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I declare I don't care no more I'm burning up and out and growing bored In my smoked out boring room My hair is shaggin in my eyes Dragging my feet to hit the street tonight To drive along these shit town lights I'm not growing up I'm just burning out And I stepped in line to walk amongst the dead Apathy has rained on me Now I'm feeling like a soggy dream So close to drowing but I don't mind I have lived in this mental cave Throwing my emotions in the grave Hell, who needs them anyway
I'm taking all you down with me Explosives duct taped to my spine Nothing's gonna change my mind I won't listen to anyone's last words There's nothing left for you to say Soon you'll be dead anyway Well, no one is getting out alive This time I've really lost my mind and I don't care So close your eyes and kiss yourself goodbye And think about the time you spent and what they've ment To me it's nothing I'm losing all my happiness The happiness you pinned on me Loneliness still comforts me My anger dwells inside of me I'm taking it all out on you And all the shit you put me through Do you ever think back to another time Did it bring you so down that you thought you lost your mind? Do you ever want to lead a long ways of distruction And mow down any bullshit that comforts you Do you ever build up all the small things in your head To make one problem that adds up to nothing
I don't know you but I think I hate you You're the reason for my misery Strange, how you've become my biggest enemy I have never even seen your face Maybe it's just jealousy Mixed up with a violent mind A circumstance that doesn't make much sense Or maybe I'm just dumb You're the cloud hanging out over my head Hail comes crashing down welting my face Magic man, egocentric plastic man Yet you still got one over on me
Sit around and watch the tube but nothing's on I change the channel for an hour or two Twiddle my thumb just for a bit I'm sick of all the same old shit In a house with unlocked doors And I'm fucking lazy Bite my lip and close my eyes Take me away to paradise I'm so damn bored I'm going to blind!!! And I smell like shit Peel me off from this velcro seat and get me moving I sure as hell can't do it by myself I'm feeling like a dog in heat Barred indoors from the summer street I lock the door to my own cell And I lost the key I got no motivation Where is my motivation No time for motivation Smoking my inspiration I sit around and watch the phone but no one's calling Call me pathetic, call me what you will My mother says to get a job But she don't like the one she's got When masturbations lost its fun You're fucking breaking Bite my lip and close my eyes Take me away to paradise I'm so damn bored and I'm going to blind And lonliness has to suffice Bite my lip and close my eyes Slipping away to paradise Some say quit or I'll go blind But it's just a myth
Dear mother, can you hear me whining It's been three whole weeks since I have left your home This sudden fear has left me trembling 'Cause now it seems that I am out here on my own And I'm feeling so alone Pay attention to the cracked streets and the broken homes Some call it slums and some call it nice I want to take you through the waste land That I like to call my home Welcome to paradise A gunshot rings out at the station Another urchin snaps and left dead on his own It makes me wonder why I'm still here For some strange reasons it's now feeling like my home And I'm never gonna go Dear mother, can you hear me laughing It's been six whole months since I have left your home It makes me wonder why I'm still here For some strange reason it's now feeling like my home And I'm never gonna go
I'm all busted up Broken bones and nasty cuts Accidents will happen But this time I can't get up She comes to check on me Making sure I'm on my knees After all she's the one Who put me inthis state Is she ultra violent? Is she disturbed? I better tell her I love her Before she does it all over again OH GOD, SHE'S KILLING ME!!! For now I lie around Hell that's all I cen really do She takes good care of me Just keep saying my love is true Looking out my window for someone that's passing by No one knows I'm locked in here All I do is cry
Do you have the time To listen to me whine About nothing and everything all at once I am one of those Melodramatic fools Neurotic to the bone no doubt about it Sometimes I give myself the creeps Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me It all keeps adding up I think I'm cracking up Am I just paranoid? I'm just stoned I went to a shrink To analyze my dreams She says it's lack of sex that's bringing me down I went to a whore He said my life is a bore And quit my whining 'cause it's bringing her down Grasping to control So you better hold on
She, she screams in silence A sullen riot penetrating through her mind Waiting for a sign To smash the silence with the brick of self control Are you locked up in a world That's been planned out for you? Are you feeling like a social tool without a use? Scream at me until my ears bleed I'm taking heed just for you She, she's figured out That all her doubts are someone else's point of view Waking up this time To smash the silence with the brick of self control
Roaming 'round your house Wasting your time No obligation, just Wasting your time So why are you alone? Wasting your time When you could be with me Wasting your time I'm a waste like you With nothing else to do May I waste your time, too? Warding off regrets Wasting your time Smoking cigaretts Wasting your time I'm just a parasite Wasting your time Applying myself to Wasting your time
I heard you crying loud All the way across town You've been searching for that someone And it's me out on the prowl As you sit around feeling sorry for yourself Don't get lonely now And dry your whining eyes I'm just roaming for the moment Sleazin' my back yard so don't get Uptight you been thinking about ditching me No time to search the world around 'Cause you know where I'll be found When I come around I heard it all before So don't knock down my door I'm a loser and a user So i don't need no accuser To slag me down because I know I'm right So go do what you like Make sure you do it wise You may find out that youeself Doubt means nothing was ever there You can't go forcing something If it's just not right
Seventeen and strung out on confusion Trapped inside a roll of disillusion I found out what it takes to be a man Now mom and dad will never understand Secrets collecting dust but never forget Skeltons come to life in my closet I found out what it takes to be a man Now mom and dad will never understand What's happening to me Seventeen and coming clean for the first time I finally figured out myself for the first time I found out what it takes to be a man Now mom and dad will never understand What's happened to me
I saw my friend the other day And I dont' know Exactly just what he became It goes to show It wasn't long ago And I was just like you And now I think I'm sick And I wanna go home How have I been how have you been It's been so long What have you done with all your time And what went wrong I knew you back when And you...you knew me And now I think you're sick I wanna go home Anybody ever say no? Ever tell you that you weren't right? Where did all the little kid go? Did you lose it in a hateful fight? And you know it's true
All brawn and no brains And all those nice things Yeah, you finally got what you want Someone to look good with And light your cigarette Is this what you really want? I figured out that you're all about And I don't think I like what I see Sooooooo... I hope I won't be there In the end if you come around How long will he last Before he he's in a creep in the past And you're alone once again? Will you pop up again And be my "special friend" 'till the end And when will that be?
Something's on my mind It's been for quite some time This time I'm on to you So where the other face? The face I heard before Your head trips boring me Let's nuke the pridge we torched 2,000 times before This time we'll blast it all to hell I've heard this burning in my guts now for so long My belly's aching now to say... Struck down in a rut Of dislogic and smut A side of you well hid When it's all said and done It's real and it's been fun But was it all real fun? You're just a fuck I can't explain it 'Cause I think you suck I'm taking pride In telling you to fuck off and die I had this burning in my guts now for so long My belly's aching now to say I'm taking pleasure in the doubts That I've passed to you So listen up as you bite this You're just a fuck I cen't explain 'Cause I think you suck I'm taking pride In telling you to fuck off and die Good night...
I was alone I was all by myself No one was looking I was thinking of you Yeah, did I mention I was all by myself All by myself All by myself All by myself I went to your house But no one was there I went to your room I was all by myself You and me had Such wonderful time I was all by myself All by myself...