here is the other one....

I'm extremely confused,
I don't know what to do
You threw our love away,
now I want you to stay
If you knew the pain,
that I put us thru,
oh wait you do,
it takes two to hurt,
one to mess it up,
and it will never be again.

We made so many plans,
dreams that are all shattered,
torn apart, and broken in two
All the little kids, the porch swing,
the tree house, falling asleep in your arms
Why did we have to let it all go,
I wish you would just talk to me,
I want to know why you let so much
time go by, and why I haven't heard
from you

Please tell me what I could have done,
oh wait, nevermind, I take that back,
I know what I could have done,
but now there is nothing that can be said,
to prove my love for you is forever true
Please let me take back time, and things I said
If only I owned a time machine, to take me back
to when you and me were happy and free
Its all just a blur, somehow I can't make these
memories stay, if only time would have just stood
still, and only the two of us could move,
so we could spend eternity in each others arms....

 

Friends
by: Amanda

Friends are for life
friends will be there through thick and thin
Friends will love you for all eternity
a friend is someone to lean on
someone who will listen when you cry,
when you need it most,
just when you want to be heard
a friend is suppose to be there if you need
someone
someone who wants to listen to you,
not someone who doesnt care,
but will always be there
I have always longed for that person to come along
to take are of me and help me through hard times
someone who won't controdicted everything you say, and do
someone who doesn't judge
who won't make a big deal about your little issues.
someone I can feel comfortable calling and crying next to
someone I thought I had, I lost a while ago,
she was all I could think a friend could and would be,
but I was wrong,
I called crying one day and she sounded like she didnt care
I was mad,
so now I am careful who I cry around
I make sure I am comfortable
make sure they dont care that I cry
someone who wants to help deal with the hard
things that come along,
someone to help when your boyfriend or crush

is being a jerk;
someone to make you smile
I long for that day to come.
And today, yesterday, sometime this month or
last month
that friend has come along
gotten me hooked up with a great guy!
I love him for him, and he loves me for me.
And I appreciate that!!

But just like all good things, this had to come to an end,

and now I have to start all over,

I guess that is what love and friendships are all about.

(not titled) <~~Help me figure out a name, e-mail me if you have one!! :) I'll let you know what the name is as soon as I pick one!! :)
by: Amanda

Appearance shouldn't mean anything to you
Appearance shouldn't cost anything
looks and Money aren't the real issues
It's personality, friendlyness, love, care
Those are the traits a friend should have
Not what they wear, or how they fix their hair
Not how much money, or what car they drive
Let those things be pluses....
Don't look down on someone b/c they don't wear one thing
or b/c they don't have money or a Mustang
Don't look down on someone b/c they wear one thing
or b/c they do have money or a Mustang
Look up to everyone, be friends with everyone
Remember that nobody is better than anyone
Never think that you are better than the rest
Never stick your nose in the air and act
snobby
Never look down on people who act that way
Don't be like everyone else....
Be Unique!

 

Who Ever Loved, That Loved Not at First Sight?
by Christopher Marlowe (1564-1593)

It lies not in our power to love or hate,
For will in us is overruled by fate.
When two are stripped, long ere the course begin,
We wish that one should love, the other win;
And one especially do we affect
Of two gold ingots, like in each respect:
The reason no man knows, let it suffice,
What we behold is censured by our eyes.
Where both deliberate, the love is slight:
Who ever loved, that loved not at first sight?

 

I only wish I could see you right now,
I only wish you were with me right now,
I only wish to talk to you...
please make my wish come true.

 

 

I really miss being happy, i really miss being with you, i really miss all my nights of sweet slumber, do you miss being happy, do you miss being with me, do you miss the nights of sweet slumber, b/c if so, then why can't we stop missing these things, and get back together

 

I'm missin' you, I'm lovin' you, I'm not sure what I want, I'm not sure what I can do, but All I seem to know is that I'm so damn in love with you.

 

another...
my eyes are heavy with fatigue, my heart is heavy with longing, my heart aches for healing, i guess we can't get everything...

 

 Help
by: Amanda

Can someone please tell me why he wont love me,
why he wont tell me his feelingswhy he is afraid,
afraid of me, afraid of getting hurtwhy he doesnt want to fall,
fall for someone he knows he wants, someone he knows wants him,
someone who will not hurt him, or let him get hurt.
someone who will love him for him, and not something he isnt.

 

Some please help him be able to tell me his feelings,

tell him what it is he wants, how I can help.

It hurts so much to know I can't have him,

in all reality, I can, if only he would let it happen.

Someone give him that push, so he can know,

know what it is that he wants, and find it,

find it in me.

Someone, please help him.

 

Changes
by: Amanda

Why is it that when you like someone so much,
it turns out that you can't have them.
When all you can do is see his face, and hear his voice,

and smell his sweet scent; 
when nothing else matters but him, whether or not you get him;
but rather if he likes you too.
Why is it that when your life starts to crumble
like a chocolate chip cookie,
you know that things won't ever be the same...
Your love life changed forever
Your walk with God changed forever
Your friendships changed forever
Your family changed forever
Your world is changed forever.
Life is full of changes,
BIG ones...
small ones...
no matter the size,
things will change
Never to be the same again;

No matter how hard you try to change them;

But, I've found thru the years that;

no matter how aweful things can get,

You will have a chance to change things...

So, when life gets to get too hard, remember...

You can change them, only you.

Love
By: Amanda

Who knows what love is?
Does Mom? Does Dad? Does Anyone?
I dont;
I've heard that love is a fuzzy feeling, a warm and cuddly feeling.
I've heard that it can be the best thing and the worst thing.
I've never loved someone, I may have been in
love with someone, but it wasnt real. Was it?

Who will be able to tell?  

I won't;
What is love? Nobody will ever know.
Therefore, it is one of life's big questions,

unanswered.

Let us find out what love real is and

we can share a life long love together.

 

i baby-sat tonight . it smelled in the nursery . and it reminded me of you . the way you always tell me that if i loved you then i would fart . and the kids were ok tonight . remember when ... yeh i wore your grey hoodie . i was thinking of you . i hide underneath of it when we played hide and seek . and i thought of you . and how today all i wanted to do was crawl into the hoodie and hide . and the youngest . benjamin . asked me . who is you . it reminded me of you . cuz you use to say that to me . and when we played with the cars . it reminded me of you . and how you "whipped it" to my house on sunday . they ran around and screamed and laughed when tickled them and pushed me when we played the knock-down game . it reminded me of you . all those times you pushed me off the couch . and when kenny was pretending to be asleep in his crib . it reminded me of you . sleeping in my sisters car on the way home . and kenny wouldn't listen to me when i told him he couldn't have thes . it reminded me of you . yesterday . when we got in that fight . and how stupid it was . and you said you'd make it up to me today . but i was mad . and i told you that if you were going to apoligize that you should atleast call . but you didn't . and i felt so aweful for yelling at you . and last night . i wrote you this note . about how i was sorry . and how i was a bitch and how i hoped you weren't mad at me . and i colored it . and then . i folded it into a heart . and all i could do last night was think about you , in hopes you weren't mad at me . but i guess i was wrong . and than this morning when i read that note . my heart sank . and all i wanted to do was crawl into the grey hoodie and hide .