#42

“Denial”

I can’t believe anything that is told to me.
I have lost belief in things that have deceived me.
I can’t help it if things do not work out for me.

The first time I fell in love, she left from school.
And my second love treats me very bad and cruel.
Everything that I do makes me look like a fool.

I don’t believe in myself.  I have no faith left.
The pain that I’ve suffered through, there is no faith left.
Since the one I love hates me, there is nothing left.

I deny any advice.  No one can help me.
People lie to me.  No one tells the truth to me.
I don’t have to listen to the things told to me.

I have every single doubt that is told to me.
I don’t believe that there is happiness in me.
I have denial for everything that I see.

I know that I have no chance to get a girlfriend.
I don’t believe that I could get a real girlfriend.
There is no faith in me that there is to depend.

I deny that I could live to be something great.
I can’t even get close to getting just one date.
My denial for this life will lead to my fate.

With all my denial, what will become of me?