this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items
that don’t warrant a page by themselves
or seem to fit better here
pending poems index
chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page
audio files can be complemented by listening to them with the eyes closed
be objective
and not a servant to blind ideas
about benefit
understand
that even objectivity
has
limitations
specious rationalization
untempered by experience
can be a disaster
in this world
of the blind leading the blind
don’t be lead
or lead
so many here are like you
lost in a world of fiction
they can’t tell fantasy from reality
choking to death like caught fish
and won’t be unhooked and returned to the water
i’m not accountable to the fan fiction writers who penned the nonsense of zen, daoist and buddhist stories
you can pretend there’s a great hidden depth to what are clearly fictional memes
its not even good writing
a story can be an authentic story in the sense it belongs to an historical collection, but that doesn’t make it a real event that occurred historically
so many of these stories are "memeic" retellings of hackneyed buddhist, daoist and zen themes
priests giving an exegesis on "scripture" is as old as religion
there’s all sort of questions, was the supposed "master" historical or is the collection pseudepigraphical, what is the state of the source documents etc, how many transcriptions occurred, how limited are the translations by philological aspects and so on
you can’t see what i am saying because you lack literary sophistication
"woke" in the australasian context is a belief in the inherent primacy of indigenous cultures over the colonizing culture, mixed with a bit of marxism,
post-modernism, fan fiction and let’s face it, plain graft
however its just a belief, in fact cultures are cultures, you don’t have to weigh one against another, they are all a bit of a mixed bag, each has strengths and weaknesses, so i take a "utilitarian approach"
what offers the most utility in today’s context ?
one anti-utilitarian aspect of "woke" is its fixation on the supposed higher value of indigenous languages which works to the mixed culture’s disadvantage burdening people with the neurologically costly facility of two languages, sense is sense, what does the language matter, so go for what facilitates communication best without the hidden costs of
multi-lingualism
maybe woke is an overreaction to the devaluation of the indigenous culture or at least plays on that since one of its hallmarks is "insincerity", but actually in some instances there was never a devaluation of the indigenous culture, i think that is the case with new zealand which has always incorporated a lot of maori ways of looking at things in the general attitudinal mix, if you travel overseas you can see this
unnecessary bilingualism is culturally divisive and creates structural rifts and the phoniness of
"woke-speak" bends the mind with its
1984 overtones
explanations
expositions
by their nature are endless
what is endless
yet final ?
one who is neither in or out
yet not of
the natural distance of emotional time
is not there
yet all is
a dream world
strange yet amazing
something new
around each corner
the comfort
of marvels
revealing
what ?
there is no answer
because there is no question
question and answer
answer and question
are themselves
limitation
other worlds are many
its their relation to us
that is hard to discern
why international politics is so fraught is it takes disasters to change people’s minds
so you just have an endless succession of disasters and then, what it takes to remedy them while yet another slips around the corner to appear
existence always outmatches our ideas about it
stories upon stories
the lost believing
find
their belief
makes them lost
ed. woke and its siblings are the new beliefs
words
piled on more words
the flakes excoriate
their own stupidity
claiming
it
is
something
“
Back in
2021 April,
I smoked weed for the second or third time and then my double vision came back ”
my own view is eye health is so fundamental to our well being that the bar for risk is very low
cannabis has massive short term effects on the eye vasculature and also has long term neural sequalae, i would think there’s some risk there
smoking of course means you are inhaling carbon monoxide
user’s portray it as harmless, this is the usual toxicity of people trying to decoy others into the same trauma as they suffer
my main observation of heavy pot users is it makes them stupid
i have noticed that anything relating to groups of people and drug use can get very unstable
the borderlands of necessity
are the foothills of plenitude
one of which
we ever are
and the other
never are
the big "whys"
are any why
to move a step beyond
where we are
while the wizard of oz was a fraud
the witches were real
did anybody notice that ?
knitting words together like they mean something
this
is
the
road
to
perdition
“ out of sight, out of mind ”
a little conundrum
what is it out of ?
beyond beyond
that sort of nowhere
we are used to
beyond beyond
that sort of nowhere
i am used to
the pennies that drop
slowly
over my lifetime
the pennies that drop
slowly
over me
the penny that drops
slowly
over my lifetime
the slow penny
that drops
over a lifetime
if the nature of something
is you can’t figure it out
that is its nature
you can’t figure it out
fanny cornforth in her prime, in later years
sent to a poorhouse with dementia
a biography
the real endless
i cease to write about
from
tiresomeness
the
marquise de sade has emerged as a significant french literary figure, but i remember at school his only being mentioned of interest because of being held in the bastille on the eve of the french revolution
when i look at
this scroll he wrote (the
120 days of sodom)
, the writing is tiny and continuous without mistakes, an unbelievably savant feat
the scroll is
157,000 words long written over
thirty-seven evenings in the unsavoury conditions of a cell in the bastille
interestingly napoleon, this man who killed so many in often gruesome circumstances was so offended by the book "juliette" sent to him by the marquis that he had him imprisoned
does the soul have floorboards ?
we lift them
to find
nothing
what exists
and what doesn’t exist
a conundrum
we hardly ever consider
yet
our lives
transit
back and forth
continually
words can be broken
in more ways than one
as
we
find
out
vladimir putin is a very strange thing
a time capsule or pandora’s box from soviet russia that has got opened releasing the plagues
xi jinping was only born a year later and he is reigniting a long forgotten war with
chiang kai-shek
the past resurrecting in the future
the dream of red mansions
video
“
What is something really dangerous that most people don’t realise ? ”
sugar
insulin resistance is what kills you
christianity follows the usual cult tricks
a reasonable look
at social boundaries to open you up
followed by some insane narcissism
christianity was born in a highly sectarian culture and with its crossing of those boundaries it became suitable as a religion of empire
there is a view that christianity is a deliberate construction to suit the roman empire which has some truth, interestingly its more true of islam which is a designed empire builder
the original tall poppy
julius caesar
cut down
by the envious
lesser
supermarios bros
there’s a whole cultural iconography i am not very familiar with
food for today’s adhd generations
actually the plot and visual richness of the film, will be able to be "ported" into the games eventually through artificial intelligence, so the film meets a need created by a certain sparseness in the game limited by the inadequacies of today’s game creating software
we search for a path
it dissolves on looking
where did we tread
we don’t know
all these road rage attacks must be the tip of a domestic violence iceberg
i would take alexander dugin’s
missive as a sign of increasing political instability in russia, stress cracks showing that something has to give
the basic problem is the russian and ukrainian casualty rates, its not
WW2 where entire generations of young men were obliterated
something’s starting to happen
alexander dugin’s mad rambling cost him his daughter’s life
i wonder if he will ever make that connection ?
if our lives
become
flickering
candles
in the hands
of the angel of death
there would
seem to be more
than the fading
that will
occur
roy lichtechestein pulled of one of the great art heists of the twentieth century, plundering comics for what are clear copyright violations and flagrant plagiarization
you can tell the way he has redrawn
the pictures that he was shamelessly aware of what he was doing
he must have thought he had found el dorado, an endless source of money making material
the comic artists themselves earned a pittance and the original art is much better imo
"enlightenment"
is a disease
a leprosy of the mind
still they line up to catch it
go figure
education
fails
one size
doesn’t fit all
or
anything
like it
this idea
that something composed
of discrete parts that can’t be escaped from
in fact can be terminated and hence
escaped from
things tend to dysfunction
from function
edges intrude and the true nature
of not seeing
asserts
the full moon
and a few nights either side
the day doesn’t die
but resurrects
intermittently
a taste of eternity
i don’t have the energy for
and can do without
that single eye
in a clear sky
seeing all and no doubt
more than it wants
the religiously accredited
holy, saintly, enlightened, master, disciple
are like
paper cutouts
because
that is what the accreditation
is
like
a seal opened
something new
invites the next
to be opened
and so on
the power of abstraction
is bedevilled
by its inability
to map predictably
onto
the specific
that’s not to say
it doesn’t map
it does
this side
that side
there is a stone bridge
the cobbles
hurt
on entering the asylum
you begin to doubt your sanity
longer
you have cause to doubt
your
sanity
you can’t read and reply to what is being said to you, what can i do ?
ed. the web is full of these types, totally unable to handle feedback on the unending lunatic projections they make
i was never a fan of picasso, but have grown to understand him better recently, especially because i learnt he was also an artistic prodigy as a child so there is some deep talent there
in this painting you can see a sort of impenetrable solipsistic isolation in the women’s faces, yet their sameness
the question is open
you can’t close the question with an answer
artistic voyeurs
until they engage
they remain
voyeurs
we are now in a cold war with china
i quite like stephen kotkin’s view that
this is necessary and very much preferable to being in a "hot war"
actually the
russo-ukraine war, while not nominally involved with nato is edging very close to a hot war ?
hopefully the situation with china will remain more distanced and ambiguous, perhaps the newly coined phrase "hybrid war" does cover the present situation adequately ?
a lot of religion is "philosophy by idiots", see where you fit in that
the pathetic blinkered too lazy to do any
wide-ranging reading
a way of looking at north korea is its the world’s last functioning true monarchy
three lines
nineteen words
no sense
in any
of
them
ed. i’m not going to bother to quote what this is referring to
the fake
simulate
knowledge
by repeating
the nonsense
of others
that’s how you know they are fake
they can’t tell the difference
to the extent
they trash knowledge
some of these redditors have a terrible writing style and are patronising with no intellectual depth !
they don’t listen, write nonsense and their thinking is entrained by defensiveness
short of sleep
the world
fractures
from its wholeness
incompetence reigns
yet
this may be
a truer
state of affairs
what is a woman ?
a grey area that is also black and white
ed. what chris hipkins never said
quite a good
commentary by sean plunket
its interesting that this whole woke thing has its origins in the french
post-modernist intellectual movement that then somehow got enmeshed in the universities
sylvia
wanting to move
from vertical to horizontal
tired of waiting
ensured it
the trees and flowers wept
but conceded
in difficulty
anything is possible
the "killing" of vladlen tatarsky is not a murder, but a justified wartime offensive action
first video
down the page , real trojan horse stuff, you can see he is pleased with the bust he was given !
ideologues and propagandists unfairly escape the risk of war and even if whatever war is lost, usually escape with a light punishment, martin heidegger being an egregious example, their significance is way underrated
what is the difference between a
pergola , pergoda and pagoda ?
a question that never occurred to me over a lifetime
the answer
another view
clarity comes and goes
it begins with opaque
and
ends
with
opaque
once you understand how easily humans can kill each other and our genetically programmed alertness to this, a lot of contact sports suddenly make sense
boxing for instance and
MMA
people
blind to being objective
mess you
up
avoiding joint injuries is a real issue with weightlifting
once a joint gets injured it loses its true functional modality setting you up for arthritis later in life
in addition as one gets older joints wear out through excessive or stressful use
the body is not really designed for repetitive action
asked to describe
one is quiet
there is no description
solipsism holds all the answers
picking and choosing occurs
but
is
seen
a square moon
would not
be
the
same
kabbalah
magical symbols
necronomicons
grimoires
trying
to
induct
that laughable
sliver
of
fear
banished
forever
by
one
good
poem
kabbalah
magical symbols
necronomicons
grimoires
trying
to
induct
that laughable
sliver
of
fear
banished
by
one
good
poem
white road , anglesea, painted by clarice beckett
another one , two figures in red walking towards one another, people used to walk a lot and phone lines were everywhere, one of the major technologies of the day
the turtle nosed snake
indwelling in all of us
the south mountain yawns
its seen it all before
what i devote myself to
seems to elude me
yet
if i devote myself
to what eludes me
before i start
i am eluded
its the ukraine’s decommissioning of its nuclear weapons after the breakup of the soviet union that made it vulnerable to invasion by russia, we are living with a concrete example of unilateral disarmament
new zealand may think its "out of the blow", but historically china has picked off islands first
had the chinese succeeded in their attempted invasion of java in
1292, the history of australia and new zealand would have likely been one of the chinese colonialism
fortunately, the javanese were too wily for them
its not difficult to imagine a non nuclear australia and new zealand being threatened by a china now in control of taiwan moving in first on new zealand then forcing surrender by australia with the nuclear threat from china without risk of retaliation
i think people have trouble understanding china is a millennium old empire constantly at war with neighbours and the
19th and twentieth centuries when it was weak and torn apart by warlords is historically anomalous, for long long periods it has been the greatest empire in the world, at one stage they were even able to ship a giraffe back from africa
the depth of
cyber warfare , disinformation and surveillance with state actors who unlike criminals can perform and execute effectively is just staggering
the web can take you into spaces that previously you could not have conceived of
maria mayer, a russian spy living in solvenia
recently arrested had an online gallery to cover her movements around the
EC
you can still
see it on instagram, she had appalling taste !
to understand bitcoin, compare it to the art market which is basically about establishing provenance for unique objects, that is they are unforgeable with aesthetic value a secondary consideration
where you have an unforgeable object with a limited supply then it has value (think gold) and in addition with bitcoin you have the ability for rapid and consistent electronic transfer
why nft’s didn’t work is there was an unlimited supply
of course the weakness of bitcoin is competing coins that work better, but until they turn up bitcoin will remain dominant
the weirdness of russia
the way it preferentially kills its own
in comparison to any enemy
the weirdness of russia
the way it preferentially kills its own
compared to an enemy
all these australians
they have no idea of what is happening in alice springs
its a re-assertion of tribal law and life
not compatible with modern living
these people with a romanticised view of
pre-european life
well it was violent and murderous
thomas hobbes had his point
in today’s dissembling toolbox
the claim of being an intrinsic victim necessitating a
self-defined remedy
apologies that mean "i don’t apologise"
a marxist level of
self-importance and "rightness"
entitlement so high it floats away like a weather balloon
superficial knowledge that even one google search would evaporate
intellectual laziness, malign
self-entitled stupidity, distain for a reading age any higher than
pre-school
well such is a list and i think the problems simply change generation to generation unlike the proverbial leopard
a monk asked zhaozhou : you knew nanquan personally ?
he replied : and the rest
ed. i think the monk is trying imply that nanquan gave zhaozhou some special teaching, but he retorts that it was much more broad based than that i.e. nanquan was helpful but it was really zhaozhou’s diligence and own work that gave him his facility
how pathetic
the scriptural exegetists
commenting on rot
they add more rot
and think this is living
an aphorism
a connectivity with something deeper
that is not explicable
yet
the aphorism
is explicable
the wall of being
is not a wall
we just look at it
inside out
what goes where ?
where to who ?
too-wit too — woo
the female mind
a twisted mess of shards
that cut all who come
into contact with it
the female mind
a twisted mass of shards
that cut all who come
into contact with it
a false question
gives a correct answer
rectifying
and not rectifying
is the essence
one thing i have learnt
"too much autism under one roof"
is to be avoided
the
3 volt lithium coin battery (
CR2032) for the
BIOS values on my motherboard checked out ok for the open circuit voltage in situ and out of the holder, but i was losing the bios information on powering the computer down
however when i put a green led across the battery the voltage dropped down to about
2 volts (
30m
A, way over spec but apparently they can handle it), but on good batteries the voltage only dropped to about
2.68 volts, so the open circuit voltage can be deceiving and you need a load like a
LED to see the true state of affairs
you can also use blue or white leds but the voltages will likely a be a bit higher, and they have the advantage of the current draw being less, but the green led was fine
be careful with disposing of coin batteries, they are harmful if swallowed and young children doing this is a known problem
the world never projects the way we think it will
see the grandparents
comprehend the grandchildren
four suits
different cards showing
if you love your country you must love its kin, why then are you killing ukrainians and kowtowing to the chinese ?
this is the giant discontinuity that will bring down putin
enlightenment and buddha are fictions
god and jesus are fictions
muhammad and gabriel are fictions
the above is not a fiction
fictional worlds have inconsistences
it never occurs to us
that the real world
does
too
words in sequence
and out of sequence
crack the veneer
of
life
too full of knowledge
judgment gets squeezed out
an interesting
page on the nutritional differences between lamb and beef
lamb tends to make me migrainey but helps with sleep, i don’t know why
the only "herbs" i use are chilli peppers and grated ginger together in cooking because they in combination are
anti-cancer
i haven’t taken probiotics for years but when i did, it was single species like
Lactobacillus rhamnosus
GG
acidophilus only yogurts i also liked
i find cooked shredded coconut the only useful prebiotic, if a bit migrainey
you can see the russian trolls/astroturfers at work in the comments on
russia today , they "love putin" and are very happy to be in a "protected occupation" and not in bakhmut
they clearly don’t believe a word they write
i guess "astroturfing" and its
AI implementation will be a major fixture on the web, with its tentacles totally pervasive
“ listen. so i was just sitting on the couch when i suddenly realized that someone in r|zen appears to have been writing comments that where probably chinese characters in english. like you are writing in english, but as if you were thinking in chinese and then making a direct translation of chinese characters into english words
so if someone was to translate those words you wrote from english into chinese, they would come out in some form of chinese as if they were actually spoken originally in chinese, and not in english
i didn’t know who it was, so i searched posts until i found one and it was you ”
my reply
well i have read a lot of chinese poetry (in translation of course as i can't read any chinese) and they do think a bit different, more semantically dense and minimally grammatic than english and basically targeted at an intelligent literate audience which was the administrative class, the same class that supported ch’an
its interesting to compare chinese poems with ryōkan who was writing for a general audience, often farmers and tonally, they are quite different
you have made a very interesting comment thanks
the cornea is the most nerve dense organ in the body, interfere with it at your peril !
we are so dependent on our eyes for our quality of life that any problems considerably degrade that
glittering seas
sonorous mountain tops
verdant valleys and trinkling streams
they do not last
because we do not last
the problem with post modernism and its critique on power (of itself not wrong) is that they take it a step further and apply a utopian value system and attempt to create a uniform distribution that historically has never worked, the constant of power in reality always being confined to small groups who try to maintain it with varying degrees of ferocity
"woke" is an example of this postmodernist theory, fortunately so flawed in its inconsistencies and the general level of retardation in its adherents that it is not a serious threat to the existing social order in the way bolshevism was though there is an undercurrent of marxism
art
is
intelligent
insanity
a solution (of the equations of string theory) is an approximation to a quantum state which is what
really describes the universe
the mind is a prediction machine, its constantly involved in this sort of activity just to keep a formed world about you
faux religious ideas based on some sort of zero mental activity state like "the cessation of suffering", god’s peace, nirvana are just the usual craziness
even sleep is highly active with drastic functional shifts in the brain
not a nigerian princeling or general’s daughter with problems hiding what is rightfully theirs from an unjust world, but
the real thing
Nazi
Party =
NAtional so
ZIalist
German
Workers’
Party; and its level of stupidity can be gauged by its forcing half the team who worked on the theory enabling the development of the atomic bomb to flee germany because they were jewish and one of those (otto frisch) ended up instrumental in the manhatten project along with many other émigrés who no doubt advanced the timetable by years
interestingly german scientists were very lukewarm on the prospects of an atomic bomb in
WW2, fortunately for the allies as the japanese were surprisingly advanced in the development of a bomb and a well funded combined effort may have seen them producing such a weapon about the same time as the americans
another effect of the "diaspora" from germany and europe was the rise of hollywood with the incredible influx of entertainment talent
anybody reading about the last weeks in the berlin bunker can only come away thinking what a bunch of insane stupids !
interestingly hitler was deliberately childless and yet indirectly killed more than almost
any-one else ever
endless the monks
asserting themselves against the master
who tells them
neither truth
nor falsity
failing to understand
they waste their time
the zen koan
"there are no teachers of zen"
well
it turns out
there is no zen either
women’s make-up has always been a black hole
of toxicity and lack of regulation
the problem with eihei dogen, is not eihei himself but his elevation into a "cult god" by the soto zen sect and his writings are literally scripture than cannot be questioned by the faithful
when you can’t ask, "what if he’s wrong", then there is a problem
its a very christian paradigm actually and the worst is the monotonous bores who drone on and on with some wacked out "interpretations" of his more voynichated writings
unlike a lot of zen
ryōkan was real person
and those poems he wrote he actually wrote
and the places he wrote about
were real places
actually he was a poet, zen is their own claim
so its not surprising he was real
ed. there is a better than usual
translation of ryōkan by john stevens called "dewdrops on a lotus leaf"
, a lot of what is out there is stupid soppy designed to indoctrinate
roads
weave apart
intersect
and come together again
a succession of moments of truth
only to fragment
into the nothingness
of the unbenign
fog
of
life
stories
the insane tell themselves
and you
neither fantasy or reality
outside the boundaries
they have
a surprising salience
stories
the insane tell themselves
neither fantasy or reality
outside the boundaries
they have
a surprising salience
computation
the solving of problems
a vast meta in itself
yet how to
unsolve
the solved ?
looking at the strange characters of urdu
incomprehensible
yet to another will speak a clear understanding
so is life and we to each other
borderline personality disorder is a no exit street, fail to learn how to recognize it at your peril !
these gaslighting manipulators bring disaster to all around them
women are not like men, they can’t reason their way into "love". either they love you or they don’t !
sleep
some realm of somewhere
other than here
the brain
a
pinwheel
rolling along
a railway track
always
unstable
exegesis
the impaired
commenting
on
impairment
polynomial time = nondeterministic polynomial time
problems that can be solved
and problems that can’t be solved
but for which
solutions can be verified
the solution of the solving
has yet to be verified
who would have thought rupert murdoch would be such a vigorous old fool ?
four and now five wives
and he still doesn’t understand women
wealth being honey to flies
how we are born
what we are born into
the dice of existence
rolled for the first time
oppressive
difference
asynchronous
with this
life
as we know it
commonality
bites
like
an executor’s
axe
or burns
like an
immolation
i think emily bronte picked up
TB at the "clergy daughter’s school" at cowan bridge as she felt her health was never the same after being there, it can remain latent for decades
the harm that boarding school did to the brontë family was beyond tragic, a deep colour that pervaded all that was to follow
i agree with
this video , she was autistic
i am sure the sisters together had an accelerated artistic development through their mutual interaction, hence the very high quality of their writings so young
writing
helps isolate ourselves
from
the common herd
and
their idiocy
the beauty of memory
can flower
in ourselves
“ people, i can’t stand them ”
what about yourself ?
“ i’m not a person ”
politicians and diplomats wouldn’t last a minute if they said what they really thought
the way of the world
putin is selling out russia to china and killing his own ethnic kin, its really bizarre
the universality of aphorisms and poetry
there’s nothing that cannot be expressed
only an endlessness of the yet to be discovered
is and is not
knitting
reality
now i’m gone
all those people who hated me
would have razed the earth to get rid of me
they have gone too
the flame of hatred burns
scarring memory
but
water off a ducks back for some
sometimes i feel
like a man who cannot eat
without inadvertently breaking the tableware
mansplaining
they do it to themselves
all things
all topics
endless
the
explanations
that
amount
to nothing
catherine of siena is interesting, destroys any conventional notions about a person being a saint for sure
damien hirst’s "treasures from the wreck of the unbelievable" is such a hackneyed theme, damien you lack your own imagination, but of course your art has always shown that
how can god be both infinite and perfect ?
clearly infinitude must of necessity include "imperfection"
or there’s something the "infinite god" is not
actually for the notion of god to be sensible ontologically, there must be that which
he/she/it is not
therefore there is something outside of god
oh dear, back to the beginning
dull grey men
in their shiny uniforms
epaulettes
blazen in gold
brutality
within
a disconnect
what i understand
what you understand
no bridge
just chasm
hilarious, lunch in the middle of the moroccan
western sahara by the only tree as far as the eye can see
cool
drone footage , the drone must be able to track the control unit
“
Does anyone else have a poor sense of reality ? ”
relax, reality has a poor sense of itself
an old book
pressed between its pages
that open to dried flowers
an
energy
once there
but only the memory is left
topical
40% hydrogen peroxide works wonders on acne, just be careful with it
the flaw of "the purge" is any small group of people could set an entire city alight in a day without the active restraint of the police
downvotes are a decoy to pacify that 10% of any message board population who would not rest from badgering the mods until your post is removed because it puts their noses out of joint
another way of looking at them is they are in effect upvotes because of the way you have written your comment/
OP means it has been compelled to be read, yet they can’t think of any good argument against it so they are scared to actually reply for fear of looking a fool (quite a justified fear of course given the usual literacy and intelligence levels of these people)
female
aphorists
on the net
their lives
and poor judgment on display
insight
learned
the
hard
way
those "seekers"
the spawn of hell
looking for what they cannot find
because they are looking
you’re a seeker ?
the babies
feathers ruffled by contradiction
of their inanities
the mask falls away
revealing dull stupids
intent on
remaining that way
1200 years ago
nanquan told a monk
“ i can’t explain ”
1200 years later
the idiots still pour forth
their explanations
quantum computing is not what you think it is, rather its a mode of thought familiar to us all, a back and forth, to and froing of an assessment of the odds
scott aaronson
explains
"theories of everything"
like perpetual motion machines
are
fool’s gold
the nature of a message board thread is not that each comment made drops the sense of what has come before, but that the sense accumulates, so many act like what they have said before is disconnected from what they say now !
stupid hypocrites !
claiming while disclaiming
he
really
claims
this is a standard religious trick, its done all the time, i'm not enlightened/holy but i'm really enlightened/holy
no shame, no pain
why not "unpack" the way you use "enlightenment" ?
does it mean anything at all , or is it the usual religious mirage ?
he/she is enlightened ? holy, saintly, one of god’s chosen ?
a bodhisattva ?
the endless list of bullshit
meditating or not, mirrors are still chased to futility !
large is large
but not so large
as very large
which is but a drop
compared to
the largest
life has a code
that is only decoded
through experience
though
this
appears
to be
of tangential
interest
to us
well, an explanation of what a
monte-carlo simulation is i can understand
i’m feeling quite impressed with myself, i have wanted to know what it means for thirty years, basically its a random dynamic abstraction/simplification of computationally impossible/undesirably large data sets
some people can explain clearly, most can’t
how chatGPT works , you can see it has limitations in terms of semantic sophistication
the opposite of a fact is a fiction and the fiction can be more profoundly true than the fact
anybody interested ? no problem if you’re not and don’t mind a deep held festering resentment lasting the remainder of a lifetime
the way
has no friends
one illusion cannot support another
zen and buddhism portray themselves as not religions, but they are cults like all religions
the first step to handling any religion, eastern or western is to understand they have millennia of "brain washing" technology behind them, once you start to see that and no longer take the glib surface appearance as real, you begin to escape
even a recent religion like scientology is like this, they just "borrow" the techniques and actually scientology is somewhat "overdense" with these "borrowings"
like all scams, you have to watch out for yourself
if the research/study doesn’t make sense just put it aside and come back to it in several days, and you only need to pick the essentials of what you want to know
everything is impossible until its done
everything is possible until its done
the basic principle of the
specific carbohydrate diet seems not to be well understood
so there’s food that is digested and absorbed quickly or at least reasonably quick, since its gone
, bacteria and yeast can’t eat it
but very slow digesting food, especially some carbohydrates and similar, hang around in the gut to feed bad bacteria
it goes right back to the ancient greek olympics to bring athletes to peak condition, but today is used for children and adults with
UC,
IBD and other digestive and inflammatory gut difficulties, the diet was developed by dr. sidney haas and elaine gottschall
i have my own
updated version of the diet, the biofilm carbohydrate diet
words usually have more than one meaning or often shade into other meanings depending on context, its not one meaning to the exclusion of others, this actually is the basis of poetry
retirement homes
horses for courses
or
graves for the living dead ?
there is a basic problem with trans hormone therapy (male to female) and its that although the brain may be to varying degrees female, the body in all its aspects is developmentally quite male and
HRT disrupts this and the result therefore will necessarily be decoherent
also philosophically imo there are no answers in gender identity,
no-one is purely female or male
university medical schools are rarely up with the latest research and often
10 to
20 years behind, reading the research yourself is tremendously empowering, one of the wonders of google
often it pays to read it several times over a week or more to let the sense fall into place, you don’t have to understand everything a study says, just the essentials as it affects you
claims of enlightenment
the bottom dropping out of the black lacquer bucket
only to fall
into another bucket
opening and falling is the only escape
because the bottom closes up again
this hard truth
the "spiritual" ignore
stuck
in their one understanding
the uncountable infinities
pass them by
i think people expect too much from doctors, they don’t have perfect knowledge by any means and there is even a special word for medical mistakes called "iatrogenic"
in a sense they are tradesmen, and actually historically that was the social status they had, not the religious veneration they are held in today
the problem with any country reducing carbon is that unless all countries do it, its just the usual case of the "tragedy of the commons". like china is apparently still building coal power stations at a record rate
you can’t have war and get carbon reduction !
the whole ukraine problem was created by the west when they decommissioned its nuclear armament inherited from the soviets and so it lost its best defence against russia, it is only the doctrine of "mutually assured destruction" (
MAD) that will create a stable enough world for carbon reduction to be done in a way that avoids "the tragedy of the commons"
in particular nuclear power stations are really the answer from a lot of viewpoints, but they are incredibly vulnerable to missile attack, without a nuclear weapon enforced peace, a lot of countries are going to be be hesitant to make themselves so exposed
new zealand just got indirectly gifted the most valuable financial benefit it will ever get, the half a trillion dollars of australia’s
AUKUS nuclear submarine commitment
australia has not been lulled into a doctrine of appeasement
hardly a word in new zealand media of course
this new crazy world we live in
death from above , a finnish crowd funded game simulating drone warfare in the ukraine
the finns do not love the russians
“
In
Death
From
Above, you are a lone
Ukrainian military drone operator battling
Russian occupation forces.
Hidden behind enemy lines, you command a 'super drone' to seek and destroy tanks, take back communication towers, recover stolen goods, and fight for a better tomorrow.
Slava
Ukraini ! ”
risk is an estimate of certainty
results vary
A man who’s never seen war is like a woman who’s never given birth — soft in the head
the above
quote by
andrei platonov
i quite like his unfinished play
grandmother’s little hut
his weakness is his "communist utopianism" but there’s a very original mind there
false and true shift
like a mirage
wavering in the distance
hard to understand
the
duochrome test which is quite sensitive can be a rough guide to your refraction
red side clearer/crisper means short sighted, green clearer means long sighted (one uncovered eye at a time)
try different distances
“
On a smartphone or a bigger screen ? ”
the larger letters might be ok for a smart phone, once you see what you are looking for, its pretty obvious
pompeii
life interrupted
keats’ grecian urn
in the prosaic
educational
conscious
unconscious
the "spiritual"
look for answers
with answers
no wonder
they
go
backwards
“ "where mazu stomps a zen master"; the baiyun duan
24 translated by suru
when master shuilao joined mazu, he bowed then stood, desiring then to ask a question. mazu then stamped and stamped and as he fell back shuilao suddenly had a great awakening
starting to laugh, " ha ha! ", and with a great big smile, he said, " very strange ! very strange ! hundred of thousands of dharma gates, limitless subtle meaning, all on the tip of a hair — i know them all to the root ! " ”
my reply
yet he fell
simplifying
wanting a root
of reality
not understanding
a forest
is
a forest
“
What’s the hardest thing for you to comprehend about the
American culture ? ”
a national system of herding children into school rooms and throwing dice as to whether they get shot or not with no legal redress
growing understanding
a slow stitching in time
the unperceived
becomes
perceived
“
Pre-sleep light exposure remained significantly associated with
gestational diabetes ”
“
Pre-sleep light exposure increases heart rate and may lead to abdominal obesity, insulin resistance, increased blood pressure ”
no mention of this new study by the toads of the press of course, being intelligent about health is way beyond their ken
the problem is the amount of blue in white light being an activity and synchronising signal for the circadian rhythm so basically you want to cut back the amount of white/blue light before going to bed, i switch onto a red led head lamp for an hour or more, the beauty of red leds is they have a strictly red spectrum with the exception of red led filament bulbs which actually have quite a bit of blue in their light because they use a phosphor excited by blue light
it never used to be such a problem because the old fashioned plain incandescent filament bulbs with their more "brown" light had less blue in, so its really emergent in the last five years
“ politics focuses character ”
stephen kotkin on how to explain murderous disasters like stalinist russia, that is, political beliefs shaping normative behaviour into something cruel and destructive
the belief in a right to russian hegemony being behind their invasion of the ukraine
china has the same belief, historical echoes hitting a resonance of capability
Slavoj
Zizek and
Stephen
Kotkin
in discussion
“
I had to have a couple of courses of doxycycline and several of azithromycin over
12-18 months and now my gut is really screwed
I’m exhausted, don’t sleep well, and generally my digestion is in poor shape
I realised my microbiome was screwed (had a similar issue years ago so not totally surprised), and
I’m taking seeking health probiota histaminx, but after a couple of weeks I feel like this isn’t going to do it on its own.
I’m not sure how to proceed ? ”
my reply
i ate a
Lactobacillus
Acidophilus only yogurt for a while after a sustained course of tetracycline years ago which seemed to work, however some of these modern antibiotics are way more toxic, scarily so actually
i would drop the
Pro
Biota
Histamin
X, bifidum bacteria can be really bad news
“
Can you expand on the bifidum being bad news ? ”
its a colon and lower intestine bacteria, the stomach and upper intestine is the wrong place for it
so to take bifido, in theory they need some sort of delayed release encapsulation, though i don’t know how well it works
also elaine gottschall, the developer of the
specific carbohydrate diet was dead against taking it
yeah, kefir was a bad experience for me as well, you can "pasturize" kefir and yogurts by heating to about
70°C, there is benefit to this even though it kills the bacteria because it creates antigens from the bits of the now dead bacteria
the
houston enzymes AFP pep, zyme prime and no fenol are very helpful and so is candex taken occasionally
been through it all and come out the other side, i really disagree with
99% of the advice given, why people get it so wrong i don't know, but i totally eschew all this fermented stuff, because my digestive system doesn’t work well enough to control all these supposedly good bacteria
“
Something to consider: how did you learn to speak ? ”
its designed into the brain by evolution, babies and very young children in effect fit sound into a deep structure semantic template
the neural wiring for using the mouth and tongue is all there in the genes
given the rapidity with which they pick up their language, there is no other possibility
the "single transcendent road"
they claim to walk on
or see
is not there
this illusion
so pitiful
its too easy
to create
nonsense
and treat it
as real,
still
can something be seen
in hindsight?
What’s your experience in identifying those who claim to be "enlightened" ?
enlightened about what ?
its actually a rhetorical (ed. aka sophistical) trick to remove the context, eg he was enlightened about the water supply situation (guess what i am doing at the moment !)
if you just say he was "enlightened" then you strip the context and it has a pseudo profundity, but in reality it needs a context to be meaningful
you have moved away from the accepted meaning as an adjective
redefining the english language, with some exceptions is not healthy
its actually a problem with "woke" terminology
the mediocre
contained by their own ideas
and unwilling to step outside them
denial of the experiential is becoming so embedded in todays culture, all these criticisms by people who have no practical experience in the areas they talk about, past glib and facileness actually, but oh they take themselves so seriously
a natural sense of entitlement plus a malign school system must take a substantial portion of the blame
90% of people make the mistake with their quotes of translations that they put their mind numbing commentaries to, of assuming what they quote is some bedrock of deep meaning when all they are doing is giving voice to what in the end is another person’s opinion of the sense of variable quality transcripts
you need the experience of making translations to get a perspective
instead they just spill nonsense forever
“ infinity is awfully big and eternity is a long time ”
well of course you can’t see the end
but one footstep after another
is the process
and the process is the end
so in this case
you already know how it is
where will we meet ?
in the garden the flowers cry
where is she ?
she cared for us
the sun
illuminates
your absence
neither shape nor form is seen
dreams are empty
and the moonlit landscape is unusually quiet
about what is missing
users of psychedelics
the most boring
and stupid people
missionaries
for the confusion
of their
inferior
brains
its interesting that there was so much
audience dissatisfaction with the ending of george bernard shaw’s "pygmalion" and the film and stage versions, its like he left an unsolvable problem, the play as it stands comes to a wall it can’t go past, sort of a wooden
non-dimensionality to the two male leads
god created
two universes
male and female
which begs the question
was god
male or female ?
doubt your own judgment
the old masters knew this
not
that
the audience listened
so full
of their
own
correctness
oozing into the conceptual cesspits
they called themselves
opening a book
all they have to do is read
projection upon projection
the caught birds flutter
life, debts repaid two or three times
is how it is
fortunately
we are on both sides of this equation
but i wouldn’t say
the uneven balances out
i wasn’t really familiar with virgil so searched and found
this , he certainly can write !
measure
conveying an image
to live
within it
i have been a bit behind on getting into the mobile phone world, so today i had the thrill of my first scam message, there’s a definite art to telling its a scam since this one was very convincing, it had a very neat and authentic looking presentation, where it falls down is links that return to the form they want filled with personal information instead of going to authentic external web sites and actually they do have one link going to an authentic company website, to create conviction i guess
also its own links which are variants of the supposed source eg myrealcompany.com don’t show up on the web when i use them as an actual address
one just has to be very careful and look for the red flags, in this case the outstanding one was wanting the date of birth with some spurious reason for this, i only use false ones and even have a record of what i use for various "legal" websites, really into today’s world on the net with a scammer behind every corner, they shouldn’t be asking
i fully expect the sophistication of these attempts to improve, its just a skill one will have to keep up with, inevitability on a bit of investigation they will have giveaways
there are interesting phase changes as one progresses in sorting it out; inattentional conviction, scepticism, then surety of it being a fake, its in the first phase where the danger lies, the scammers must have some success to do what they do
parentage
half you
half not you
evolution’s joke
played on solipsism
let things ride
or interfere ?
too often its the latter
when it should be the former
and the former
when it should be the latter
not much help am i ?
i never knew
monopoly was originally an american game based on
atlantic city and the london street names are not well chosen
its origin was as publicizing of the political doctrine of "georgism" which aimed to replace all taxes with one land tax
suru’s translation of baiyun duan
19
one day mazu ascended the seat
ed. to preach a sermon
baizhang rolled up his mat in front of him
mazu immediately stepped down
my comment
baizhang rolled up his mat
from the beginning
until
the end of time
nobody
listens
to what he is saying
ed. i think it was an action that was saying something
a leaving
renaissance artists had the problem of trying to say something worthwhile, yet within the constraints of the iconography of christianity
it took me a while to get what
the ascension by donatello is about, but i think its the solipsism of jesus being removed from the crowd and their obstinate malignancy
if you read tusiata avia’s poetry, you can see where she’s coming from which is as an unwilling participant in the misfit of a strongly patriarchal and highly violent polynesian neolithic culture lacking adaptation to today’s conditions , i do think the "woke" aspect of some of it is playing to the sensibilities of funders
all neolithic cultures are the same, constant tribal warfare and the need for plenty of young men who don’t brook restraint, maori, european, asian, middle eastern, its all the basic same pattern, high infant mortality, women as breeding stock, and very aggressive young men
she’s intelligent, speaks and
interviews well , a bit of an "impressario" with street smarts
some lines from
Tuālima
Mum doesn’t sing
The tuālima grows across her hand :
dark-green malu
shapes like diamonds
like birds and fish and the sea
“ What do you think of her disgusting expletive ridden foul racist language then ”
its just all "acting", poetry doesn’t sell at all, she needs to present an interesting public persona, in a sense its all fiction, entirely usual for anything in the arts, ah, performance art
for quantum physics to work and of necessity it must for this universe to exist, it proscribes faster than light travel and prescribes entanglement, they are its
boundary conditions
bad luck to all those science fiction stories and ufo nonsense that send spaceships to the earth, or gallivant between galaxies, its not possible
“ people who don’t drink alcohol — what are your reasons for not drinking ? ”
i respect my brain, kidneys, skin and liver and don’t want to expect a senile or cancer ridden old age
what they can’t understand
they diss as not understandable
what a bad attitude !
opinions
need to transit
into
informed judgement
to
cut
the
ice
who doesn’t know this ?
the opinionated !
can’t you write something that actually has meaning ?
playing the contextless game of waffle and avoidance
as i asked before
what’s the point ?
braying asses
sound like
braying asses
one of the problems with wars is the way others get drawn in
if china attacked taiwan, it would also have to attack australia as australia would not stand by and if australia got attacked then the peacenik of the south pacific would also be drawn in
this actually has been recognised by new zealand’s military with its purchase of four
Boeing
P8-A Poseidons which for the first time for decades give the country a real modern wartime capability to sink ships or submarines
unfortunately being a "peacenik" has never worked, the mongol massacres of pretty much the entire populations of comfy middle class cities in persia that never gave a serious thought for their defence is one of the egregious historical examples
the spruikers of doctrine
more than crazy
is how
the idiots occupy themselves
the phases pass
it doesn’t seem like they can
but they do
eventually
bossy they write
boss boss boss boss
its this way and not that
so they say
it can’t be any other way
why ?
because i say so !
when asked about our minds
we flounder
the intangible
can’t grasp
the intangible
this is us
amino acids proficient at building folding proteins enabled the evolution of life, its interesting that entities so chemical require a feature so mechanical to get to "the next level"
an interesting view of war is that it is an information gathering exercise to ascertain the relative position and strength of two opponents which is why the russo-ukrainian war is continuing, each side is continuing to assess the other and update its views and peace will come when the best benefit of the long term projections of both sides coincide
what the russians cannot see and is quite apparent to an outsider is that since they are in effect at war with nato, they are up against a combined economy
40 times greater than theirs and the longer the war goes on, the more this difference shows
the last time they were in this situation was the crimean war of
1854, which did not turn out well for them despite a lack of military competence by the alliance that opposed them
basic concepts like medication side effects, tapering off when stopping taking one and unstable malign synergistic health repercussions when taking more than one, increasing exponentially with each additional med seem not to be understood
the soviets prevented the british dropping supplies to the polish resistance in warsaw so they could be
killed by the germans
“
But what is at the margin of the
dharma-body ? ”
truth goes to falsity
on the margin
you can’t tell the difference
christian-speak
take some scripture
and flog it to death
for daring to assert
the executioner
is not god
the seamless monument
a zen cliché
what monument ?
what seam
that isn’t there ?
the pyramids always fascinate me because of the ratio of the
effort of construction of the pointlessness of it all being vanishingly low
a vast
co-operative project simply because of a fiction of the way they viewed reality
a more hands on "computational" view on how the pyramids might have
been built
james joyce could spend a day on two sentences
that is not for me
at least
i hope not
time and memory
the intensity leaves us
the decrement of age
i was reading about
book blurbs
why does so much we deal with these days have this sort of mentality ?
so many words
followed by more words
then one day you get it
more words follow
ad infinitum
thinking straight
a gift or curse ?
once you entangle
with
machiavelli’s
"vulgar masses"
who get traumatized
once you move beyond appearances
stalin was an insane mass murderer
why people defend him, i don’t know
one gauge of the effectiveness of my writing is my comments on you tube can get very delayed replies, up to ten or twelve years !
its rather freaky actually, to stretch across the decades like that !
“
Stalin.
Without his rapid industrialization, the nazis would have won ”
the russians would have done much better without him, you want to look further into it
despite warnings from several sources about the german invasion date, stalin refused to believe it and russia was almost totally unprepared
russian losses throughout the war were horrific
“
He still defeated the nazis ”
you really want to research the subject, its not so much the russians won as the nazis/germans lost, its like the russian invasion of the ukraine, the germans were so stretched that when the supply lines got long and the russians started to show real resistance it all started to fall apart
stalin’s saving grace was after all his leadership disasters from interfering in strategic and tactical operations, unlike hitler, he started to listen to the generals
“
What does that even mean lol ?
The red army killed
7/8 nazis killed in the war ”
this is what it means
didn’t he say, "one man’s death is a tragedy, a million is a statistic ?"
ivan the terrible was small beer compared to him
“ So you're blaming stalin for the
27 million soviets killed by the nazis in the war ? ”
somewhat yes, it was only the perceived weakness of russia under stalin that led the germans to invade in the first place
russia was rapidly industrializing under the tsar, the revolution set it back 15 years and was so inefficient it was always very far from its true potential
ten acres of nonsense
dancing in the cess pit
they go
on and on
unlike jesus, pontius pilate was an historical person and from what little we know of him he was a "kiss the bosses arse", horses and racing, "scorch the earth" and kill everybody in rebel territory sort of guy
he would have to be bemused about the huge fuss and mythology about him today, i don’t think "philosophically thoughtful" was his scene at all
the abbot called for his attendant three times, but the attendant never came
he later criticised the attendant, if you don’t come when called, when will you be there when needed ?
the attendant was abashed
the mind prior to the universe
is
your own
“
So you had a mind before the universe ? ”
what did i write ?
the wheel turns
and we come around
to the same mistake
as we made before
like we never saw it coming
and like we
wouldn’t respond the same
borderline personality disorder and gaslighting go together, when you see one, look for the other
for some reason a fair portion of the younger generation think these dysfunctions are admirable, be careful when dealing with them, its often a drug culture skill, but they don’t have to be taking drugs to pick up on how to gaslight
alcohol is a drug btw
his daughter was killed because of the nonsense he pushes
who ?
aleksandr dugin
still pushing it , no remorse
in the video interview (a touch more than halfway down the page) the interviewer and him are speaking very good english, i think the interviewer must have spent time in the usa since she has that accent and looks a bit skeptical throughout the interview, i do notice that
RT is on balance surprisingly moderate and i get an indication of resistance to what is currently happening between russia and the ukraine
he’s a true war criminal, but like martin heidegger he won’t face much in the way of punishment if and when it all collapses even though they have a huge influence on public opinion
interestingly another supposedly heavily biased news channel
al jazzera is quite good in its reporting, you just have to understand their
geo-political position a bit, but its surprisingly international and fair, as no doubt it will be staffed to a large degree by graduates from western universities
“
If Buddha’s story is bunk, where should
I learn about this stuff ?
some of the stories are bunk, others are not
there are real historical zen masters and maybe some of the transcripts are roughly what they said
if you read the more authentic stuff, a lot of the time they are berating others for thinking that this is about "learning" that you acquire knowledge and a conceptual system to place it in like in school, which is actually how a lot of net_zenners take it
there’s sorta a universal question, "how do you explain life" and the answer is not in "conceptual systems" but really an intelligent processing of your experience
so straight off, you need to learn to read more closely and with discrimination, this is the "real zen" not the billions of pages of various shades of nonsense
with a bit of meditation you start to see the personal bullshit, people don’t like that for "good reason" ie, they are so full of it
one grows out of meditation, but my personal experience is one has to start somewhere, though i could only ever do it in a group setting
also since the matter is "universal" its going to be there in various measures in other religions, poetry, literature and philosophy, if you just read zen records, that’s gonna blinker you
if its not understood as a child
it never will be
decoying is so dishonest, but can be a necessity
what you write is full of errors eg your statement that "
Huang
Po,
Bodhidharma, and
Gautama
Buddha all roundly reject this"
that’s a "declamation", you saying such and such is so doesn’t make it so and in addition there’s the problem of huang po being an historical person and the other two are novelistic fictions
you are writing is an area covered by "theology", philosophy and philology but reading you, its like watching a legless man run
quoting any text there’s problems of translations, transcriptions, historical factualness versus total fictions
dunning-kruger in a bad way, you are harming yourself
the commonality of religions is to use "wisdom literature" to validate their nonsense
so in some respects they are going to look similar
but the similarity is churned within
dissimilarity
i
can’t convey
yourselves
to
you
the problem with omnism is the doctrines themselves are a mish mash of incoherent babble which is why schism is wound into their very fabric
jacques derrida
talking about writing taking him to a new, more profound and simpler perception of the world that had a lot of power to explain it
i think this is the problem we face as adults, getting out of the limited circles of our minds into new and vigorous explanations and ways of dealing with the world, its difficult
years ago i wrote my first poem and i think it did bring a different perspective, the writing of the poem itself was something to do with the shift and though i have written a lot since, i think it is one of my best
vast rolling sea
beyond the clouds, blue empty sky
clouds like ropes
coiling and winding
uncoiling unwinding
along and beyond
the blue empty sky
looking for ourselves
it turned out to be a machine
and the ghost was not in the machine
but outside
looking for ourselves
it turned out to be a machine
the ghost turned out not to be in the machine
but outside
omnists overlook the fact that individual religions regard other religions as false
i’m understanding paintings as currency with a similar verifications process in the abstract to public ledger cryptocurrencies
if you look at the
verification process , it is in effect publishing transactions on a public ledger and the value of the painting is due to this certainty of it not being forged
in abstract terms, what is "monotheism" ?
its one cause behind everything
its just too coherent, some root condition that explains everything
where is a root condition in an ouroboros ?
if i give an answer, its because there is a question
if no question is made, where would the answer be ?
“
What if that one cause is "relativity ?" ”
What if that one cause is "absoluteness ?"
the ouroboros writhes
if you have noticed
Yeah, same idea.
Genuinely.
Is that still monotheism, in your estimation ?
i address the issue
here
which is really about what the mystical approach is and how its not "externalism", but the processing of experience
these promoters of stalin can have no acquaintance with his personal life, how he killed off or imprisoned his wife’s family after her suicide
not sane by any measure
and actually putin has a similar problem, early stage dementia
the problem with the russian political system is it can’t get rid of crazies running the place
“ not much ”
its all garbled
the way of the world
good streaked with bad
without the tempering of your own experience
you will take nonsense
as sense
how sad
that is why
we wash away
in tears
its all garbled
the way of the world
good streaked with bad
without the tempering of your own experience
you will take nonsense
as sense
how sad
that is why
we wash away
in tears
“
Like
"being-as-is" or "suchness" ”
both monotheistic
hard to escape in western culture, everything gets
re-interpreted in terms of it
if its not there
why mention it at all ?
if its there, what is it ?
“
Someone who looks for me in form
or seeks me in sound
is on a mistaken path
and cannot see the
Tathagata ”
ed. the above quote from the diamond sutra
my reply
pure and erroneous "monotheism" i am afraid
sound speaks
and seeing sees
no tathagata
who needs it ?
“
So you should view this fleeting world
A star at dawn, a bubble in a stream
A flash of lightening in a summer cloud
A flickering lamp, a phantom, and a dream ”
rather than fleeting
the world continues
why is that ?
neither continues or flees
this is beyond them
a good theory of what can be done for
SIBO dysbiosis and why in terms of diet is the
specific carbohydrate diet
the diamond sutra is just so much nonsense, of course buddhists pretend otherwise
bodhidharma
executed with his mates at heyin
how did staring at a wall help him ?
what a waste of time !
in terms of what and who ?
that’s so typical of here (ed. r|zen), you lot just throw phrases around without context trying to give an impression of profundity, but in reality its just a very through
see-able rhetorical technique and you don’t even have the
self-honesty to admit the offence
jonathan gorard gives
the only definition i have heard of quantum physics that i can understand
classical physics assumes that parallel processes involve objects that are are separate, the moment you relax that constraint then you are forced into the algebra of quantum physics, so you can see how fundamental entanglement is to particle quantum physics
in effect, quantum is how parallel processes encode to include
non-separability
“
Tell me who you are ”
not telling
because no search occurred
identity is diffuse
but not
non-existent
reality jumbled
occasionally the tumblers align
and we step
into the sacred garden
a common theme in zen is "masters" creating contradictions or paradoxes and basically asking where do you go from here ?
i think basically its a criticism of
externalism
i think it ties in with this idea of
computational irreducibility , that for complete understanding, you have to abandon theory and do the computation and so you step away from ideas which can be conveyed and into the solipsist "what cannot be conveyed"
the theory arises out of an ongoing "computational" process, its can’t arise from anything else, to work too directly on the abstract just leaves empty vacuity
looking at that deshan quote, he lived in the
8th and
9th centuries and he’s complaining of the monks making the same mistake as r|zen commentators, they are stuck in attempting a theoretical understanding, but lacking the solipsist experience they can never get anywhere
you can argue whether meditation is a genuine solipsism or a proxy, imo it can be both having seen people who have meditated for decades but might as well have been playing golf
exercise for depression, anxiety and distress
too simple for our pill dependent culture
the gospel of thomas (nag hammadi) is straight "wisdom literature" set in a certain framework with surprisingly little sectarian interpolation
all those wise souls
keeping their mouths shut
not so the unwise
we await
the drivelling
comments
a world
where cause and effect is confused
or non-existent
time walks backwards and forwards dumping you where it pleases
imagination infringes and surpasses reality
when reality is consigned to the world of dreams
a good book
does this
and more
is it only books ?
the self assured stupid
adolescent and young adult mammals
of any species
especially
males
the australian mantra
“
Guardian
Australia (ed. the newspaper/website) acknowledges the traditional owners and custodians of
Country throughout
Australia and their connections to land, waters and community.
We pay respect by giving voice to social justice, acknowledging our shared history and valuing the cultures of
First
Nations ”
have you ever read such meaningless hypocritical unctuous gobbledegook ?
philosophy
an endless trail
to some purpose
that’s the problem
like it leads somewhere
and nowhere
schools are prisons
where your brain gets chiselled into shapes
that are not you
schools are prisons
where your brain gets chiselled into a shape
that is no longer you
one can foresee an end
but you actually have to come to it
to end
it doesn’t happen
before
the marketing bubble
publicity
let it walk away
and everything collapses
does maitreya exist ?
an agent of cause ?
if not
how caused ?
cause or effect
that evaporates ?
rarity
the price of distinctness
is alienation
the sermon on the mount
an unholy prescription
of right and wrong
ed.
i read it , probably for the second or third time in my life and its a surprising mixture of "wisdom literature" mixed with "church rules", its a common trick to validate the wrong with by associating it with the right
contacts create a more skin-like microbiome in the eye which can be problematic for some
is "alice in wonderland" a universe ?
the vast expanse of time
contains so much
though today it seems compressed
yet once it wasn’t
the leisure to build and collapse
lives and time to cycle through what was familiar
all completely at home with what was occurring
"lions on the tips of multitudinous grasses" or similar is a common saying in zen, its really a buddhist notion of infinite regress, rather like the zoom fractals that you can see on youtube
an actor
you can see it easier without the sound
pays much better than having minor parts in westerns
if there’s one thing i have learnt watching
matt armstrong , its that ease of maintenance, low complexity and reliability are the most significant factors in buying a car
only the crazy or very wealthy buy lamborginis, bmws or ferraris and in the case of ferraris, have a "death wish" as well
the "not too bright"
taking the words
of the "not too bright"
as
bright
the way of the world
and has created more trouble
than can be counted
held in low esteem
by the world
forcing a questioning of it
is the way forward
to understanding what can be understood of it
as for what can’t . . .
from the horse’s mouth
ed. deshan quoted from dahui’s "treasury of the eye of true teaching"
#162 translated by thomas cleary
“
Don’t go running off flattening your feet — there is no special religious path to study.
If anything is attained by study, it is secondary or tertiary, an externalist view ”
r|zen, den of "externalism"
heaven
nirvana
paradise
one life
rewarded by another
delusion²
writing
you don’t have to try
you don’t have to go anywhere
it will fall into your lap
when its due
what is an exam ?
a test of conformity
sometimes this has validity
sometimes not
unanswerable questions
can look like
they have many answers
i know its trivial, but my own experience is spelling mistakes are taken by some as an excuse to diss the writing the mistake is embedded in, so i take a lot of care not to make them
, though sometimes i do vary the spelling or grammar from what is conventional
holy
a saint
buddhas out in the world
the fakes and their hierarchies
nonsense piled upon nonsense
only you
are true
if you go where people can reach you
you are not there yet
“ where is not there yet ? ”
where people can’t reach you
“
You had one eye in the mirror, as you watched yourself
gavotte ”
fourth line, second verse of carly simon’s "you’re so vain" song, she’s actually the daughter of richard simon,
co-founder of the publisher simon
& schuster which might explain the use of such an unashamedly literary word whose meaning anchors the song
surupamaerl
2’s translation of baiyun duan’s case seven : vimalakirti was silent
“ in the vimalakirti sutra, of thirty two bodhisattvas, everyone spoke of the
dharma-gate of
non-duality when they arrived at vimalakirti’s house, but he alone was silent
in admiration, manjusri exclaimed, "even without speech or written words, there is the true entry of the
dharma-gate of
non-duality ! "
one and two and one hundred ten millions . . .
use your fingers to count, the amount is unmanageable —
for now, place it before the hazy window
you can reckon it again tomorrow ”
my reply
manjusri
fools himself
and others
silence
and talk
go together
but only
one day in three hundred
is right
truth and falsity
a hard conundrum
when the false is true
and the true false
“
In what way is the writing style different in men and women ? ”
women tend to write shorter sentences and there is more discontinuity between sentences.
the big giveaway is the content difference, but attention works quite differently in women, by male standards women look a bit "attention deficit" yet can focus better on detail but i do find women tend to get bound up in their own views and have trouble seeing the broader picture
since there is so much written communication these days, its an interesting little puzzle to observe the differences
“
I think
I get what you mean, thank you for explaining.
I also find that women tend to show more emotions be it positive or negative in their replies, if that makes sense ”
lol, for sure, if they get annoyed, they can get really unpleasant
is appropriate behaviour in different situations such a hard thing to understand ?
what is fine with friends and family can be inappropriate in other circumstances
if social skills are not natural, they have to be built from observation and experience, maybe its always a case of steering between rocks like it is with me ?
“
I’m glad
I have a good therapist, because otherwise you might have sent me spiralling on this one.
Better luck next time ”
you can’t hack rational discussion ?
there’s no spiralling in objectivity
you have totally failed to take the point i was making and all you really have to do is look from her point of view
my reworking/rebuilding of a story about nansen
nanquan asked a monk
“ did you love the energy of the storm last night ? ”
the monk replied
“ it was great ! ”
nanquan replied "too bad it knocked down the cedar at the gate"
another monk, overhearing this asked "what is going on ?"
nanquan replied
“ something was lost that could have been found ”
i feel a translation is a literary or art work and therefore should have some aesthetic value
men killed in war
the farce of ceremony
the facile covering
of the unresolvable
women are constantly having to evaluate whether strange men are a danger to them, or not
if you are a man in that position, it always pays to give some signals of reassurance, minding your own business or a little light conversation are some ways
this is extraordinary,
hardly believable , but its an intercepted cell phone call of a russian soldier in a difficult front line position (
40 meters from the ukrainians near kharkiv)
, complaining to his wife who has complained about the situation to a general !
the dream of an understanding that explains all
only the idle would entertain it
youth and age
one fools the other
youth and age
one fools another
literal translations are only as good as the source transcript which itself may/will have a degree of garbling
of course the literary and religious universes are full of ghastly "interpretative" translations
there is no such thing as a "wonderful human"
illusion’s have no validity if it wasn’t for the people pursuing them
your dream is not mine
if you are close to something
you lose your objectivity
if you are far away
you lose the detail
seeing where another sees
and not seeing
where another sees
and seeing where another doesn’t see
and not seeing where another doesn’t see
there is some division that doesn’t make sense
and
never will
pillows
lead to dreams that shatter
there is no comfort in this life
yet there is comfort
pillows
give rise
to
dreams
that shatter
life is infinite
yet recurring circles
this quandary
how to express ?
they have time to waste
so they waste it
the young
and it is wasted for them
you are in total denial about having a problem, denial is complete i guess
i can’t compete with your lack of shame in writing bookloads of rubbish
a majority of one
can hold true
and often doesn’t
when everyone tells you have a problem
and you disagree
time to revisit
the problem
hostile to no point ! story of your life?
let us know !
when denial becomes savancy
the brick wall of being
was built long ago
if you are not going to read what i write, what can i say ?
do some contemplative work, you are just reading and regurgitating book nonsense
brick walls for heads
they can’t see past it
life seen through the filter of another
is not your life
and turns out to be
different
emergent versus
non-emergent
what’s at the base
is there a base ?
“ once, while the reverend nanquan was cutting grass, a monk asked, "what is the path to get to nanquan’s dwelling place ?"
the reverend raised up his scythe and said, "i bought this scythe for 30 coins"
the monk replied, "i didn’t ask about that. what is the path to get to nanquan’s dwelling place ? "
the reverend replied, "my expenditures befit the sharpest" ”
my reply
no dwelling
he dwells for a while
mostly he dwells
as dwells
you can’t cut
or sell that
i really avoid monotheism and its equivalents
it is a mistaken perception
if the premise is flawed, all that follows will be flawed
pretender’s random talk
without meaning
at which they balk
i think
vladimir solovyov is a deliberate foil to putin’s replacement, by making putin look like a moderate compared to solovyov’s bridling to start a nuclear holocaust
the soviet experience has inducted a free floating hypocrisy and the ability to totally decouple what one one thinks from what one says, a nationwide psychosis
to me the big surprise is the degree to which technology is enabling an extreme of social control without the execution level of repression in china and russia that existed under mao and stalin and beria
in the west it has gone the other way, so it depends how its handled i guess
stories
penetrated by more stories
what a waste of time
trying to understand
politics is politics, however i do think jacinda ardern was always a strong utopian believer and the inconsistencies in that position became more and more apparent to her, reality constantly inverts intention !
joshu asked the reverend nanquan
“ what happens when a monk (ed. buddhist) dies ? ”
naquan replied
“ the same as any beast of burden, don’t waste your life and time ”
joshu thanked nanquan for his instruction
more words
not less
when less
are called for
eyes half closed for zazen and all you need to know about the breathing is to be able to breathe with belly movement rather than the chest, sit in a chair or use kneeling, the lotus damages the knees and hips and actually sitting too much is not safe
all the is stuff about counting the breath and practices etc is just crazy
the major new scientific theory of the past decades is one that doesn’t make the media, its called "the free energy principle" and it states that in essence we are prediction machines, constantly attempting to judge future directions and happenings that we might more favourably position ourselves with respect to them and we must necessarily interact with the world to clarify the prediction
the process of error, correction and models of the world are at the very bottom of reality and existence, where the process goes wrong which is in effect a type of hubris or incapacity you get societal and personal dysfunction and mental illness, scratch the surface and you can see it everywhere including oneself
to be honest i still don’t fully understand it, its hard to understand though it seems simple
the wiki and
another link that offers a good summary
“ perception is an inevitable consequence of
active exchange with the environment ”
nursing is actually a pretty hazardous job, a lot of them suffer difficult health problems later in life, being constantly around sick people is not safe
lewis carroll was very interested in
this painting by edwin landseer and actually if you look carefully you can see elements of "alice’s adventures underground" (the original title)
an article on the painting
the cathar ideal of a pure unobtainable love echoes centuries later in literature the characters of dulcinea del toboso and bathsheba everdene
we can’t escape ourselves
and our views
what does that tell us about them ?
one subsumes the other ?
and what subsumes both ?
the dissonance
between the way we think the world is
and the way it actually is
even the "actually is"
is still not "actually is"
there is no escape
from dissonance
some days my brain just wanders
can’t focus on what i think i should be doing
it makes me realize
i am not me
and never was
theological discourse
and reasoning
an evasive dance around the fact
the premises are flawed
one’s mouth gapes
at the amount of time
put into this
IQ tests measure the ability to do an
IQ test
it is unintelligent to take such a test
stupidity and intelligence are just perspectives
the past
seen through cultural fictions
just another of life’s absurdities
but more dangerous
than most
as they move
the stupid masses
in ways
that defy logic
ask
putin
we ourselves
experience finality
a beginning and a end
a gradual development
and sudden termination
it hardly seems fair
but neither was the beginning fair
alice dreamed
and everything else followed
if you understand this
your name must be
charles dodgson
transitions
between here and there
its simply amazing
one can do this
leaving one world
and popping out in another
the blink in between
we somehow forget about
yet it contains
more than the beginning and end
i must admit the buddhist sutras are right up there with gnosticism and various christian dogma as nonsense with no redeeming merit except promoting totally wasteful uses of time
as far as i can see zen came into existence as a political construct promoted by the monk shenhui who may or may not have had some acquaintance with the sixth patriarch
it is infused with elements of christianity, daoism and greek philosophy and is also more than most religions a literary form and its boundaries with buddhism were very blurred
you can view "bodidharma" as metaphor for the
greco-bactrian ie greek philosophic influence — "blue eyed barbarian", maybe he was real and executed at heyin, who knows ?
i don’t glamorize "the poor" any more than i glamorize "the rich", all thugs in their way
history is just wars by princes, stalin and beria made war on russians just like putin makes war on slavs
the problem with "communism" is in simple terms its based on the premise "from each according to his ability to each according to his needs"
only a psychotic will think this is going to work
with religion there’s factual history and hagiography and myth and you have to be careful to distinguish one from the other !
with religion there’s factual history versus hagiography and myth and you have to be careful to distinguish one from the other !
looking through
their portfolio , i would say a lot of those paintings are vulnerable to taste and "fashion" changes, at least in the long term
time passes
and spreads out
giving coherence
to what was murky
before
i really like the concept of "plot armour"
stretched to the max
in this clip
the pursuit can have ended
with surprising results
you don’t want to be where you are now
roads that go nowhere
empty at the start
and empty at the finish
could it have been otherwise ?
a good poem should make sense in a different way to prose even if you can’t quite grasp it
you have to hold your mind open and let the words do the work
a good poem should make sense in a different way to prose even if you can’t grasp it
you have to hold your mind open and let the words do the work
the reverend nanquan said in his eulogy
the reverend wang claimed to have existed and now he claims not to have existed, are there any buyers ?
a monk stepped forward from the assembly and volunteered to purchase
the reverend nanquan scolded him : you don’t have to buy what is given
the answer to the problem is a conundrum, that there is an agency behind reality, yet that is impossible
however within the exclusion of impossibility is a possibility
behind
in front
or inhereing now
its there
in despair
just be careful
you don’t fall into
solving a false problem
read more widely, zen and other religions are just repackaged philosophy and wisdom literature
people think they are saying something but if you have read widely of quality in religion, philosophy, literature and poetry you will realise its just monkeys tapping on a typewriter
everyone knows that lewis carroll is charles dodgson’s penname, but do they know that lewis is an anglicization of the latinization of his mothers maiden name and charles’ middle name "lutwidge" ?
charles lutwidge latinizes to carolus lodovicus which anglicizes to carroll lewis
the interesting thing about the
60’s children’s program "the magic roundabout" is that the animation was a french production created by serge danot, but completely stripped of any plot and sound and totally rewritten and narrated by emma thompson’s father who has quite a wry view edging to cynical of how the world works or rather doesn’t
women cry
children cry
men can’t cry
but they can feel it
women cry
children cry
men can’t cry
but they feel it
there is a current fashion to "depersonalize" literature by claiming only the text is necessary and authors and their lives are irrelevant
this nonsense can only be an attempt by academia to hide the absurdity of the gap between a reader and writer, like what are they actually doing ? learning to read and validate junk and their brains follow suite ?
yet in writers as diverse as evelyn waugh, jane austen, thomas hardy, roald dahl and sir henry neville, the lives and personalities inform every page
the net makes it easy to research a writer’s life, it totally adds extra dimensions to whatever they have written to do that research
the phoenix looks at his watch
carefully marked in years
487
the colours are fading a bit but he felt suttee was not his style
time to look for a different myth
non-existence does have many doors
powerlessness remedied in the imagination
an escape the brute force of the real world contradicts
from time immemorial
an unbearable weight of sadness
present value versus future unknown
not necessarily a hard choice
at the butchers i noticed some very dark
T-bone steaks, unusual so i looked it up and from
this page it appears to be from a stressed animal and actually there is a local saying here about this, such an animal is "frost killed", that is, killed in very cold weather, though it is midsummer now
fake squared
the [fill in here] babies
make up shit
claiming
it
is
a pearl
the darts are scattered
but he claims a bullseye
life is too short
to waste your time
explaining
the circle returns, but it never left its path
the mind prior to the universe
is
your own
within agency
there is no agency
and without agency
there is agency
within agency
there is no agency
and outside agency
there is agency
fooling himself, he thinks he fools others !
not honest with himself
how can he be honest with others ?
taking words
shuffling them like card deck
the random result
they don’t care
休處言休便好休
“ it’s easy to rest if you stop talking ”
“ if you don’t say anything you can rest ”
so recursive, he gets it wrong explaining how it goes wrong
a genius !
quoting they quote
what the quote says
they have no idea
foyan’s criticism of monks wasting their time in scriptural studies
can you find something in the five thousand volumes (ed. of buddhist scripture) that can give an answer to a
non-existent question ?
or is it just unending craziness ?
what does autumn tell you ?
do you think you are excepted from those changes ?
while sitting at the hairdressers/barbers waiting for a haircut and listening to the constant chatter of the two women hairdressers and their clients, i wondered at my coming ordeal, however snoozing a bit i came to a slightly better frame of mind when i finally got to the chair, yes i was going to be taciturn and silent
i don’t know how it happened, but we immediately started out talking about covid, maybe her asking whether i had had it and i said i was never tested and couldn’t tell , but i wasn’t worried as i was blood type
O and that is much less affected than blood type
A, she was fascinated by this as she and her father were blood type
A, her elderly father had almost died of covid and was only saved by a serendipitous
anti-viral in storage for aids that had never been used
she also got it severely and had a degree of long covid afterwards with her lungs taking a while to recover which is what you would expect from the theory
interestingly her daughter was type
O- and has a job that required her to be tested every day for covid, but she has not had covid at all so far
of course, blood type is one factor, there are others like the ability to make
LRRC15
the lack of meaning
in life
disturb the peons
who remain disturbed
for life
afraid to step out into what they don’t know
and make everyone
suffer for it
leaves are shed
and leaves grow
so
what ?
the full moon
white like bone
is that a rabbit or a death’s head
etched on it ?
upside down
inside out
what fades comes in full force
the prominent reduces
to
nothing
with dynamics like these
no wonder life is crazy
an interesting distinction on a population basis is the difference between "healthspan" and "lifespan" for the aging
the aftermath
migraine
half a step to death
then the step back
a quiet space of gentle fatigue
its not too bad
they try to pierce the cloud of probabilities
little realising
the distribution
is random
and not random
i don’t know myself
others don’t know me
not knowing
i am obeisant
and others are obeisant
to me
passacaglia — handel/ halvorsen
very relaxing to listen to and surprisingly the young woman playing is not professional
clementine widdowson, i’d worry less about "aotearoa" and more about the primary problem facing
abstract artists like yourself
that is lifting the bar to make it clear whether a painting is
AI or not. i guess this applies to sculpture too
i don’t get a feeling of clear differentiation when i look at your paintings, abstract to work requires more than an imprint of intelligence, its not something "social networking" can compensate for, it probably means denser and more symbolic heft is need, prior to
AI, abstract art was "easy meat", too easy imo
with the modern equipment and gear they have, what an ophthalmologist can tell these days is unbelievable, its a different universe to an optometrist
what makes the magic , yuga wang talks about "going beyond"
i notice that with myself and the huge advantage of
self-publishing on the internet is there is no cost to putting more less conventional material up on the net and you can really get on this road of "mutation" that is change, like i notice with my poetry is i am less afraid to be writing what is not comprehensible to me, but sort of trust in there being something which you can actually feel
there is this road there, a movement forward in ways you do not personally direct into what you don’t know that works and this is different from most adult life which revolves around sylvia plath’s "fixed stars" and i guess is a way to escape her depression
unfortunately she spread herself fatally thin
in "far from the madding crowd" i had always wondered what madding meant, i first thought it was short or a misprint of maddening, then perhaps it was a place in the novel, but it turns out to be from a line in thomas grey’s famous poem, "elegy written in a country churchyard"
“ far from the madding (ed. frenzied) crowd’s ignoble strife ”
the warmth of human affection
is not where the moonlight goes
its cold white abstraction
alien to human liking
is where ultimate truth dwells
spinning tangled webs
threads followed through
go nowhere
except to
spinning tangled threads
i was thinking about
thomas hobbes and his political theory of the necessity of the state providing protection against inter-personal violence and it occurred to me that an unusual characteristic of our species is the ease with which human adults can kill each other, if anyone is so minded, its not difficult to achieve
david hume is another interesting philosopher though more tangential to the political side
if you look at something
and that’s how it is
that’s how it is
regardless of the world screaming
that’s how its not
you don’t need a degree (ed. to be in politics), its your own intelligence, understanding of issues and ability to execute competently that matters
you are not listening to me on this, the world is far wider than your perception of how it works
hitler was a vegetarian, the nutrient deficiencies would explain his incompetent wartime decision making somewhat, along with the drugs i guess
its like putin, what is not unbelievable is having an idiot running things at the top, but the way the general population goes along with it and supports it when
75% of those people would run the war way better, but they prefer to die as a consequence of the very poor direction of
some-one not in sound mind
john middleton murry created a highly "curated" version of his wife, katherine mansfield after her death, the real person is becoming much more apparent with recent publications
extracts of a letter she wrote to him from paris, may
1915 after having sat on a bench in the square jean xxiii garden at notre dame observing the mothers, nurses (one chinese, in green trousers), grandfathers, and "little staggering babies with spades and buckets"
“ whose fault is it that we are so isolated — that we have no real life — that everything apart from writing and reading is ‘felt’ to be a waste of time ”
“ why haven’t i got a real ‘home’, a real life — why haven’t i got a chinese nurse with green trousers and two babies who rush at me and clasp my knees — i’m not a girl — i’m a woman. i want things. shall i ever have them ? ”
what i found interesting is the degree of intimacy she had with virginia woolf, peers who recognised each other’s abilities, a rare thing in my observation
her bad luck was in catching gonorrhoea which makes for greater susceptibility to tuberculosis, had this not happened, how she would have developed as writer we can only imagine
janet frame’s mother worked for a while as a maid in the beauchamp household, one wonders at the connection there
i do notice a lot of american medical and scientific research is constrained by fear of offending a potential employer, grant giver, litigant or even just dominant cultural ideas whereas research from other countries gives you a much straighter story
prolepsis
to pluck the future out of the sky
to neuter an objection by foretelling and answering it
this jumbling of sequence
all within
an author’s power
how unlike life
and its errant
foreshadowing
new york ought to be thinking of five meter rises in sea level, its not far fetched and rebuilding the city away from where that’s not likely to cause problems, not more intensive building of areas that could be swamped in
50 to
100 years
i think you will find
this map will be the driving factor in housing development and those areas free of flooding will have to become more intensively developed from a property point of view which may mean high rises
another problem new york has is how unfriendly its getting to small businesses, the city bureaucracy is downright predatory
i think the rezoning legislation is being driven by developers wanting to make infill housing, same thing happened in auckland new zealand
the art world
another bottomless sink
of time
a fool
applauded by fools
takes that as his reference point
tell me again
how you don’t understand this
eating high mercury fish (ed. swordfish)
shhh . . . listen for the sound of falling neurons
there’s an arrogance that goes with a low reading and writing age
like
there’s no room for improvement and what is not comprehensible is not comprehensible
they see the criticism
but cannot adjust
denial
takes
many forms
more shameful
than being a priest
these wannabes
stitching
their own schizophrenia
into a morass
of faux meaning
granularity of being
at that level
granular
red and blue
life’s prisms
splinter
you
i agree with yozan mosig and think there is reasonable doubt as to whether the
battle of zama ever occurred
rather its a dramaturgia created by the romans
how does
that work ?
do it a couple of times and you can figure it out
dramaturgia
what russians call an artificial scripted drama created by institutional technologists to further propaganda aims
imagery
the necessity of the new
synthesized
to be
original
for those of us older an interesting
interview of the authoress elizabeth jane howard reminiscing about a culture that would seem very alien today, yet was there when i was young
she was the author of the "cazalet chronicles" and married to kingsley amis for
18 years and i feel, a much more interesting person than him
i had seen this
interview of evelyn waugh before, but never clicked as to her being the interviewer
the telescope of time
the past
buried
to resurrect with its stories
a crowd of the unwilling
to be here now
in a changed time
making for orphans
clamouring to go back
to the security of
non-existence
the modern public face of empty apologies and hypocritical virtue signalling, as machevelli says, the vulgar masses steer by appearances
huh,
giorgio de chirico was obviously influenced by
fra carnevale
that sense of the individual rather remote in human structured space
total originality in art is
non-existent, everything comes from something else which now i think about it, is only reasonable to expect given that art is concerned with the universal
alice springs
where woke meets reality
europeans in my view have some sort of genetic protection against alcohol being addictive, the indigenous australians are opposite, its like heroin to them, its so sad to see their culture being destroyed by blinkered european mores of permissive choice that can’t understand this problem, this is not academic, i have travelled extensively in the outback and seen the extremes
there’s also some sort of glamorized view of life before europeans, some roussean benign "state of nature", but like polynesian and early european cultures, there was constant and vicious tribal warfare so if you remove the coercive power of the state, things degenerate to that situation again with very high mortality rates from violence and of course infrastructure destruction
why cultures go crazy like with woke is hard to understand, but it doesn’t just happen, there seems some necessity of sanity always being driven to insanity and then through things going very wrong, somewhat back to sanity only to traverse off into a new range of errors
another big mistake was prohibiting people from climbing on ayres rock, that sort of "spiritual pilgrimage" is everyone’s right, there is not a special class of ownership of those sorts of things and its a denial of the universality of being human, in addition i am sure it has reduced the tourist dollar and consequent employment opportunities coming into the area which is important
young men are designed for and temperamentally inclined to combat, without forcible constraint by the state, society as we know it starts to break down
they have to be channelled into earlier employment than is customary now, how the apprentice system worked in medieval england is an eye opener as to what it takes for this to be effective
that is also a way of looking at the cultural revolution in china, mao lifted the legal constraints on the behaviour of young people provided what they did facilitated his control on power, every society is always sitting on this sort of powder keg
reading and writing ages are separate things
you are improving
in both
foyan : sitting at night with great peace on all sides translated by surupamaerl
2
vimalakirti should be received the same in the city
like old huineng, no mind on the clouds outside
a clear white moon and gentle breeze, sitting deep in the night
it’s not all that hard to get out of the family
與太平四面夜坐。城中應接同摩詰。雲外無心似老盧。月白風清深夜坐。出家全不費工夫。
my reply
contemplation
develops into wisdom
perhaps
do you ever get the feeling you are "gaslighting" yourself ?
do you ever get the feeling you are gaslighting yourself ?
one of the most interesting philosophical "problems" is the status of
universals , and there seems to be little consensus over the centuries about what it exactly is
i think we look at the future as something that has already occurred in a certain way, we just don’t know what it is, rather similar to the way we view the unknown past, but the future has yet to occur, that is, it may occur in a number of different ways, those ways are not simply unknown, but rather essentially "unknowable" since there is a whole "traversity" of outcomes that are only decided by occurring
sounds a bit quantum, doesn’t it ?
“
When everything has become complete, what
Is there to seek ? ”
everything is tautologically "everything" which can only be in a context, outside that context is of necessity "something to seek"
just endless rattling recursions down the long mirror road of infinity
everything is self-taught, "teaching" only facilitates this
no wonder the education system is such a disaster
one would think it wants the young cognitively crippled
perhaps it does
the world that is not you
doesn’t think like you
act like you
an
ever present
trap
your frame of reference is inhibiting your understanding
you are mixing categories
lacking the ability to reason at a sufficiently rational and philosophic/abstract level you are gaslighting yourself
what can i say ?
the problem the vatican and catholicism in general has is its priesthood has become "a gay club"
i remember reading a comment written about
1900 saying this was a movement with the church that was becoming noticeable
the church was not necessarily always like this, you have a witness in the litany of complaints about priests of any persuasion over the centuries, womanizing, gambling, theft, drunkenness and in the case of nuns, often a sort of prostitution
in addition it was customary for priests and the popes to have
common-law wives
the orthodox church has always been notorious for homosexuality
pope benedict was obviously a screaming queen judging by the beyond superb quality of his couture
the root cause of this "concentration" is church doctrines are becoming more absurd by the decade, you need a very good reason for being a priest in the face of that absurdity and joining a homosexual club fits the bill for those of that inclination
what i am saying is not
"anti-homosexual", but rather a criticism of the situation the catholic church is putting itself in by not permitting married priests and its failure to develop a more relaxed and inclusive doctrinal approach
its currently in a kamakaze dive because of these failures with the officers fighting each other on the deck as the ship sinks, not to mention the vatican as the official office of "looting"
its interesting to consider that catholicism, like islam has been "reinvented" in the last
150 years in malfunctional ways
seeking never ends
“
What Is one seeking ? ”
its the nature of the incomplete to seek
“
Do you believe there is the complete ?
That which does not seek ? ”
you are getting in the area of "what cannot be explained"
“
Then how can you say seeking never ends ?
If there is such a thing, it means seeking can come to an end, don’t you think ? ”
i think if seeking "ends" there is no longer seeking, but in a "platonic" sense there is always seeking
“
I don’t understand when you say in a "platonic" sense.
What exactly do you mean ? ”
like maths, seeking is an abstraction, it always exists, regardless of whether a particular embodiment exists
the total giveaway was his reference to "a well known conman", that’s so out of the ordinary it defines him
the pointlessness of the
attempted con may be normal for a certain style of operator, he had a rough idea of some gain, but was really waiting for jack to make a big mistake that he could pounce on but jack didn’t make one
your problem is you don’t read what you quote
the words of others are no use to you
another world
out there
maybe
one day
i will walk there
forever
yunmen
yangshan
deshan
indra
con artists
purveying
claptrap
yunmen
deshan
indra
con artists
purveying
claptrap
words together
mash and mush
you can’t tell them
as they wade through their slush
words together
mash and mush
you can’t tell them
as they wade through the slush
just so much rubbish
chasing illusions
he is pierced by the fixed
and the harpies feast
they have no taste
if you read what i write more closely you will see i address these questions you are now asking
accutane, while it can work risks permanent side effects like dry lips and eyes, not a good idea
limited topical application of
40% hydrogen peroxide i find effective for acne
the amazing thing for me is discovering that
99.9999% of people in the "spiritual" circuit, are not only clueless as to what it is about, but contrary and go through life not even being able to handle dissenting opinions
rena bernstein
recounts her life and holocaust experience as a young girl hidden by polish christians
i’ve seen a few of these holocaust interviews, rena is a bit different, there’s an existential anguish there the others don’t have
why extended periods of sitting are harmful is from an evolutionary point of view we are designed to be constantly moving which is why the lymph system has no pump analogous to the heart, its movement that pumps the lymph
monks and nuns
looking for enlightenment
holiness
god, buddha
crash against
the communal wall
of stupidity
and
untruth
the gate swings open
all is revealed
and never entirely closes again
what is seen
cannot be unseen
lacking this
the idiots try to explain
what cannot be explained
“
What gate ?
What is seen ? ”
when it happens to you, you’ll know
i never believed it was anything except the usual nonsense until it happened
its like you go on a long journey and come back, but it all happens in what seems like an instant
this is the authentic experience, but in my observation it very rarely happens and most of the claimants are just synthesizing their idea of what it should be
its a big mistake to chase it, my advice is just forget about or disbelieve the possibility
“
You are saying
I have to see for myself.
Fine.
That means you, and anyone else are out.
You cannot show it to me, and nothing can.
I have to see for myself.
Believing such a thing has happened to you does not mean anything.
I don’t even
Know what happened to you.
Did anything happen even ?
If there
Is such a thing, it will happen or won’t, and
I will find out for myself.
Fair ? ”
its like anything else, if you work at it then you will come to a point when you need the experience to move on and that’s when it will happen
the problem is people never work at it in any real way which actually may be advised for most because the real process involves strong elements of personal and life destruction, not a good idea if you have a family
there’s been some rujing translations posted in recent months and if you look at what he says you can pick that background of personal destruction
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i use what i write here to develop my thinking, clarify things
i have got really cynical about people ever having a real interest in what i write about, so it has to be for me basically, if others get something out of it, its a bonus, but not expected
the gate swings open
all is revealed
and never entirely closes again
what is seen
cannot be unseen
lacking this
the idiots try to explain
what cannot be explained
edit. i got a downvote so made this comment : downvoter in denial about gate being closed to him and that he is holding it closed
below is a dialogue with
some-one who replied
“
Are you one of the idiots ?
If not, what are you trying to explain ? ”
i’m explaining what can be explained !
“
Is there that which cannot be explained ? ”
that’s what the poem says !
the zen of the patriarchs is about the experiential seeing of "what cannot be explained"
of course, everyone treats zen as some sort of theological battle to be fought over, it always surprises me the way what the records criticise is resurrected in modern life, they prattle on oblivious to the real message directly facing them
“
That is what it says, but is there such a thing ?
You are talking about the patriarchs, tell me, what is this that cannot be explained ? Will you say it cannot be explained ? But what is that that cannot be explained ?
If
I accept it is there, what does that mean for me ? ”
its a lifetime’s work, i can’t take you there
my observation is people don’t look broadly enough across literature, poetry, philosophy and religion but stick to the rails of some particular approach like buddhism or
Krishnamurti
there’s no easy answer to what takes decades to get some sort of grip on, especially since the real answers fly in the face of conventional wisdom
“
What you are saying is that it is explainable, it would just take a very long time, is that so ?
Which means that is not what is not explainable ”
there are explanations, but the nature of an explanation is a certain transience so you have to come at it from a number of different angles, like any real world skill actually
people look for some fixed theology they can then proxy their understanding over to, but it doesn’t work that way
__________________
it doesn’t take decades to get to (ed. this experiential seeing of "what cannot be explained")
, i think you have to have had it as a child, otherwise you are wasting your time
its a process, if you do the process, an understanding will evolve, but people never do the process but just build fixed points of understanding that they then cling to and fight to defend
so what is the process ? well in my case i was never conscious of a process, but i was always trying to make more sense of life and how it works and what is beyond it, mainly because nothing ever seemed to add up for me
anime
its underlying violence
that japan seethes with
repetition
one footstep after another
revolution
this is the way it is
don’t seek the extraordinary
it seeks you
the steady stepping of working things out
self created
moving forward
the bible
inviolate truth
its your truth
that is violated
love does not last
its intensity wanes
until it refreshes
again
on the meaning of words
hangs a thought
it
expands
us
“
Just curious, why do you type your comments like this ? ”
its more like poetry with a superdense meaning that relies on associations between words right across the whole "poem" so you need to space it differently from the linear sequence of prose
also on the net "space is free", with paper publishing you are always having to fill the page so you don’t waste paper which costs
larry eigner is a poet who uses space in a way very different from the conventional
birdsong
anemoia
wow that’s a good word
look it up
today’s culture
creating pasts
that never existed
no words of their own
the commentators
play head games
with themselves
how
pathetic !
no words of their own
the critics
play head games
with themselves
how
pathetic !
translation is a realm of potential
only some of which
works
translation is a well of potential
what is drawn
needs to work
the hazards of waiting
1/2 an hour to talk to telstra faults
some damn
earworm
Foyan : two verses, reading the record of the transmission of the lamp, translated by surupamaerl
2
i
long heard, the empty names transmitted by empty explanations
to future generations have true words revealed real traces
to clearly know the whereabouts of empty and real
see the fragrant dust in the pure breeze of a thousand ages
ii
a torch at the door of every house
midnight — simpletons say things like this —
the azure sky like water, the moon like a hook
now as ever, words and names idly wander
讀傳燈錄二首。虗名虗說傳來久。真語真蹤示後人。虗實灼然知下落。清風千古見芳塵。家家門前火把子。半夜愚夫說相似。碧天如水月如鈎。古今流落閑名字。
my replies
the way
a dusty road to failure
what is barely discernible in hindsight
cannot be seen in foresight
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the illusion of something
is hard to dispel
especially because it is so
what is not so
is beyond
hard to grasp
landscape tells the truth
things are seen as they are
and what is distant
comes closer
words shackled together to make meaning
unshackle them
meaning — less
summer
my brain has packed up and gone on holiday
because it is surely not doing anything useful
there are some eye tests on the net that are very useful in evaluating any potential visual problems
astigmatism tests with which you can evaluate the effectiveness of the prescription when you get the glasses or contacts or the degree of problem without glasses
the
duochrome test is also useful to pick any difference in magnification/sphere between the eyes
if the eye sees the red side more clearly, that’s a touch
short-sighted in that eye, if the green side is clearer, then
that’s
long-sighted
the amsler grid is another easy one to do as coarse approximation to a visual field test
also snellen and logmar charts
all free
“ on the internet, they call russians
cannon fodder , what do you think of that ? ”
cannon fodder of course refers to
WW2 where the soviet losses made huge dents in entire generations, no wonder its a sensitive topic !
i have seen it said that repressive regimes cause a sort of schizophrenic solipsism in the population, as long as i survive, everything is ok
permutations of meaning
confuse meaning
meaning is confused
that is its nature
god exists, but so does "not god", can this be reconciled ?
please tell me what "absolute nothingness" is !
“
The absence of everything ”
where did "everything" go ?
ed. some further replies to me below, i don’t think they got the point i was making
“
Is all still here the last time
I checked ”
“ "
Absolute nothingness" is that which is forever making room for the "somethingness" of everything that exists ”
a black pearl
folds
unfolds
into many pearls
do they return
to black ?
a funny (in both senses of the word) poem, "the seahorse" by james tate, it was only on the second reading "i got it"
my pet seahorse was acting sick this morning
he must have eaten something that didn’t agree with him
i thought of taking him to the doctor, but couldn’t find one who would see him
i looked up seahorses in a medical textbook and it suggested
mouth-to-mouth respiration
so i reached in his aquarium and pulled him out
i placed my mouth on his and put my thumb and forefinger on his abdomen and started breathing on his mouth
i squeezed my thumb and forefinger back and forth as i breathed
after a while i started to fill with gas
i looked down and my body had grown enormous
i started to rise away from the seahorse towards the ceiling
i bounced around until i finally went out the window
i rose in the sky and floated around until i went to the sea
i started to lose altitude and crashed in the waves below
i started swimming towards shore
a boat came along and picked me up
the captain asked me what i was doing there so far from shore
i hated to tell him the truth, but i did
“a seahorse breathed in my mouth,” i said
“you’re lucky to be alive. that’s a terrible thing, there’s nothing worse” he said.
“but he was sick. i was trying to save him,” i said
“he was faking it. he was just trying to lure you in,” he said
“really? i feel so stupid,” i said
“well, at least you’re alive. a lot of great men died like that. jesus, napoleon,” he said
“jesus ? jesus died breathing the breath of a seahorse ?” i said
“sure. they had to cover that up, of course. that wouldn’t do for the saviour of mankind” he said
“i don’t feel so bad now. thanks for telling me” i said
“oh, you’re in good company, all right” he said
jacinda ardern was more than a protégé of helen clark, she was also an ideological clone and that was what doomed her, she really was quite driven to the schedule of a rigid and dated world view that no longer fits new zealand society whereas john keys never really believed anything, a true disciple of machiavelli whose work ardern would have done well to read
she showed good sense in resigning, there were other issues as well, like being too much a queen bee
single handedly she has driven new zealand politics more left than it was comfortable with, from a pragmatic rather than ideological point of view she was an exceptionally able politician, dangerously so
now i think about it, she was a utopian, which may have something to do with her mormon background
the world is sad
but
the
moon
laughs
the reflected light
is not a reflection
a niccolò machiavelli quote, from "the prince"
“
Minds are of three kinds : one is capable of thinking for itself; another is able to understand the thinking of others; and a third can neither think for itself nor understand the thinking of others
The first is of the highest excellence, the second is excellent, and the third is worthless ”
from reading him, he doesn’t advocate complete immorality, but a tempered prudence which in the political context means an unsettling and disinterested rationality, as the logic leads, so one must act, as inhuman as that may be
i was reading some supposed quotes of the muslim hero and general
khalid ibn al-walid and it struck me they were really the words of a "literati", in fact he is not historical, but a made up figure in the muslim tableaux of the story of the "prophet"
fighting men are not homers in disguise and their language reflects it
“ the earth destroys its fools
but the intelligent destroy the earth ”
such a literary perspective !
islam is as much a fictionalized construction as any other religion and relies on its supposed historicity to validate "belief"
take away the hsitoricity and you have the vacant air of a soap opera
men have been executed for saying what i just wrote, but believe me, it will pass completely unnoticed
“
I think you have a problem with being too uptight ”
maybe i do get uptight ?
but from your point of view, what does that matter, what are your issues ?
you are totally unable to sustain any sort sort of objective reasoning process, skill deficient so to speak and it would be productive to pick up skills ie raising your reading age
you can’t beat me down to your level !
“ don’t get caught in the roots of bitterness, sweetness, left by those who travel the common roads and footpaths
if you don’t travel these
you will live in infinity ”
the above quote is my reworking of some foyan
you can get stuck in observation, getting something out of the real world is a different matter, its a cantankerous bastard, prone to knifing those who get close, successfully robbing it is a question of luck and skill
her being a drug addict makes sense, highly manipulative and skilled at it, drug addiction does give some skills, alcohol much less so or not at all, an interesting contrast of substance abuse
better
worse
boxes to simplify our life
trying to separate
this entangled pair
proves difficult though
the old
we look back on the ruts we have worn
they define us
there is no escape
the moil of the world
media, politics, events
attention to which
while not insane
feels like it
a churning mess of something or other
you can’t even walk away
you have to walk through
and
out
you don’t think superman is real, you don’t think batman is real, why would you think buddha is real ?
this
AI generated art is "bad art", actually like a lot of what you see by the untalented, just not intelligent enough to give the needed coherence
even abstract art has something to it,
AI doesn’t
henri matisse is a good contrast, not so complex it couldn’t be
AI but "ordered" in a way
AI can’t be
it always amazes me how much money is put into medical fixes for health problems and how almost no attention is paid to healthy eating, exercise and sleeping patterns which have a direct bearing on steering away from getting medical problems
of course you have to work things out yourself to a large extent, a lot of the advice available is "medicalized" and off target in terms of avoiding the need for medicine or surgery
on the plus side there’s a lot of high quality research available on the net, i find you need that, people can’t think straight when it comes to their own or other’s health
why is there so much bad advice everywhere, the media, politics, professionals, consultants, friends, relatives etc
its a lack of skin in the game
explained by nassin taleb
“ a saline (salt water) nasal spray was just as effective as an
anti-inflammatory steroid nasal spray at easing
sleep disordered breathing in children after six weeks of treatment ”
its not well understood that long term steroid use causes cataracts
“
People who consume locally caught freshwater fish, especially those who catch and eat fish regularly, are at risk of
alarming levels of
PFAS in their bodies ”
i would assume that this applies mainly to the
USA
choline keeps
alzheimers at bay , its in eggs, meat (particularly organ meats) and fish basically
i have noticed over the years that vegetarians seem cognitively rigid and i think not getting enough choline in the diet may be a factor
the number of young women who won’t touch liver bodes ill for not just themselves imo
the hopelessness of teaching
what doesn’t fit
the wrong shaped containers
just bind
and bind
“ he (ed. macheliavelli) despised jesus christ himself. he’s not so foolhardy as to say that explicitly, remarkably he never refers to christ by name, but i don’t know how else to read his praise of moses as an armed prophet who compelled obedience and who is therefore vastly superior to the unarmed prophets who must use
persuasion , they always come to grief having achieved nothing ”
the above is an
excerpt from an interesting talk by alec ryrie on medieval unbelief
"moyun"
playing a cover of "thunderstruck" by
AC/DC on the guzheng
a real sense of virtuosity
"zen masters" are a literary construct, like superheroes or saints or prophets
all unreal
you can’t follow them into unreality
replying to
a crossword puzzle
with another crossword puzzle
replying to
a crossword puzzle
with a crossword puzzle
longyearbyen svalbard
the windswept north
not entirely empty
polar bears, a few people, dogs, ships
but
the mountains
are empty
i feel quantum is a basic paradigm of reality
which is limited knowledge
exclusion of some knowledge by other knowledge
and the corollary
uncertainty
and that
is the theory of everything
bodhidharma
wandering around liang and wei
settling for a while
becoming a big wheel
executed along with the rest at heyin
free meals have a price
bodhidharma
wandering
settling for a while
becoming a big wheel
executed along with the rest
at heyin
free meals
have a price
the nature of a lure is it gets some things right and from that you infer all things are right
the russians seem utterly unable to grasp its a civil war and civil wars destroy their own
it being a civil war does not mean the ukraine "belongs" to russia, rather its a war within a family
of course the entire history of soviet russia is that of suppressed civil war
before claims to know after
to which
after
laughs and cries
there’s idiots and people who it doesn’t bother to be idiots
idiocy²
its not a question of remedy but protecting yourself in a world where mutual benefit cannot be perceived let alone acted on
“ what is there ? ”
just what you see
“ yes, but what’s behind what i see ? ”
more of what you see
“ i give up ”
that’s what you see too
5 years ago in the donesk
"in the dark night"
sung by the monks of the
svetogorskaya lavra
so it really exists
fernando pessoa’s
trunk
demons
ugly figures with tridents and objects to torture you
that’s not how it works
rather
quiet leeches who suck all your energy
and as you live
only batten down more
writing backwards
forwards
in time
the messiness
clarifies
simplifies
does it go anywhere ?
no
somewhere out there
exists a simpler world that can be seen with clarity
ever under assault
from mendacious humanity
i went so far
expecting to arrive
somewhere
but what i found
is the endless "going"
is all the somewhere
there is
neo-platonism
foundational
for yet more nonsense
going up to the monastery hall, on the night of lantern festival, tiantong rujing said
the point of the lantern — the moon, round and round
the roaming people, singing and drumming, watching the bedlam
but what about when one says the phrase "to have eyes" ?
so close to the tower of the phoenix, opening the pheasant’s tail fan
immortals guarding the jade emperor, on the tips of purple clouds
元宵上堂。燈點點月團團。遊人歌鼓鬧中看。且道如何是具眼一句。咫尺鳳樓開雉扇。玉皇仙仗紫雲端。
my reply
purple
mixed with red
even the clouds so
sunset and sunrise
it cannot be other
the point of the lantern
i cannot be bothered with
creativity
fecundity
some sort of stirring
in the dark
progressing to light
the notion of possibility
made particular
the seraphim were bored
god had ennui
satan had an idea
let’s write a book
and call it
"paradise lost"
and so the trouble began
an unusual
painting ( "the harvest is the end of the world"
1984 by roger wagner )
this attempt to make sense of life by some superior plane of existence evaluating our lives as a whole and "as a whole" i think is the key of the flaw, the overwhelming evidence for "continuity" but that is the primary illusion, however, there is something to it, this problem of being "begetted" and
non-begetted
i like his
writing in the dust too
his
archive
he has a
blake-ian literalism
questioning opens doors
but you have to work at them
or they will shut in your face again
alice
created her worlds
created by lewis
such a thing could not only be
but was
the trouble with zen is it attracts some real "outliers", "heavy tailers" in statistics terms, there’s no way i would go into any shared space with anyone interested in zen i didn’t know from a disease and other points of view, see you (ed. brad warner) are ahead of the play pretty much abandoning real life zen and going onto the net
its all changed from
20 years ago and even then two things made a big impression on me, the awful health in the
kwan-um school and some woman pulling a gun on toni packer
you do need at least one vaccine to get decent long term memory of covid resistance, ideally two separated by at least
6 months
an interesting useful bit of info that the media don’t talk about is you are way less susceptible to covid if you have blood type "O"
i had the pfizer vaccine, the moderna is more risky but marginally more effective as it covers more antibody bases, but in doing this significantly raises the risk, so i plumbed for the pfizer as safer
dogen getting
TB in a chinese monastery is a real possibility and makes one think about the hazards of communal and monastic life
strong emergence
the root of the universe
simply because
it can
the rejected
the damaged
one amongst these
climbs the ladder of pain
to heaven
its not just putin that’s the problem, its half the russian population
“ as long as i don’t have to go to the front line i don’t feel any need to do anything except talk
vacuous nonsense ”
they hate poetry
because poetry makes them think
just reading
traumatises
them
even those sacred cows
grammar and syntax
have no stability
where is one then ?
what is the world coming to ?
sums add to zero
pity those who live in heavy tails
what life pulls apart
does not come together
edit:
heavy tails is a statistical term worth researching
intermittent fasting is a coming thing,
16/8 for example is only eating over eight hours and fasting the rest of the day
words are like sums
either they add
or they don’t
the thieves stumble
dissing the valuable
and taking the worthless
its not just once
you can’t force it
it happens when it happens
a voyage somewhere
that you bring back some trinkets from
doomed to be about
never entering
even if its pointed out
they deflect
chat
GPT
more intelligent than the average liberal arts undergraduate
no wonder they need woke
to differentiate them
i think prince harry was traumatised much more than he realizes by killing all those men in afghanhistan, especially since the western military intervention there has been shown to be so wrong minded
it amazes me how many wars were obviously problematic at the outset if you looked at a map
things unfound
do not fit
the mould
of forming
chat
GPT’s analysis (below) seems to fit my "unfound" poem pretty well, however, imo the only real criticism or comment on a poem that can be made must be done by a poem in reply
this poem seems to be expressing the idea that things that are not yet discovered or found do not fit into the expectations or preconceptions that people may have
the word "mould" suggests a fixed or predetermined shape, and the phrase "forming" suggests the process of creating or shaping something
the poem suggests that things that are not yet known or understood do not conform to these expectations or preconceptions
it’s possible that the poem is exploring the idea that there are always new things to be discovered and that these things do not always fit into our existing understanding of the world
the poem may be encouraging readers to be open to the possibility of new things and to be willing to consider things that do not fit into their existing understanding
overall, the poem is quite concise and to the point, and its meaning may be open to interpretation. it could be interpreted as a call to be open-minded and willing to consider new ideas and perspectives, or it could be seen as a reflection on the way that the unknown challenges our preconceptions and understanding of the world
what you have been told
what you haven’t been told
the gap leaves you puzzling
if i can, i will look at videos compared to podcasts, you see the person more, usually they are dead slabs of meat, very offputting but at least one is not fooled
the nature of words
is their fluidity
dictionaries contain them
yet they escape
to wander free
over the horizon
carrying with them
the burden of meaning
seamless
being cannot be penetrated beyond
or can it ?
seamless
it cannot be penetrated beyond
or can it ?
there is a corner of art, that anything can be art if looked at with an artistic eye
art without agency
i wouldn’t say in general that it was a productive corner
answers to the world’s problems
are answers
answers chasing problems and problems chasing answers
escherian oroboroi of recursive futility
simply content
to exist
this is one of the most
unbelievable things i have seen,
2013 and volodymyr zelenskyy is performing in a russian new year’s eve show with vladimir solovyov applauding (both ashkenazi jews btw)
solovyov is now a particularly virulent mouthpiece for kremlin propaganda on his prime time chat show
no wonder the russians underestimated zelensky
happier days for everyone, but the ruling clique in russia was getting caught up in a grandiose delusion and couldn’t let things be
explaining
e x p l a i n i n g
explaining e x p l a i n i n g
and so it goes on
william blake
scripts michelangelo
milton
but at some point
his own style
takes over
and is
authentically his
i always thought wearing a face mask, while reducing transmission, didn’t affect your getting viruses, however
this study shows wearing a mask has an odds ratio of
1.5, so it would likely be effective to a similar degree for diseases like the flu and cold
acceptance
desired
but splitting light
is not whole
there is not a man, woman or child
who is not a fool
somewhere
that is why
life needs caution
its distressing how violent insanity often turns wanting to harm those closest to them
new york is pretty extreme isn’t it ?
i was looking at videos of some of these
multi-million dollar skyscraper apartments around central park, middle class on steroids and there’s all this other crazy shit like drugs, weird politics and organised crime going on