this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don’t warrant a page by themselves

or seem to   better here

pending poems  index

chronological order is from the bottom to the top of  the page

audio files can be complemented by listening to them with the eyes closed

through the haze

my love

our life together

our life apart

through the heat shimmer

absence

now somewhere else

the mirage of life

for that short while

so real

ed.  my reworking  (or abstraction)  of ibn `arabi’s  poem  (one of my favourites)

the world of dreams

swallows you and me

why don’t we meet there ?

the world of dreams

swallows me and you

why don’t we meet there ?

“ math is physics ”

math isn’t physics

i weigh with the latter

but

what is physics ?

ed.  physics follows mathematical rules because there is some constraint on what can exist in a manner analogous to, or even actually assembly theory

interestingly, while biology may, and often does follow mathematical rules, it doesn’t necessarily follow the shortest "constructive" path, rather can simply be a sort of "happenstance" building a complexity that can behave in unpredictable ways

i think math is predicated on continuity and prediction, hence where math meets the "real world" you get statistics dependent on prior distributions

the shortest path

infinity is long

but take

the shortest way

to

get

there

strange landscapes of the surreal

poppies extending as far as the eye can see

a tree

distant mists and clouds

something that takes the attention

despite being  a bit kitschy

"it" is not

he or she

genderless

trans

cis or binary

inter-sexual

a large ambiguity

of what it could be

so much of what i was taught in school was wrong or needs significant modification in terms of what is known today

the planetary model of the atom has been replaced by  a quantum wave

sorta a newtonian to schröndinger transition, so to speak, it does colour your thinking

its not only the gospels that are  a literary creation , but according to dr. nina livesy, paul and his letters are too

there’s an interesting difference between islam and christianity in that islam is designed for conquering new territory to create an empire which you still see today in the theology/ideology of various islamic "terrorist" groups and is obviously problematic in today’s world, but christianity is designed to maintain empire and keep the peace which it did until the collapse of byzantium

two sides of the same coin in a way, both with carefully crafted fictions and for most of their history backed by the hard fist of the state

they are both highly effective vehicles of social control and prior to the greatly improved communication technologies of recent centuries ,  essential for maintaining the existence of the various political entities and empires so a lot of creative effort was put into them

even

objectivity

has

its

limitations

raven

a name

yet

more

black

than

a

crow

burnt rice

the usual smoke

zen poetry

wannabes

not

quite

human

imagery

chat

gpt

poems

fyi, "reworking" takes more "liberties" than a strict "re-translation" though in a lot of cases, who knows what the original was ?

i don’t know why people have such a problem understanding that a translation is more the translator’s viewpoint than that of the original speaker or author and this is chronically true for "chinese" which is a group of languages and dialects rather than some single unambiguous common understanding

hmmp, scotch thistle-down ,  though round has lift in a wind, something interesting from an aerodynamic point of view there, no wonder they can disseminate so far and are such a problem weed

monk  :  is the "holy man/woman" beyond the problems of this world ?

joshu  :  no

monk  :  why not ?

joshu  :  because he/she is the problem of this world

ed.  my reworking of the "koan" from the sayings of joshu, number 54, a good practical example is the sea of ambiguity surrounding that "doctor of the church" and saint, mother teresa

“ Are there any koans that deal with malevolence ? ”

in considering what "malevolence" is, there’s an absolute and relative basis, the relative basis simply being the view point of one side or another in a conflict, but there also being unnecessary extremes of punitive behaviour that have no basis except a desire to hurt

was "vlad the impaler’s" skewering of his turkish prisoners malevolent ?  well it worked because the invading turkish army was so disturbed by this they packed up and left, so you can see the functionality

is the russian targeting of ukrainian hospitals with drones malevolent ?  it has no functionality or even an opposite effect, but from the russian point view its part of a campaign of intimidation

medieval punishment seem excessive by modern standards but they had the problem of rarely catching criminals so the punishments necessarily had to be deterring

its actually difficult to come to a conclusion as to what it is since it depends on the viewpoint of where you side with whatever event, and actually i think one comes back to hannah arendt’s "the banality of evil" which is a relativistic, rather than absolutist viewpoint

i think in general zen/ch'an and buddhism hold to this perspective and since you ask, historically "zen masters" headed for the hills to hide in times of persecution, you might compare this to christianity which holds absolute values of evil and its promotion of "martyrdom" rather than running away

an interesting study on the  epigenetic imprint  affecting generations downstream in this case, from civil war violence in syria

why are leaves green ,  well its because the wavelengths that suit photosynthesis best are at the blue and red ends of the spectrum and they absorb and the   unwanted green  in the middle is reflected which is what we see

if you want to follow an interest in literature my own experience is you will do way better reading on your own account than take a course, youtube for instance has a lot of informed videos

the problem is the academic realm is filled mostly with censorious, agenda-ed idiots

the world of literature and philosophy is beyond vast and in terms of our short lifetimes endless, only a small portion of that is productive and university courses, worse than wasting time, is they take you in the wrong direction

creative writing courses have a similar problem

why mimic AI ?

why there are so many people with long term  neurological symptoms  from the covid MRNA vaccines is that the lipid nanoparticles that carry the RNA coding can cross the blood brain barrier and in effect the brain ends up making "spike proteins"

fredegund vs brunhilda , there’s something disturbing about this, for the male mind at least, the viciousness of the female undercurrents in their lives, fiction like "the game of thrones" can’t compete with this historical reality tale

cicero, what a life  and times  !

wikipedia

its easy to see the fascination roman history of this period held for later centuries

our all

this little stretch of time we have

before and after

so vast

what we do not notice

false roads outnumber true roads

get used to it

issac newton, edward kelly, john dee, what did they have in common ?

handling mercury

newton especially, in his later years was not productive in the way you would expect, rather getting buried in theological nonsense of his own digging

axioms

no god

but

underlying

direction

infusing

sanity

but

not

these

what

is

 there ?

there was never a problem

 was there ever a problem ?

two ways of looking at things

either or neither was right ?

john dee  is one of elizabethan england’s most fascinating characters and in my view , with edward kelly was responsible for orchestrating the  voynich manuscript  with the aim of selling it to the holy roman emperor rudolph the second who was a bibliophile and they were heavily in debt

sadly, no such sale ever came off

a kaleidoscope

sharding

mixed images

always turning

this world

a good  explanation  of what the rosetta stone is

richard white

ed.  i was tempted to add a comment, but who needs the possibility of a legal action for libel ?

the article speaks for itself and one of the benefits of poetry is obscurity so no-one can tell what the hell you are saying

the journalistic world thanks you

for

material

that

could

not

be

dreamed

up

life’s cleavages

competence and incompetence

not mixed

marriage

mar-age

everyday

the constant presentation

words that start

end as they finish

and so

on

and start

and

finish

again

and

again

you can’t force this sort of writing

content

has

to

come

to

you

and

not

the

other

way

around

i’ve gotten old enough that the memories of my life as a child are hard to relate to, its such a different world

of course it must be the same for my older relatives, but no-one mentions it

this visitation of increasing strangeness

“ unalived ”

the most goddam awful euphemism

rhetorical finesse

making

nonsense

sound

sensible

another in a series of medical studies that gets no media coverage at all

“ Prenatal exposure to  acetaminophen  increases the likelihood that a child will develop attention-deficit/ hyperactivity disorder ”

there never was a problem

was there ever a problem ?

the cautious live but not always

the incautious die

the cautious live

the incautious die but not always

the cautious live

the incautious die

possibility

necessity

impossibility

modal realism

pure fantasy

a blank slate

can accommodate

all this

and more

k and c drama actresses

so many facelifts and botox their faces become expressionless from nerve damage

its a weird world

reliquaries

breast milk of the virgin mary

mary magdalene’s shin bone

splinters of the true cross

beliefs

shape

our

world

mild dreams

i was in a concert hall i hadn’t paid admission for and was waiting near the teller for a policeman to escort me to my car a street over to get my wallet, stylistically the 1920’s

then i woke

where this stuff comes from i can’t guess

eyes

you recognise

times past

resurrected

eyes

you recognise

time past

resurrected

percentages can flip

10% of 100 is 100% of ten

.5% of sixty is sixty percent of .5

the spades

depleted of their transparency

they dig and dig

to uncover our loss

but find nothing

crushed between the universe of what is and might be

we gaze forlornly

at what doesn’t happen

an historically intricated world

unobserved

by

the

presentists

writing

like

scrabble

rearranging

for

value

cloning

like

to

dislike

duplication

similar

to

dissimilar

creativity

screams

i am

not

comparable

to

this

but

it

is

other worlds

unreal

countless infinities

of

yet

a few

transcend

reality

occam’s razor is flawed, the very existence another entity implies a new perspective, that in itself, may be true

the occam’s razor version is simpler, but of necessity, less true

i don’t think that the notion of a "fine-tuned universe" is entirely wrong, that there is a coupling between the processes that enable a universe continuing to exist and for an ability of progression to life in terms of "assembly theory"

vitamin D is fragile without a preservative, it is likely that preservative free supplement formulations have much lower levels than claimed

those with a preservative will say they contain sulfites, i have taken 3000iu of the blackmores with sulfites every morning with 90mcg of vitamin K2/MK7 for years with benefit and no problems

the below is in reference to case 57 of "the book of serenity"

take what i don’t have

"i took it"

show me what you took

"how can i show you what you don’t have ?"

i got a reply to the above

“ If I was able to take something from you, could you show me what is missing? ”

my  reply

quoting the last half of your statement  "could you show me what is missing?"

i have phrased it differently and i think, more correctly, a question that is its own answer, whereas your question requires an answer

" how can i show you what you don’t have ? "

universe

one verse

in a song

multi verse

many verses in a song

too many !

the wilfully low reading age cannot be saved from themselves !

there’s some really good t’ang and later poets with a strong zen flavour and the translations are good, zen is a sort of reshaping of buddhism by that literary culture, when the culture disappeared so zen/ ch’an lost its prominence in china

what interest could i have in sorting things out for you ?

ed.  the net is full of these young people who expect you to do all the intellectual work for them, they really can’t see past their low reading age, but in my experience, intellectual sophistication can be developed, only neither the culture nor schooling encourages it

“ However, zen master Foyan says as follows  .   .   .   .  ”

is what followed  (from the quote in a reddit OP)  actually what foyan said with good fidelity ?

so you need to separate fiction from historical reality

so the first thing is did foyan actually exist and i think he does, unlike bodhidharma who may be a literary synthesis rather than a real person

so since he’s an historical person you then have to go back to sources, account for transcription errors, was he even literate etc and then investigate the philology of the medieval text

and then you can look at translating yourself since in general i find religious translations are always pushing the barrow of the translator’s viewpoint

the quote of thomas cleary is not actually "zen", but a disguised monotheism, basically a sort of cultural appropriation, a chronic problem in today’s zen

real estate

where sincerity

meets its doom

we are woven

rather

than

weaving

different lives

are

a different

us

love

that duplicitous binder

of

dissimilars

chakra and kundalini meditation is the usual hypnotic crap from a certain subcontinent that has millennia of the development of religious "mind control" technologies, don’t be a sucker for this stuff

meditation is not difficult, its just observing thoughts

hindu theology has some interesting ideas, but kundalini is for the gullible

writing

a different world

only

you

nothing like it

its

own

solace

i think both virginia woolf and olive schreiner are highly informed by their respective landscapes in their writings

the

study

of

creative

writing

is

not

creative

making boxes to contain

a jailer

or prisoner

what is the difference ?

inward springs

are what

matter

ed.  there’s three parts to the sense as per the formatting with an overall theme of dissing "making boxes to contain"

castles in the sky

imposing from a distance

but closer

shoddy

polar opposites

the power of inversion

one turns into the other

yet when neither is itself

things remain the same

i won’t say a minimalism is false, but there’s a tendency to pack too much into it looking for a non-existent closure

what spreads, spreads and keeps spreading

an interesting way of looking at modern dictatorships, that is since about 1900, is the role  modern technology  has enabled the suppression of resistance and the better organisation of the political elite

an egregious example is the use by the nazis of IBM’s census data and systems to identify jews in germany

putin who you might call "stalin light" in fact though seeming more moderate than stalin has a similar level of control and china has become a technological miracle of a surveillance state

the disasters of the 20th century have really only been matched historically by the mongols

these days

why is no woman complete

without a stalker ?

“ Words cannot express the meaning of this koan ”

ed.  case 39 of the wumen’s gate/ gateless gate/ mumonkan/ gateless barrier/

well, let me try

“ The light shines quiescent throughout countless worlds.  The one phrase is not cut off  .   .   . ”

is as yunmen says, wrong

how difficult is that ?

there is no source in light

as in darkness

the reflective scattering

is everything

trigger warning   :    ai ogawa though a well known poetess can be hard to take, certainly socially transgressive

i think  ai ogawa  is like henry darger, their art is born out of childhood and adolescent trauma and is misunderstood in some quarters, but basically its some sort of processing/ re-development

they were a complete surprise to me when i first came across each, of course they are not going to be publicised through the usual channels

unlike the marquis de sade their art was more a mirror of reality and didn’t transgress into the felonious, its an interesting divide

net message boards are full of dunning-kruger prodigies, all opinion, no real life experience

SYCUYA

i'm not going to tell you what it means, its not polite

asian societies

worker bees

their queens gone mad

with

demands

an ivory chinese  sculpture  of a woman breast-feeding her mother-in-law c. 1700-1900

how lucy letby was  falsely convicted ,  they fiddled the statistics, in actual fact, once you accounted for her extra shift hours, the number of babies dying in her care was the same as the other nurses

whoever fiddled those statistics must have known what they were doing, the fact the unit was later closed down because of management problems speaks volumes

we don’t think much about being killed

minutes

or

unfortunate hours

or

even days

but shorter seems more likely

those last seconds

until

eternal

blankness

its not

philosophy

at

all

ed.  its funny how a poem can set you thinking, i wrote this after listening to Ai Ogawa’s poem  the good shepherd

if you view eihei dogen as a rhetorician and even a sophist, things become more clear and i would say daoism, zen and buddhism are full of this

a more relatable way of visualizing the speed of light is a foot/ 30cm per nanosecond, a nanosecond is small, but its not "out of the box"

its in the area of waveform rise times of microprocessors

why is exercise so important from middle age on ?  well the trend of aging is reduced cardiovascular function, but a reasonable  (not excessive)  level of fitness causes the circulatory system to remodel itself to deliver more blood/ oxygen to the body’s organs which counteracts the natural functional decline in this area with each advancing year

of course the problem is what the joints can support in the way of movement

i have taken 3000iu vitamin D3 and 90mcg of K2/MK7 for years with good results, i do think you need to work out what doses of these suit you best, my joints are those of a much younger man

however fitness is a stress, you really don’t want to overdo it, i maybe go for a run of ten minutes a day, most of that just to warm up and do a hard aerobic push at the end to get breathless

i think it was noticeable in covid pandemic how the ultrafit had a much higher proportion ending up with the "long" variety, the first variants of covid had notoriously bad cardiovascular effects

if marcus aurelius didn’t know, who would ?

“ existence is like a river in ceaseless flow  .   .   .   .   scarcely anything stands still, even what is most immediate   .   .   .   .   .   so in all this it must be folly for anyone to be puffed up with ambition, wrapped in struggle or indignant at his lot as if this was anything lasting or likely to trouble him for long ”

ed.  the general public knows nothing of  marcus aurelius , yet he was one of rome’s better emperors, the last of the "good" ones

he actually resented being made emperor, wanting rather a quieter and less hazardous life, his "meditations" were not known in his lifetime with various manuscripts surviving until the the first printing in 1558

interestingly, his successor  (son)  was a disaster area

is it a property of "chaos" that of necessity, coherence will naturally materialise out of it ?

you can call this property "god" ?

where does something come from before it becomes something ?

“ did god create abstract objects ? ”

is god abstract objects ?

is god an idea ?

god is an idea !

well, i asked "deepseek" about modern chinese poets, first time around was censored, then i changed the wording a bit and got through, but its first recommendation, bei dao got the "sorry, that’s beyond my current scope.  let’s talk about something else" ie the ccp doesn’t want you to read this, i did see some of his poems before the censor stepped in  (might even be a human), definitely not to the ccp’s liking, he was exiled in 1989, lucky to leave i guess or too well known to tuck away in some prison or worse

imo dictatorships don’t like anything that makes you think, doesn’t matter what you actually say

the new female poetry

stream of consciousness

garrulous

if

it

says

something

pinch

me

archaeology

the endlessness of

people before

revealed

a low budget, short  (20 minutes) ,  effective japanese film

transfer

the comments section is interesting for the unbelievably good AI/ machine translations

the universe so wide

but there is nobody else

apart from ourselves

the universe so wide

but there is nobody

apart from ourselves

no road is entirely wrong

like no road is entirely right

in fact they can get so mixed up

you can’t tell wrong from right

no road is entirely wrong

no road is entirely right

in fact they get so mixed up

you can’t tell wrong from right

orange on the horizon

seen in in dusk’s half light

an exact full moon

i look again

and it is already higher

orange on the horizon

an exact full moon

i look again

and it is higher

norway

mountains

flats

glaciers

sea

abstract thinking

people are not very good at it

they can’t get to grips

with

something

being

both

wrong

and

right

r|zen

slow to die

a zombie fest

they keep arising

to eat

each others’ brains

ed.  the subreddit "zen" seems to be slowing down recently, but never quite stops

a lot of christianity is simply the attempt to recreate what is obviously fiction as historically real or material and tangible

an important aspect of a complex systems is they function differently depending the scale/ zoom level

a failure to appreciate this is particularly apparent in political reasoning which tends to use personal behaviours/ values as a guide for aggregates that do not work in that way at all

“ he wears a beanie to sleep ”

they keep the head warm, the brain can cool down too much during sleep through lack of activity, its one of the reasons we dream, to keep the "engine" warm, nightcaps were "de riguer" in the victorian era

the world reflected in our eyes

drowning in the image

or not ?

the world reflected in our eyes

drowning

or not ?

takeda no komoriuta  —  lullaby

its the lament of a young japanese girl forced to work as an indentured servant looking at the mountain range in the distance where her family lives

another recital

what actually happened in  the french revolution  told in a fun way

interestingly the idea of  marie antionette  as some spaced out upper class twit is quite wrong, that view is because she was on the defeated side but she was losing out to a court campaign of reputational injury in her time as queen well before the revolution, so much so, she became an easy target for pro-revolutionary propagandists, not one of histories’ super competent regal spouses of whom there have been a few

its very similar to the russian revolution, rigid, highly formal governmental systems that end up breaking because the people at the apex of the pyramid have no talent for the job they inherited so the needed changes never get made and internal pressures break apart the structure, usually, unfortunately with a very bloody aftermath

so many modern geopolitical disasters would not come about had not the various power elites made such uniformed decisions that could have been remedied by a minimum of historical knowledge

for christ’s sake vietnam and china had been enemies for millennia, only the total idiocy of the americans could have made them allies

then there’s iraq when they sided with the shias, another disaster area

let’s not mention afghanistan "the graveyard of empires"

the removal of atomic weapons from the ukraine, like russia was going to keep its promise not to invade

an hours reading on the internet or browsing in a university library by the right people would have stopped all these in their tracks

things may be improving however, the playbook on china and its empire aggrandizing tendencies has been understood, in part facilitated by the chinese themselves who failed to understand the difference between internal and external audiences for propaganda

an AI image  with an existential flavour

well, an AI would know !

a good  summary  of the case for sir henry neville being the true author of the "shakespeare" plays

the problem with shakespeare being the author of the plays is he would have to have been extraordinarily scholastic and inventive in a way not matched by any other human ever whereas with sir henry neville, its simply his life and family history providing the material

the limited evidence we have of shakespeare’s life is he was not even literate and occupationally an underworld heavy

i think the resistance in the universities to sir henry neville is ideological, shakespeare is a workingman’s genius, neo-marxism in fact

history teaches us

the weighting of the past

in the present

and

future

socrates is all about  cognitive flexibility

two and half thousand years ago, yet so relevant today

the interviewee  donald robertson

feng shui

10% commonsense

90% bullshit

the arc of heavens

brunelleschi’s simulation

is still standing

and

he

is

not

possibility

a substrate

for

probability

for to be probable

it must have been possible

yet

impossible

does not mean

improbable

ed.  a bit of a brain twister, this

obscure

obscurity

illume

illumination

out of the darkness into the light

or is it the other way around ?

obscure

obscurity

illumination

illume

out of the darkness into the light

or is it the other way around ?

the sea

we can see

but that seeing

cannot be touched

how

melancholy

the glass wall

between us

and beauty

the female obsession with social status

from "pride and prejudice" to this rather trashy  drama

an entire entertainment industry founded on this

looking at the future and past without time

how is it ?

what is foretold

is not foretold

a mix

of

is

and isn’t

what has already occurred

hasn’t occurred

and this "so on"

is

in

fact

ourselves

with religious literature and a lot else including ideologies, you will get portions that are so egregiously "novelistic" that even "devotees" can’t deny it

so why can’t they make the jump to the rest being "novelistic" ?

enlightened

enlightenment

the zen bottom turtle

vapourware

christians pursue god

hindus "moksha"

muslims jannah

jews the torah

buddhists nirvana

yet

all

vanish

like

the

morning

mist

in

the

light

of

the

day

one of the interesting ideas of "assembly theory" is that of "top down causation" or the future working back to the past, that is, the function of the past is to increase the possibility space of the future which in my view is another way of looking at the free energy principle

quantum i feel is somehow tied up in "future possibility space" as the only way of handling its computational complexity

i think i’m tending to the view that though mathematically many things may be unbounded like everettian parallel universes, they can’t exist is the sense of being real because the computational requirements are too high, even for quantum, so, in effect, boltzmann’s brain and its ilk are wrong

we are only one life and not many and religious notions like reincarnation, heaven, hell and purgatory can only be imagination and actually a form of imagination like a play or drama, a pastiche not having any computational depth, a surface in effect

what i write

non-reproducible

by another

its

mark

of

authenticity

what i write

not reproducible

by another

its

mark

of

authenticity

drugs and alcohol damage the brain and other body organs

you become more vulnerable in every respect

not a good trade off

existence has no meta

try as we might

to find one

a switch in perspective

before what was not understandable

and after

the previous state

glimmers dimly

as if from a distance

winking

at

us

i watched this  scenic drive  video in norway from sogndal to bøyabreen glacier and feel at the end i have seen a bit of norway, i mean, really been there

imo full screen and turning the sound off works best

we listen, but don’t hear

we hear

but

don’t

listen

consciousness is an artefact of a tightly coupled information processing system  (the "broadcast" theory of consciousness) ,  quantum computing is not of itself conscious, but enables the very compact neural structures in a similar way that quantum superposition enables the very high efficiency of  photosynthesis 

for a machine or computer to be conscious i think of necessity, it will have to be biological and interestingly, this ties into what assembly theory regards as biological and how constructor theory bridges between biology and physics and even to regard biology as a "constructor"

you are taking on too much

my advice would be to have a re-think, we don’t live forever and the curtains start to fall surprisingly early

wisdom

an after the event thought

that causes pain

scriptwriters

overlaying

the

story

on

actors

language

mimics

reality

one

might

one

mightn’t

ambiguity

abounds

one

might

the other

mightn’t

ambiguity

abounds

"two women gathering fruit" ca. 1750  painted  by stephen slaughter, slightly less than a third down the page

eve picking an apple ?

paradoxes

recursion

limited unlimited

boundaries unboundaried

futility with a purpose

philosophy theology

purpose with futility

what can be said

they don’t say

what can’t be said

they do say

talk doesn’t fade with these people

when

it

should

rather entertaining for the synergy between the vocalists, acting has its place in opera

the papageno  duet in the magic flute

presentism   :   uncritical adherence to present-day attitudes, especially the tendency to interpret past events in terms of modern values and concepts

any journalist or media commentator

you can actually read this famous zen exchange in another manner

zhouzhou asked    :   what is the way ?

nanquan replied   :    ordinary mind is the way 

don’t bother me with that nonsense

equanimity

that sought after state

remains sought

appearing

only

when

it

wills

inconsistencies

slid around

mutual antagonism

abounds

is "diversity" neo-marxist at its core, that is in the context of "hiring" policies, its the intentional "politicisation" of companies and bureaucracies ?

stephen kotkin  offers an interesting perspective  (negative selection) ,  that is it suits the highest echelons of power to hire incompetent people because, being ineffective they will also be ineffective at being a realistic threat to them, you no longer have to wonder why some large public companies are so open in their promotion of diverse hiring by their chairmen and boards who no doubt anticipate long and lucrative careers uninterrupted by concerns of adequate management skills

this is not to say "diverse" hirings are necessarily incompetent, there are outstanding business leaders proving the opposite, but if you hire on features other than what offers the maximum performance benefit then necessarily your business or department will be turned to follow a different and chaotic star

an excellent wikipedia page on the russian artist  vasily vereshchagin

a labour of love

“ The researchers say this link between  poorer memory skills  and heavy cannabis use persisted even when they removed participants who had used cannabis recently ”

stasis

fugue

where have i come from ?

where am i going to ?

no answers

no questions

stasis

fugue

where have i come from ?

where am i going to ?

no answers

or questions

how to  understand russia ,  it will have been how the soviet union and now CCP china, north korea and belarus work and interestingly i think its something modern technology facilitates, the surprising continuity of an historical system

the presenter trying to rationalize this  mass insanity  as "normative" and reasonable

“ Recently I turned in a short research paper and had a professor falsely mark two random paragraphs of my work as "AI generated" ”

its a major issue if teachers are making false attributions to AI and needs to given consequences or some teachers will just run amok with the power of this being able to intimidate without fear of being held to account

what AI is showing up is the less than mediocre level of scholarship in the colleges and universities that its so hard to distinguish student from the LLM output

the  bleeding edge  is more interesting and shows the real power

of course, the russo-ukrainian war is remote and the net is full of news of other wars and deaths,   but this  is more shocking than usual

do you not read to understand what i write ?

you need to peruse more widely of "quality" to help raise your reading and writing age, what can i say ?

youtube videos can be helpful in this respect with various experts in their fields

how does it feel to have clichés instead of a brain ?

how does the world work ?

any understanding is provisional

even questioning the question

when you get zealots trying to change the "common understanding" of the meaning of the word or phrase into something idiosyncratic that suits whatever agenda they have, watch out, it borders on mental illness and is not healthy

my comment on case 17 of the mumonkan/ wumen guan/ gateless gate

old men

wasting their lives

looking at the young men

wasting their lives

it all passes so quickly

old men

wasting their lives

look at young men

wasting their lives

it all passes so quickly

before there was nothing

and after there was nothing

what was that

in-between ?

one way of telling if something posted is from a troll farm or similar is the praise is  over the top  and has no negatives because there is nothing in this world without "negatives" and in the usual course of things come close to or outweigh the "positives"

you often get highly agenda-ed moderators on web message boards who enforce their viewpoints by banning or removing posts, competently handling what you disagree with is a skillset they have yet to attain

thought cannot stop

unless we stop

this connection

escapes

most

assembly theory  explained  by sara walker

its basically saying that "life" is tautological with objects that have a complexity above a certain level, that natural processes alone cannot generate these objects, rather that they have to be constructed with some form of memory

lee cronin

this is actually a very good  example  of how AI works, intrinsically hallucinatory which is actually how reality is, lewis carroll knew, however AI you can pick by inconsistencies, even in writing

i take about 1/3 a teaspoon of taurine three times a day for migraine and sleep and i was interested read a study saying that it helps  with tinnitus , which having tinnitus i was sceptical of, but when i thought about it, it has never got worse which it used to do, so i think there’s something to that, mine is liveable and that’s not always the case, some people find it is a constant trauma

one of the things the net has introduced me to, that i would rather have never known about is the  process  of dying which is actually quite lengthy, has stages and is definitely "unpleasant"

the only "soft" fading you get is morphine

i’ve done a bit of hunting and always thought of "death" in terms of being killed, the process of dying through age or illness is something new to me, of course one hundred and fifty years ago we would all be so familiar with it

proletarian vibes

university taught eng lit has quality problems, you would be better to quit the course  (ed.  complaining of having to work 20+ hours a week in "hospitality" and do the course at the same time while her peers don’t need to work)  and read and study on your own account, more than possible with the net

by quality problems i mean outright stupidity and the substitution of political indoctrination for creative and critical thinking

there’s always a problem when you study by the lights of others, you need your own thoughts, not to become some pathetic clone dribbling idiocy

university arts education wants turning on its head, what’s coming out is just shameful, concrete sculptures to below the mediocratic, first refuge for the talentless

morphic resonance

woo woo universe

but

similarity

must count

somewhere

at

least

time slips away

like a river

strange and smooth

swirls and whorls

an

opaque

mystery

ed.  an old poem and reading it again, i like it

eternal life

could pass so quickly

centiles whish

a blink of the eye

as we spin on

universes gone

ominously ahead

always more

than has been left behind

ed.  "eternal life" is a religious notion and i wondered how things would appear if we lived forever

the

writing

and  "publishing industry"

it

never

was

genuine

so

why

should

it

be

 genuine now ?

rain

on

roof

eyes

laden

delicious

the interesting thing about hotels is really they are just a building with a veneer, an illusion between you and the functional starkness of the edifice

so  this video  on the ritz is interesting, its just bling in a building with all the usual problems except the staff are more polished as well they might be given the mark-up depends on their ability to carry the "ignis fatuus"

the ritz

faux glitz

traffic noise

discordant lighting

just the usual

except the cost

totally frightening

a different take, being scammed in budapest with  karl rock

why china is locked into an archaic form of government  (the CCP!)  that’s such a bad match for the economic function of the modern world is simply the  population pyramid  effect of the one child policy, numerical power remains with the older generations

huh, years ago i developed an anodic protection system for the rusty old galvanised steel watertank holding the house’s water and it’s very similar to what’s used on the  burj khalifa  except i used a stainless steel anode that needs wiping biofilm off occasionally and a relatively high voltage that overplates since the tank walls are so thin that hydrogen embrittlement is not a problem

still going many years later and the tank doesn’t leak, physical principles don’t change with the scale of the project, $50 or $50 million

jean de joinville ,  (who lived to 93)  recounts  his adventures with king louis the IX as a crusader

its totally bizarre, everything that happens says that egypt is the last place that he and the other french knights should be

if you have to be always right

you can never be wrong

why cripple yourself

like this ?

the process of identifying and correcting mistakes is "how reality works"

you maybe a bit ADHD so you have to look at things two or three times "to get it" ,  like for instance in my replies to you i have to go through what i write at least three times

cultists are

of necessity, unrepentant

simple folk grasping at

simple rules

at odds

with the

way

reality

works

but you can’t or won’t say what you agree with ?

you have nothing to give voice to, never work things out for yourself, only repeat whatever claptrap you think is fashionable, just the usual culty emptyhead

the problem with "modern monetary theory" which is print money and get your payback through the return in publicly funded infrastructure projects is that the money doesn’t get spent productively on these projects but rather in a manner akin to "social credit" and is highly inflationary

i used to work in electronics and maxwell’s equations always bugged me, i never knew what they were about, not having the math for it, but actually they are  quite simple

there’s nothing that can't be explained simply i have decided, like a lot of biology has chemistry as the lowest layer, but the functional layer is mechanical eg, DNA replication can be understood with minimal chemical knowledge

the reasons for non understandable explanations vary from deliberate obscurantism to intellectual laziness

there is a general cultural attitude given legal force by "hate" legislation, of all the gods of the various religions being valid, like allah is valid and the christian gold is valid and the hindu gods are valid to hindus and so on

this itself is a religious belief called henotheism and the old testament is full of it which is we defeated you in battle, so my god is better than your god, its not that your god didn’t exist

its totally weird in my lifetime to have seen this change from a uniformly "christian" society to this "henotheism" being legally enforceable and must be due to mass immigration creating a profusion of religious belief systems

interestingly, hate legislation in principle makes atheism illegal, though in my view, atheism is another religion with humanistic ethics at its core

“ If I notice, while living in a community house, that I don’t feel well when I am resting with my roommates when they intoxicate themselves with beer ”

alcohol depresses immune function, no doubt they are all afloat with viruses

don’t try to lucid dream, it can mess the brain up

time

in fragments

so says

larry eigner

how would he know ?

immobility

life’s shards

float by

forced observation

to see how

things are

ed.  the above my comment on the first part of one of larry’s poems  (quoted just below), larry had severe cerebral palsy from a forceps injury at birth, even typing was very difficult for him so his poems are "word minimal" with spacing being important, though i have eliminated the spacing in what i quote as being too difficult to replicate with html, an interesting example of an old technology having a superiority to the modern

from another time in

fragments

again dawn the sky

dropped its invisible whiteness

we saw pass out nowhere

empty the blue stars

our summer on the ground like

last night another time in fragments

a half moon

utilitarian light

not overwhelming

like the full

yet lacks the beauty

of the crescent sliver

in the dusk

is that

what does that say

what does that say

what

ed.  something i found in old notes, not ruling out 100% its by larry eigner, but it seems like me and not him

semantic-pragmatic collapse

drug users

can’t think their way

out of a paper bag

two shorts explaining what a neural network is

shape recognition training

f(X)

fantasy, dramas

dreams

of

connection

material sufficiency

status

no longer religion

opiate of the masses

everyone

actually

trials

over

misrepresentation

toxic relatives

chasing

wealthy heirs

the poverty

of the communist years

has left its mark

on

the

chinese

women seeking mates

about

wraps

it

up

oh

i

forgot

add

cruelty

psychosis

and

depression

the

drama cocktail

“ what is the difference between kensho and satori ? ”

kensho simply means "insight", satori is a radical insight that turns your understanding on its head ie life changing and as such avoided by people with sense

ed.&nbp; these are terms used in japanese zen, in fact JZ can be regarded as a sort of factory for satori, so as you can imagine, things get really messed up

if you want to get along with people, work with them on something, doesn’t matter what, that’s the one thing i have learnt

natural versus developmental talent is an interesting conundrum, but the fact is they need to strongly interact with each other for something outstanding to emerge

i would have to say the world with its ingrained and penal mediocrity does not favour this sort of  progress, it has to be done slyly so its doesn’t look too different in most respects

decades ago when the net was newish and people didn’t understand they were not anonymous to sophiscated tracing so were way more frank about some things that in fact were seriously criminal, i remember having a conversation with man in california who was an arsonist and had lit significant bush fires, he took great joy in it and also in avoiding detection which he had got figured down to a fine art and felt there was no chance of him being caught and had no concern at all about people being killed as a consequence, i think he had lit some fires even very recently to our conversation and was boasting about them

i also came across a couple of other extreme cases in different areas and i was surprised  (but now no longer am)  at how much they liked what they were doing, sort of anti-repentant and i realised human nature prevents utopias because there will always be people who take advantage of it following quite perverse stars that may not be understandable from the perspective of normative values

yemen

real arabian nights stuff

pity about the war

what is a word ?

a word is a sound with meaning that needs further refinement and specification within a larger context

the odd thing about the vivity/ EDOF iols is that in a way they mimic the cataracterous lenses they replace by spreading the light rays to give a depth of field, just like the cataract

absence and presence

the emotional whorl

a spinning top

is stable

for a while

presence and absence

the emotional whorl

a spinning top

is stable for a while

recent research is showing that women’s brains are constantly being knocked down and rebuilt depending on changes in various cycles and states, therefore they need eat well to support this turnover and you can see why anorexia has such a traumatic and self-reinforcing/ vicious cycle effect

i think this necessity of "brain changes" is its the only way the female can accommodate the huge range of life functions she must perform without having a much bigger brain and its extra costs and dangers involved, especially in a body designed to "triage" in pregnancy

dying young

the path of randomness

that brought us into being

is what

we left on

it took me a while to get this, her grandparents tried  to kill her  because she was a girl and they wanted a grandson

i think the "one child" policy was as damaging to china as the cultural revolution and they are starting to live with the consequences now

after my going

will you remember me

with affection ?

life is uneven

with its up and downs

yet i think we enjoyed each other’s company

now alone

as i set out

neither of us

wants to leave

you and our children

are all that

remain of me

ed.  the empress  fujiwara no teishi  died after giving birth to a daughter  (who lived)  and this is my "reworking" of her last poem, interestingly sei shōnagon was her lady-in-waiting

on my death

i have nothing to say

about my life

i regret

the wasted years

but could it have been otherwise ?

ed.  a  jisei  style poem

i think there’s a "no-cloning theorem" for translation, that you cannot replicate what is being translated, rather that you get a simulation of varying "conformity" or quality

idiosyncratic

unique

irreversible

unreplicable

unrepeatable

and so on

—  writing  —

idiosyncratic

unique

irreversible

irreplicable

unrepeatable

and so on

—  writing  —

this study  says unequivocally that glyphosate causes alzheimer’s like pathologies, so you want to be very careful when handling it

i think it will end up getting banned eventually, which, as its the world’s most widely used herbicide will have cost flow-on effects

article

a way of looking at islam is it attempts to fix some theological problems with chrisitianity, the most noticeable one being the worship of images and more subtly and less effectively the removal of the tangled snarl of the trinity

one penny

in a well of coins

takes a lot of searching

to find

looking for god

looking for meaning

beyond your own life

 what could there be ?

a diagnosis for a "developmental disorder" like "autism", "asperger’s syndrome" or ADHD is an acceptance that it is a disorder, but it is the "normative world" that is disordered

i know this will seem a bit hard to take, its really an abstract perspective and like anything else of this nature, applicability will vary in real life

the world of diagnosis ,  like law, is the nose of a rather large dragon that can feed on you

i think  the vulture  is clearly metaphoric for franz kafka’s  developing laryngeal tuberculosis

thunder

is a sound

its crisp deep tones

turn me around

from whatever i am doing

to listening to the profound

of course, everyone knows gustav klimt’s "the kiss", but the caustic parody  cardinal and nun  is unfamiliar

war

more death than we can handle

the way of being

termination

no polite farewell

resolution

reversal

just

a slow fading

that doesn’t fade

an absence

that

joins

make-believe

what we would like to believe

perhaps not

the illusion of

a truer world

being in our grasp

a house near here burnt down the other day because cooking oil got too hot and self-ignited, 406°C is the beginning of various self-ignition temperatures, that seems surprisingly low, but of course its an oil

when on fire they have to be left to burn-out, be smothered  (with a lid ?), or a suitable fire extinguisher used; water just explodes the burning oil everywhere or flares

i suspect they may have attempted to put the fire out with water because the fire got into the ventilation duct which would match a flare up

"buddha" is just a story book character, enlightenment is a fiction

wisdom brings scepticism about wisdom

“ When you feel lost, it means that you haven’t fully understood what Zen is ”

When you feel lost, it means that you have fully understood what Zen is

“ I went through something five or six years ago, that left a hole in me ”

so this is a confession that is paradoxically, not a confession, that is so much information is concealed that neither you nor the reader extract any benefit for writing or thinking about it

so its a basic skill to learn how to expose enough information to be useful and my own experience is this can done with a bit of thought, without causing any ructions from real life feedback

education is really about trying to establish a developmental path or the option of developmental path potentials in adults in contradistinction to our biology which only allows for limited change

its not about trying to fill a box with as much as can be crammed into it

a monk asked   :   two dragons are fighting for a pearl.  which one gets it ?

the master replied   :   i’m just watching

ed.  from the recorded sayings of zhao zhou 263, translated by james green

my  comment

a pearl or heath robinson ?

looking past the advertizing, what is the reality ?

zhao zhou should be more careful

the hangover  by toulouse-lautrec modelled by suzanne valadon

she became a painter herself and was rather beautiful when young as evidenced by renoir’s  dance at bougival  and   dance in the city

a slide show of 63  paintings  by edgar degas

i have never had much interest in him, but going through the slide show, you can’t but appreciate how good and what consistent quality he produced, i liked  blue dancers  best

unlike renaissance art, medieval theology never escaped its origins into what was clearly pointed to, philosophy

art can’t be encased in a shell since it can tell stories within stories that outshine the story its within whereas theology always loses out to the shell, often brutally

the "question mark" likely is an abbreviation of the latin "quaestio", the upper case Q being written above the lower case o, none of this nonsense about the tails of egyptian cats

the moral of byzantium

there is no morality

the secret history  of the court of justinian

drama on steriods, but its real ?

beliefs

assumptions we make

about

reality

there is no reality

except back and forth

ebb and flow

still spots

are

the

illusion we seek

what

is

nowhere

to be

found

it

must

find

us

looking for

insomniac eyes

but sleep is necessary

even for god

ballet

and

piano prodigies

pushed

beyond

childhood

ed.  i think with much smaller families we are seeing an overfocus on childhood achievement and consequent "over-management" of the developmental process, it has its pros and cons compared to the previous "laissez faire" but has become too extreme leaving footprints of damage

however there is  a deeper hazard

mister

says

tongue

twister

but

mrs

says

tonguetwistes

when you look at  tamara  de lempicka’s paintings of her daughter  kizette ,  (ed. paintings at bottom of linked page)  one is tempted think of her as a visual model for vladimir nabakov’s novel "lolita", nabakov must have been aware of her and her mother lived the sort of life portrayed in "ada" or as near as possible in this "terra" world

cocomelon

apparently its designed to be hypnotic to very young children, when you watch it, you can feel that trance, sort of exhausts the brain

7 billion views, unbelievable !

medical tests are, in general, arbitrary, that is, you are either between cut-off high and low extremes or not and this is the only information imparted to you, however there are parameters that being near one or other end of the cut-off but within the "acceptable band" is significant and it can even pay to track them by recording what they are over a developing history, medicine won’t do this for you, but you can do it yourself and so be alert to trends and be ahead of the play

test batteries are a wonder of modern science, but so underutilized in many respects, quite a good application area for A.I. and the "cloud" now i think about it

we live in a world  where illusions  are easy to make

and easy to be fooled by

don’t underrate your not being sucked in and deluded by them

in a society where being a con artist has become generationally entrenched

mastery and incompetence

blurr continually

until

you

can

no

longer

see

the

difference

heaven helps the virtuous

no bad news is the same as good news

contemporary chinese sayings

“ cardiorespiratory fitness is linked  to the preservation  of cognitive abilities in older age

in a bid to explain the associations found, the researchers suggest that aerobic fitness may improve cerebral blood flow, reduce oxidative stress, forge new synaptic connections, boost the growth of neurons, and enhance neurotransmitter systems, as well as changing the shape and structure of grey and white matter ”

chasing shadows

yet

there

must

be

substance

my

brain

writes

nothing for days

then

it

all

comes

out

—   unexpected   —

mood shifts

manic obnoxious

to depressive obsequious

uriah heep

to

a

tee

dickens

had

insight

momentum

rolling forward

fast and slow

but if the directions wrong

what can you do ?

nights

like this

those globes

hanging in the sky

forever and ever

amen

marshal  philippe pétain  seems to be given a free pass, but  he was anti-semitic ,  vichy france was not some benign idyll during WW2

he was more than a passive agent of the nazis, facilitating the holocaust and the brutal german treatment of the resistance and hostages and only escaped execution as a war criminal because he was a hero of the first world war and a one time mentor of charles de gaulle

paradoxically, he was also part of the french inertia towards creating the necessary rearmament between the wars that left france so vulnerable to the german invasion, but there is a certain weirdness simply because he was 84 when he became prime minister which i think argued for some sort of broad french consensus about the collaboration, the country had been so bruised by WW1

stalin is sort fascinating, especially for his unusual literary, musical and film interests, highly intelligent, but merciless

i like stephen kotkin  talking about him

“ Why is Bodhidharma always depicted with a scowl ? ”

why do pictures of jesus always show "coiffured hair"

easy peasy, they appeal to different audiences

you can work it out

depressed bodhi vs hairspray jesus

what i say

and don’t say

tell

and don’t tell

that tightrope

of

utility

and

danger

denis matsuev playing  "in the hall of the mountain king"

this rachmaninov  piano concerto  is pretty good too

what i have found puzzling about women is clear preferences for the physical female body as evidenced in advertising and magazines  (and now net "influencing" ) that is not simply some representation of themselves targeted at men

there is a name for it ,  gynephilia  and there is a complex of female to female interaction like "bestie" bonding which is associated and rather a mystery to men

its not symmetric and  androphilia  does not exist to the same extent in males

i’ll never forget seeing years ago in the main street of a nearby small town two young women take down and beat up a strong looking young man who i assume was being punished for some relationship infraction against one of them and i can tell you no-one stepped in to help him

that "bestie" bonding makes for a functional defence against any one man, it will have always been important in any human society and in earlier stages of hominin evolution might have been necessary to prevent males killing the young offspring of other males  (common in chimpanzees)

making the rounds on tiktok as a dance meme song and tune is  paper planes  and if you look at  M.I.A’s  /mathangi arulpragasam’s traumatic history as a refugee the lyrics make sense

written in 2006, its been around a while and suffers from low production values, so the late pick-up is unusual, but also in the nature of a viral meme, emerging from the permafrost so to speak

the original chorus was censored, "all i wanna do is  [take you in the back room, shoot you in the head]  and take your money  (between square brackets was deleted)

another interesting exercise in looking beyond the surface

female

attachment

both positive

and negative

terrifying

the most enduring humour seems to invoke pathological hubris coupled with functional serendipity; charlie chaplin and slapstick, inspector clouseau,   morecambe and wise

chants, like hymns and recitations are not meant to make sense or give useful information, they are a group binding technology

midday

in the park

alongside the river

three poplars clearly bent by the sea breeze

yet

from this distance

not a leaf stirs

ed.  i was looking across at the poplars from a bit of a distance and there was quite a strong breeze, they were somewhat bent by it, but everything was still, you couldn’t see any leaf flutter or branch movement, unlike the other trees around, 3/1/25

commonality of language

surpasses

racial identity

something i didn’t believe until i did a search

chimera cats

diamonds

glass that sparkles

nothing

but what

is

read

into it

the melting snow

releasing

the village children

to

play

ed.  my retranslation of a poem by  kobayashi issa

the gap

a poem/aphorism while showering

didn’t get out and write it down

totally

lost

now

can’t

even

get

a hint

of

what

it

was

the void

of

absence

more

painful

than

what

never

was

to release sulforaphane, broccoli needs to be finely chopped and left to  enzymatically process  for half an hour to ninety minutes, of course when cooked, a lot will leak out into the cooking water so you need to incorporate the water via gravy etc

from this point of view, only the florets are valuable, but the stem can be peeled, sliced and boiled like other vegetables

charles bukowski, a poetic genius and alcoholic maintained that marijuana was  more destructive  to the brain than alcohol, something he observed in potheads

there’s a lot of propaganda out there by users saying marijuana use is harmless, the effort they put into missionizing i find astounding, half the danger of drug use is not the drug itself, but the brainwashing into a destructive sub-culture

of course charles died from leukaemia and current research shows alcohol raises the cancer risk

political discourse these days seems to be dominated by two deliberately deceptive rhetorical techniques, "speaking for the dead" and "speaking for the poor", both arbitary constructs that are given no right of reply about claims made for them

they have always been been part of the standard tool kit for generating misinformation by regimes like soviet russia and actually "woke" or "identity theology" leans heavily into them

the "new year"

only new

from a certain perspective

as

the

old years

rotate

david deutsch on the  bucket theory  of education, in my view its so toxic and the real cause of a lot of social problems and amplified as an issue by earlier puberty

children are damaged by it and saddled with inappropriate strategies for later life

one of the most successful education systems ever was the medieval english apprentice system designed to convey highly skilled real world ability

the promotion of multilingualism is an egregious example of the "bucket" view of mind

getting old "freezes" us, we may be more content with who and what we are, but the wheel is no longer spinning

the prices paid for some of these "designer handbags" are disturbing  (hermes crocodile kelly handbags can be valued at £150,000) ,  they are not an investment, rather only bought as a female status symbol that will fade as fashions change

the luxury goods market, like a lot of the art world is a very sophisticated racket, usually, but not always, way ahead of its prey

body building has always seemed a bit crazy to me and actually is a subtype of body dysmorphic disorders called muscle dysmorphia, though there will be degrees to this in practice

interestingly pot bellies are not a psychiatric disorder so there you go

"All of Mahayana is words to counter disease"

"All of Mahayana is disease"

checkmate

this class of question "what if something earlier in my life had been different" while ostensibly being a meaningful conjecture is actually nonsensical because aspects of a life cannot be extricated in that way and altered

the genetics of inheritance from your grandparents is not even, any one grandparent can contribute up to 5% more or less than one quarter so much so that well back up the family tree, there are ancestors who contribute nothing

what we see

we know

what we don’t see

we don’t even know that we

don’t

know

if men weren’t simple

they wouldn’t be manipulable

would they ?

ed.  the misspelt word is deliberate, fitted better with the right sound lacking in the "conventional"

TLDR; an interesting take on the role of leaky "varicoceles", ie leaky veins in the testes dumping too much testosterone in the prostate causing BPH and also having the potential to cause prostate cancer which means that BPH and prostate cancer are not unrelated

“ Israeli Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu underwent a procedure in Israel to treat his benignly enlarged prostate in 2014.  At the age of 65, it is not unusual for men to have an enlargement but the treatment he chose is highly unusual.  It is also largely unknown and unavailable in the rest of the world, including in Australia.

According to an Israeli newspaper , it has been confirmed he had a Gat Goren procedure, so named after the two specialists who devised it. It was approved by his personal medical staff, did not require anaesthesia and reportedly yielded positive results.  Prostatic enlargement, known as benign prostatic hyperplasia or BPH, can cause considerable bother.  It can drive men to get up many times in a night and in extremis can send them to the emergency department because they can't urinate.

The Gat Goren procedure (prostate artery embolization) was originally developed to treat male infertility.

It is based on fluid mechanics and on what happens when drainage is impaired.  The inventors say that, with age, the one-way valves in veins that simultaneously drain both the prostate and the testes may deteriorate. When this happens it causes the veins to swell. This is similar to the mechanical process that causes varicose veins in the legs.  The valves become incompetent and the veins swell.  In the region of the prostate, however, they say valve failure has two effects.  The first is mechanical  :  as the volume and pressure in the drainage system build, the back flow to the prostate causes it to become congested and enlarged.  The second is hormonal: as the failed valves allow testicular blood to back-flow into the prostate, it becomes bathed in testosterone.

Having arrived directly from the testes, this blood has high concentrations of biologically active, free testosterone.  The prostate is regulated by testosterone.  Now, in addition to the testosterone it is receiving normally from arterial blood, it is being flooded with testosterone-rich blood through the back door.  By super-selecting the faulty veins in the drainage system and allowing them to be bypassed, the inventors say they can arrest and partially reverse the enlargement. The procedure takes an hour or two, no contact is made with the prostate and men are discharged the same day.  The inventors say treatment improves symptoms and a reduction in prostate size is evident within a few months.  But there is not a great bank of evidence to support this.  Rigorous testing is needed.

Peter Chin, an associate professor and spokesman for the Urological Society of Australia and New Zealand says many different strategies have been used over the years to manage an enlarged prostate.  "We have sliced it, heated it, frozen it, poisoned it, strangled it and performed other variations on this theme."  Now, he says, steam and aqua ablation are being trialled too. "We do this because a man only needs two things to pee.  He needs a pump, which is the bladder; it squeezes urine out through a channel.  "He also needs an open tap and the prostate sits like a tap at the bottom on the bladder.  If it is too tight, we loosen it by removing the tissue causing the obstruction either by destroying it or by pulling it away from the channel."

He says hormone manipulation with drugs is also used to starve the prostate of testosterone necessary for it to enlarge.  The Gat Goren method appears to be a variation on prostate testosterone manipulation. ”

ed.  now  (december 2025)  since netanyahu has, 10 years later developed a urinary tract infection and needs his prostate removed i would say the gat goren procedure is not as successful as the "gold standard" turp, however ,  this study  says it has a place, one limitation is the need for highly competent radiologists to do the operation

the involvement of "varicoceles" and their generation of high levels of testosterone in the development of BPH is interesting

“ Paying the price for  standing tall   :   Fluid mechanics of prostate pathology ”

looking through the eyes of others

you neither see what they see

nor see what you see

looking through the eyes of others

you neither see what they see

or see what you see

the "one mind"

of zen

is two

three

four

huangpo

is

an

idiot

the wild horse of thinking

is never broken in

we all live with this

"exhaustion" as claimed by deluze is the annihilation of possibility and in that context, different from being simply tired which is still encased by "possibility"

its the end of metaphysical inquiry and i really think transverses into the mystical

there is an ambiguity as to whether exhaustion is an end point or not

the  palais du trocadéro , fabulous and  non-existent

now

i wonder if people who get facial plastic surgery have to relearn how to make expressions ?

before and after can’t be the same

the wall prisoners were hung from  at sednaya prison  in syria, up to 30 people a week

if you don’t know, "bald and bankrupt" is one of youtubes most well known personalities, famous for getting into "out of the way" places, even arrested and imprisoned in russia at one point

i have always had trouble with how many days in a month and have just come across this simple rule

“ the months with 31 days are january, march, may, july, august, october, and december.  these months follow a consistent pattern where the days alternate between months with 31 and 30 days, except for february and july/august ”

FPV Drone  extreme long range  :  From Chamonix (1030m alt) to Aiguille du midi (3842m), French Alps

keep your sanity by turning the stupid music off

“ You haven’t given any reason why my OP is senseless

What philosophy background do I need to have ? ”

there’s a lot of overlap between religion and philosophy, you need to be able to see the overlap not to be fooled by religion

so a great deal of reading is required to gain a broad based understanding and make progress with this subject, self taught in the area is heaps ahead of what the stupid university courses push with their "1984" level of indoctrination

senseless means lacking sense, there’s nothing there to criticize, its precisely this level of meaningless, words just jumbled together that gives religion its edge over philosophy, if it doesn’t make sense, it can’t be wrong

a young woman  in china, in dispute with the police was effectively abducted by them and given a forcible lobotomy in a mental hospital, there was no question of her being mentally ill and despite huge publicity over the net, neither the police or the hospital are being held accountable

apparently this use by the police of mental hospitals to intimidate and imprison is widespread in china

buddhism is unique in my view for the sheer volume of scriptural faux philosophical rubbish

the new military paradigm is missile/drone destruction of infrastructure backed up by nuclear weapons

you need both

when you have them ,  you have peace, not otherwise

there’s something boring  about racing , an overfocus of sameness limiting the universe

“ Just recognize the experience as experience, rather than a myriad of things ”

a "myriad of things" is experience

foyan is up the creek

or

mistranslated

by

the

usual

cultural

christian

“ But also I see so many people here alone and desperate ”

alone ≠ desperate

“ that’s why they said alone AND desperate :o) ”

"and" used in english is not the same as the "boolean and" with its simple union of mutually exclusive sets, the language-semantic utilization has elements of association as well, through an "if  -  then" causation

if A causes B or vice versa, then there is an implicit level of equality or similarity

when the world spins

out of control

just reflect

it has always been this way

when the world spins

out of control

just reflect

it always was that way

huh, i have always preferred  camembert  over similar soft cheeses

consumption promotes neurotrophic factors

i was thinking about what purpose "actors awards" shows serve and really i think its to help entrain those well known enough to be given an award in the industry against the huge amount of unkown "career marginal" actors and actresses out there, that is, to reduce the level of competition for roles

it works quite well for the few

listening to a language you don’t understand

random sounds

you know are not random

but can’t feel

the depth

of

sense

that must

be occurring

what life gives us

our genetics

often ignored

the hook of bars

the cages of our mind

self - built

ed.  one of my very few poems from the hypnagogic state, maybe even sleep

watching a youtube video with an interview of nassim taleb, i was surprised to see him say something that really quite radical, that the normal distribution is not realistic of life and the reason for this is the data you cannot see, or often have no inkling of

a way to explain this is the notion of "alpha" or the probability of the null hypothesis being true eg, i may project/hypothesize that new zealand will have no major earthquake in the next five years so the null hypothesis is that is not true and say i give a figure of the probability of the null hypothesis being 10%, that enables you to see around the hypothesis and its constraints into the extreme nature of what might happen

this might seem like "splitting hairs" but its not, basically it unhinges the actual occurrence of events from highly constrained, formulaic, ontological even, statistical certainty

also a "null hypothesis" is not the same as an inversion, rather its simply that the hypothesis will not occur, ie not that the opposite will happen, again this looks like "splitting hairs", but in the split is infinite width

taurine is best taken in small divided doses, say half a teaspoon three times a day because "bolus doses" get flushed out by the kidneys

it basically facilitates metabolism, helps me with sleep and migraine

i think its a better option than NAC actually, more stable results and none of the dangers of "chelation"

i haven’t read the book, but  the reviews  are useful

sayaka murata’s  "convenience store woman"

earthlings

to be honest, i don’t read books anymore, maybe a couple of pages scavenged on the web and that’s about all my attention span can cope with

today’s very increased life span has created an awful problem with crazy consequences, political leaders way too old for their jobs and countries making big mistakes under their guidance, putin, xi jinping, biden and of course,   the catholic church

lola young singing  messy

leaving you

all seems benign

this bright summers day

raining blue

the sky

everywhere

roses

radiate

white and pink

yet

as i walk on

a palpable absence

tugging like homesickness

that feeling

won’t

leave me

wikipedia gives a balanced view of  osamu dazai’s  rather busy/eventful life

his book,  no longer human

there some hints that their mutual suicide was driven by his mistress of the time, tomie yamazaki rather than being his own intention

16 years younger than dazai, yukio mishima is another japanese crazy/talented, apparently he didn’t like dasai

michizō tachihara  however, was sane

thoughts after parting

women

pressing buttons

that don’t

work

how pathetic

there’s some existentially weird things that slip under the radar and one is korean and chinese actresses having ongoing plastic surgery to chase a synthetic hybrid european/asian blend in the way they look, similar to a mixed parentage of the same perhaps

the result is rather unreal

now is never

and never is forever

take your words

and go out to slay

now is never

never forever

take your words

and go out to play

"996"

how the chinese describe working 9am to 9pm 6 days a week

narcissistic grandiosity

the spike protein

that shows up

in writing

just about all "therapy" advice amounts  to these words  by ingrid kern

the ban on children using social media is going to have a contrary effect to the intention of "safety"

all you have to do is think about the age limit, at what ever age, 14 (florida), 16 (australia) you are dumping a "naïve" person on the net with no experience in handling its pitfalls at such a vulnerable time

the problems of the net extend well beyond child target vulnerabilities and include scamming, identity theft, ideological indoctrination, stalking, blackmail, revenge whatever   .   .   .

schools need to take much more responsibility in regard of education about things like this since traditional parental and mentoring skills are now so lacking, driving and drug and alcohol use are another area, but instead the focus appears to be poisoning young minds with neo-marxist nonsense and the ablation of "critical thinking" in favour of "cookie cutter" preformed ideas

dr. ann mckee on  CTE  from contact sports and interestingly, what i had never thought of, domestic violence

CTE makes sense of a surprising amount of behaviour, from sports stars getting involved in weird scandals that a little sense would have kept them clear of to the excessive helplessness of some domestic violence victims, the generational transmission of the violence in families and the high rates of PTSD in military personnel

its not just blows to the head, but sharp shocks to the brain from the body being hit, we are a fragile species, i remember deliberately opting out of rugby at secondary school after getting a heavy tackle i didn’t like and moving to hockey

another horrifying fact of old age, 50% of people at age 85 have a degree of the brain pathology  of alzheimer’s , although not everybody has the symptoms

words

those that fit

and those that don’t

an interior logic

i can’t understand

the world of schizophrenia

everything makes so much more sense

improbable associations

the inferences of magical thinking

deeply woven syntheses

lush backgrounds

fragile beauty

yet

all this

is

not

allowed

in a world that lives in back and white

ambiguity flounders

but

undercuts

gen  Z

the way they use words

chinese in its level of hypocrisy

watch out

for these dissembling generations

practiced

in being untrue

in what they say

ed.  to be fair, i don’t think its just gen Z, but a society wide change as middle eastern and asian mores on withholding and distorting information to personal advantage take hold in the west

mountain scenes, best looked at in full screen mode to get a sense of the scale, kanchenjunga base camp trek, nepal

intro

phale to khangpachen

moonlight

that dear friend

lights a world

dissimilar and similar

that spells out

"there is more truth in strangeness

than in what we know"

moonlight

that dear friend

lights a world

dissimilar and similar

that spells out

"there is more truth in strangeness

than what we know"

education

the ladder of mediocrity

that

oppresses

parallel worlds

they don’t exist

complexity

too

far

what is not computable

be’s that cannot

be

the end of the road

turned out to be empty

all it was

was

the

end

of

the

road

one

was

free to

move

on

in

any

direction

bees driven to flowers

not only their life cycle

it provides

bees driven to flowers

not their only life cycle

it provides

a world of better probabilities

too likely to function

at all

but

how

much

more

sense

it

would

make

a good lecture and discussion of age related  macular degeneration

brown or orange tinted sunglasses offer more "blue" reduction than green

its an unfortunate fact, but if you live to one hundred you will almost certainly be legally blind

photobiomodulation

“ Raspberries are rich in bioactive compounds with promising anticancer properties.    This review  provides a comprehensive analysis of the anti-cancer effects of raspberries, highlighting their potential as natural agents in cancer prevention and therapy.  Bioactive compounds induce apoptosis, arrest the cell cycle, inhibit angiogenesis, and suppress metastasis.  Preclinical studies demonstrate significant anticancer effects against colon, breast, lung, prostate, and cervical cancers, with clinical studies also supporting their therapeutic potential ”

the next generation  covid vaccine addresses some of the problems of the existing one, it sounds to me that only the tip of the virus spike/antigen is produced eliminating a lot of the toxicity due to reproducing the whole spike

the dose required they claim is a quarter of the existing

it activates the innate immune system for a better response rather than the adaptive

i think it is still several generations away from "being safe", particularly the issue of the mRNA carrier nanoparticles being distributed to all organs needs to be solved

i have pulled a couple of all-nighters recently, they are totally destructive, never again, it takes three or four days to recover, disrupting the circadian rhythm and immune function, not to mention getting a migraine, and recovering "sleep debt" is not easy, jet lag with attitude

on the other hand it can be done

appealing to those of a low reading age is not a validation

i think you are trying too hard, too much stretched reasoning

a mother meowing for her kittens on the porch, but i know better than her where they are

under the weatherboards on the other side of the house

yes

it

has

come

to

this

“ we must abdicate our sense of self ”

what meaning can there be to "self" abdicating self ?

don’t you just get more self ?

what even is self ?

hardship

preached as the road to salvation

by theology

avoided by all

its caustic imprint

unhealing wounds

that fester

what is not resolved

is not resolved

despite

the

theology

the "is"

and the almost "is"

that surrounds us

hidden in its breathing

of what we know

and don’t know

russia at its best, mozart, piano concerto no. 20 in D minor played by  ekaterina mechetina  and the st. petersburg state academic symphony orchestra, 2007

piano concerto   no. 26 ,  the pianist aimi kobayashi looks young and she is, eleven years old

rather being that age at a disadvantage, in fact it is some sort of neurological peak, before the neural pruning starts and the joints start to stiffen

youtube

the largest  mass grave  in syria

to

pointe shoes

from the origins of life

to the demise of the universe

it doesn’t

seem

more extreme is possible

so, plant based milk alternative drinks  are not healthy  and must bear some of the responsibility for today’s health/dietary crisis

study

plant based meat alternatives have a 42% increased risk  of depression  and a 40% reduction in the risk of having irritable bowel syndrome

if the crown fits, its already being worn

ed.  my reworking of "he who wears the crown, bears the crown"

the male view of life

women running around men

the female view of life

men running around women

children’s view of life

adults running around them

god

rot

the

lot

buddha statues

fat sanctimonious farts

jesus

pictures

gay

as

islam has it right

about no images

ed.  there’s a longstanding theological conundrum about devotional or representational images being problematic in terms of the "true worship" of whatever metaphysical ultimate reality posited, islam’s response to the problem of "the trinity" is less convincing

its interesting that russia’s battlefield tactics for infantry have not really evolved from WW2 and   drone warfare  has tipped the balance of effectiveness away from the disregard for the lives of their own soldiers

i think even the lessons from the russian involvement in afganistan have been lost, perhaps with the trauma of the breakup of the soviet union and the "mafia state" that emerged afterwards russia never got to grips with having an armed services capable of competently fighting a full scale war

the dead

still photographs

only constituted

in ourselves

  —  now  —  

the dead

still photographs

we are

their reconstitution

  —  now  —

bright and dark

these clarifying extremes

or is it

the nonsense in between

that engages us ?

jesus’s  crown of thorns

what has this to do with anything ?

the problem that americans have with their health system is their lack of acceptance of "triage"

if you have a publicly funded health system you have to accept triage

without this, costs expand like the universe and now i think about it, even private health insurance tries to triage, though the bar is set much lower

the intelligent application of knowledge, supplements, a sensible diet, no drugs, smoking etc and minimal alcohol helps you avoid the problems of dependency on the "medical system"

black and white

enemies and friends

this

world

black and white

enemies and friends

not

this

world

in a faraway place

out, under the moon

boobooks calling

reminding me

of my own country

out, under the moon

in a faraway place

boobooks calling

reminding me

of my own country

ed.  the australian boobook sounds identical to the "morepork/ruru", its marginal as to whether they are a separate species

alice sara ott  playing  frederic chopin’s nocturne in C sharp minor  (no. 20)

she was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis in january 2019 so may have had the diagnosis for a bit more than a year when this piece was recorded

an interesting  musing , she has an unusual literary intelligence, musicians in general are not "thinkers"

the problem with "morality" in philosophy is the way, of necessity, effect circumvents intention

"bad" intentions may lead to good effects and vice versa

we even have a saying about it

“ the road to hell is paved with good intentions ”

aphorisms

wisdom literature

modelling

what ?

yet

unmodelled

the thing about tattoos is they are  so awful , you would have to be deranged to get them

the brain is hardwired to look for skin imperfections as signs of disease and hence for that person to be avoided, you can see the logic of gang or prison use of tattooing to create an "outsiders" identity of normative social rejection

an interesting contrast is "body modification" which is solipsist, driven directly by some sort of brain developmental anomaly in the area of body image

does  this    you ?

you have claimed to answer "honestly", but actually more is required like "perception, experience and judgment"

"honesty" and "sincerity" can be smoke screens for the most egregious self-deception and misinformation

chrysanthemums

the star of chinese lore

blesses the future

and its many petals show no sign of disharmony

but if you follow  the story

catastrophe came

ed.  westerners won’t appreciate how famous in china this scene is, the beginning of the "crabflower"  poetry club

“ a monk asked, "what is your intention ?" master joshu replied, "there is no method to it" ” 

my comment

there’s no "zen", like any religion its adherents are pursing an illusion

the past, draped with pathos

has no transition into the future

which remains unknown

ed.  when i write, i often just put down words that seem to be there and i have no idea what the poem means, in this case it didn’t make sense until i looked up what "pathos" meant

episode two  of  "the dream of red mansions" ,  the archetypal chinese "drama" and coincidently one of the world’s great works of blurred fictional and autobiographical literature

there must be some message in it that hit too close to home, because production was eventually stopped by the CCP

the dream sequence

dark brown and orange furbags

in an overgrown lawn

shielded from the wind

two cats sleeping

in the late afternoon sun

joan baez singing  five hundred miles

sometimes things are so much junk, i don’t want to get further involved

that is, there is no bene  in helping them sort out the mess

they are the ones who bear the consequences and also get the bene  if they care to sort things out, but as it turns out they don’t care to

these religious quoters and "preachers" who can’t even share the translator of the translations they use because they would then have to address the fact its a translation

their approach is so "abrahamic" taking the "translation" as some bedrock of "certainty"

its not known how accurately the transcript represents what was said, there are several large potential sources of error here including time and cultural differences in language use and idioms

how far the translator is "reinterpreting" to   modern philosophical constructs, a chronic problem

their own lack of understanding so blatantly clear in the stylistic plagiarism, i have pointed this out before to them but they are unable to register the problems, treating their writing as performance art, narcissistic and stupid at that

why ?

“ Voids have no attributes ”

voids have attributes

of being there when they could not be there

of not being there when they could be there

and neither being there nor not being there when they are not there or there

"dramas" from a different time

1995  love letter  whose  lead actress  died recently

1973   outside the window  written by  ching yao  and is somewhat autobiographical

they were popular in their day and i really feel they have more depth than the modern stuff and the pace is quite different, not so ADHD if you see what i mean

the visionary

now escapes me

what once was

is now no more

the prosaic

is what’s left

with its

shattered

filaments

of light

letters and typewriters

weirdly absent

from our lives

now

letters

weirdly absent

from our lives

now

our society

life  +  alcohol  +  drugs

shows bare edges

that

cut

tangled thinkers

never escape

tangled thinking

men who think like women

so tangled that

the snarl never unwinds

an extract from the "notorious" case three of wumen’s "barrier of the gate of nothingness"

“ When Judi  (ed. zen master)  heard about this, he took a knife and cut off the young attendant’s finger.  As he ran out howling in pain, Judi called him back.  When the attendant looked back, Judi just held up a finger and he was suddenly enlightened ”

this might be an anti-castration polemic, because eunuchs had both their testicles and penis removed and actually the removal of the penis caused a lot of urinary tract problems in the eunuchs

eunuchs in the executive were a political answer or attempted answer to the problem of the constant fragmentation of family or clan aligned power cliques challenging the central government authority and i think it did work to a some extent and became a foundation stone of dynastic china

they weren’t "nice" times, look up "death by a thousand cuts"

composer gibran alcocer’s   idea ten

my vitamin D regime is 3000 iu a day, 90 mcg a day MK7/K2, i have done this for six or seven years, bones and joints rock solid, excellent health

in summer i get the occasional minute or two of midday sun on my whole body

if you get supplementation right, it really takes you into a different health space instead of being dosed with drugs with side effects that badly ingress into your quality of life

mythical faces

beauty

out of the normal

invariant

untouchable

yet

what cannot be reached

is still there

to beguile

purposefulness

purposelessness

the former

and the latter

interchange

constantly

the crescent moon sets

in a ragged fashion

through the gum tops

the evening star rises

what turns

and turns again

and turns

and turns

and turns again

and turns again

the weirdest thing about life is the stochasticism and out of all the multitude of options there is only one real

death

in its hall of splitting light

a cover for history

death

its hall of splitting light

a cover for history

ed.  i literally wrote this in a dream, and remembered it on waking, its a bit hard to explain what its about and now i think a fully understood poem is weak

it puzzled me as to whether  salvator mundi  was painted by leonardo da vinci or not and  martin kemp  gives a good explanation that it was

francis williams,   piecing together  an intriguing story from a portrait

the attempted imposition of martial law in south korea shows they are rattled by the tight alliance between russia and the north, for years they have ignored the problem of their neighbour to an extent bordering on appeasement and now its coming back to bite them in the form of an unstable nuclear capable bydweller

since the current peace between the north and south is only a truce  (armistice)  south korea is now effectively at war with russia, but you know, "head in the sand" ,  minimal help to the ukraine so far

“ dance on the spring festival gala   ”

“  the journey of a legendary landscape ”

i wonder how much the arts scene has changed in china with recent developments, aesthetics don’t mix well with nationalistic dictatorships

the most extraordinary thing about the crusades was the trouble it took to get there and then stay in an overwhelmingly difficult environment on many counts

driven only by crazy ideas

the weirdest thing about life is its stochasticism and out of all the multitude of options, there is only one real

what has happened

has pressed the stamp of indivisibility

what cannot be changed

the night sky

hardly ever

a cascading waterfall

of stars

ed.  this references li bai’s poem titled "gazing at a waterfall on mount lu", translated by  tiana wang

sunlight illuminates incense burner peak, kindling violet smoke

from afar, a waterfall hangs before the river

water flies straight down three thousand feet  —

has the silver stream of our galaxy plunged from highest heaven ?

a die in a glass

rolling forever

shaken without an outcome

what does this mean ?

time is complexity

complexity is what cannot be reached

infinity cannot be reached

time is infinity

when we scatter it

do we pay attention to what seeds and what doesn’t ?

having social skills is different from socializing

exists

not to exist

never existed

existed but no-longer exists

so many edges

for the markovian

and non-markovian

to play with

i haven’t seen any tiger snakes for a while, but i saw two on the dam this late afternoon, medium size sunning themselves

they were rather beautiful, a dusty black and prominent overlapping scales, the first i thought was a scarf and how could that be here ?

with the second we were mutually startled and the first i almost trod on but it didn’t move

a good  explanation  of how the blockchain works, worth understanding since it seem like digital currencies and other uses will be with us forever

its also interesting in the context of P  =  NP and the easy verification of a solution vs solving a problem computationally

divorce

one wife/husband

or the next

or a former

life is too short

for this much trauma

tears and laughter

the usual story

a circle

being can’t penetrate

sorrow

the joy of what completes the circle

loss

the cats

view of real estate

is different from mine

they like the door sill

and will fight for a position on it

the repetition of false information

the basic mechanism of propaganda

its everywhere

from the personal

to the state

to international

my 30 cents on the manawanui sinking is it had an under-engineered integrated control system, in short a bit of artificial intelligence was needed and quite feasible these days, same problem with the ferry grounding

these systems are not cheap and are a substantial engineering project in themselves, but the entire ship will always be at risk as recent events have shown

i wouldn’t mind betting the option of upgrading the system was knocked back at some point, i can see people will point fingers at the crew but imo the "fault" lies with the highest levels of naval decision making about what constitutes a ship’s readiness to go to sea and not putting their foot down about a lack of funding for essential work

humans in emergencies are not that great, i remember years ago getting lost on a walk in the remote coastal outback/desert up at kalumburu, total panic, completely forgot the markers i had placed to guide me back and what saved me was climbing a tree and recognising an island which gave me my orientation, i didn’t have to think, it was just simple perception

theology

they try

rules and explanations

but can’t see

the hopelessness

of their position

dreamlike

cause and effect doesn’t work in the usual way

what appears and disappears

without rhyme or reason

murky undercurrents

indeed

cliffs

waterfalls

beech forest

sea

clouds

fiordland

sandflies

crayfish

mist

rain

calm

wind

waves

the human

got

left

behind

plagiarism

the personal abyss

of nothing

ersatz filled

non-markovian, indivisible, exponentially increasing complexity

markovian, divisible, polynomial time

alice’s world

where  P   =   NP

the way of words

an endless road

you’d think the letters would complain

but they don’t

injustice

life’s smooth fabric tears

the god of luck rolls the dice

catastrophe   vs   mild

there is no correct way of viewing the world

the magnifying glass of pain

sobers our vision

justice

in justice

more than an inkling

the world doesn’t work the way we think it does

and how else could this be

when life does this

the only thing that tempers it

is the recognition i have

of doing this to others

intentional or not

the narrowness

the jump

surmise to conclusion

indivisibility in between

what is not accessible to us

except

the

beginning

and

end

what i have noticed is journalists now confuse the literary with the factual, they can’t report anything without embedding it in a story reflecting their own biases and distorted viewing and these are not great intellects we are talking about so the stories tend to the inane and hackneyed end of the writing spectrum

if they actually understood what you said and could use it to hurt you, then they would, a lot of life is like this

“ Seven hands, eight feet; three heads, two faces ”

though the solution is easy, riddles are difficult

the road out is signposted with answers, who has formed the questions ?

ed.  the first line is a phrase from song dynasty china

rejection

formative to

alienation

which is all plus

to

clearer seeing

dramas ,  movies

concussion never results in brain damage

that

world

below are my comments on a recent and imo somewhat duplicitous press article i read about the "updated" pfizer vaccine to become available in december (2024), i’m not going to link and just remember, the following are my opinions, factual reality may "vary" and please consult your doctor as to what vaccine recommendations are, i’m not anti-vaccine, i just think the current mRNA covid vaccines have some design flaws that need to be solved to make them "safe" and given the evidence, the vaccines should be withdrawn from indiscriminate use

1.  they admit the vaccine is not that effective because the vaccine antibodies always lag the covid virus mutations, their previous strategy to get around this has been to promote heaps of boosters for a more general immunity and actually this works except for the minor problem of increased cardiovascular and cancer risks, so they have noticeably backed off this heavy booster schedule, i wonder why ?

2.  they are not claiming the vaccine is "safe and effective", only that the new vaccine is as safe as previous ones, since the discovery that the lipid nanoparticle mRNA carriers go to all organs, that is a "legally useful" qualification

“ Its just a matter of tweaking the sequence of the RNA essentially but biochemically the vaccine is is identical and so it has exactly the same safety profile as previous mRNA vaccines ”

they have also backed right off recommending "boosters" across the board, interestingly they have dropped the recommendation children get them and for those who aren’t immunocompromised it is now a matter of "personal choice"

the language used, to me indicates "the professionals" quoted are quite aware of the problems and are cleverly modifying the advice somewhat, medicine is a "guild" and i think its naïve to expect them not to have commercial considerations in their advice

war crosses the boundary

from

soldiers

to

civilians

history

has

always

spoken

this

truth

scott aaronson explaining what   quantum computing  is and how it differs from classical computing

i don’t think its unrelated to everyday life or philosophical problem solving where you are trying to marshal a number of factors so that the incorrect cancel themselves out and the correct remains and makes itself shown

the  sotheby’s auction  for claude monet’s ‘Nymphéas’, its really performance art

i don’t like auctions, the price is clearly out of the value realm and has degenerated to a duel between two buyers, not a good call for them

buyers and sellers  costs and premiums, the real engine of these cosy auctions, reduced a bit from previous highs, not as much money around as usual ?  perhaps oligarchs absent from the market, your bad vladimir putin

social rule no. 1

take things slowly and be guarded in what you say, even with people you know well

that’s all there is to it

“ Wish I could do that, I just endless blab all my shit to everyone and can’t control it ”

well that can be a strategy, just be careful what you give away about yourself, the blab is a decoy, see what they go for

i have always tied my shoelaces  this way ,  but its interesting to know the logic behind it

beneath the surface

undercurrents

revealing

a truer

state

of

affairs

colour

flowers

what flowers ?

why the ones’ with colour

and so it goes

on

carol of the bells  a cappella 5

there is only one life

no after or reincarnated

or

before life

this is very freeing

the stairways of infinity

are tiring

walking them forever

i can’t even imagine

as far as you can go

is only so far

and when you can go no further

stop

and observe

this turning world

propelling you

further

buddha and the tao and god and muhammad and zoroaster and jesus and moses

and

and

at the end of and

and

philosophy’s claims to be the finish line

turn

out

to

be

zeno’s

paradox

theology

a make believe space

not entirely wrong

but irretrievably distorted

by its conformance to being

a political tool

at

all

scales

of

operation

i have been suspicious that the two covid pfizer vaccines i had made my kidneys sore for about six months, this was totally new to me and fortunately things are back to normal, but the question is how the vaccine did it and the answer is the lipid nanoparticles holding the mRNA distribute to all the organs in the body and once in them start producing the ersatz spike protein which is toxic to the organ and causes tissue destruction and in my case the organs that lucked out were the kidneys, maybe because of the accumulation of the nanoparticles due to the kidney’s role in removing bodily waste

thank god i never had the boosters with their possible induction/permission of cancers, that’s something that is going to be playing out over the next decade i reckon

there’s nothing new under the sun

before salvador dali, there was  heironymous bosch

ed.  daliesque face in a rock in the garden of eden @ 0:17

we read the story, poem or aphorism

their lessons fade

as we investigate them

in the real

which bounces back and forth

with the imaginary

the unnatural worlds of entertainment

decoy

traps

the unnatural worlds of entertainment

decoy traps

i don’t see why roger penrose’s view that consciousness is dependent on quantum processes is so controversial, recent research has uncovered the involvement of quantum physics in photosynthesis, it seems there are hard biological tasks that require this extension of physics to get the function needed

shaken

not stirred

life

why does it have to be homogenized ?

the fundamental ontology

all that ever is

was

and ever shall be

ed.  huh there’s something to the  gloria patri , god knows i recited it enough at boarding school, its really quite a correct ontological statement, a perspective i never expected or could have dreamed of

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son

and to the Holy Ghost

As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be

world without end

Amen

some ontologies

can’t run for a minute

without

intervention

unless

they

run

in

you

“ All things arise from the same root ”

that fundamentally misunderstands ch’an/zen

sometimes you read something that blows your mind

john stuart mill was bertrand russell’s godfather

ch'an monk   :   then what should we do to be right ?

hui hai   :   there is nothing to do and nothing which can be called right

my  comment

what can be called "right" differentiates itself from "wrong"

is there a symmetry ?

no

because you would never bother with "wrong"

sometimes a painting  strikes you , i don’t know why

an excellent channel  with videos of paintings by various well known painters, just painting after painting in what is effectively a slide show of their work, no commentary

an interesting  perspective , the wave function is a mathematical abstraction with no physical actuality, hence there ,  in real terms are no "multitude" of worlds

i like this, it really separates "the planes of being" or ontology of existence from this real world we know and from the personal viewpoint, there is only one "me" and life

interestingly "reincarnation" and "life after death" are theological correlates to the "many worlds" theory and only exist as ideas, but they do what religion does well, totally confuse the picture of what life is by claiming that they are not just ideas but how existence is

aphorisms are a more correct approach, they don’t claim too much and are in a way probabilistic correlates about what reality is and the way it works and hint at a hidden depth in a non-definite way which is all we have access to

recursion

infinite regress

wherein do these reside

in nowhere

there is nothing else

except

them

the ouroboros

swallowing its tail

is

a

boojum

you

see

its not so long since humanity was totally blighted  by syphilis  and tuberculosis, i remember clem gordon telling me about living or working near to an insane asylum full of the noise of syphilitics, which apparently put her off relationships being of the pre-penicillin generation

the primary disease concerns have shifted from these to those that can only appear in their absence of living long enough, cancer and cardiovascular

so you have got today’s life expectancy and quality book-ended between the reduction in infectious diseases and diseases and conditions that emerge with aging

insane edges

we all visit them

and get cut

don’t exist

do exist

living in both

is not easy

if its not true

you can make it true

verity

is

not

fussy

as

to

its

source

nodes

quiescent spots

time

entry

and

exit

less

trauma

then

than being

ripped part

in

compulsion

open circuits

go around and around

until we fall out

through a hole into the ground

don’t worry about time

its not sequential

no amount of reasoning

can get

beyond

that

before and after

are constantly switching

the past is in the future

and the future

past

egyptian royal tombs

rooms imaging the lived life

this is the truth

of

the

afterlife

empty and dark

until memory

shines

its

light

again

the sad truth  about the general reading age

not simply low, but perverse

being able to tell if writing is by chat GPT is a skill that can be grown, particularly if you know a subject because then you know the data spectrum available to it and you can pick the way the information is threaded though the writing and the general lack of semantic coherence, its intrinsic to the way it works that its also chat BS

the embodied

puppets on the stage of the unembodied

you can’t cry

because that is still on strings

but laughter

has some freedom

with diseases like alzheimers that leave people looking relatively normal with no overt physical injury, there is a tendency to think the condition is somewhat "voluntary" and avoidable or even "put on"

however reading  this latest research  you can see its as physical as anything else, depressing, a compulsory, irreversible process dragging you down into it

a wounded animal distanced from your memory of them, indeed, distanced from memory itself

observing

doing

when we observe we form all sorts of ideas about what we see

but when we "do"

it all turns out differently

flora yukhnovich, an artist who can  talk her work

the problem that the education system has with chat GPT is it shows it up for what it is, the enshrinement of the less than mediocre

the way others see things

is not the way i see things

this

is

the revolving circle

of

difference

that

never

ends

i’m not sure geothe  has this right , not his best work, i don’t think the concept of affinity works, though he clearly believed it or he wouldn’t have fallen in love with  a 17 year old  at age 72

life is much more happenstance and how often do stars align ?

not often at all

an aphorism  by arthur schopenhauer that translates so well into our modern world with its plethora of media that you could substitute "viewing" for reading

“ the art of not reading is a very important one.  it consists in not taking an interest in whatever may be engaging the attention of the general public at any particular time

when some political or ecclesiastical pamphlet, or novel, or poem is making a great commotion, you should remember that he who writes for fools always finds a large public

a precondition for reading good books is not reading bad ones   :   for life is short ”

this  is so chinese

three days after the winter solstice, jesus was born in zhumadian

three celestials sent a box of apples, as well as five jin of meat and ten jin of noodles

the little maid held the red egg in her hand, and joseph was busy rolling out the dumpling wrapper

the shopkeeper sent ginger water with brown sugar and shouted   :

“ sister maria, drink it and you won’t be afraid of the wind and cold ”

if not for state suppression, christianity would have become a dominant religion in china, very much to china’s advantage i think because of it suitability as a religion of large states compared to confucianism

there is no god

yet

there is a unitary

beyond the circles of our life

ezekiel’s spinning wheels

with eyes that see

how propitious

ed.  the biblical reference  is to

if you had ever wondered about the limbal ring around the iris, it is the source of stem cells that rejuvenate the outermost layer of the cornea so a thick ring is better being an indicator of youth and health

an easy assessment to make of any people you meet !

the consequences of the loss of this function  are not good

words

put together

consciously

are

not enough

the

brain

has to tap

into

the

unseen

to

work

circle

the world moves

we follow

timothy dexter  is notorious as a "savant fool", but actually looking at things objectively, for instance, the book he wrote is spelt phonetically and not complete nonsense and he may well have had an inkling of the exchange offer for the "continental currency" he bought up, i don’t think he was a lucky idiot, just rather eccentric, canny and suffering from the indenture he served as a child leading him to be overfocused on social status

his wife may also have been involved in his business decisions

time doesn’t alter

itself is altered

the broad sweep of the river

as it enters the sea

the eye that sees

even seeing itself

cannot see

what sees itself

the eye that sees

even seeing itself

cannot see

what unsees itself

turning words

reversing thought

its always after

and

not

before

turning word

reversing thought

its always after

and

not

before

the great failure of women

is to be interested in men

a fascinating  account  of a man surviving pancreatic cancer through his own pro-active efforts with a medical system that would have doomed him if he just went at their pace

pancreatic cancer is normally fatal, he had the ability to fund private treatment and even went so far as to go to japan for the latest vaccine therapy, obviously this is beyond the purveyance of most people, but by doing that, it elevated him into a different dimension of recovery

male versus female  self-portraits ,  don’t know why they left frida kahlo out, she’s a touch too realistic ?

a list of the artists is in the description

long roads

are by their

nature

long

what is ever

resolved ?

differentiation

too deep in the brain

to avoid

you can’t run with it

you can’t go against it

what to do ?

choices have to be made

only

they become

unmade

cain kills abel

the ultimate non sequitur

remorse

never altered the fact

abel needed to be more wary

injury

that anomaly of life

its large shining face

always in yours

never heeding

your request for it to go

it laughs at irony

because it is irony

and feels obliged to not take itself too seriously

you do that enough for both of you

tears and laughter

go together

here

this

is

the

ultimate

resolution

even

beyond

dying

a lot of,  (though not all)  moderators lack basic skills in being objective about stuff they disagree with

and have poor social competence as well in my observation, can’t handle disputes productively

unfortunately, people like this actively seek to become mods and censor as their way of coping with what’s expressed on net forums

there’s no rules in war

hands can be wrung

but you can’t change the past

and what should have been

but

wasn’t

done

age

nothing competes with our younger selves

except

experience

and wisdom

signed for trauma

its there

the hidden

middle

name

projection

where everything aligns

not

this

world

the moon

that metaphoric

eye in the sky

as it slowly winks

in its own cycle

from a sliver that doesn’t see much

to the massive take it in all

yet its dusty surface

pocked by meteorites

doesn’t flinch

we

hope

ed.  a well known trope is the idea of the moon as an eye watching the earth through the ages and being disdainful or indifferent about what it sees going on there

the unrequited

life, love, anything

deeper

than

the

requited

nothing

has

to

be

filled

the emphasis on "sudden enlightenment" distinguishes zen/ch'an from other forms of buddhism and is somewhat akin to the christian "born again" or "paul of tarsus" experience that zen was to a degree modelled on in its formative tang dynasty years

unfortunately or fortunately the genuine experience is rare and mostly a manufactured construct cobbled together by fakes, who frankly, are taught to be that way by their religious peers

"sudden" is simply a perspective, it might equally well be said to be a journey in infinity and goes on forever, but the transition back into our reality appears to be a form of instantaneity

you will never believe it until it happens to you and until then you will wander in the usual verbiage

south korea has a weird vibe because of north korea, for instance there is a nazi style concentration cap about 150km north of seoul, the south koreans just close their eyes to what is happening to their racial kin

well its blowing up on them if, as appears likely, russia will help to build missile launched nuclear warheads as part of the price of sending north korean troops to the ukraine

south korea now is at war  (the present cessation of hostilities is only an armistice)  with a country that will in the near future have an effective nuclear strike capability, things are going to get weirder

“ the chances of harm are higher than that of bene  ”

dr. claire craig  on the mRNA vaccines

lol, when you think about it, the chances of harm were even higher in the non mRNA vaccine from astrazeneca which was so bad it was withdrawn

my own personal experience is i have never had covid and after the two vaccines i had sore kidneys for six months which i have never had before and fortunately they are now no longer sore, can’t even tell they are there

i judge my not having covid as being the case since i have never lost or had any alteration of my sense of taste or smell and when i read the literature, covid is infectious but not super contagious, its not certain you would be exposed anyway

dr. craig on a  stem cell like  feature of the vaccine

you’d think this is starting to crack the "religious veneration" of the advice from "health bureaucracies", but if its happening, its slow in coming

dr. jonathan engler giving a  good explanation  of the way mRNA vaccines work, and the problems with them

actually i was thinking they are halfway to stem cells, that the way mRNA works is that cells are functionally mutated with novel consequent side effects not known in "normal" vaccines

buddhism is not like christianity and islam with their relatively limited source texts, but rather is itself like the "sands of the ganges", numberless and unending writings that you can make of what you will

zen/ch’an is more christian in this respect, textually more limited and somewhat anti-buddhist in tone which you might expect from its daoist grafting

charcoal strokes

create a river valley

cloud wisps

steep walls

a plenitude of natural scenery

more than hinted at

lines and marks on paper

are more than they appear

“ children who experienced sugar restrictions during their first 1,000 days after conception had up to 35% lower risk of developing type 2 diabetes and as much as 20% less risk of hypertension as adults

low sugar intake by the mother prior to birth was enough to lower risks, but continued sugar restriction after birth increased the bene s ”

study

i think "transmission" is a japanese invention, in china it was simply a sort of certification that one was   to take over as abbot of a monastery, one got the monastic appointment first then looked around for some-one to "approve" you, presumably this had a "transactional" nature

the effect of the "transmission system" in modern real life has been to dumb down zen as only stupids will put in the decades of subservience to various idiots that is required, plus all the inter-personal trauma of what is basically a co-dependent relationship between the "teacher" and student

“  These results  are the first to report simultaneous brain-wide changes in human white matter microstructure and cortical thickness coinciding with menstrual cycle-driven hormone rhythms ”

that is, women’s brains literally change on a monthly basis, no wonder men find that its like dealing with a different person, they are a different person !

i wonder if its a factor in female dementia or mental illness, being a hugely stressful process requiring good nutrition that doesn’t necessarily work as well with increasing age, indeed it could be a reason for the human female going through menopause

this video  is quite helpful in understanding the paintings of francis bacon

the tune is barely recognizable, but its from tchaikovsky’s nutcracker suite  marche  of the toy soldiers

r|making sand for the ganges

r|endless comments never taking on board what is actually said

r|damp ashes

r|no power

well i have given up, r|zen is what it is

“ Merely giving up isn’t thorough enough ”

well, i’ve done both, "not give up" and give up

“ The third option in the dualism is the one that lets you finally enjoy yourself ! ”

i wouldn’t quite say "enjoy" but i do use it for my writing, you can’t just read the r|zen nonsense and remain sane

your comments in this thread are unusually "on-track"

mRNA vaccines  inducing cancer  is a problem that doesn’t seem to be going away

a geat painter or writer

long dead

when i view or read their work

i wonder

how much of the living them

am i seeing ?

black silhouette of gums

light blue ink wash

blackish grey streaked clouds

and high above

bright evening star

on a first look

an inkling, or perhaps

even a discard

on the second, it opens up

a new view and world

education

the cage of knowledge

whose inmates

never escape

people

can’t look at history

that sense of time and change

a relativism

makes today

too hard to confront

beauty dies

as it must

but before it goes

how far it takes us

sparrows chatter

tuis cadence

magpies warble

kookaburras are raucous

all these

come and go

but the sound

remains

i really don’t see how, despite the claims of safety that lapband or gastric bypass surgery doesn’t  create problems  that make the conventional dietary and exercise approach to weight loss way more preferable

the surgeons’ home truth about one operation necessarily being followed by another is more like a law of nature, don’t go down that road if you don’t have to

DNA contamination of mRNA vaccines looks to be another factor in potential vaccine induced  cancer rates

the moderna vaccine  looks  worse than the pfizer because of its higher dose

a mother breast feeding

that feeling

the weirdness of an evolutionarily designed feature

that has nothing to do with you

there has to be some bene  to "doom scrolling"

hilarious

the mystery of the universe

is no mystery

what is hidden and deep

is illuminated all around you

in an

unearthly light

it looks like the "out of africa" theory of human migration is flawed and that a lot of parallel evolution occurred in asia and europe amongst populations there, the only common factor driving this i can see is that language of necessity creates a tableau of similarity, especially in the brain

women like their emotions, but on balance its better to be male

women have the primary evolutionary role in the continuity/ preservation of the species

this underlies the deep currents of their behaviour and men should never forget their own role is as a disposable adjunct and they will be treated as such when situational extremes occur

quadropters , therians, given what it does to the back, for the young only

well, there’s always   harajuku

the world has never been any less insane

from  assia gutmann  telling a friend that her seduction of ted hughes was like taking "candy from a baby" to her murder of their daughter  shura

seeing the faces brings it home to you

the problems of being  a psychiatric nurse  in the u.s.a.

one gets the impression of a dystopian system

a good interview

most people i know will pathologically avoid researching their health problems and remedies

the problems with ill-thought-out "environmentalism"

everything is just so "grab an idea" and implement it

well this is a doozy, intention can come back to hit you in the face

black plastic kitchen utensils made from  recycled plastic  contain flame retardant

i don’t even think that recycled plastic has a net positive "environmental effect" anyway, rather like electric cars once all the costs are added in

the extent to which public policy is being run by the stupids in the media is disheartening, a subculture in general that can’t think its way out of a lot of paper bags, but suffers from "blind entitleism"

unbending road

strung between is and is not

curled within the vastness of inconceivability

enwrapt outside the universe

constrained by possibility

existing because it can

what do we say ?

ed.  an old poem with a different line order, possibly the original one which i am still not sure about

van gogh’s "irises" were originally violet, not blue, the red pigment he mixed in with it has faded

what we conceal

and what we show

bleeding information into the universe

is how it is

gen Z all over

performative nonsense

something weird happened to me today but i can’t remember

it wasn’t the cats getting into my car and eating the roast chicken though that did happen

ah, i remember, at the barbers, the man next to me took the chair and appeared to know the hairdresser well

he was young and looked and sounded exactly like what you would expect

but after a little conversation between him and the hairdresser it turned out his brother was bipolar and had recently slashed his father’s car tires

the hairdresser  (female)  was covered in tattoos and on the walls and shelves were bric-a-brac matching the tattoo themes, amongst which snakes figured prominently, her hair was an off the wall mess

surely the process of forming "a theory of everything" will exclude the possibility of there being a theory of everything ?

there seems to be little agreement on what optimal levels for vitamin D are so  this study  is interesting

my own view is that since vitamin D is a natural steroid then people will vary in the amount they need in terms of how activated their immune systems are, and for me being on the high end, i need more than most, but of course it will be less than some, basically you have to judge how much suits you

don’t forget it needs to be balanced up with MK7/K2