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Today ... good but not very good ~___~;; drinking beer last night was good tho' - damn, spending money like water this month *fears credit card bill*

Outbidded on hellsing DJ again. The moron who assured me that Hellsing was an obscure genre should BE SHOT!!! Bought a Gackt CD, should cheer self up. Had high tea at Goodwood. Yum ^___^ it's Kino contact person's tanjoubi *throws confetti* My English mourning hat sold out tho ~_~;;

Need to go home and do work. Bought more stationary ... people say I'm evil to have bought goldfish seals when using neko letterheads *innocent look*

Very strange coz Jap boys sitting beside me at internet cafe and trying to hear what they are saying ... nosy me I know but it's giving me a headache ... will put ototo's bid, see what Reins has to say about Hellsing, then go home and do homework and work.

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/30/2003 09:23:52 PM [link | | ]


Oh, a note... I bought Hellsing anime. You should be proud of me.
My review and thoughts at my blog... see me recoil in horror to hear Zoro cursing like a sailor.

reins-chan and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/28/2003 08:22:50 PM [link | | ]


Yazah, it is done-d:


When does advice from friends become hurtful? Does anyone know where to draw the line? There are times when words no matter how genuinely meant, no matter how sincerely given, hurt the listener more than the speaker thinks possible.

I hurt too ... I know the words are well intended but there is only so much my little ego can take before your constant well-meant advice feels like barbs and when I start fighting my resentment against you for being insensitive and unkind, trying to remind myself that you mean only well.

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/27/2003 06:26:35 PM [link | | ]


Cut my tongue ... blood in mouth.

Ouch and hmm ...

Pupil san, I'm so going to see your tutor for lunch this week and tell him all about you!!!


Em, the Hellsing fans are getting scary, 2000 for one dj ^ ^;; I'm writing to the circles directly for those I didn't win, wish me luck.

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/26/2003 10:56:38 AM [link | | ]


Freaky Friday is good but I lost my phone *kicks ground woefully*

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/23/2003 05:42:55 PM [link | | ]


And that pupil san is the reason why this old fart here is unable to quit the profession. The work is back breaking but the addiction of the law is there is no right or wrong answer. There is only the well reasoned answer and the less well reasoned answer.

Actually the trick is where essays are concerned, you don't have to argue against yourself. Take one position - liable, not liable and then justify your position. You're supposed in theory to explore the law and find the answer but the truth is you decide on the answer and apply the law to justify yourself and discredit the opposite answer.

~ reading manga, team medical dragon is a manga about an obnoxious, extremely talented and unortho surgeon. The man has attitude!

PS: Alex, kare kano 16 is out and it resolves the tension between good boy and his mum!!!

To anyone out there with lots of wonderful manga, plenty of Hellsing doujinshi and an opera ticket, give me give me and I'll kiss your feet. I want to go hat shopping tomorrow. Pupil san, SMS me on the movie tomorrow?

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/22/2003 09:43:28 PM [link | | ]

*Kit walks in with list and puts a tick against new DJ seller list* One down, four more to go. And three "old" friends to harrass ... *cackles*

I have decided, I must must must draw my webcomic. Hyper's webcomic about Integra getting pregnant is a hoot and the best part about learning Japanese is being able to guess the gist of the conversation - which had me cackling in the middle of the night.

Back to 300 page report - humbug, not really able to work without sleep anymore, fell asleep at desk at about 4 and woke up at 9 this morning feeling like a bus hit me ~___~;; old lah - at one point I will have to sign up for plastic surgery, lipo and what not ... but no botax thank you, the idea of paralysed muscles don't sit well with me.

*runs off to get coffee*

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/22/2003 10:29:28 AM [link | | ]


POT online webcomic!!! -

They do a really funny Alexander x Alucard webcomic too!!! The crackness of it all *runs round screaming*

I WANT HELLSING DOUJINSHI *stomps around angrily*

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/21/2003 01:41:13 PM [link | | ]

Instant Bishounen! by mizery
Your username
Your eye colour
Hair colour and lengthorange, short and tousled
Place of residencea secret underground lair
Sexual orientationa switch
Special Quirkis actually a contortionist
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

Urm.... Kyo from Furuba? 0_0
The secret underground lair me likes.....

reins-chan and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/21/2003 12:08:12 PM [link | | ]


Instant Bishounen! by mizery
Your username
Your eye colour
Hair colour and lengthblond, very long
Place of residenceback room of a seedy nightclub
Sexual orientationanything and anyone
Special Quirkis attractive to men and women
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

Uh ... long (really long) blonde hair and attractive to men and women? Sounds scarily like Integra sama (but the back of seedy nightclub is funny - Hellsing mansion nightclub anyone?)

*eyes pupil-san* you are so NOT blaming me for that although I think I actually scared Shawn last night *sweatdrops* and yes if you get LFK and Burton as your tutors I'm going to laugh real hard. Freaky Friday I think is best on Friday *grins*

See ya tonite ototo, you ok? *pats on head*

Public service announcement: Winter Comiket will be held in Tokyo from 28 to 30 December 2003

Am trying to harass more Hellsing DJ artists ~__~;; they are so going to form a "get rid of pesky Kit from Singapore" club in Tokyo soon *cries*

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/20/2003 11:29:05 AM [link | | ]


To everyone who said Hellsing was not popular in Japan ... humbug to you. Serene was a darling but she is still human.

Damn, knew should have sent "dad" or "uncle spiffy" to hijack the Solid & Etc stand *runs from Yamasaki-sama's wrath*

Anyone has a spare copy of Hellsing 13 Box to sell or seen any sign of it on the capitalist auction market - *waves desperate sign*

On the other hand, German canons are quite beautiful.

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/18/2003 10:03:55 AM [link | | ]


http://hellsing.keenspace.com/ - this is hilarious.

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/16/2003 12:57:39 PM [link | | ]

People, as they say there's nothing scarier than a bunch of drunk lawyers except perhaps for a bunch of drunk lawyers dancing on the bar top.

Coyote Ugly - quite an experience but music could have been better. As you can tell, I'm still sober. My stomach's inability to hold too much water is a righting factor - besides, someone had to watch the bags and send the tipsy people home. It's a good idea to buddy ... at least one can send the other home if the other gets too tipsy. Of course looking at this in the morning, I might find a typo or something ...

Ahhh ototo-chan, where's my IXA fic (just joking)? See ya dinner tomorrow pupil-san. And so is it Sunday or next week for League of Extraordinary Gentlemen gutter folk?

I like drinking with the girls ^____^ it was literally all the unmarried and married but still happening people today and we got one or two attachees with us and there were some other lawyers.

The thing is this new firm is fun and it looks like my plans to skive next year has to be shelved ... an expected financial commitment (sp) has popped up and it is going to be difficult to fulfil without a job. Anyhow, I should be sleeping soon. I have to get some basketball done before I go to work tomorrow. Am getting soooo fat ;_; *sob* and sooo much work *double sob*

Hmm Reins, you soon like you're seriously Loki-efied *laughs*

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/16/2003 03:11:35 AM [link | | ]


Yes, Kit... I do know there is two versions of Matantei Loki. And I happen to place orders for the larger, re-print ones... (book 7 has Kakusei Loki on the cover... *dies*) The artbooks I HAVE to skip since they be expensive and if I do buy them, what use will they be for me? Aside for gathering dust on my bookshelf and the occasional droolfest, that is.

Yes, that is what I tell myself everyday... it stops me from clicking 'put in basket' button at animaxis TT_TT

reins-chan and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/14/2003 08:33:34 PM [link | | ]


Someone bent the cover page of my Hellsing doujinshi quite badly TT_TT I took the book out in the morning and left it on my bed and came home to find a pile of clothes on it and a cover bent into 2.

UGHHH!!! I should be grateful my folks do my laundry but whYYYYY!!!!???


Integra-sama gomen nasai *commits hakakiri*

~ And so Kit dies for the n-th time

PS: Why why why pupil-san, hurting yourself gets you now where except to the pharmacy for skin cream.

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/13/2003 10:11:37 AM [link | | ]


I'm quite scared ... I need to talk to someone much older and wiser about this but family is a no go.

It's not something about me tho', don't worry it's not like I've contacted cancer or gotten pregnant or anything like that but someone near and dear is in a lot of trouble and I've been told not to blab to mutual loved ones.

I also need to get back to work *takusan desu*

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/12/2003 01:59:14 PM [link | | ]


Hai hai ... pupil-san, hai hai ... but may God have mercy on me.

Mura-san, Reins did the layout ... I'm so Integra-sama-poisoned I've all but neglected Clow-sama.

My Jap classes are getting hard. Really hard ... coz I'm too lazy to memorise all the vocabulary and while I've got most of the grammar down pat, I'm seriously handicapped by the vocabulary bit.

Shina nai, honto desu ka. Hai hai. Atame ga itakute shigoto takusan shiguiru kedo tomodachi no gan bare kara sundeinakarebanaranai desu. *laughs*

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/11/2003 01:24:21 PM [link | | ]


Hope everyone had a good National Day yesterday. This may not be perfect but it's home.

Last day for sale at Kino. This year the crowd is a lot smarter - previous National Day / Kino aniversary sales were less crowded. Ah well, people keen on Loki Rag will be glad to know Loki Rag 3 will be released in 2 versions, the limited one coming with a figurine or something. So happy hunting yo, I've got my order down - let's hope there's enuff stock so me can get me Fenri (spelling?) figurine (I'll kill for a Yamato one tho').

On the other hand, "shino to omoimasu".

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/10/2003 03:41:24 PM [link | | ]



kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/7/2003 01:59:04 PM [link | | ]


Woman (Reins), I'm getting so jealous of you I'm going to send you a nuclear missile in the mail ... how DARE you draw so well *seethes in JEALOUSY* as if the fact you are so good in layouts and making wallpapers don't make me cringe in horrible envy already.

Hmm ... everyone, go http://rakugaki.bluesummers.net/ - here and "bash" reins for me.


On the other hand, here are my poor paltry offerings to you people tad-dah. I can't color with the computer so it's just copic markers. Thanks to Nii-kun for scanning them for me ^___^ Need to work ... *watches table collapse*

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/5/2003 01:59:15 PM [link | | ]


Fan boys are so going to drool to death over this. Someone tell me whether Seras is painting a doll that looks like Integra or is Seras doing makeup for a very very VERY stoned Integra (she'll kill before allowing herself into THAT position) ...

Am going to sleep ... so tired. Daijoubu Nii and Genjo. Nii, I get that all the time, my sis has always been the "sicker but cuter and more adorable" younger kid. Up to today she still takes things under the what's yours is mine mantra *shrugs* but hey just live with it, unfortunate incident of having siblings ^___^;; Genjo, take it easy but build up your health slowly - sleep and regular food will help.

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/4/2003 11:21:31 PM [link | | ]

A billion thanks to Reins for this ^___^

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/4/2003 01:04:06 PM [link | | ]

I need to sleep. I also need someone to pat me on my head and to say it's alright that they'll mother/parent me until the cows come home.

I'm a brat, no pretensions about that.

I'm still marginally awake now but come after lunch I'm sure I'm going to drop dead for staying up last night to finish this report I'm polishing up now. Typing is a lot harder at the moment and my brain thinks faster than my hands can respond. On the nice side tho', I'm finally able to open Reins' pressie and if God be willing I'll go home early to sleep tonight.

Gran is preparing bird's nest - she says I need it.

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/4/2003 11:30:14 AM [link | | ]


My handphone is at the doctor's. Will not get it back until Thurs. Will not be able to respond to SMS or calls unless I dig up that silly other old phone of mine which I'm loathed to use.

Communicate by email, as long as I'm awake I'll be checking every now and then yo. Or call me at the office.

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/3/2003 11:21:03 PM [link | | ]

We bid our last goodbyes. I will love her and miss her always.


Pupil-san, you are soooo not blaming that on me too are you? And you can't say I made cha insane, you had the potential and your uncle *nudge nudge* just brought it out in you.

Hmm, why don't you share my Jap textbooks, that way you'll save on $ there because you won't need to buy supplements. Can't help you in the flute department tho.

Had a bit of a slight debate with mama. Not serious but I dislike my relatives with a vengence. Thinks Sirius Black and his family? Mind you I don't pretend to be in the right in fact I probably am in the wrong but the relationship has always been sour from day one. I'm a lousy critter. Throw one stone at me and I return it with a nuclear missle - very unlike what I should be but I find it hard to smile and walk away where relatives are concerned. With friends I'll just cut you off until we're ready to talk on a superficial basis but with relatives I don't know why I tend to get my pound of flesh with interest in the most painful way possible. Objectively it is all childhood grudges but I can't seem to let go.

I hate being mocked. Perhaps it is true, I'm a total lout. *shrugs*

Second point was, what's the cure to shyness? She has a new colleague who is so shy she cries when she gets sharp words from the others -which is not so unlikely given the stress at work. I disagree with my mum that she has to do something so her subordinates will be nice to this girl under her wing. I told her she could ask her girls to be nice to this new girl but unless the new girl makes up her mind to be rid of her shyness, it's going to be a bad bad idea. Mama asked me what could cure the girl and to me it's simple: patient needs a new motto in life but she has got to make up her mind about it if not those who try to help her will end up resenting her clinging onto them and leeching off them. Having been there and done that, I can tell you, if you act shy and cute and uncertain and fret about why you aren't as cool as so and so friend and as hip and so and so friend, you just make your friends flee from your presence even if they remain concerned about you. You are who you are - if you don't like yourself, no one will honey. Friends can help you up to so far but you're the one who has to push the button. Seriously, three years of playing cheerleader is even with affection for the aforesaid friend, extremely painful since she never wanted to cheer up. I think I gave up when I reached the point I wanted to hit her on the head - stop telling me you want to change when all you really want to do is whine and make me sit down to humour you.

I know changing oneself is not easy. Bizzare and unbelievable as it sounds, I used to be good and shy and horribly uncertain - briefly until I decided the fangs needed flesh to sink into and I was sick of chewing on my own gums. Literally woke up one day and started acting the opposite of what I would have usually done. It's extreme but that's the only way to break the rut. My classmates and teachers were shocked for a while but hey, you can always "change" yourself at a more convenient time e.g. between jobs or school etc. etc. or pretend to smoke pot and blame it on the zen the fumes induce.

*runs off to terrorise the world* The solution to being miserable: insanity, good old insanity.

Ototo-chan, I know you're busy and I don't want to impose too much but any luck with the "FIC" and my scans? See ya on Saturday gutter-ers? We need to raid the temple library - both branches!!!

~ runs off to do work (another 170 pages to go) ...

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/3/2003 10:44:57 PM [link | | ]


To Kill a King was a nice movie. I must admit though, I was a little sad to see Charles' head fly.

SF, you feeling better? Em, glad you found your phone back. Heh heh, until I read your blog I wasn't too sure why it was your mum answering my SMS-s to you. Thanks for the movie recommendation Ange. Ganbette, okite kudasai Alex *ducks tomatoes*


To my dearest teacher who has taught me music for the last 20 years.

Dear Ms L

I will remember all our times together. The times we quarreled over composition, the times when I insisted on a dominant 7th chord and you said a diminished 7th would suffice. I will remember the times when we sat down for sushi, the times when you told me of your school days in London. I will remember the duets we played, the times we went to my exams in anticipation and celebrated the results.

I will miss you and I did wish I had brought forward our lunch appointment next week by a fortnight but I am grateful for our times together. Remember me as I will miss you. We will meet in the land flowing with milk and honey and where angelic voices sing ... God be willing.

As you lie down to sleep the long sleep, and at the risk of sounding like a cheesy ABBA song, thank you for the music you have left in our lives.

Your pupil,

< edit > Until I saw the body in the coffin I couldn't believe it had really happened. This is another of those "death" years. I don't know why but every 2 to 3 years there will be one particular year when I lose so many loved ones within a short time it feels like a nightmare. The funeral is tomorrow evening - I will go. I was talking to her niece who was basically running the show since my teacher never married or adopted children. It feels so sureal talking about my teacher and learning about what she told her niece of me. I'm supposed to go pick up some music my teacher wrote because her niece says I should probably have them.

And twice again this year, my heart breaks. < /edit >

kiddo and Clow told Integra how beautiful she was at
8/2/2003 11:02:33 AM [link | | ]