It was a rainy day when I joined in Al Ameen College Edathala.I was
so anxiount and temptated by all aspects since I am new one
in college.I was much
happy when I heard "we are freinds"
said by one pretty girl who was sitting just besides me. I looked at
or may be I was staring at her shiny eyes, long hair and Pleasing face .
I wished
that if I could love her and to be loved . I wanted to say her 'We are
not only just freinds but real freinds So I love you'
But how can
I say!!! I feel too shy and scared on what will be her response . Why!!!!!
Days are going on . Once she asked me my notes to rewrite it on
her
absent days. She returned it to me after rewrite and said
"Thanks and you
are my best freind" with a smiling face. Then I
wished that if she was mine
and I wanted to say her 'We are not
not only just freinds but real
freinds and I love you'
But how to say!!! I feel too shy but
I dont know why!!!
Once as usual we all students were walking to bus stop after
the
class , I just puzzled when I faced a suddenly rain but she
was add me under
her colombo .So we both walked just like
as touch, dont touch but touched, dont touched.Then really I
wished
to say We are not only just freinds but real freinds and I obliged
to you'
But how to say!!! I feel too shy but I dont know why!!!
I was very active in college activities ( arts and sports) .I got
my position as
a good mimicst and singer thats why prices reached to my hand. Once ,on the stage
I sang a malayalam movie song
"hridaya sarassile" on favour of her.After
the function she gave
me shake hand and said "great very good ,and I liked it".
Even
Then I wished to say her We are not only just freinds but real
freinds and I obliged to you'
But how to say!!! I feel too shy but
I dont know why!!!
I was only 40 kg and look like a leanbody just like a
dry stick which coverd by dress ,the same time my college activities were out of my body capacity and limit.
May be due to this out of limit activities one day I admitted in hospital.
As I was getting little releif from babbling parents,Surprisly she appeared front of
me (and she was the first visitor from my college) with little fruites.After I introduced her to
my parents , My goodness !!!pithaji went to DD-1 and mathaji in seeking of little hot water to prepare
tea. Defenitly that time I wished to use this venture to say her We are
not only just freinds but really freinds and I like you'
But
how to say!!! I feel too shy but I dont know why!
Later some days, my telephone rang and it was she in the other end. Time
was around 1.30 pm.She was mumbling with tears and said " I feel bore pls can u come here
to share little time with me" .I agreed and setoff to her house. It was 4.pm when we finished
that movie" oru madapravinte katha"
and two packet of chips. She stood up and said " we are good freinds,
isnt it?"and she gave me a nice kiss on my cheek( it was the starting period of my pimples)Ofcourse
it strike out in my mind and wished to say her We are not only just freinds but real
freinds and you are something of mine.
But how to say!!! I feel too
shy but I dont know why!
Here occured a long time intervel where we were not able to meet .
Now after a long years it was an encounter , I met her with carrying baby
at
our town. when I called her " *salma" she just turned to me and We both
couldnt
beleive our eyes since she was so converted to debility from beauty healthy, and I was
so bulky as I became as converted one from 40 to75 kg. At the end of the amazing stories with the
support of tighty tears and pains (she was married with a monsieur who was a drunkard and all her possesiones became
empty bcz of his good habbit, Now she and her baby been swimming in the river of exigence) I
accepted her invitation to her home.
But when , I visited her house with dead syche ,She was happy and broght one glass limejuice
for me. There was nothing except calmness and hesitated lips. But I decided to use at least this
venture
to say her frankly (Now I know what is Love and Life) that "I had loved u very much
and I wished if you are mine". When I said this she kept quite for a long time and atlast
she brought her one diary and showed me that page .Its lines are " I like him.Even he
was
not handsome even he is not quite normal I like him and I wish
if he was my lifetime freind " .
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Now I always praying to God that "Oh my God, pls dont let any of your creature to
face this experience in his life time"
