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previous posts ... small thing, big impact: standing in my girlfriend's kitchen today, cooking a family type meal ... that felt nice me: this is
actually my webpage, which will need to be worked on as well, especially since i am making
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i moved more things out of the house yesterday. It is very startling to see my life
reduced to a collection of multi-sized boxes and a few small pieces of furniture. And as
the house empties, i find myself reluctant to be here. Not just because of the daily
tensions i am dealing with, but more because it is feeling less and less like
"home". i also took the cat to Master's house. Perhaps all animals are like this, but he wasn't terribly impressed by the lengthy car ride. However, once in his new environment, he relaxed immediately and went exploring. He paced about, rubbing against things to leave his scent, then found an available bed and curled up to snooze for awhile. When Master came home from visiting with His daughter, the cat decided that His lap would also be a nice place to sleep. Heh! This feline has excellent taste. :) Master flogged my shoulders during a short scene last night. It did to me exactly what i had been craving for the other day. The position of being on my hands and knees already puts me in a subservient headspace; having the flogger applied pushed that feeling even deeper. i didn't want it to stop. i remember His hand in my hair, and then my own hands covering the back of my head a few times. Whimpering and feeling and needing, more and more. It felt like a punishment, yet also an erotic gift, as He became more intensely aggressive, and my desire rose to a level that even now causes me to be aroused again, as i write this. i felt the release of that woman in me whom i keep tightly leashed. The one who begs to lose her governors, and have the One person she trusts, take control. The woman inside, the one i am most frightened
of, and the most fascinated by. ... shadoe ... November 4/99
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