when i wake up in the morning, i would quickly browse through the headlines on the war before setting off to work. at work i m making animation on how wars are fought in the near future. the more i slave myself on the glossy images which sole purpose is to glorify the might & accuracy of those hi-tech war machines, the less i believe in them, as well as the one who used them.

it is indeed a much easier decision to make, compared to 10, 20 years ago, to send man to war, on the presumption that they only need to fight it behind the cover of superior war technology with minimal risk. as if nobody s really gonna die, at least not my men. yet war is still war. whatever can go wrong will go wrong, hi-tech or not. it s heartbreaking to see reports of tens & hundreds of fine young man die everyday.

**initially i decided that much anti-war sentiments ve been expressed & acknowledged, & i shant do it on my blog. yet it s all over my mind, war news in the morning & war animations the rest of the day. waiting for my animation to render now, this s all i ve to say.
:: daydreamer 3/26/2003 10:11:00 PM [+] ::
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i give up in believing there s such a thing as democracy, or that it s any better than communism; makes any difference with dictatorship. in the end, it s still 1 egomanaic who call the shot isnt it?
:: daydreamer 3/20/2003 01:24:00 AM [+] ::
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why would a grown-up man such as myself like listening to BoA, the latest korean teen pop sensation? it would be self-denial to say it s not the sweet cute face that did 90% of the selling. maybe the other 10% is that i m really a superficial person with some unspeakable fetish haha! nevertheless, there s one thing about my 'fetish' that took me some time to figure it out. why is it i can accept korean/japan pop songs, which i dont understand a word they are singing, much more readily & easily than their mandarin/western counterparts?

many times i cant help but winced at the overdose of mushy teenage sentiments in those mandarin pops, & would rather be caught surfing porn sites than listening to them (at least in some twisted sense, it s a more manly thing to do than the latter). but now it seems pretty obvious to me that the key lies in that i dont understand a word BoA is singing, nor whether it s in korean or japanese all these times. if i dont understand, i ll simply like the song by the music, or the dance choreography in the MV. i wont feel embarassed coz i dont know if the lyrics are childish or silly.

on the other hand, probably i should also consider letting go myself more, in order not to miss out some simple pleasures in life? after all, all these said, i m merely a superficial person, extremely fallable to pretty faces, & whatever they ve got to sell. & never try to bluff myself, occasioned interest in some profound writings, studying a serious craft or two, or a few film classic favourites, cant possibly make much difference to who i am. is that not so?
:: daydreamer 3/16/2003 02:40:00 PM [+] ::
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i feel a bit guilty for not updating my blog, as if i m gonna let it go like that. i m once again enslaved by the money devil, selling my soul to work. sometimes it can feel quite ridiculous that i m putting everything else in my life on hold for a deadline at work. nevertheless, for good money i shall continue to slave myself, as long as i never lose sight of the dream that keep me alive.

having say that, to be truthful, half the time i just long to be a free spirited lazy pig. that s all.
:: daydreamer 3/14/2003 12:27:00 AM [+] ::
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something's hatching... hmmmm ... it s a T-Rex!

i m pleasantly surprised. rex s got his blog too, finally! check it out!
:: daydreamer 3/04/2003 11:00:00 PM [+] ::
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candy lo 's zhi shao zou de bi ni zao (at least i leave earlier than you) is 1 of those songs that will get into my head after listening & cast a spell that keeps me working on it until i get it downloaded. her live performance of the song last friday on tv did the magic. but my 'pattern' is such that i would play & play the song at the height of my fascination, until it finally wears out 1 day & i wont even want to listen to it again.

i hope i can argue that such is the purpose of pop music, never meant to last, even if many did they arent intended. otherwise, maybe i m like what the chinese says xi xin yan jiu (got new one, dont want the old).
:: daydreamer 3/02/2003 08:22:00 PM [+] ::
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about schmidt portrays such a depressing picture of old age & retirement, & worst of all, the haunting truth of the insignificance of our lives, that i almost wish i never go watch it. it proves again, contrary to common belief, that movie is not merely an avenue of escapism for the audience; that its appeal lies not only in its ability to relieve them from the real world troubles temporarily. in fact, the staying power of many good films is their ability to confront the audience with a truthfulness even more so than life itself.

& of course, these movies probably arent intended for those seeking 2 hours of concealment in the darkness of the theatre from the medrocrity of life, like myself.

probably that s also 1 reason why a film like about schmidt would never ever outdo a film like daredevil in the box office. nevertheless, dont get me wrong. under normal circumstances, given a choice to watch only either of them again, i would rather be razzle-dazzled by the glossy imagery & indulge in the sensory stimulation of daredevil, than to face again what seems an enactment of where my life s heading towards. it s just too real, too unsettling for me, that telling myself 'it s just a movie!' dont work at all.
:: daydreamer 3/02/2003 07:58:00 PM [+] ::
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t.r.a.n.s.i.t & one froggy evening, 2 chuck jones animated shorts recommended to me. i havent visited any of the pages, so this s a reminder post for myself.
:: daydreamer 3/01/2003 02:00:00 PM [+] ::
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