4.00pm:

 

Wow, it's really been a long time since I last wrote in my journal, but here I am again. I can honestly say that not a great deal has happened in the last 2 weeks, I've really just been in relaxation chill-out mode, I've watched a lot of TV and DVDs, I burned quite a few CDs, including a Harry Potter Soundtrack CD, which is pretty good, and other than that I've really just listened to music and chatted to Terra online a lot, which is fun all the same even though its not exactly productive. I've also been working on my story called The Gift, which now has 4 chapters - I think you can read that in the My Stories section of the site. Its really been a rather slow few days, at least up until last night, but I'll get to that later, there's other things I wanna talk about first. Still, I've been managing to keep myself fairly busy, I haven't been out too much but I have a few times, we went to play pool one time and we've been drinking a few times as well, nothing terribly exciting.

 

Oh yeah, last weekend I went to see The Matrix Reloaded, and it could just be that my expectations were too high, but I thought it was very disappointing, nowhere near as good as the original. The first hour of the movie was just awful, seriously I can't remember the last time I was so bored, I actually almost fell asleep at one point, lol. Then suddenly it got really good, and the second half of the movie was so much better than the first, but it still wasn't enough to save the movie considering the first half was so dire. There was one scene, involving a car chase on the highway, which was absolutely spectacular, it was worth seeing the movie just for that one scene, lol, but other than a few high points the rest was extremely disappointing. I would give it 6/10, which considering I gave the original 9/10 was a real let-down to me. Ah well, there's always the next one I guess, lol.

 

On Tuesday we went to Alton Towers, which ended up being a good day despite the fact that I was really tired after having very little sleep the two nights before. We got up at about 7 and left at 8, which meant that we got to the park right when it was about to open at 9.30, good timing huh? Unfortunately I wasn't feeling too good when we got there, so I sat out Nemesis the first time round, and luckily I started feeling better almost immediately. After that we headed over to Air, which I was a little apprehensive about beforehand, but it actually ended up being my fav ride in the park. Its kinda hard to describe, but youre strapped into the ride in such a way that you can't actually see the track or the car, its like you're hanging down with your back to it. The result is that you actually feel like you're flying, especially when the ride goes upside down, that one was awesome. After that we went over to Oblivion, which was really intense but a little disappointing cos it was over so quickly, especially after we had to queue for quite a while to get on it in the first place. In the afternoon we went on Nemesis twice, which certainly lives up to its reputation, I'll say that for sure, and we went on Air and Oblivion again, as well as a load of other rides, but none of them really compared to the three main ones. All in all though it was a pretty fun day out, I enjoyed it very much.

 

Which brings me I guess to this weekend, which to be honest has been pretty horrible, from yesterday afternoon and evening, through until about lunchtime today. Hopefully everything seems to have worked out ok in the end, and I'm not gonna write too much about what's happened, since I don't really think that I've got all the facts, and its still kinda fresh in my memory, when I'd rather just forget it. It started on Saturday afternoon, Terra stared to tell me about how one of her friends had broken up with her bf, and their situation was quite similar to ours, because they had started out in a long distance relationship, and there was also an age difference involved as well. Perhaps because they had broken up this gave Terra some doubts about our relationship, which could've influenced what happened later, I dunno, and I wouldn't really like to speculate. It certainly seemed to me that there was something wrong, that she was having some issues. Eventually we started talking about this guy called Bobby who she knows from school, and who she'd earlier told me was just a friend. Anyway, eventually she told me that he was interested in her as more than just a friend, and she said that she was interested in him too, and there weren't any issues like distance or age difference to overcome with him. Even though I'm grateful that she told me about it, it still made me feel awful because I was so scared that I was gonna lose her, and I really don't know what I'd do without her, I really don't. It seems that everything is ok now though, she said that she still loves me and she doesn't want us to break up which I'm extremely grateful for, although Terra still hasn't said what she's gonna do about Bobby, I suppose it's none of my business really. I'm just relieved that were still together and that it seems like everything is ok between us now. We've been through the good times and the bad together, but we've stuck with each other through everything, so I really think we have something special. I can't wait until I go to America and we can see each other more often, hopefully things will get better then. I really believe that were meant to be together, when I look at everything that's happened it seems like fate to me. I have faith that everything will work out and we'll be happy for a long time. Anyway, I think that's about all for now. Later Days J

 

Mood: Thankful, Relieved...