Topic: idiosyncratic egotism
For many years, I have been cynical about the world, those in power, my interaction with the world, and even God sometimes. In my personal experiences, and my observations of the way the world works, I thought I had adequate reasons for my deep cynicism.
Indeed, I once operated a website that had a title that summed up my attitude quite nicely: "Pessimists International." Even my humor was cynically pessimistic and often sarcastic. I really expected things to go badly, especially for me. Then again, a few months ago I announced that I would soon post, but never actually started to post, a series of satirical pieces on political issues.
I won't say that things have changed for me completely, overnight. At the core, I am still cynical. But I have started to realize that not everything is bad. The whole world isn't stacked against me, and against us. God is not against me, and He still has good plans for the people in this world who will believe and follow Him. What's more, He is fully able to carry out those plans in His own time, which usually isn't mine, or ours.
Because God is still doing His thing in the world, and He is good, there are also still some good people in the world. I haven't entirely abandoned my cynicism, but I'm actually trying now not to be entirely cynical. Hence, my recent call to pray for soon-President Obama, to pray positively for him as a man and for his family, not just for his agreement on political issues--and to believe that God will act in and through him. Complete cynicism is incompatible with a God who is good and can do anything.