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constant
imbibing
of
information
going
where
and
for
what ?
it's
not
easy
don't
do
it !
much
would
get
done !
campaigns
are
made
by
picking
off
the
weak
at
a
time !
i'd just say they "grind slow"
in
the
sun
winter
is
just
a
round
the
corner !
is
telling
you
it's
wrong
your
approach
is
wrong
and
it
has
always
been
wrong
than
it
seems
like
cinema
a
few
themes
intertwined
how
long
1,970
years ago ?
problem
of
translating
a
meaning
from
one
language
to
another
is
very
demanding
i
don't
know
if
translators
suffer
from
nervous
breakdowns
but
they
should
woman
can
handle
except
her
infirmities
being
pointed
out !
fight
the
enemy
where
and
when
he
is
strong !
after
all
the
aim
is
to
win
and
not
get
in
physics
occurs
in
a
different
way
things
which
exist
more
exist
more !
can't
argue
with
idiots
just
leave
them
be !
would
i
talk
to
you
when
i
can
talk
to
eternity ?
what
extent
is
it
just
the
the
endless
same
story ?
the
number
of
people
who
have
any
sort
of
discriminating
ability
about
life
is
very
limited
nothing
turns
out
i
never
do
it
well
enough
i
am
a
bona
fide
disaster
area !
of course if this were zen they would make pretend fruit and i wish i could say pretend eat it, but they probably really eat the pretend fruit
i think you are at the stage of discovering it's all pretend!
in the light of infinity
the
of
women
is
more
tenuous !
well
women
are
commanded
by
children
too
so
it's
all
sorta
endless
ultimately
men
are
commanded
by
children
are
children
commanded by ?
think
they
are
commanded
by
life's
more
abstract
features
actually !
life
is
this
constant
process
of
forming
illusions
and
being
disillusioned
by
events !
why
be
a
mediocrity
when
you
can
be
a
mediocrity ?
the
dark
ships
sail
on
the
black
sea
black
sea
sparkles
with
light !
charles
bukowski
was
all
about
women
and
sex
weakness
the old medical procedure of bleeding
was
an
iron
removal
strategy
i thought
i
heard
voices
i
did
hear
voices
were
they
saying ?
passes
and
nothing
much
matters
last night midnight
menedev
is
a
sort
of
natural
boss
shall
we
say
but
you
have
sort
of
grown
into
it
which
is
more
interesting
to
me
than
natural
ability !
yes
i
know
russian
politics
is
pretty
thuggish
long
tradition
that
going
back
to
before
the
czars
bloody
and
brutal !
people
have
an
idea
children
are
themselves
but
children
are
always
totally
strangers
what
the
black
pearl
is
i
don't
know
the
end
of
so many years
you
may
be
able
to
look
back
and
say
that
was
the
black
pearl
the springwater center
caught
in a
neo-advaita
time
warp ?
communal
groupings
why
is
it
wrong ?
you
are
all
that
exists
groupings
why
is
it
wrong ?
you
are
all
there
is!
is
a
wrong
turning
i
spend
half
my
time
in
the
past
and
future
god
i
can't
even
be
sick
without
writing !
i
am
here
by
invitation
self
actually
i don't
think
i
am
schizophrenic
mentally
retarded
and
autistically
in
competent
certainly
seated meditation
the
way
modern
life
is
one
does
not
need
more
restricted
circulation
my
experience
is
there
are
somethings
which
can
only
be
expressed
through
inconsistencies
cannot
control
another
universe
not
even
slightly
it
has
to
move
of
its
own
volition
cannot
control
another
universe
not
even
slightly
it
has
to
be
of
its
own
volition
meditation is psychosis
here
and
now
is
a
concept
advaita
springwater
zen
.
.
.
.
with
women
love
is
possessive
what
they
love
they
want
for
themselves
men
and
women
colour
reality
differently
if
you
saw
it
you
would
know
that
teaching
being
a
teacher
and
being
taught
are
a
waste
of
time
charlene
you
just
want
to
spew
your
effluent
all
over
the
world !
you
can
get
what
you
want
and
then
want
it !
what
is
the
wind ?
it
just
blows
past
us
don't
we
know
.
.
.
.
well
there's
an
equanimity
that
comes
from
having
no
children
your
problem
is
a
deep
flaw
in
understanding
reality
at
the
brain
level !
i
can't
criticize
you
without
criticising
your
brain !
you
are
not
plastic
in
that
way !
you
are
fitting
me
to
your
projection !
you
are
limited
by
your
own
understanding
i
am
not .
the
reclining
buddha
is
a
fiction !
you
disbelieve
in
anything
except
your
own
egoic
view
of
the
universe ! .
anybody
who
teaches
a
another
egoic
drug
damaged
musician
there's
something
wrong
with
their
brains !
they
didn't
me
myself
a
better
it
be !
dogen
only
partly
knew
he
was
on
about !
all
a
lot
simpler
if
you
don't
take
him
as
some
solid
gospel !
zen
masters
and
buddhas
of
the
ten
worlds
wipe
my
bum
before
breakfast !
the black dragon is its own pearl !
no-one ever took it who was rolled into it !
you
can
help
those
who
hurt
you
but
don't
deliberately
hurt
those
who
help
you
though
of
course
is
unavoidable !
monk
had
no
reply
they
never
do !
friendship
a
l
w
a
ys
g
o
e
s
w
r
o
n
g
!
polymath ?
bumptious
muddler
might
be
closer
to
the
truth !
you
get
to
a
point
when
you
can
see
such
a
thing
is
then
you
have
to
ask
why
should
sucha
thing
be ?
building
things
out
of
nowhere
there's
a
lot
of
that !
just
a
dull
ordinary
mystic
wannabe
not
prepared
to
pay
the
price !
the
christian
scenario
for
mystics
is
over !
you have made a new alabaster jar !
teresa
of
αvila
you
are
not !
why
are
the
italians
so
good
looking
a
s
a
race?
bloody
too
many good
looking
slave
women
in
the
days
of
empire !
keep
for
sky
is
it ?
put
enough
time
and
energy
into
something
and
you
can
pretty
well
get
anywhere
if
your
health
holds
up
if
it
doesn't
hold
up
.
.
.
.
i
think
if
you
can
call
yourself
a
teacher
you
don't
understand
what
it's
about !
impart
some
information
and
methods
maybe
with
a
huge
dollop
of
scepticism
about
final
results
and
methods
and
you
are
a
tiny
fraction
of
the
way
there
and
that's
about
all
that
can
be
done !
message
boards
90%
clueless
10%
clued
1%
very
clued !
is
a
fraught
nightmare
unforgiving
you
need
that
memory
of
remembrances
to
keep
an
even
keel
in
the
appreciation
of
life
writing
stuff
that
stays
on
wikipedia
is
like
doing
a
word
puzzle
sometimes
i
find
it
hard
to
believe
i
can
get
things
so
wrong !
why
am
i
so
there's
objects
also
that
same
using
and
lack
of
consideration !
which is why mating is a matter of female choice in humans
and sparrows !
brad warner
ability
without
knowing
what
is !
it's
a
question
not
a
statement
so
how
do
you
visualize
the
a
little
step
In
a
big
step
OUT !
i
don't
like
zen
i
got
really
really
damaged
by
it,
how
damaged
has
taken
me
an
awful
long
time
to
see !
the giant con game that ZEN IS SO GOOD AT !
well
they
don't
particularly
want
to
be
saved
so
spare
them
the
trauma !
what
is
it
about
what
w
e
do
that
is
self
defeating ?
we
are
entrenched
on
evolutionarily
designed
behaviors !
how
do
you
visualize
the
void ?
they
injured
me
i
am
injuring
them
by
not
helping
them
!
that's
a
start !
injure
those
who
injure
you
be
hard
to
know
where
to
start
wouldn't
it
well the earth will not be habitable imo
there
is
always
a
million
miles
to
go !
that
is
the
nature
of
all
my
work
you
would
think
that
something
comes
together
but
nothing
ever
does !
an
interior
notion
of
some
forms
of
zen
buddhism
relating
to
and
flawed
fail
me
how
what
is
sleep
where
is
sleep
will
i
go
to
sleep ?
i
don't
know
most
of
what
i
write on wikipedia
is
against
the
grain
counter-intuitive
saying
something
unpalatable
you
have
to
be
very
careful
how
you
do
it
disguise
it
in
politically
correct
stuff
wolf
in
sheep's
clothing
to
speak !
wikipedia
and
message
boards
are
counter-
intuitive
you end
up
hurt
wether
you
are
reader
or
writer
i
hope
these
homilies
have
provided
some
of
mind
navigate
these
rapids !
now
i'm
hurting
you
who
i
help !
my
problem
is
i
pay
too
much
attention
do
what
does
cease
and
not
enough
to
what
doesn't
cease !
the
only
way
to
keep
your
sanity
on
wikipedia
is
to
you
write
so
it's
not
lost !
what
gives
me
pleasure ?
i
don't
think
anything
sex
it
is
looking
like
the
faith
mind
sutra
is
a
corrupt
abridgement
of
the
by
niu-t'ou fa-jung
which
is
much
more
readable
parts
and
being
screwed up
in
others !
not
so
odd
really
probably
another
composite !
when
you
make
a
mistake
try
to
use
that
mistake
to
effect
an
improvement !
the
faith
mind
sutra
a
of
what
it's
all
about
it's
just
the
once
you
are
out
of
something
you
can
look
and
see
what
it
is !
women are from mars, men are from venus
we
are
only
wherever
we
are
it's
own
the
morons
think
you
can
beat
them
but
you
b
y
them !
people
like
me
i
don't
think
you
can
age
conventionally
men
and
women
united
in
exhibitionism
there's
more
to
his
life
than
my
it !
to
the
Old
and
What
They
Do !
They
Have
a
few
CLUES
SOMEtimes !
; o )
own
dying
is
more
fundamental
than
the
destruction
of
the
world!
GO
FUCK
YOUR
FACES
JEHOVAHS
WITNESSES !
They
Hurt
Those
That
Help
Them
and
Help
Those
That
them
what's
my
name ?
i
am
a
witch
a
bitch
a
ditch !
my
name
is
woman !
he hurts
those
that
help
him
and
and
he
helps
those
that
hurt
him !
more
and
more
i
am
coming
to
the
solipsist
viewpoint
when
w
e
die
everything
how
many
miles
must
a
man
wear
down
before
he
himself
answer
my
friend
is
blowing
in
the
wind
blowing
in
the
wind
the
compendium
the
one
spot
in
the
universe
you
can
find
everything !
nothing
great
by
themselves
but
together
they're
a
good
combination !
the
female
orgasm
a
mystery
to
the
male
there's
a
clarity
with
celibacy
well
confusion !
there's
so
much
craziness
around
it's
depressing
there's
some
sad
truths
about
poetry
one
of
which
is
poems
mean
most
to
those
who
write
them !
atheists
are
just
as
rigid
as
religious !
a
cycle
i
just
don't
think
people
lol
!
she was actually correct and basically he is wrong and he's not hearing it
this
is
not
too
subtle
for
you
the
reader
true
art
is
born
to
poverty
and
lifetime
nonentity !
it's
better
to
spend
time
with
the
the
things
are
empty
and
they
continue
that's
just
how
it
is !
i'm
burying
the
dead
which
happens
to
be
mandelstham
and
akhmatova
were
the
potent
couple
they
strongly
other !
they
sorta
accelerated
each
other !
why
is
life
so
difficult ?
never
ending
and
unceasing
trouble
it's
because
it
is
image !
i
think
women
are
over-
invested
in
an
sylvia
plath's
marrying
ted
hughes
was
a
disaster
of
biblical
proportions
but
he
was
not
responsible
for
her
suicide
the
doctor
prescribing
the
anti-
depressant
she
had
previously
had
a
bad
reaction
to
was !
and
her
self
i
guess
she
was
overenamoured
of
the
medical
system !
you
raise
children
but
you
have
no
purpose
life
is
essentially
purposeless
it ?
the
dogs
formalism