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birds
of
a
feather
flock
together
but
a
bird
of
prey
can
be
amongst
them
the
men
are
at
war
while
the
women
are
at
home
tending
the
roses
really intense gritty fighting
the homily is illustrative of something
madness
of
being
actually
the
alphabet
is
digital !
that's its little universe tho of course other characters get added in
they
are
a
good
buy
now
they
are
a
good
buy a
week
later
are
rarely
a
good
buy
now
in
fact !
some
bad
things
have
to
happen
because
we
don't
learn
any
other
way
that
is
of
necessity
damaging
but
hopefully
not
too
damaging !
the
zen
premise
is
wrong
that
you
can
simply
correct
yourself
and
come
back
to
infinity
doesn't
work
that
way !
the
problem
with
seated
meditation
is
why
does
it
make
everyone
who
does
it
schizophrenic ?
you
can't
say
it
doesn't
because
it
does
and
i
am
not
sure
it
can
be
unwound !
if
you
are
doing
it
then
it's
about
15
years
to
unwind
silence
is
is
not !
there
something
other
than
this ?
i'm
starting
to
very
slowly
get
a
grip
of
my
being
i
think
we
all
are !
the
entire
human
species
is
insane !
you
can
see
it
after
a
while
it's
very
obvious !
a
narrowness
or
blinkeredness
that
gives
meaning
to
a
context
but
the
context
is
nonsensical !
in
way
a
fiction !
i
don't
mind
being
dead
it's
the
process
of
getting
there
that
sucks !
✵ ✵
cohen
who
could
take
his
mother
a
s
a
disciple
has
got
deep
semantic
issues
as
has
you
do
something
that
is
totally
distinctly
uniquely
you
and
there's
no-one
there
god
doesn't
exist
are
thinking
god
is
the
central
question
but
is
existance
is
non
existance
the
central
questions !
the
of
ghosts
can't
harm
you
can't
talk
can
only
depression
gets
all
the
right
answers
infinity
is
not
spiked
sky
.
.
.
it
never
hurts
a
bit
as
get
older !
what
is
the
point
of
austerities
if
you
communism
it
never
worked
and
if
it
does
it
never
did !
england had pogroms too !
i'm
not
dying
you
all
are
i
cease
you
all
cease !
existance
was
always
fragmentary !
infamous
last
words
the
problem
with
zen
is
you
volunteer
your
life
away
into
something
they
get
what's
coming
to
them
you
can't
wish
punishment
on
those
who
do
it
so
effectively
to
themselves !
the
essential
isolation
of
ourselves
red
heads
certain
savancies !
the
usa
is
an
society
values !
ashvaghosha's view is fundamentally solipsistic , again in my opinion
i have a different interpretation of the significance of the colours, red is a unity of infinity and reality and the most potent and personally crucifying of the colours, though there can be a certain benignness to it
blue is sort of like a high energy coupling of infinity, dangerous and manic and only taking infinity in this high energy way
gold is new to me and i have yet to work it out, probably some illusory safe area!
white i usually take to be a sexually charged colour !
so
unusual
to
come
across
any
interest
in
colours
like
this
and
to
see
it
walk
out
from
1900
years
ago
like
this
is
almost
unbelievable !
pole
star
of
existance
around
it !
it
is
the
nature
of
mediocracy
that
they
cannot
place
themselves
second
fiddle
to
what
is
superior
to
them
but
must
overpower
and
squelch
and
crush
any
spirit
out
of
it
this
gives
them
i
think
you
have
changed
considerably
you
are
much
more
distanced
from
everything
life !
what
impresses
me
about
the
net
is
the
endlessness
the
same
people
with
the
issues!
a
million
million
of
you
it
on !
each
meal
is
laura
ranger
not
writing
anymore ?
must
have
had
a
bad
neural
pruning !
the
world
ceases
my
came
into
being
with
my
to
those
who
criticize
me
i
have
only
one
reply
you
do
better ! ”
winter
solstice
summer
solstice
the
hour
glass
of
the
seasons
has
turned
in
our
favour
now !
(the
southern
hemisphere
to
the
north !)
rommel was a fink because he copped out of the plot to kill hitler, that was his biggest personal failure and he was forced to commit suicide because hitler thought he was involved anyway!
germany had always lost since the 1930's with the emigration of their best scientists who were jewish
beryl-blue
and
red
beaks
give
me
red
eyes
and
a
beryl
blue
beak !
there's
two
rose
gardens
the
secret
rose
garden
by
shabistari
in
translation
by
florence
lederer
which
needs
to
be
which
tho
somewhat
ornate
is
full
of
good
practical
advice !
the
problem
with
translation
is
it
loses
the
allusive
richness
and
constant
entendre
of
the
original
language
and
culture !
a
woman's
breasts
are
they
there
for
your
sexual
gratification?
no
they
are
there
to
feed
babies
sexual
gratification
is
secondary
to
purpose !
muhammad
jesus
buddha
of
neccessity
load
of
crap !
religion
and
philosophy
the
endless
trying
to
make
something
out
of
it's
better
to
arrive
somewhere
having
come
through
what
doesn't
work !
hopefully
you
will
avoid
that
again !
if
you
assume
there
is
an
error
and
go
through
it
you
will
find
them
what
is
existance
what
is
non -
existance
viral
i
am
afraid
!
is
a
time
of
hardship
because
food
changes !
a
king
governs
by
virtue
of
superior
ability
but
he
gets
dragged
down
by
the
needs
and
abilities
of
those
around
him!
take
my
own
advice
trying
to
explain
something
that
is
not
really
explainable
the
mystery
of
bad
sometimes
i
take
my
own
advice
that's
the
thing
about
youth
they
have
all
that
energy
seen
from
the
slow
perspective
of
aging !
that's
the
thing
about
youth
they
have
all
that
energy
seen
from
the
slow
perspective
of
age !
tolstoy
went
senile
in
his
later
years
too
much
viral
exposure
from
his
visitors
who
were
a
pretty
ripe
bunch
and
mercury !
interestingly
his
wife
was
a
woman
of
sense
except
that
she
married
him !
marrying
who
could
want
more
than
one
mother-
in
law
in
a
lifetime ?
everything
persists
for
a
little
while
then
is
i
think
why
zen
is
really
damaging
is
people
who
don't
know
what
they
are
on
about
portray
themselves
a
s
knowing
what
they
are
on
about !
the
world
works
differently
to
our
theories
about
it
this
btw
is
the
a
though
it
doesn't
feel
anything
it's
always
going
through
transitions
taumas !
if
you
always
go
to
bed
comfy
feeling
well
well
fed
you
are
never
going
to
see
life
properly !
well you are right there but you don't really see it.
“the supreme practice which Dogen called the backward step of turning one's light and letting it shine, on the contrary, is to come back to one's self”
there's no self to return to, it's just the mandara flower !
it
is
a
thing
be
on
a
dentist
one
thing
i
do
well
the
rest
i
don't
do
so
well
life
is
infinitely
demanding
if
you
think
it
is
finitely
demanding
which
most
people
seem
to
do
then
your
eyes
aren't
open
you
are
always
tottering
on
the
precipice
of
death !
socrates
was
killed
for
his
effective
criticisms
of
the
various
religions
and
cults
of
the
over the years
you
can
see
everybody
has
gone
in
straight
lines !
everybody
goes
straight
lines!
the
whole
problem
reading
don
quixote
understanding
it !
a
for
the
ladies
jesus
he's
good !
who needs the compendium ?
only $19 !
sanity
is
the
least
liked
thing
on the
net imo !
and
in
life
the
degree
of
retardation
incredible !
it's
the
hardest
thing
in
the
world
to
escape
crap !
the
dreamtime
knows
no
race
it
calls
to
those
who
can
hear
and
see
it !
the
trouble
with
the
lives
of
various
religion
founders
like
christ
or
buddha
is
those
sort
of
insights
do
not
come
from
communal
contexts
yet
the
stories
are
overwhelmingly
communal !
the
deep
insanity
that
runs
through
humans
is
the
need
to
continue !
life
has
a
lot
of
different
modes
of
existance
modulating
between
existing
and
not
and
what
look
like
prime
movers
like
money
are
in
fact
an
artifact !
heroes to themsleves but wimps and bullshitters in life huh !
you
buy
a
share
expecting
them
to
make
money
for
you
then
it
turns
out
they
are
making
money
from
you
and
you
are
losing it !
if
you
stop
making
excuses
for
them
and
look
at
how
fucking
ordinary
they
are
actions
get
simpler !
because
i
am
so
completely
myself
i
always
get
completely
floored
and
taken
in
by
people
who
are
not !
pyschopath
an
extreme
life
has
no
meaning
breakfast !
ravens just don't pluck out the eyes , but they reach their beaks down through the skin from under and along the jaw and eat the thyroids?
no
wonder
they
are
so
energetic !
abandon
any
idea
of
being
and
wrong !
easy
and
abandon
any
idea
of
being
right
or
wrong !
it's
easy
and
illuminating !
what is red ?
what
is
blue ?
what
are
you ?
whatisred
what
is
blue
what
are
you ?
sometimes
i
feel
we
are
silliest
species
ever
walked
the
planet !
ware
web
can
go
off
infinitely
in
any
direction !
there's
something
very
crimped
about
thomas
hardy
dulled
like
a
blunted
knife
compared
to
what
he
might
have
been
syphilis
i
presume !
janet
frame
she
was
autistic
not
schizophrenic
people
have
a
great
deal
of
difficulty
accepting
autism
as
life's
fundamental
paradigm
with
its
sparse
nothing -
ness
compared
to
their
large
native
inborn
theories
of
mind !
what
is
enlightenment?
what
is
enlightenment?
what
is
enlightenment?
what
is
holy?
what
is
holy?
what
is
holy?
what
is
being
a
scab
what
is
being
a
scab
what
is
being
a
scab ?
you
cannot
exhaust
everything
some
things
you
just
have
to
leave
because
exhausting
it
just
creates
new
potential
for
involvement !
it's
better
to
leave
at
least
with
a
semi-
settled
understanding
though !
luxuriant
garlands
and
wreaths
from
the
trees
fragrantly
affecting
and
coiled
earrings
fit
to
shame
gold
ones !
packer's
problem
of
talks
and
the
retreats
and
the
interviews
then
the
talks
are
a
decompression
of
that
i
am
similar
on
the
net
the
question
is
being stuck
in
this
of
any
benefit ?
we
always
make
mistakes
and
always
will
and
quite
bad
ones
at
that
the
thing
is
correct
them
and
fact
into a
new
era
of
competence !
the
problem
with
the
net
is
you
get
drawn
into
peripheral
lives !
what
is
happiness
is
incomplete
un
happiness
is
incomplete
happiness
and
unhappiness
are
incomplete !
emily
dickinson
died
at
55
i
am
54
i
don't
want
to
join
her !
i
wonder
if
the
net
is
making
me
insane ?
it
might
be
or
schizophrenic
at
least
from
information
overload !
just
let
me
cry
and
weep
for
my
i
am
incredibly
influenced
by
people !
i
am
much
better
with
impersonal
stuff !
i
must
say
the
average
human
is
incredibly
dull
and
uninteresting !
egoic
stupid
farts !
i
don't
think
there's
any
coherent
explanation
for
infinity
i
never
come
across
one
that
didn't
fall
apart
it's
all
process
and
approximation !
all
images
are
for
the
one
image
that
isn't
runs
true
you
can
tell
by
the
way
it's
purveyor
is
himself
reviled !
you
can't
change
or
address
the
complete
person
they
can
only
cope
with
small
or
even
tiny
bits
and
that's
how
you
should
approach
it,
too
much
will
only
result
in
to
yourself
.
.
.
there's
a
tragic
current
through
thomas
hardy's
gave
his
wife
syphilis
on
their
honeymoon
and
she
eventually
became
mad
from
it !
june
the
22nd
summers
running
to
winter
in
the
northern
hemisphere
and
winters
creeping
to
summer
in
the
southern !
surprisingly
continual
spiritual
the
other
one !
this
is
going
to
sound
crazy
but
you
do
not
have
to
go
to
prison
unless
you
want
or
agree
to !
time
is
just
a
mechanism
universes
to
communicate !
time
is
but
a
vehicle
to
talk
across
universes !
you? ”
what
is
we
are
born
before
the
universe
and
more
than
the
universe !
what
we
don't
understand
when
some-one
dies
is
we
have
also
ceased
what
we
don't
understand
when
some-one
dies
have
ceased
it
doesn't
matter
how
much
you
do
for
the
group
they
are
still
there
only
to
you !