"I can't believe you called her to let her know you weren't going." Isaac said as he, Taylor and Zac were getting ready for bed that night.
"They're called manners Ike. When you tell someone you might do something and then you can't, you let them know." Taylor was annoyed at Isaac's comments, even though Isaac was just giving him a hard time. Why am I getting so frustrated? Taylor asked himself as he climbed into bed.
"Sorry Tay. I didn't meant to sound so rude about it. I guess it's just funny to me how you so obviously feel something, even if it's something little, about this girl, but you won't admit it to yourself."
"That's just it Ike. I didn't feel anything for her until you put the ideas in my head, and now you can't let it go!" Taylor exclaimed.
"Then maybe you should thank me." Isaac said quietly before heading into the bathroom. Taylor turned to look at Zac who was laying in bed staring up at the ceiling.
"Zac, what do you think?"
"I think you like her. And it's annoying to you that Isaac knows you so well that he could see it before you could." Zac said. He looked over at Taylor who was just staring at him.
"When did you get so smart?" He muttered.
"When the exact same thing happened when I liked Hillary and you knew about it without me telling you." He explained. Hillary was Zac's first girlfriend. Actually, it was more of a first date. They went out after Taylor told Zac that he couldn't ignore his feelings and that he had to ask her out. Zac had, and they'd gone on a couple of dates. But then they'd come to LA and had decided that they didn't want to be tied to each other when they'd only see each other once a year.
"Do you still like her Zac?" Taylor asked quietly. There was no answer for a couple of seconds so Taylor raised himself on an elbow and looked over at Zac's bed.
"It's kinda like...like I know that it wouldn't work, but I liked her anyway. I liked her a lot. And I still think about her a lot. And I even dreamt about her last night. It's like, almost like being in love with a movie star. You know they're out there, you know what they're like, and you know you can't have them because it's just not possible to walk into their life and just say, 'Hey, I like you'. Do you know what I mean? I'm not saying that I regret that we're here or that we've been doing this for six years. I just get sad sometimes when I know that I can't have something I really want because of what I do and who I am." Zac was quiet for a while, waiting nervously for Taylor to answer.
"Wow...I don't even know what to say to that. I never knew that you liked her so much. I guess I've kinda been stuck in my own world lately, and I didn't even realize that you guys had to break up when we came out here. I'm really sorry." Taylor said honestly.
"Thanks. I'm getting better. When we got here three weeks ago I was having a really hard time, but I'm getting over it now. I think what I need is to meet someone else, to keep my mind off Hilary for a while. It doesn't even have to be a girl. Don't get me wrong, a girl would be nice, but I'm thinking more along the lines of someone who I could hang out with and forget about the things I don't like. You know?"
"Yeah...I know exactly what you mean, and that's what's scaring me."
"Why? Is it because maybe you're realizing that you like Andrea a lot more than you thought?"
"I think..." Taylor said thoughtfully, "that I'm scared because there are so many things that could go wrong before anything even happens. Like, maybe I really don't like her at all, but I've been told I like her by Ike so much that when I see her again, I'll be let down. Or maybe it's because I really like her a lot and I'm worried that she doesn't feel the same. I don't even know. All I know is that this morning, everything was fine." Taylor finished.
"Except now you know Andrea." Zac said.
"Yeah...that makes it worth it I guess. But I still don't know how I feel about her."
"Then just do what I do."
"What's that?"
"Spend a lot of time with her and find out if she's worth it. If she is, make your move, if she isn't, you've gained a friend in the meantime."
"Zac, thanks a lot. You've really helped me."
"You're welcome. Goodnight."
"Goodnight."