven and earth for him. Did _that_ count as love?
"Yes," she admitted at last, her voice soft and throaty and heart-
rendingly honest. "Yes, I do love him. I love him so much I..." She
let it go. There were no words to describe how she felt. There would
never be any words.
{Good. Now we must know. Are you willing to give up everything you
have to make him happy?}
Tifa clenched her gloved hands tightly into fists. What was it
with the third degree? What was it they wanted to hear? The truth,
she decided. Nothing but the truth. "Yes. I want him to be happy.
I don't care what happens to me, just as long...as long as Cloud's
happy, then...I--I don't mind."
{Very good, child. And what is the one thing that you think can
make him happy?}
There was only one thing that sprang to her mind. "Aeris," she
replied, and a white-hot pain tore through her heart--what was left
of it, anyway. "Aeris Gainsborough."
{Then you will help him have her.}
Tifa was only vaguely surprised to feel the sting of tears behind
her eyes. She'd been certain that she had no more tears left to cry.
"But Aeris...Aeris is dead..."
{Not for long.}
For a tense, fleeting second, Tifa felt a tug of doubt. And then,
all at once, realization dawned on her. Her muscles sagged in relief.
Her body relaxed. The tight coil in her belly dissipated into nothing.
How could she have not seen it before? It was all so clear now--so
perfect.
{Very well, then. You know what you have to do.}
Tifa nodded as she languidly got to her feet, her usually animated
face now devoid of expression. There was no longer any fire in her
burgundy eyes.
What fire she'd once before possessed, she'd given to Cloud.
Just like everything else.
"Yo! Yeah, you over there! Y'all seen a li'l honey come by here
lately, yo?"
Cloud watched rather absently as Barret charged up to a nervous-
looking old man and began bombarding him with questions. Cid, Yuffie,
Nanaki, and Cait scattered throughout the little town, targeting
villager after villager with a rain of inquiries. Cloud loped
sluggishly after them, submerged in a fog of self-reproach.
She wasn't there. He'd known that the second he'd disembarked the
Highwind. But, for some reason, he didn't have the heart to inform
his friends that. Maybe because a tiny part of him still hoped that
his instincts, for once, were wrong.
A brilliant light startled him, and he lifted his head. His aimless
wandering had taken him to the back of Mideel, right toward the edge
of the crater that glowed with the green of the Lifestream.
(We both fell in here,) he recalled, studying the energy-filled pit.
(I was incoherent, unable to tell what was real and what wasn't. I
honestly thought that I'd never return from there. Guess that just
goes to show how much I underestimated her. She brought me back because
she believed in me. She's never let me down...)
Cloud balled his hands. No. He wasn't going to let it end like this.
Not after everything they'd gone through together. Not after everything
they'd lost together...
"This isn't over, Tifa," he muttered aloud through gritted teeth.
"Not like this. Not for us." Suddenly flooded with some fierce,
inexplicable emotion, he raised his voice, hearing it drift beyond the
treetops. "You hear me, Tifa? I'm never gonna give up on you! You
listening to me, Tifa, huh? I'M NEVER GONNA LET YOU GO!!"
"Feeling a little guilty, my friend?"
Cloud whirled around, fumbling automatically for his Ultima Weapon.
"Easy, Cloud. It's me." A red-garbed figure emerged coolly into
his line of vision.
The young man relaxed his hold on the gigantic sword. "Vincent.
Sorry 'bout that. I just...lost it there for a moment, that's all."
Vincent Valentine flickered his gaze over the blond youth. 'Lost
it' was right, he mused, noting that Cloud's eyes were still a
trifle wild.
"You look the same way I did when I lost my beloved Lucrecia to
Hojo."
Cloud rammed the end of the blade into the earth and rested his
arm on the handle. "And what's that supposed to mean?" he countered,
more than a bit defensively.
Vincent strolled over, halting beside him at the edge of the
crater. "You've lost someone dear to you."
A harsh laugh ripped from Cloud's throat. "Tell me something I
_don't_ know, Vincent."
"No, Cloud. You tell me." The older man glanced at the pit. "You
felt something for Aeris. I know that. But apparently, you do feel
something for Tifa as well."
"Tifa?" Cloud's voice was incredulous, as if he'd never even before
considered the notion. "Tifa's my friend. Hell, she's my best friend.
Of course I'm supposed to care about her. It's just that..." He sighed.
Vincent nodded. "It's Aeris you're in love with."
"I--" Cloud stopped. _Was_ he in love with her? He'd promised to
protect her always, hadn't he? He'd been feeling lost and depressed
those three months after her death, hadn't he? Did _that_ count as
love?
He was on the verge of replying when he became aware of a sound
coming from the crater. He turned around.
The humming that usually issued from the Lifestream was escalated
into something that resembled muffled screaming. The green mist that
bubbled out of the pit began to shimmer.
"What the--" Vincent murmured behind him.
Cloud stood speechless, unable to move.
The screams built into a dramatic crescendo, and a form suddenly
materialized within the verdant fog.
It was a form Cloud hadn't seen for three months...
"Aeris?" he whispered, as if afraid that speaking too loud would
scare her away from him.
She stepped out from the crater and walked toward him, hesitantly,
tentatively, as if in a dream.
His eyes glazed over. (No,) he thought. (It can't be...you're
dead. I saw you die...I held you in my arms, but you were dead...)
Vincent was obviously thinking the same thing.
"Cloud..."
God, she sounded so real. So...Aeris.
(No...you're dead...)
Cloud swallowed hard as she advanced toward him. Chestnut hair
gathered up into a pink ribbon, long twisting ponytail, green eyes,
pink button-up dress with a salmon-colored pullover...
She looked like her. She moved like her. Hell, she even _smelled_
like her.
"Cloud, it's me," the figure breathed, reaching out toward him.
Her fingers closed over his, warm and smooth and real.
Who else would it be?
"Aeris..." There was a lump in Cloud's throat, but he couldn't
stop smiling. "Aeris, I..."
His words were interrupted as Aeris's hand snaked to the back of
his neck, and suddenly she was kissing him.
He responded in kind, while in the background Vincent Valentine
could only look on, dumbstruck.
Aeris Gainsborough had come back to Cloud Strife, and for the
moment that was all that mattered.
"Look." Tifa Lockheart gestured toward the glimmering image, her
voice filled with childlike delight. "Look at Cloud."
The hooded figure behind her obediently raised his head. Sure
enough, Cloud Strife's face filled the void above their heads. There
was a wide, glorious smile on his fine features. She'd asked to have
one glimpse of him, and the Lifestream had granted her that.
"He's smiling," beamed Tifa. "He's so beautiful when he smiles,
isn't he?"
{Indeed. Now are you satisfied?}
"Oh, yes." A flash of pain streaked by the girl's countenance as
she witnessed Aeris maneuver Cloud close for a kiss. "I wish...I wish
I could make him happy like that. I'd be so glad if...if I could make
him smile...I've never seen him so happy..."
There was a slight pause. The voices of the Lifestream sounded
strangely sad.
{Child, it is time.}
Tifa turned away reluctantly from Cloud's image, her cinnamon-hued
eyes glistening. She swiped at them furtively with the heel of her
hand, refusing to acknowledge them.
"All right." She straightened her shoulders. "Let's get it over
with."
High above them, the Lifestream continued to hum.
"Aeris..." Cloud gently pulled away from her, cheeks flushed, eyes
glinting with immense relief. "Aeris...how...?"
He was cut off for the second time as Cid, Barret, Yuffie, Nanaki,
and Cait Sith barreled into the scene.
"Cloud! What the hell was tha--"
Cid's cigarette fell out of his mouth as he recognized just who
that was in Cloud's arms.
"Well, I'll be a goddamn mother#$@!ing son of a bitch," he murmured.
Barret came up behind him, a similar look of disbelief on his face.
"Ae-Aeris?" he stammered.
A sweet, coy grin played across the woman's lips. "Nice to meet you
again, Barret," she said.
It was who Cait Sith closed the gap between them. "Ohmigod!" he
crowed deliriously. "She's back! It _is_ her!"
And it was.
The next few moments were chaotic but blissful as Aeris was besieged
on all sides by hugs and questions that she couldn't answer at once.
Cid was scratching his head, marveling at the unpredictability of the
world, while Nanaki received his customary pat on the nose and Yuffie
checked the Princess Guard for any good materia. Cloud stood to the
side, smiling proudly as Aeris was welcomed back to the world.
It was just too good to be true. Aeris was alive, she had
demonstrated that she, indeed, returned his feelings, and everyone
in their little party was now present and accounted for. Things
couldn't be more perfect.
Then again, they still hadn't found Tifa.
"How did you come back?" Nanaki eagerly asked Aeris. "I mean to
say, how could you have--there was no possible--"
Aeris giggled at the beast's youthful exuberance. "Oh, Nanaki,
it's kind of hard to answer that. It was all a haze to me. I do
remember, though, the Planet speaking to me even as I was part of
the Lifestream..."
"An' what'd it say?!" demanded Yuffie, impetuous as ever.
The older woman considered this. "Well, I think it said something
about coming back because...because I had to make someone happy..."
"Well, what about that?" Cid pushed back his goggles. "Even the
Planet's lookin' out for your ass, kid." He elbowed Cloud, who
reddened instantly.
"Y'all mean the only reason the Planet be haulin' Aeris back to
the land of the livin's 'cause Cloud's got the hots for her?" Barret
exclaimed incredulously.
"Barret, stop that," Cloud mumbled, somewhat mortified.
Cait Sith commenced a little jig. "Wa-hoo! I knew it! Didn't I
tellya those two were meant to be together, huh? Didn't I tell ya?
Heck, even the Planet don't want them apart!"
Vincent was shaking his head. "Maybe the Planet would be kind
enough give me back Lucrecia once it sees how much I'm hurting," he
remarked half-jokingly. Barret shot him a glance, obviously thinking
something among the same lines.
"_That_ was why she came back?" Yuffie rolled her eyes. "That's so
sweet--I think I'm gonna barf." She waved her arm dramatically. "Forget
riding on the Highwind. This definitely takes the cake. Ewww."
Cloud chuckled in embarrassment. Aeris met his eyes and winked at
him.
Was it true? _Had_ the Planet given her back to him because they
were truly destined to be together? Was there really something to
that whole "power of love" thing?
He wanted to think so.
He'd been so busy wondering at this extraordinary turn of luck in
his otherwise catastrophic life, that he almost missed hearing
Aeris's next words.
"...I guess our love was the one thing in this world strong enough
to bring me back..."
"What did you say?"
Aeris paused in her narrative, training her bewildered green eyes on
Cloud's distressed face. The others swiveled around as well, looking
equally mystified.
"I was telling them about how I got--"
Cloud waved her off. "No, not that. The last thing you said."
"I said that our love was the one thing in this world strong enough
to bring me back." She glanced at him again. He was staring at her so
intensely that she felt a little uneasy. "Cloud? What is it?"
"That was--that was the same thing I told her before...before
she..." Cloud trailed off. Maybe it was a coincidence. It had to be.
"'She'?" Aeris stared at him. "You mean Tifa?"
He stared back at her. "Yeah. Tifa."
"Oh, I'm sorry. I..." A row of furrows appeared on Aeris's brow. "I
must have integrated your words into my speech..."
"You--you were there when I said those words to her?" He was
suddenly overwhelmed with shame.
Aeris blinked. "No. I don't think I was...here yet." Her gaze grew
faraway at the onslaught of memories that reaffirmed themselves from
the farthest corners of her mind. "But I did hear you...before I came
here. You were calling out to me...saying that I was dead, and that
there wasn't a thing you could do about it. It was so real, Cloud.
It was like you were actually there, with me, in the City of the
Ancients--"
She was a little surprised to feel Cloud's hands suddenly grip her
shoulders. "The City of the Ancients?" he repeated.
"Yes, the Lifestream showed me the city before I returned. That
was where I heard your voice and saw Tifa standing near the altar--"
"Tifa?" Barret cut in, sounding flabbergasted. "Ya mean y'saw
Tifa in the City of Ancients?"
Aeris nodded. "The Lifestream wouldn't let me speak to her, and
before I knew it, I was in Mideel." She scanned their anxious
expressions, looking befuddled. "What's the matter? Is something
wrong?"
Nanaki hurried to explain. "Well, you see, Tifa disappeared on us
a few hours ago. We are presently undergoing an extensive search for
her, and that is why we were here in Mideel in the first place."
"Yeah, Cloud had this 'feeling' 'bout her bein' in Mideel," added
Cait Sith helpfully.
"But instead, we found _you_," seconded Yuffie. She snorted. "I
guess he wasn't too far off, though. Just the wrong girl."
"I see." Aeris clapped her hands. "Well, I suppose that means that
we have a rendezvous at the City of the Ancients, then."
"All right, ya lamebrains, you heard 'er," Cid declared in his
trademark gruff manner. "Next stop's the City a' Ancients--wait a damn
minute, what the @#$% is Cloud doin'--?!"
Cloud already running toward the Highwind. The cold night wind
stung his eyes and his chest throbbed with every step he took, but
he was past caring.
He didn't know how and he didn't know why, but deep inside he knew
that he had to reach the City of Ancients before it was too late.
(Too late...for what...?)
"Can't you land this thing any faster?" Cloud shouted over the howl
of the wind.
"Fer cryin' out loud, kid! Those damned numbskull engineers're
practically pissin' in their pants tryin' ta bring this thing down
fast as they can without crashin' it!" Cid shouted back, holding on
to the rail on the lower deck of the Highwind.
"Yeah, what's the hurry anyway?" demanded Cait Sith, latching his
furry Mog arms onto the rail for dear life as the ship spiraled
downwards.
Cloud gritted his teeth as the vessel shuddered. He couldn't
answer Cait's question, mainly because he'd been asking himself the
exact same thing.
Barret glanced at Aeris. "Any idea what bug crawled up his spiky
ass _this_ time?"
Aeris brushed a chunk of brown hair out of her eyes. "I--I don't
know! It's like he panicked when I told him that I saw Tifa in the
City of the Ancients--" She gasped as the ship gave a sickening
lurch. "Did--did something happen between Cloud and Tifa?"
"Yeah, unfo'tunately." Barret winced. "See, Cloud here lost his
head for a moment an' started mouthin' her off, an' then b'fore we
know it, she damn split on us."
Aeris nibbled on her upper lip, looking troubled. "He...he yelled
at her?"
"Somethin' like that, yeah," Barret replied. "So now that li'l
pointy-haired foo's feelin' a little guilty and--"
"CLOUD! CLOUD, WHAT THE @#$% ARE YOU DOING??!"
Barret and Aeris whipped around at Cid's shriek, just in time to
see Cloud clamber up the railing and jump.
"CLOUD!!" Aeris shrilled, sprinting over to peer over the edge
of the deck.
Yuffie slammed her hands over her face. "I can't watch!" she
screeched, parting her fingers and opening one eye.
Cid joined them at the rail, spouting a stream of choice words.
"Stupid, stupid little *!@$!#&$#!$@%--"
"*Uhf*."
Cloud grimaced as he hit the ground on all fours. The aftershocks
of his landing were still coursing through his bones when he scrambled
to his feet and hastened down the tiny shelled path that snaked all
the way into the Forgotten City.
His nerves tingled with an urgency that could no longer be denied,
and the voices of warning in his head had intensified into screams.
{...hurry, hurry, hurry...}
{Too late now, too late, too late...}
(Too late for what?)> he yelled silently. (Too late for _what_...?)
{Too late...}
And then he was there. The craggy formations of the Forgotten City
loomed before him, still and statuesque and mysterious, divulging none
of its ancient secrets.
Cloud didn't even spare them a glimpse, instead focusing on the
road as it diverged into three separate paths. If he remembered
correctly, the one on the left led to the Forgotten Capitol, the
right led to the North Cave, and the middle one...
...the middle one led to the spot where Aeris had been killed.
It was deja vu all over again.
(Tifa...Tifa's here...)
Cloud exhaled deeply, willing his heart to slow down its frantic
beating. Every fiber and synapse in his body fizzled with
anticipation, and he had no idea why.
(Tifa...I feel her...she's here...)
"Cloud!"
He didn't even turn as Aeris, Barret, Nanaki, Yuffie, Cait, Cid,
and Vincent approached him from behind.
Aeris jogged up to his side, concern registering on her pretty
face. "Cloud..." She was panting, obviously out of breath. "Cloud,
what's wrong?"
"I-it's Tifa...I can feel her..."
"Tifa? Somethin' wrong with Tifa?" Cait Sith babbled, elbowing past
an indignant Cid.
The muscles in Cloud's throat worked up and down. "She--she's
in danger..."
"WHAT?!" bellowed Barret. Tifa had been one of his closest
confidants ever since she'd joined AVALANCHE, and he was very
protective of her--and sometimes, in Cloud's opinion, overly so.
"Cloud, tell ya what," Cid began. "We'll split up and search for
her. In the meantime, all you gotta do is calm down and take a rest--"
"I can't!" Cloud swiveled around abruptly, nearly bowling Aeris over
in the process. His eyes, Vincent noted with detached concern, held
that look he'd had when he'd been standing beside the crater, yelling
for Tifa. "She needs me--I can't just sit around while she's--"
The voices came again.
{She's waiting...}
{...waiting...}
{...in the City of the Ancients...}
Cloud began to run.
At his heels were Aeris, Barret, Cid, Vincent, Yuffie, Cait Sith,
and Nanaki. They all refrained from calling out to him, because they
all knew that Cloud could no longer hear them.
They all nearly collided into Cloud's rigid form as they poured into
the odd-looking dwelling at the end of the middle path.
Cid exploded. "Kid, what the hell's the matter with--"
He stopped as Cloud gestured numbly toward the little pond that
resided in the middle of the corkscrew-shaped domicile.
The huge, unmoving goldfish that barred the gateway to the City of
Ancients was gone.
center>* * * * * *
Tifa Lockheart licked her lips.
{Are you ready, child?}
She nodded mutely. Oh, yes, she was. She had never been more ready.
A beam of pure silver light filtered down on her from high above,
causing her to shut her eyes. All around, the opalescent hues of the
surrounding structures gleamed and winked at her, as if reminding her
of the last time she had stood here, after Aeris had been murdered by
Sephiroth's blade...
(No. Aeris is alive, and she's with Cloud now.) She felt the
familiar sting of tears behind her eyes, but she willed them away.
What was there to cry about? Cloud was happy. Wasn't that the thing
that mattered the most?
Oh, but she wished that he knew how much she loved him.
{Let it go, Tifa. Just...let it go.}
She cracked open one eye and idly noted that a shadow had fallen
across the pool of light that shimmered high above her.
{It's all over, Tifa. Let it all go...}
She could love him enough to let him go.
It was deja vu all over again.
Everything was the same--the pillar of light that spilled across the
altar, the rainbow-hued texture of the surrounding crystal formations,
the anticipatory hum in the atmosphere, the sense of helplessness that
crackled like live wire amongst his friends...
Everything was the way Cloud remembered it, three long months ago,
except for one essential thing.
This time it was Aeris Gainsborough who was hovering at his back,
while standing there at the altar was Tifa Lockheart, her back to him,
head held high, her mind a million miles away...
He knew what was going to happen. He'd seen it in his mind's eye
a hundred billion times. He'd played it over and over in his head until
he feared that his mind would snap. But his mouth wouldn't formulate the
words.
He reached the steps to the altar.
And what happened in the next few seconds would be seared into Cloud
Strife's memory for all time.
It all unfolded before his eyes like a movie running on slow motion.
Tifa turned around to face him, and her soft, long hair swirled around
her body. There was something descending from the void high above,
hurling toward her, picking up speed as it came closer...
Cloud opened his mouth and screamed her name.
"TIFA!"
The fine, sharp blade of the Masamune sword found its mark on the
small of her back.
The world screeched to a grinding halt.
He approached her slowly, his features frozen in shock.
He could hear his heart pound in his ears.
Tifa had lowered her head, gazing wonderingly at the steel tip
that protruded from her belly.
"Oh, God, Tifa..."
His heart continued to pound.
She lifted her head, and her glassy mahogany eyes drilled into his
disbelieving blue ones. He was astonished to see the flicker of
confusion that crossed her face.
"Tifa..."
Pound, pound.
Sephiroth slid the blade out of her flesh, accomplishing the motion
in a gentle, almost reverent fashion. Tifa slumped to the floor.
Pound...
Cloud dashed forward, but Sephiroth tossed away his sword and caught
her first.
A rush of sharp bitterness filled Cloud at the sight of Tifa in
Sephiroth's arms. As if on cue, his silver-haired adversary relaxed his
grip on her and held the girl out silently toward Cloud. The blond
youth gathered her up, not even caring that his mortal foe was kneeling
at his side, unarmed and virtually defenseless. He didn't hear his
comrades clatter up the stone steps behind him, didn't bother to answer
when Aeris called out to him.
All he was aware of was the girl that lay in his arms.
Behind him, Sephiroth stepped back into the shadows and melted away.
There was no gash, no wound, no blood.
Too little air.
Tifa shuddered violently. She was dead, wasn't she? She _had_ to be
dead. Aeris had been stabbed the same way, and she'd died immediately
and without mercy. Why wasn't she dead yet?
She heard his voice as if it had come from an enormous distance.
"Tifa...Tifa, wake up..."
She clawed her way up from the umbra she'd been submerged in and
gasped for air.
"Tifa..."
With great difficulty, she opened her eyes.
And found herself two inches away from Cloud Strife's face.
His breath caught in his throat as she stared at him, and a huge,
resplendent smile appeared instantly on his lips.
"Hey, there," he said, his voice cracking a little.
Tifa shifted, noticing dimly that she was lying on his lap, his arm
tucked firmly behind her back. His free hand moved restlessly against
her bare shoulder. She coughed. "Cloud...how did you know where I--"
"Well, I called ahead, and they told me the City of Ancients had a
reservation for one Tifa Lockheart," he joked weakly, trying to inject
a bit of humor into his tone. A little embarrassed, he let his thumb
stroke her cheek. "Hey, Tifa, rest. Just rest. Okay? We're here. We're
all here."
Cid genuflected beside Cloud, brushing her damp bangs away from her
clammy forehead. "Tifa, listen. There's something you ought to know. You
know we're all here, right? Of _course_ you do. Tifa, look. There's
Barret, and Cait, and Nanaki, and Vincent, even Yuffie and--and Aeris's
here, too. She's back, Tifa; she's come back to us..."
At this, a familiar form materialized beside Cid, as if from thin
air.
Aeris Gainsborough.
Of course.
Tifa surveyed them all, a rush of warmth coursing through her. They
all looked so concerned for her, although she could tell that they were
battling to remain strong and stoic in the face of her deteriorating
condition. Her lungs hurt every time she inhaled--a motion that was
getting ever harder to perform--but even so she felt content. Her
friends were here--all of them, and they were by her side. There was
nothing more she could ask for.
Still...
"Cloud." A violent cough racked her chest.
"Tifa." He lay the back of his palm against her face. "Tifa, don't
talk. Please. Everything's gonna be all right, okay?"
"You heard 'im, honey," soothed Barret. "You gonna pull through.
Vincent's gettin' the Restore materia. We gonna fix y'all up good,
y'hear?"
Vincent hurried to the ailing girl's side with the green orb in his
hands. He had barely begun to channel the materia's healing powers into
her body when she suddenly waved him away.
"No."
Nanaki regarded her in amazement. "But Tifa," he argued, "we must
heal you..."
"It won't work." God, her voice sounded so weak, so tiny. Nearly
inaudible. "It's too late for that now, don't you see?"
There was a stunned pause, and then a look of fierceness suddenly
stormed into Cloud's gaze. "No." He tightened his hold around her. "No,
it's not. Don't say that, Tifa! You're supposed to be the optimistic
one--and I'm the one who's supposed to say those kinds of things..."
He knew he was babbling then, but he didn't give a damn this time.
Tifa wasn't serious. She _couldn't_ be serious. She'd survived worse
things than this, hadn't she? The bridge on Mt. Nibel had collapsed
under her feet and she'd fallen down the chasm, but she'd lived.
Sephiroth had slashed her when she was fifteen, and she'd lived. She'd
been imprisoned in a gas chamber without anyone around to help her,
but she'd lived. She'd fought by his side against the Diamond, Ruby,
and Emerald Weapons, and she'd lived. She was one of the most resilient
people he'd ever known. She couldn't die--not now. Not after everything
she'd survived against. Not after everything they'd been through
together...
And then, all of a sudden, it all came to him.
"You...knew this was going to happen, didn't you?" His words were
quiet, collected, but underneath them Tifa could sense an underlying
anger, a righteous indignation that simmered just beneath his composed
surface. "You decided to exchange your soul for Aeris, didn't you? You
struck some sort of deal--and decided to give up your life so that she
could have hers back!"
"Cloud..." Aeris laid a hand on his shoulder. "Cloud, please..."
Cloud turned his head away from her, not wanting anyone to see his
wall of calm finally crumbling down. "I can't believe you did this,
Tifa," he stammered. "I can't believe you--why, Tifa?" His voice was
hoarse, pleading. "Why...?"
Her words were like roughened silk, like textured satin. "Cloud..."
He succumbed at last, and his eyes met hers--his agonized blues
meeting her brown ones. She was looking at him now with an intensity
that made him shiver, and a clearness that caught him off-guard.
And there it was. His answer.
It was all there in her eyes.
(She loves me.) The realization hit him with all the force of a
bullet, wedging itself deep into his heart, causing him to reel
backwards--as if mortally wounded, as if intoxicated.
(She _loves_ me.) All those years of self-loathing, of doubt, of
incertitude...
(She loves _me_.) All those years of pushing himself to the limits,
trying to prove himself worthy to her, trying to make her understand
that he was just as good, if not better, than Johnny, or Zack, or
anyone else...
All those years, all rendered insignificant in the light of her
silent admission.
Part of him refused to believe her. She _couldn't_ possibly be in
love with _him_. He was too big a risk; he had too many demons. He
was bitter and lonely and self-destructive. There were plenty of other
men who deserved her more than he did...
And yet, a tiny part of him desperately wanted to believe otherwise.
"Tifa..." He caressed her cheek with his knuckles, blinking rapidly
to keep back the moisture that filled his eyes.
She moaned, a low, awful rattling sound surging from deep within her
throat.
"Tifa, no. Stay with me." He was rocking her like a baby in need of
comfort. "I didn't mean what I said, Tifa. You know that, right?
Right?"
The others watched, too numb to say anything. Aeris, in particular,
sat next to Cloud, her arm touching his, and yet she might as well
have been nonexistent to him. Her pale cheeks were streaked with
rivulets of tears.
"I'm sorry, Tifa. You know I'm sorry. I was stupid to say that to
you...that's the way I always am, you know. Stupid. That's me--a
stupid little puppet."
Something was stinging the back of his eyelids.
"I never wanted to hurt you, Tifa. Honest to God, that's the last
thing I ever want to do..."
(Don't. Don't hurt her anymore. She's been hurt so much already...
why does she still have to hurt? It isn't fair...please. _Please_.
I'll do anything. Don't let her leave me. I can't live without her. I
_won't_ live without her...)
"Don't go, Tifa. Don't go. Please. I need you with me, Tifa--do
you understand? I need you with me...I..."
(I what...?)
{You love her.}
Did he really?
She was the reason he'd departed Nibelhelm to join Shin-Ra in the
first place. The reason why he'd confronted Sephiroth in the Nibel
reactor. The reason why he kept on fighting--no matter how tough the
going got, no matter how incredible the odds were. She was the
reason he kept on believing, because with her by his side, everything
would be all right...
Did _that_ count as love?
He couldn't bear to think of life without her. She knew that, didn't
she? She had to know that he loved her too. He loved her in a way that
he could never love Aeris. A love borne out of the innocence of child-
hood. Forged in the fire of hate. Strengthened in the rage of war.
Yes, he did love Tifa Lockheart. Without question. With his whole body,
heart and soul.
"Tifa...I--"
Her finger touched his lip, effectively silencing him. He gawked at
her, aghast. "But Tifa, I--"
On her face was the most beautiful, radiant smile he'd ever seen.
"I know, Cloud. I know."
He was shocked at his respiration, which seemed to be pacing itself
at the same rate as Tifa's. A breath for a breath. A life for a life.
God, it was all so simple. For the first time, Cloud could understand
his heart clearer than ever before. So simple. How could he not have
seen it?
Tifa stirred in his embrace, her breath growing even more ragged.
Her chest heaved arduously as she fought for precious oxygen. Cloud
had to swallow the terror that was rising fast inside him.
"Tifa. I forgive you for doing this, but you gotta fight back.
Please. For all of us here, Tifa. For me. For _us_..."
She was fighting. Even though she knew it was for naught, she was
fighting. In spite of himself, his heart swelled with pride. That was
the way she was. His Tifa. She had never been a quitter.
And then, without warning, her muscles slackened. She tilted her
head back, arching her body, exposing the soft symmetrical lines of
her white throat. Barret started forward, but Cid detained him,
shaking his head. There was nothing they could do.
Cloud rocked her harder. "No. Stay with me, Tifa. Stay with me.
Stay." He chanted the words over and over, like a mantra.
But he was losing her. He could feel it as much. He could
practically see the light was fading fast from her eyes.
"No, Tifa, no." Cloud buried his face in her hair, inhaling her
sweet scent, committing it to memory. "Don't give up, please..."
She looked up at him, and her eyes were glazed with pain. Her
breath was slowing down. He read her unspoken message, and he
couldn't suppress the cry of dismay that rose to his lips.
"No! It doesn't have to be like that! I'll give up everything if
you can just come back. I'll do anything to reverse this, Tifa, I
swear..."
She used her final vestiges of strength to work her vocal chords
one last time. "No, Cloud. If this...if this's the way it's gotta be,
then so be it. Don't blame yourself for this, Cloud. It...was my own
decision. Let it go, Cloud. Just let it go."
A teardrop splattered on her cheek, and he tenderly wiped it away.
"I don't care," he whispered, his voice vibrating with emotion. "I
won't let you go, Tifa. I'm never going to let you go..."
Her breath felt like butterfly wings against his ear. "Yes, you
can. At least for a little while. But you'll see me again. In the
Lifestream. When you're ready to go." Her voice was nearly inaudible.
"I'll never leave you, Cloud. Never."
She released her breath in a sigh, and then she was gone.
Cloud's entire frame was shaking as he continued to cocoon his
body against hers, as if attempting to shield her, protect her, in a
way he hadn't been able to when she was alive. The others were now
at the bottom of the steps of the altar. He had insisted on carrying
down her body, and there was no way in hell he would let anyone else
take that last labor of love away from him--not even Barret.
He remembered telling Tifa a long time ago that there was nothing
strong enough in this world to bring Aeris Gainsborough back.
He was wrong.
There _had_ been something strong enough, and it hadn't been the
love Aeris shared with him.
It was the love Tifa Lockheart had _for_ him.
He just knelt there, unmoving, drowning in his own grief. He'd
been telling the truth when he'd told her that he couldn't live
without her.
His free hand strayed to his back, unnoticed by the others, where
it closed over the cold handle of his Ultima Weapon. For a second he
toyed with the notion of unsheathing the sword and running himself
through so that he'd be put out of his misery. There was nothing left
for him now.
{Nothing? What about Cid, and Barret, and Yuffie, and Nanaki, and
Vincent? And Aeris? You kill yourself, and Tifa's sacrifice would be
in vain...}
He released the handle, his vision blurring again with tears.
He would not let her down now. He would live his life to the
fullest, just the way she would want him to--live his life for the
two of them. He would see her again, one day, just like she promised.
(Goodbye, Tifa. I wish I could come with you, but...in my own
time. When I'm ready. Wait for me, Tifa...)
He got to his feet, never tearing his gaze away from the precious
burden in his arms. Then he lifted his head, blinking in the sudden
brilliance that shone down on the altar. He looked back toward Tifa,
inspecting her face. Her lips were still red and moist, her cheeks
flushed, that he could almost believe that she was merely sleeping.
She looked young, innocent, and more peaceful than she'd been in a
long time. Maybe because she was now in a better place--one where
there was no pain or suffering, where there would be no one to hurt
her, ever again.
How he longed to join her...
(Wait for me.)
"Cloud, yo...y'all sure you wanna do this?" Barret queried.
Cloud Strife rested the handle of his Ultima Weapon on his hand,
as if testing its weight. "Yeah."
Cid Highwind took a long drag of his cigar, flicking the ashes off
as he stared at the grass. "So whaddaya gonna do 'bout Villa Cloud?"
"Sell it." The blond youth ran his finger experimentally over the
opalescent blade. "If you want, you can have it. It's all yours."
"You don't have to do this, you know," Vincent informed him
quietly.
The younger man shrugged. "Hey, come on. It's not like I'm going
off the deep end or anything. You have my word on that, right?"
The others traded looks, and Barret cleared his throat. "Cloud,
we know...how much Tifa meant to you, but that's no reason to--"
"Chill out, Barret. I'm fine." Cloud shot him a halfhearted
grin. "I know it's a little sudden, but trust me, I'll be okay."
"Cloud." Yuffie spoke falteringly. "Cloud, where're you gonna stay?"
He slipped the sword into the scabbard that was strapped onto his
back. "I don't know, Yuffie. I honestly don't know."
"Forgive me for voicing this, but that's a bit vague, my friend,"
pointed out Nanaki, not bothering to suppress the anxiety in his tone.
"It is, isn't it?" countered Cloud, rummaging through his leather
skin bag. "I _told_ you, I'm just gonna wander around for a bit. See
the world--or whatever I haven't seen on it yet. I just need some
space, you know?"
"We're talking about the entire planet here, Cloud." Vincent
flipped his blood-red cape over his shoulder. "That's quite a bit of
space, if you don't mind my saying."
Cloud pulled his lips back in a toothy grin. "The easier then, to
get lost in it, eh?" he quipped, hoisting the bag onto Lance's back.
Cait Sith timidly traced a circle on the ground with his big Mog
foot. "I still don't get why y'all're doin' this."
"Simple." Cloud patted Lance's beak, and he warked in reply. "I
want to. I need to. I need _this_."
Cid racked his brain for a reason--any reason--that could somehow
convince Cloud to reconsider his decision, and came up dry. "Y'know,
I hate feelin' so damn mushy and all that $#!%, but I can't just let
you wander off into God knows what. If you need somewhere to stay
other than Midgar or Villa Cloud, you're welcome to stay with me and
Shera--I mean, me--at Rocket Town. 'Course, she'll be distracted all
the time 'cause of that new rocket she's workin' on that she'll
forget to pour the goddamn tea or do them damn house chores--"
"And to echo Cid's offer of hospitality," Nanaki interrupted Cid's
rambling, "if you want, you're always welcome at Cosmo Canyon..."
"Yeah, or Wutai," chirped Yuffie. "And I won't ogle your Materia--
much."
Cloud smiled at his friends, but he shook his head. "I'm touched by
the offers, guys, but really, that's not necessary." He swung up onto
the saddle of golden chocobo and seized the reins. "I'm a big boy. I
can take care of myself, right? So don't worry! I'll be all--"
"Cloud, wait!"
The assemblage swiveled at the interjection of a female voice, and
sure enough, it was Aeris Gainsborough.
"Cloud--Cloud, wait, I want to give you something first," she told
him breathlessly as she loped up beside the chocobo.
Cloud glanced down quizzically at her. Her arm snaked out from
behind her back. She was holding something.
"Here." She handed the object to him.
It was a single, perfect white rose, barely past its blooming
stage, its petals slick and wet with dew. Cloud smiled as he ran a
finger down the blossom. The color reminded him of the shirt Tifa
always wore...
"I hope that every time you look at it, you'll think of me,"
Aeris whispered, clasping and unclasping her hands as she stared
up at him.
Cloud's face darkened for a second, feeling a twinge of guilt, but
he schooled his features back into a gentle smile. "Thanks, Aeris,"
he said politely.
He turned then, but Aeris grabbed his hand and held it fast in her
own. Twisting around, he studied the brunette, a perplexed expression
registering on his face.
"Aeris...?"
"I love you, Cloud." The words came out in a rush, unbidden,
unrestrained. Her green eyes were bright with tears. "You understand,
right? I love you...I've loved you since the beginning...I..." A
melancholy laugh rippled out of her throat, and she sniffled. "But I
guess that it won't make any difference now, will it?"
"Aeris..." Cloud tried again.
She waved him off and stepped back. "I know, Cloud. Believe me, I
know." She dusted off her pink dress, smiling slightly, Princess
Guard dangling loosely at her side. "Goodbye, Cloud."
Cloud regarded her wordlessly for a moment. Aeris was still feeling
remorseful about the fact that she had failed to mention to Cloud that
she'd spotted Tifa at the City of Ancients. If she had revealed that
to him the minute she returned from the Lifestream, would they have
been in time to save Tifa? Cloud wondered. Then he pushed the notion
away. He'd blamed Aeris enough that first week after Tifa's death,
and he'd already regretted it immensely. What was the use in pinning
the blame on others? It certainly wouldn't bring Tifa back.
He wished that Aeris knew just how sorry he was for her. Unrequited
love was never easy--he knew that more than anyone, having undergone
seven tortuous years of it. But he knew that he was doing the right
thing leaving her. Aeris deserved better than a man whose heart already
belonged to another.
He dug his heels into the chocobo's side and guided it into a light
trot.
"Are we gonna see you again?" Cait Sith wanted to know.
He ran a hand through his blond hair, glancing off toward the sun-
set. "I don't know," he replied honestly. "Maybe. Maybe not." He
urged Lance into a light trot.
"Cloud!"
He looked back one more time.
It was Cid. "We meant what we said. If you ever need a home, if
you need someone to talk to--if you need anything at all--we're here
for you, all right?"
The corners of Cloud's lips tugged upward. "All right."
And that was how Cloud Strife galloped out of Barret Wallace's,
Cid Highwind's, Yuffie Kisaragi's, Vincent Valentine's, Cait Sith's,
Nanaki's, and Aeris Gainsborough's lives.
They were still gazing after him until he became a speck on the
orange-speckled horizon.
Aeris squeezed her eyes closed, and two fat tears trickled down her
cheeks and splashed onto the grass at her feet.
(I'll always love you, Cloud.)
Cloud swung the Ultima Weapon with well-practiced expertise,
reveling in the weight and feel of the powerful sword as he maneuvered
it back and forth, twisting and twirling it in his hands.
He paused at the sound of soft warbling coming from Lance, whom he'd
tied to a nearby tree.
Breathing hard from his exercise, he drove the blade down into the
ground and looked up.
Rays from the setting sun seeped into his spiky blond hair, making
it glow a vivid golden hue. High above him, the sky was a canvas of
mauve and crimson, with fleeces of golden clouds strung across for
added effect.
(It's beautiful,) he remarked mentally.
{Yes, it is. Beautiful.}
He smiled at that oh-so-familiar voice. It held the softness of a
summer breeze, the richness of autumn leaves, and the texture of a
mountain brook bubbling with life.
Down below, Cosmo Canyon quieted down as the shadows began to
lengthen, chasing away the golden pools of retreating daylight as
the sun descended over the faraway peaks of Mount Nibel.
(Be dark soon. Think I'll stop by Nibelhelm and get a room, for old
times' sake,) he thought.
{Okay.}
With tired legs, he scrambled up from the rocky precipice he'd
been perched on and brushed absently at his loose dark pants.
Trudging over to his faithful steed, he immersed himself once more in
a conversation no one else could hear.
(You were right, you know. You never left me.)
{Of course not. I promised you I wouldn't, right? Even here, in
the Lifestream, I'm all around you. All you have to do is feel...}
He closed his eyes as a gust of wind ruffled his clothes and hair.
He couldn't stop smiling as he untied Lance and hauled himself onto
the saddle.
She hadn't broken her promise. She was part of the Planet now,
and yet part of him as well. No matter where he went, or what he did,
she would always be watching over him, making sure he lived his life
to the fullest.
(I love you, Tifa Lockheart,) he said silently.
{I love you back, Cloud Strife.}
She would be waiting for him in the meantime.
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