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a
diary
break
down
reality
into
by
day
i
think
you
can
write
and
completely
lose
interest
in
making
sense
to
others !
one
world
tower
tower
strong!
one
world
tower
crazy
tower
though
strong !
in
the
end
most
of
your
writing
lacks
occasionally
you
write
something
very
good.
of
it?
in
the
end
most
of
your
writing
lacks
occasionally
you
write
something
very
good.
what
of
it ?
in
the
end
most
of
your
writing
lacks
occasionally
you
write
something
very
good.
what
of
it
in
the
end
most
of
your
writing
lacks
occasionally
you
write
something
very
good.
everyone
is
nasty
to
me !
what
is
the
outstanding
feature
of
that?
has
chosen
you
what
is
the
outstanding
feature
of
that?
she
has
chosen
you
what
is
the
outstanding
feature
of
that?
she
has
chosen
you !
sleep
is
not
everything !
heraclitus
was
right ?
suppose
so !
heraclitus
was
right ?
i
suppose
so !
it's
so
weird
no-
one
will
understand
what
you
are
doing !
it's
so
weird
no-one
will
understand
what
you
are
doing !
it's
a
hard
school
children
are
voracious
no
wonder
women
need
to
be
tough !
maybe
the
woman
is
a
symbiont
to
the
male
rather
than
simply
ruler ?
the
jewish
religion
has
always
been
particularly
badly
served
by
it's
priesthood
a
particularly
blind
and
stupid
clergy !
or
you
eat
them
alive !
is
a
everything ”
in
actual
fact
the
search
for
the
theory
of
everything
of
the
universe
should
turn
out
to
be
something
like
the
voynich
manuscript
that
is
they
will
be
looking
for-
ever
for
a
theory
of
everything !
anything
is
forgivable
except
being
good !
generally
people
in
a
different
generation
you
may
be
alive
at
the
same
time
but
they
are
not
accessible !
john
loori
was
schizophrenic
he
got
rid
of
anyone
who
didn't
go
along
with
it !
women have a sense of having seeded and gone to seed
men
just
continue
until
startled
by
death !
men
just
continue
until
startled
by
death !
sometimes
i
think
i
should
just
write
it
down
and
put
it
in
a
suitcase
like
pessoa !
children
are
slaves
to
their
parents
and
parents
are
slaves
to
their
children
but
more
so
parents
are
slaves
to
their
children !
men are slaves to women, women are slaves to children
you are saying i am saying something yet it's you filling a vacuum the way you think it is
i
do
swear
that
schizophrenia
is
the
norm
for
human
beings
sanity
is
not
as
flash
as
being
an
elf
a
fairy
or
fay
therian
a
werewolf
or
a
vampyre !
travelling
when
ill
a
wandering
dream
the
and
sea!
travelling
when
ill
a
wandering
dream
the
parched
hills !
mike
cross
i
think
we
have
this
much
in
common
we
are
both
mad
not
that
uncomfortable
with
it
if
you
know
what
i mean
sometimes
you
need
to
see
a
work
in
a
bad
translation
break
free
of
it !
charles
bukowski
women
are
breeding
machines
you
needed
a
non-
breeder
which
you
eventually
got
i
think
translation
is
partly
the
art
of
making
a
voynich
manuscript
of
sense !
do
you
think
when
dogen
talks
about
non -
he
means
not
having
the
last
word ?
in
terms
of
somewhere
to
live
there's
nowhere !
i
like
a
good
life
what
is
that ?
death
what
is
that ?
you
are
trying
to
make
sense
of
the
whole
thing
you
see !
it's
so
weird
no-
one
will
understand
what
you
are
doing !
life
what
is
that ?
death
what
is
that ?
you
are
trying
to
make
sense
of
the
whole
thing
you
see !
life
what
is that ?
death
what
is
that ?
well
we
don't
have
to
be
together
just
like
we
don't
have
to
be
apart !
poetry
is
perishable
like
everything
else
the
multilayers
of
meaning
get
eroded !
from
the
moment
it's
written !
poetry
is
perishable
like
everything
else
the
of
meaning
i
really
don't
want
to
write
so
much !
there's
worse
things
than
just
lying
in
bed
thinking
even
have
to
get
out
of
bed
to
write
the
thoughts
down
if
we
didn't
age
there
would
mostly
be
no
cancer !
japan
has
a
thinness
of
intelligent
decison
making
at
the
top !
this
is
a
problem
for
any
society
but
is
particularly
exaggerated
in
japan
perhaps
because
of
their
high
urban
densities
and
extreme
partitions
and
specialization
of
skills?
when
people
are
injured
they
tend
to
injure
those
nearest
and
dearest
to
them !
personally i think CBD’s are a bit dated now, one of the interesting things about the christchurch earthquake is how things have been kept functioning through redistributing functions out of the cbd to the suburbs through the internet !
christchurch pales into insignficance beside fukushima, it’s really interesting how incompetent their society is with this sort of problems, even the russians were better with chernobyl, i have seen figures that fukushima has emitted 8000 time the amount of radiation compared to hiroshima to date, but tepco are still trying to recover the reactor and don’t appear to be entombing it which i think is all they can do. anyway japan has a horrific cancer burden coming up !
i was reading about the japanese entry into WW2 and it’s like a farce, two of the main players, yamamoto and the emperor thought it would be the disaster for them what it was, but they both plunged ahead , the emperor was not just a figurehead btw, quite an astute ! yamamoto had spent three years at harvard !
ho chi min also spent two years in the usa !
r
u
a
man
painting
a
woman
or
a
woman
painting
a
woman?
r
u
a
man
painting
a
woman
or
a
woman
painting
a
man?
i
don't
think
russia
has
really
come
to
grips
with
that
it
killed
one
of
the
greatest
poets
and
the
author
of
probably
what
is
the
greatest
poem ( seashell version 1, 2 )
ever
written
no
system
could
survive
that
could
do
that !
same
with
nazi
germany
and
kafka's
sisters !
i
don't
think
russia
has
really
come
to
grips
with
that
it
killed
one
of
the
greatest
poets
and
the
author
of
probably
what
is
the
greatest
poem ( seashell version 1, 2 )
ever
written
no
system
could
survive
that
could
do
that !
white
cockatoos
screeching
in
the
the
macrocarpas
a
tree
full
of
dinosaurs !
white
cockatoos
on
the
the
macrocarpas
a
tree
full
of
dinosaurs !
working
the
truth
of
something
out
i take a very practical view
like
you
can
ask
“ what
is
atheism ”
in
theory
atheism
is
a
disbelief
in
god
but
in
practice
i
find
it
is
humanism
that
is
a
belief
in
the human
species
as
god !
in
working
the
truth
of
something
out
i take a very practical view
like
you
can
ask
“ what
is
atheism ”
in
theory
atheism
is
a
disbelief
in
god
but
in
practice
i
find
it
is
humanism
a
belief
in
humans
as
god !
advaita
is
rolling
like
a
wave
of
sewage
through
the
western
world
sewage
is
what
people
want
of
course !
i really think this verse is saying , like some of the others that heaven and survival are two different matters and feeding hawks with one's own flesh is not the way to go about it, similarly with nanda's erotic distractions
feeding hawks with our own flesh is how we go about life, tho it's hard to see but we all do this !
teachers
can't
let
go
this
idea
that
they
know
something !
kay
ryan
a
poet
laureate
worth
her
unusual !
there
is
an
argument
that
writing
classes
a
influence
unleashing
the
unwashed
to
speak !
is
there
something
or
is
there
nothing ?
is
there
something
or
nothing?
what
is
it?
stars
luminous
skies
clouds
sunsets
and
sunrise!
you
are
all
so
completely
insane
rigid
in
the
sky ”
and
i
think
it
does
capture
a
feeling of
infinity
and
the
hopeless
weariness
and
attempted
dominance
of
male
energy !
if
a
pistol
argues
with
a
rifle
the
pistol
my
mother
quite
liked
in
the
sky ”
and
i
think
it
does
capture
a
feeling of
infinity
and
the
hopeless
weariness
of
male
energy !
what is it?
stars
luminous
skies
clouds
sunsets
and
sunrise!
i
think
as
i
get
older
and
work
through
things
a
bit
i
get
more
confident
of
who
i
am !
harry
an
he
dwells
deep
within
the
insanity
of
zen !
zen
is
there
something
understandable
there
or
is
it
making
sense
of
i
know
something
about
the
world
too
much
about
the
world
and
not
enough !
how
is
the
voynich
manuscript
different
from
this ?
hockney
talks
about
to
capture
an
image
as
people
see
it
poetry
does
it
naturally !
nothing
seems
to
be
more
fatal
to
any
understanding
of
life
than
not in the same class r u harry ?
a bunny attacking its fleas?
couples
are
a
complex
sum
they
need
to
add
in
the
right
ways !
couples
are
a
sum
they
need
to
add
the
right
way !
mills
and
boon
and
now
is
quite
a
simple
paradigm
that
of
courtship !
don't
understand
why
it
is
so
appealing
to
women !
maybe
the
command
of
themselves
over
the
we
don't
live
long
we
really
don't !
by
the
time
we
have
figured
a
few
things
out
we
are
dead !
is
like
the
manuscript
(third from the bottom, no.78 in the top righthand corner of manuscript shows clearly what it
is !
how the text was generated)
it
won't
make
sense
because
it
can't
it's
a
construct !
i
am
a
real
demon
demons
are
autistic !
the
net
has
created
a
situation
where
nonfiction
is
much
more
competitive
with
fiction
indeed
fiction
has
become
devalued !
witness
amazon
kindle !
zen
like
all
religions
is
an
attempt
to
empower
communities
over
individual
insight
it
fails
because
it
simply
cannot
work !
against
nature
so
to
speak !
you
can't
make
sense
out
of
the
voynich
manuscript
because
it's
a
fraud
except
in
it's
construction
as
a
fraud !
you
can't
make
sense
out
of
life
because
it's
a
fraud
except
in
it's
construction
as
a
fraud !
zen
is
like
the
voynich
manuscript
obscure
and
with
no
ultimate
meaning
except
the
power
of
fraud !
and
the
readiness
of
schizophrenics
to
believe
looking
for
mystery
in
the
wrong
place !
that
is
man's
fallibility
rather
than
infinities
direct
speaking
which
this
is
BTW
if
women
are
not
breeding
unless
they
are
menopausal
or
post
menopause
they
are
very
uncontrollable !
if
sex
wasn't
so
full
of
snares
and
tangles
and
consequences
life
would
be
a
lot
simpler ?
is
this
a
characteristically
male
thought ?
zen
mountain
monastery
i
was
the
real
thing
and
i
got
booted !
i
don't
think
there's
an
equivalent
for
men
a
s
they
are
not
on
hormones
in
the
same
way
but
they
definitely
lose
testosterone
in
their
50's
which
leaves
them
more
washed
out
tho
perhaps
more
vigorous
in
other
ways !
women
those
hormones
give
you
no
rest
and
when
they
leave
you
they
leave
you
a
burnt
out
is
dogen
the
st.
augustine
of
zen
voluminous
plain
wrong
minded
with a
kernel
of
truth ?
half
the
problem
of
life
is
the
way
we
little
cages
for
ourselves
other
half
is
that
we
don't
go
that
extra
mile
to
ourselves
out
of
them !
the
ill
fortune
of
interpetation !
what
i
like
about
writing
is
the
way
it
can
untwist
me!
you need a broader definition of zen and more articles looking at more interesting and contentious issues like has ekchart tolle gutted zen? is neoadvaita taking zen's “clientelle”
is zen wrong in the first place ?
more gossip on the sexual wrong doings of various teachers !
look the huffington post sells !
these teachers that you publish interviews with are vapid, they are vapid people and in fact transmission is also meaningless
sweeping zen is bounded by the way you self censor !
you are a sticky fly trap that binds and holds idiots !
better zen is swallowed up the by the ground creeping up on them than alert them to move !
no. 1
rule
help
the
enemy !
can
often
be
quite
against
the
grain !
often
it's
just
case
of
going
a
bit
further
and
looking
at
them
in
more
detail
and
seeing
that
they
really
are
the
enemy !
don't
be
fooled
you
can't
change
them
and
they
won't
change !
dogen
is
like
a
paradigm
for
zen
towards
the
end
of
his
life
he
got
to
where
poets
start !
the
miracle
is
he
made
any
progress
at
all !
my reply :
it's not all peter and if you were real you would reply here but like the rest you will hide, remain oblivious or remove this post !
i
would
have
to
say
regardless
there
is
no
peace
anywhere !
i
don't
know
where
ashvaghosha
got
these
ideas
from
!
of
the
road ? ”
the
sightedness
or
blindness
of
middle
age ?
you have to address the gut and nutrition but i bet the woman in the video isn't listening to what i am saying !
it's the way of the world that we see others don't listen but we don't see ourselves not listening !
zen
is
selective
for
something
gullibility ?
part
and
parcel
of
something
else
significant
a
self
easily
lost ?
exciting
to
get
to
the
end
of
the
road ! ”
exciting
it's
not
the
end
of
the
road ! ”
i
don't
think
people
can
handle
the
nullness
of
the
end
of
the
road
why
anyone
would
pretend
to
be
there
or
to
want
to
get
there
is
beyond
me
in
actual
fact
one
is
simply
delivered
you
just
get
to
the
end
of
the
road
and
there's
nothing
there
absolutely
nothing !
it's
like
arriving
at
suicide
without
dying
my
god
a
newish
crescent
moon
is
a
smiley !
it
had
a
bit
of
a
manic
tinge !
the
mind
is
desire
how
can
it
be
eradicated?
they
are
reprobates
the
more
you
deal
with
them
and
try
to
talk
to
them
the
more
they
drag
you
down !
worth it !
we
are
two
going
where ?
alone !
can
it
work ?
perhaps !
have
you
ever
heard
of
dharma
combat ?
i
just
wiped
the
floor
with
your
blood !
zen
lays
down
some
false
ideas
one
of
which
is
that
there
is
some
resting
point
in
the
development
of
understanding
there
is
none !
memory
sort
of
stiches
over
everything
if
you
have
no
memory
what
then ?
it's
still
memory !
i
think
what
i
write
is
as
good
as
ae
housman
i
don't
ask
for
more
religion
the
refuge
of
mediocrities
they
are
nothing
without
it !
you
can't
be
disillusioned
enough
about
this
whole
disaster
area
yet they are the ones with the time to do it better
zen really screwed me up. it's a question of walking out !
eileen's comment:
like me can't
men have really screwed me up it's a question of walking out
divides are part of what reality is !
unresolvable and unchangeable !
if one is entirely real that is also very flawed
i don't expect life to deliver a resolution
men are spurt the sperm and run
that actually gives them the maximum amount of children
life has multiple perspectives, it's just a
perspective
all
this
writing
am
what
i
trying
to
do
is
mirror
the
night
sky
and
stars ?
what is
the
point ?
what
i
have
learnt
and
it
happens
all
the
time
me
if
i
don't
give
attention
to
detail
i
get
burnt bit !
art
is
just
thinking
generally
about
life
i
don't
think
the
processes
are
any
different
say
from
fixing
a
computer
at
least
the
way
i
fix
them
and
being
broken
always
one's
art
is
better
for
and
broken
it's
better
for
you
is
not
so
clear
have
a
strong
intrinsic
uncertainty
of
a
vitamin D receptor problem ?
that's
why
the
bone
trouble
and
short
legs
and
why
the
syphilis
killed him?
you won’t know me but reading your article it had a quality to it that i was lucky to come across !
just thought i’d write cause i know how little this sort of thing is appreciated in the world !
i really like virgil and don’t know why a.e. housman was so keen on manilius !
it’s interesting the ancient greeks and romans were so up on atomic theory and the intelligent design versus chance argument has been playing itself out over the millenia !!
limited
from
the
outset
limited
in
the
endset
with
aśvaghosa
you
get
occasional
glimpses
of
a
massive
density
in
what
he
wrote
the
density
may
have
been
potential
that
is
he
never
wrote
it
or
it
may
be
real
that
is
he
wrote
it
but
the
subtle
many
layers
of
meaning
have
been
lost
to
us
through time
and
loss
of
his
culture !
there
is
more
zen
in
ancient
greek
and
latin
poetry
than
there
is
ancient
greek
and
latin
poetry
in
zen !
zen
is
like
the
voynich
manuscript
obscure
and
with
no
ultimate
meaning
except
the
power
of
fraud !
if
i
was
sane
and
published
by
the
victoria
university
press
you
would
call
me
a
writer
but
since
i'm
insane
and
not
published
by
victoria
university
press
what
will
you
call
me?
not
a
not
writer
since
i
obviously
write
but
not
a
writer
since
i
don't
conform
to
the
fake
and
hack
stereotypes !
why
is
it
one
spends
so
much
of
later
life
unlearning
what
was
taught
in
school
and
childhood ?
