This is Mario and Lucy Saia (my parents) on their wedding day. Mom was 22 yrs old and Dad was 23 yrs old.
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Indian Memorial Prayer




"Do not stand at my grave and weep: I am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the gentle autumn's rain. When you awaken in the mornings hush, I am the swift uplifting rush of, quiet birds circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry: I am not there. I did not die."






THE MORNING MOM DIED by Carole Ann


One thing still remains with me since my moms death on August 2, 1998. On that last day she was just so bad and I just knew that this would be the day she would leave us. I woke around 8am and went about doing for her the things she needed done. At this point her body was not even absorbing her pain meds. It had just shut down. Her breathing had taken on the pattern that I have heard so much about but until you hear and experience it....you have no idea the horror of it. It is called "the death rattle". And it sounds like this noise is coming from the very depts of hell. It is so frightening. My daughter Samantha (18yrs old) was here with me and we tried to pull ourselves together so that we could comfort mom in her final hours. We climbed into her hospital bed with her and held her. We told her it was ok to go. And that no matter how this life seperated us we would always love her. We told her to "go home" and thanked her for everything she taught us and gave us and for the love she poured out to us always.We told her to go and be an Angel.


To me it seemed that this was going on for hours. I felt she was just suffering for too long and lost all track of time. It seemed like an eternity and I had no way in the world to help her, to breathe for her. She was struggling so very hard. I had called my sister Fran as her breathing first became so labored. Then I went back to my mother and held her again and talked to her some more. Then finally she took her last breath and left this world. I called my sister Fran back to tell her and mentioned that I hated that she suffered for so many hours trying to catch her breath. And then my sister told me that it had only been 1 hour since I called her when it first started. I was stunned and swore she was mistaken. But she was not. Only one hour had passed and it seemed like forever to me. I am still amazed how time just ceased for me.


A few days after mom died I received a card from my best friend in the whole world Laura. I had told her about that day and what I experienced. I now have the card framed because it says it all so well. And Laura captured the entire experience for me and summed it up with one card. This is what it says.




To see a WORLD in a grain of sand,

and

HEAVEN in a wild flower,

hold

INFINITY in the palm of your hand,

and

ETERNITY in an hour.







William Blake Author







Thank you Laura for giving me that gift. I love you.







IN LOVING MEMORY TO MARIO & LUCY SAIA



To Those I Love


When I am gone, release me, let me go. I have so many things to see and do. You mustn't tie yourself to me with tears, be happy that we had so many years. I gave you my love. You can only guess how much you gave me in happiness. But now it's time I traveled on alone. So grieve awhile for me if grieve you must then let your grief be comforted by trust. It's only for a while that we must part so bless the memories within your heart. I won't be far away, for life goes on if you need me, call and I will come. Though you can't see or touch me, I'll be near-and if you listen with your heart, you'll hear all of my love around you soft and clear. And then, when you must come this way alone I'll greet you with a smile, and say "Welcome Home."



Safely Home


I am home in Heaven, dear ones; Oh, so happy and so bright! There is perfect joy and beauty In this everlasting light All the pain and grief is over, Every restless tossing passed; I am now at peace forever, Safely home in Heaven at last. Did you wonder I so calmly Trod the valley of the shade? Oh! but Jesus' love illuminated Every dark and fearful glade. And he came Himself to meet me In that way so hard to tread; And with Jesus' arm to lean on, Could I have one doubt or dread? Then you must not grieve so sorely, For I love you dearly still: Try to look beyond the earth's shadows, Pray to trust our Father's Will. There is work still waiting for you, So you must not idly stand; Do it now, while life remaineth--- You shall rest in Jesus' land. When that work is all completed, He will gently call you Home; Oh, the rapture of that meeting, Oh, the joy to see you come








A Letter From Heaven


To my dearest family,


Some things I'd like to say. But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay. I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above. Here, there's no more tears of sadness; Here is just eternal love. Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight. Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night. That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through. God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you. It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone. As for your dearest family, They'll be here later on. There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man." God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do. And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you. And when you lie in bed at night the day's chores put to flight. God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night. When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years. Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears. But do not be afraid to cry: it does relieve the pain. Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain. I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned. If I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand. But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er. I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before. There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb; But together we can do it by taking one day at a time. It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too; That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you. If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain; Then you can say to God at night......"My day was not in vain." And now I am contented....that my life was worthwhile. Knowing as I passed along the way I made somebody smile. So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low; Just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go. When you're walking down the street and you've got Me on your mind; I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind. And when it's time for you to go....from that body to be free. Remember you're not going.....you're coming here to Me.




Author Unknown


GOD'S GARDEN

God looked around his garden, And saw an empty place. He then looked down upon the earth, And saw your tired face. He put His arms around you And lifted you to rest. God's garden must be beautiful, He always takes the best. He knew that you were suffering, He knew you were in pain. He knew that you would never Get well on earth again. He saw the road was getting rough, And the hills were hard to climb. So he closed your weary eyelids, And whispered Peace Be Thine. It broke our hearts to lose you, But you did not go alone. For part of us went with you, The day God called you home.


Don't Grieve for ME!

Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free. I'm following the path God laid for me. I took His hand when I heard Him call. I turned my back and left it all! I could not stay another day To laugh, to love, to work or play. Tasks left undone must stay that way: I found that place at the close of day. If my parting has left a void, Then fill it with remembered joy! A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss, Ah yes, these things I too will miss. Be not burdened with times of sorrow. I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow! My life has been full, I savored much: Good friends, good times, a loved one's touch. Perhaps my time seemed all too brief; Don't lengthen it now with undue grief. Lift up your heart and share with me! God wanted me now. HE set me free!!

~Author Unknown~










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