hey waiming, are u still on icq these days? coz if you are then I think I've lost your contact.....heheee...update me hor! =D

ok done!!!
:: Peishan 8/29/2002 03:56:00 PM [+] ::
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the making of starhub commercial, Mr Unstoppable! pretty layman stuff, nothing in-depth but interesting to take a look at. fun concept, simple execution & neat animation. for a while, i almost want to believe it s done locally.
:: daydreamer 8/29/2002 11:01:00 AM [+] ::
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i was icq-ing with saigonapple yesterday & i discovered a fun feature in icq that only mac users got. it has this 'speech' feature that enables the mac to speak the incoming msg. thus, all these days we chatted, without my knowledge, i ve been represented by a squeaky lady voice on her mac.

but what makes me most curious is that since i used singlish/hokkiens extensively when i icq, i wonder how those would sound on that speech system done based on proper english pronounciation. thus she came up with an ingenious idea. she would call me on my hp, after which i would type my test msg, & upon my signal, she would place her phone over her mac speaker; only then would i press 'send' so that i could hear the voice interpretation of my msg.

as can be easily percieved, it s indeed a sophiscated plan that requires a high degree of synchronisation. however, we cant help giggling once the phone was through. it was something totally out-of-character to do for someone always so 'well-behaved' like me aha! alas, the task was accomplished & celebrated with bursts of laughter.

btw, my test msg was: "u r a xiao zha bo", a good mix of icq short form & hokkien, designed specifically to stress test the voice feature based on proper english. i m not too satisfied with the performance, esp when "xiao zha bo" was not pronounced accurately & pretty muffled. but as usual, my opinions tend to be prejudiced, as in this case, by the fact that i m represented by a sissy voice not of free will.
:: daydreamer 8/28/2002 11:15:00 AM [+] ::
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just now, mum passed me a slip of paper which says our MP is visiting for feedbacks from the residents later in the evening. unfortunately, i would need to either relax after my jog or watch some tv at that time. too bad for Mr MP to chose the wrong time. so i simply told my mum to close the window & not answer the door later on.

however, mum seemed to ve something to reflect to the MP & asked me to do it on her behalf. strangely amused, i told her it s better to do it herself. i m a very busy, if not the busiest, jobless man in town, who is nursing my dread with a coming reservist training at the moment. the only thing i would tell the MP now is to cancel my reservist because i ve no mood, esp when i m in Number 4; or else let me do it in the gatchaman costume.

now i m pretty curious if my mum would open the door later on. i may surprise myself to be the first one smiling away at the door, shaking the MP 's hand with 2 of mine.
:: daydreamer 8/27/2002 05:37:00 PM [+] ::
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John A. Wang's Gallery is worth visiting! read abt this local retiree who decided to exhibit his artwork online in the papers. i really like his pastels.
:: daydreamer 8/26/2002 10:30:00 AM [+] ::
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Hey guys. I know it's kinda strange that whenever I suddenly decided to write or contribute to your blogs, it usually comes in copious amounts. But I've been so emotionally drained recently that I have stopped most of my brain activity althogether it seems! SO finally a surge is good.

WHat is this crap anyway!? Time is passing me by and all I have ever done in my life to date is, well, live life out. Not to say that I didn't enjoy living for the past 21 years. I loved the hell outta it. Fun was all I sought and it still is! Or more like being happy is the motivation for me. But happiness is the end product of a great many different processes. For some, happiness is simply drug induced. And for others it's the kick of being the highest lvl Elven ranger/wizard hybrid in NWN (pardon me for gaming jargons....). For most other people, happiness finally boils down to having money. And to me, happiness is the ability to find out what it is you want to do in life. Or rather, what you want to get out of this one precious lifetime.

I read somewhere once, that a person will cease to fear death if he or she has already accomplished one's "life mission". And only those who are still seeking feel lost and despair that death will come too soon. I couldn't have agreed more. It's always been a strong belief of mine that each and every one of us are born into the world with a special role to play. Well of course I do believe that we have several "unseen" paths laid out before us, and we will have to make the choices that will ultimately lead us to a conclusion in our lives. What we do may seem insignificant but it satisfies a bigger picture like the right pieces fit on a jigsaw puzzle. So there. We all have roles...and the crux of my problem here is that I haven't walked out of this apparent haze to find my footing on my path. What am I going to do 10 years from now? I have no fucking clue. Is it so dire that I must find out right now? Well, it'll damn well set me at ease, and the path will seem easier to tread if I have a destination.

Sigh. Someone asked me what I want in life, and I said it's Happiness. My life is in pursuit of this sublimal state, not only for myself, but for those around me. And more often than not I associate happiness with love, so love is my life's pursuit too. I really hate thinking in terms of when I'm getting settled down, where do I want my flat to be (like we have a choice!), how many kids I would like to have and all these BS about family planning. FINE. I feel like a damselfly now. I'm born, I strive to grow up from a larvae into an adult, I mate to ensure the survival of my species, and then I drop dead. Their lifespans seem like a blink of an eye to us. But now even my own life has sped up so much, it's pretty much as quick, isn't it?

Eric and I were talking about collecting certain things dear to us and putting them into a time capsule when we're near the end of our lives. Geez I can already see the end of our lives. Okie so if we're really lucky, we'll live to a ripe old age of say...70. And if being 16 feels like last year to me, and that's in actual fact 6 years ago, being 70 feels only about less than a decade away. When I was a kid, the 1 hour math lessons in the mornings felt excruciatingly long. But these days, my gauge of time has broaden to a matter of weeks and months. A year is a very very short period of time to me now; to really simplify it, it's merely a timeframe within which I have 12 menustration cycles. ;)

I'm disillusioned. Okie so you've figured like 2 sentences into this passage. But I need a vision. I'm desperately seeking one. I'm not even asking for the clouds to part and a column of golden volumatric light be cast upon me and a loud booming message will be decreed. Mine is a lifelong labour of seeking it.

Everyone has a mission. Everyone has a dream.


hey peishan, been a long while we last chat!

i ve those confusions time & again too. but arent u so blessed to ve eric who can share with u precious things, to be buried in a time capsule when the time comes?

but then again, i m sure there s probably something else u r after, just that u arent too sure of it yet. good luck for your dream, good luck!!! also hor, focus on the better things that ve happened in your life when the going gets tough : )

waiming

:: Peishan 8/26/2002 12:18:00 AM [+] ::
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i watched three. i watched lilo & stitch. i watched lord of the rings on dvd. i watched amelie special features. i just keep watching. but i m now just a vacuum. so empty that i keep devouring anything & everything that comes along. that s not the way. it cant be. it ll only be right to produce to create to labor. i cant just keep taking in & not giving any out.

tmr i ll be alrite.
:: daydreamer 8/25/2002 08:54:00 PM [+] ::
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i ve been trying to take pics thro different transparent/translucent things infront of the cam lens. except for scrotch tape with glue on my polariod lens, i ve not met any success with my random wild ideas. i cant say the above one is any success either but i find it interesting enough to put up here. i had an almost dried-up contact lens flimsily stuck infront of my IXUS lens when i took this.

it looks like some unsteady camera shake. well, of coz i wasnt hoping for this when i snap it. hmmm ... i was hoping to get some fisheye lens effect ... ok ... it s a pretty ridiculous idea.
:: daydreamer 8/22/2002 09:50:00 PM [+] ::
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i hope i dont appear to be vain to talk abt a tee i bought last weekend. but what the heck haha! it s a special one which still makes me feel naively proud to own. why so? coz it s got a large gatchaman logo on it! but then it s obvious that this certain airbus brand dont really know what that logo is when they produced this tee (of coz, i dont expect them to). they ve included the senseless small text 'vd:02', at an awkward place to the side of the logo. right below it says: "time with prove" & below that "AIRBUS". what can i say.

i would ve prefer them to kindly scrap those things, leaving only my fav gatchaman logo but then what more can i ask? i m finally owned a gatchaman(/airbus) tee. nobody would truly understand the significance of this, that i d feel so much closer to my true self wearing the gatchaman logo. nobody! *with dramatic emphasis* oh, if only everyone in this world would understand the importance to find their very own logo so that they can wear it proudly everyday, instead of wasting their time looking for things they never really need.

come to think of it, maybe i should make an active effort to print this gatchaman logo tee myself huh.
:: daydreamer 8/22/2002 01:17:00 AM [+] ::
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magical hour, experimenting on a different time of the day for a change, since i always like to take colorful pics on bright sunny days so much. i finished up this roll of APS in a few days, breaking my record for such a short time span. now i truly understand why ppl wait & wait just for that few hrs to shoot something.

another magical hour will be sunrise. i wanted very much to promise myself to try that. but compared to sunset, it s definitely much tougher for ppl like me to achieve. it s been a long long while, i m up before the sun does.
:: daydreamer 8/19/2002 11:52:00 AM [+] ::
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finally some new lomo snaps. well, not so new coz this single film roll spanned over almost a year to finish. i m embarrassed, truly. let s hope this wont be my last update on my lomo snaps hehe!
:: daydreamer 8/17/2002 02:02:00 PM [+] ::
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the new jack neo variety show s pretty entertaining. but of coz, the so-called bold topics they claimed to be discussing arent that bold at all. i guess he knows too well the rules to play within to do anything overboard. so all in all, it s just a show which provided me much good laugh, ever since his last gao xiao xing dong. i wish he d ve something like that still every monday night. it used to be what my family looked forward to on that blue-colored day of the week.

come to think of it, not too bad to put this new one on a friday night, as my bro & his wife comes back this day of the week. so it s just nice, the fun show for our family gathering day. with this in mind, it must be understood that my review of the show s highly likely to be better than it actually is. it probably wont be even half as fun if we arent all watching it together.
:: daydreamer 8/16/2002 10:13:00 PM [+] ::
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i just got my new specs yesterday. this is my most expensive pair so far in my life. however, i find that its degree is slightly less than my old pair, so i ve some problems adjusting to it. since yesterday, i was trying to look at different objects out of my window, switching between both pairs to compare the difference. i m not sure whether to go back & change the lens, or i can make do with it because i ve heard somewhere sometime before that it s actually good to wear specs with a slightly lower degree than the actual one.

finally, i decided not to change it. afterall it s only more distant objects which i cant see as clear but all s fine for near objects. furthermore, i m using it mostly at home (well, my home is not some palace, there wont be anything that s too far away to see haha!). plus, there s one special 'feature' i discovered abt my new specs, esp evident in the night. somehow, it seems to display a depth-of-field effect, similiar to that of a camera. when i looked out my window last night, the window grills stay sharp & clear while the distant buildings gets blurrer progressively in distance. now my eyes function like a camera! haha!

if this happens when i m a kid, i d let my imagination run wild & pretend that i m wearing some hi-tech specs-cum-camera, which ll take photos the way i look thro it. cool huh!
:: daydreamer 8/15/2002 01:44:00 PM [+] ::
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freelancing really sounds like a relax & carefree way of working to me last time, most probably because of the free in the word. but gosh it s not that free afterall hehe. or maybe i must really appreciate my last time bosses for giving me such reasonable working hours, if i havent already been greatly so.

ok. big boys ll just do what big boys do. i ll try to be strong ... *weeping already*
:: daydreamer 8/13/2002 12:11:00 AM [+] ::
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Work-in-progress cat-in-armor

i still think cats shouldnt go around kicking ass in armor.

a TVC i m currently slaving on. most probably something i ll remember this year 's national day by. more update when complete.

cat model by Marc Tan, arm claw housing model by Sonny Sy, armor model & coming transform sequence by me
:: daydreamer 8/12/2002 11:00:00 PM [+] ::
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tmr s national day. i can still remember the national day 2 yrs bck i burnt the holiday working on this 5 minuter Joe 's World in my co. but i ve absolutely no idea what i did on the one last year. it s always interesting to realise how my memory sometimes works. how some days are remembered & some are forgotten. & how i can suddenly remember some that i believe to ve forgotten.

i used to think that my memory is an abilty i can ve full control over. esp when i was so good at mugging away for my "O" levels last time. yet now i cant remember any of those passages i used to be able to reproduce in exams word for word in the textbooks.

& if it s a sad thing i dont ve control over what i remember, it would perhaps be even more so, that i dont ve any over what i want to forget either. everyone knows what s worth remembering & what s meant to be forgotten, but how well is anyone doing on that?

for now, i know what i would probably be doing tmr, the only thing i dont is whether it d be 1 of those days that i d remember.
:: daydreamer 8/09/2002 12:05:00 AM [+] ::
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hopefully i ll give him a better looking one that is made of titanium instead of faky looking metal like this. an incomplete texture test, fit the armor on him for fun.
:: daydreamer 8/08/2002 06:07:00 PM [+] ::
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she likes to watch star wars movies again & again, that many times i icq her she would tell me she just finish watching 1 of the episodes. yes i do ve frens who rewatch movies, in fact my kakis blaue reiter & evil rei used to do tat in our dayz studying animation & those movies i watched more than once are usually with them.

actaully, it s not too hard to come out with reasons why ppl do that, but because i m the kind that finds it hard to be entertained by the same movie over 2 times, probably that s why it feels strange to me. especially when there are so many new movies/animations coming out i ve not enough time to watch (curse the bollywood directors who make 4-hour movie, i love u hate u!), it must be a luxury to be able to rewatch movies.

after all i ve said, deep inside, i still think ppl who watches movies again & again & still like them, are ppl who can make this world a better place ... no ... haha ... but they make those who makes movies/songs/paintings/designs/performances/etc ... a better world to live in. how wonderful when your movie does not end with its 1-time run in the cinemas but still runs in the fond memories of some other ppl.

ok, so you should keep up the good deed huh! haha!
:: daydreamer 8/06/2002 03:56:00 PM [+] ::
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we are sorry to see you go!

gawd. how touching. this is the 1st line after i successfully removed my email address from a mailing list that try to sell the service of converting dvd to cd (no, i wont talk more or pt a url link here. i m not gonna help promote such irritating mass mail). i really dont know why i m recieving so many of such emails now because i dont get any in the past. there must be something i signed up online that puts my email on some mailing list for sale, & it gets circulate everywhere now.

... frustrated man comes up with all sorta hypothesis but i ll never really know. all that legal stuffs they r talking abt against internet crimes, i ll say put this mass mail thing as prime target. a form of email harassment, i would say. make it a crime. there s no such thing as free advertising for ppl like them.

haizzz ... now they ve done it. waste my time going through the email removal process & the time to blog abt it here.
:: daydreamer 8/06/2002 12:36:00 PM [+] ::
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i got to go British Film Fest opening very much by accident yesterday. thus, i got to watch the hilarious stop motion short, thunderpigs & what s more, a hugh grant movie! the movie, about a boy turned out enjoyable. it has a meaningful & humorous script, with its main theme "no man is an island'.

later in the night back home, i found myself watching something else totally different. i was looking forth & back over various jap superhero anime to do some research for a TVC i m freelancing on. i m merely looking at all the fanciful hero transforming sequence. pretty standard procedure, armor pieces flying all around him & after much ado (which includes numerous awsome heroic poses for no obvious purpose, after which metal armor pieces would find their way onto his body), the hero is ready for action. it never fails to entertain generations of kids.

but i discover 1 thing i must really give in to the japs. i remember i used to question the logic behind these sequences, even i m quite a fan, why the enemy would always stop & wait in the midst of blood-boiling action for the hero to go thro all that elaborate costume change. it must be that i m not the only one with that question in mind. coz the japs really fixed that. yeah they did. after so many years, the heroes finally realised it s only courtesy not to make their foes wait for nothing. so now whenever they transform, they ll emit protective fog/light/energy to shield themselves, and/or armor components/sidekicks robots knocking down the foe temporarily, only to recover in time when the hero is ready.

what s really unfair, i feel, is that they only did all those updates now that i finally learnt to enjoy it without questioning the logic behind. just when i ve finally learnt the art of accepting things without too many questions, they try to answer them.
:: daydreamer 8/03/2002 09:24:00 AM [+] ::
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Wonderful Days, a new korean anime combining 2D & 3D.
:: daydreamer 8/02/2002 12:26:00 PM [+] ::
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"just 1 step you take, 1 bold step, & it can be a whole new world for you! what can be possibly holding you back!"
:: daydreamer 8/02/2002 01:09:00 AM [+] ::
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