Part 1
As I sat up in my attic of the house I shared with my
husband and children I found one of my many scrapbooks. Then one
I found was filed with past lovers and friends. I went through
the pages filled with so many happy memories...but I stopped when
I saw Brian.
Our relationship didn't last long, only about a year and a half but it was the best year of my life when he was there that is. He was my only true love.
I love my husband, Matt but it wasn't the same and will probably never be the same. We loved each other we truly did but sometimes it is too hard. With him touring I was home alone and scared. I got threats everytime I exited his house that I stayed in.
It was just too hard and it didn't end just because of that, it was mutual he didn't want me to be unhappy, and understood why it couldn't last.
His career had long since toned down a bit but I was married and I had kids, it would be just plain selfish for me to leave all that for a chance at a long lost love.
I turned the page to reveal a letter:
Baby-Pie~
I'm so sorry the tour is taking so long. I
miss you like crazy but then I remember when you got that
nickname and I smile-all the guys say HI and AJ 'Alex' is
wondering when your affair is gonna start..he's waiting J/K you
know your 'Alex'. well 'Nicky', I still can't beleive you call
him that, is begging me to play Sega Dreamcast with him but I
thought I'd tell you how much I love you first.
I love you baby....
All my kisses, hugs, and love...
Brian Thomas Littrell
My eyes started to water rembering how sweet he was, whomever he was with now was very lucky. The memory of the 'baby-pie' incident popped in my head and I found myself smiling. We were younger and we were silly but it was special.
I continued to go throught the section deicated to B-rok and contiued to cry.
"MOM!!!!!!"I heard my nine yr old son yell,"Daddy says the party starts in an hour!"
Then I remembered the party with him tonight. I climbed outta the attic and quickly got ready to go but no make-up could hide the pain I felt inside.
I arode to the party in silence.
"You okay Honey?"asked Matt. I forced a smile and nodded.
We entered the party at the Sheridan Hall and to my surprise stood before me was Brian. Brian Thomas Littrell.
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