Monday
03 July 2000 |
Reading: A Perry Mason Casebook - Erle Stanley
Listening: Thinking: why is it the more i have. . . Drinking: nothing Ok-o-meter: 6 Quote for the day: You know youre drinking too much coffee when. . . You answer the door before people knock. Weather report: hot and clear I've been feeling baby pains lately. It's depressing. I am so ready to get pregnan t again and I know I have to hold off because we are still having trouble with bills. Maybe I should rename myself, feathereds aren't generally known for being in heat. Unfortunately being depressed ab out this that and the other thing has suppressed my sex drive & my desire to exercise without taking the urges for baby or weight with them. I was doing really well for a while on my weight. I was stretching and doing little weights and doing kicks to stretch my legs. Now I can't seem to get up and I don't want to go to sleep before I absolutely have to--which means most often I don't go to sleep until after midnight and I still have to wake up at 6:30am. Tomorrow is a work holiday. We are all going to Mom's for BBQ instead of Lodi Lake. I hate Wayne tossing and turning
and bouncing and citching and taking up time and money and spece and attection.
I love him but sometimes love and hate are so close to being the same thing.
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