chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page
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links are in the times new roman font
stupidity
has
already
won
it
breeds !
people
are
a
burden !
like her i write for eternity so have my writings up on my own page, the trouble with blogs is the material can disappear, you have no control over it !
what i have found is you really write just for yourself to sort out one's thinking, wether many or few or even none read i don't care
buddha
you
can
only
see
as
you
do
be
consistent
don't
be
hypocritical !
ho
chi
minh
peace
but
not
at
the
price
of
subservience ”
subservience
would
have
been
better
vietnam
became
subservient
to
the
dollar
anyway !
of
the
great
american
poets
and
the
most
zen
like
along
with
emily
dickinson
they also usually kill the animal immediately if they are big enough because of their extreme cutting action after they open
i eat the offal of what i shoot because that is what humans are evolutionarily designed to eat and our health and brains are below par without it !
what we
call meat is just one part of the carcass and not the most nutritionally premium !
humans are not meant to be as stupid as they are !
it's the modern diet !
the chinese are much more into this, and it's easy to see why the 6th patriarch was such an intellectual giant
zen is a fusion of buddhism and taoism, i think it needs to remember it's taoist roots sometimes
wallabies are at pest levels where i live and need culling !
i really don't like to kill what i don't eat so am about to tuck into wallaby brains, testicles and thyroid !
hunt
do
they
get ?
since
i
seem
to
be
the
only
one
here
capable
of
using
a
search
engine !
to
eat
my
wallaby
brains !
gutting at
4am
in
freezing
weather
but
a
beautiful
star
filled night !
if they were manic then they wouldn't be vapid would they
they
aren't
and
i
can
be
manic !
it's
not
that
they
are
drivel
but
they
show
you
up
to
yourself
which
is
what
upsets
you !
death
is
never
passive
you
are
an
active
participant
in
the
process !
death
is
never
passive
you
are
an
active
participant
in
the
process !
john
loori
a
better
artist
enviromentalist
and
nature lover
than
zen
teacher !
well
he
taught
the
hard
way
indirectly
and
unintentionally
like
most !
i
don't
think
art
and
literature
is
the
answer
just
like
i
don't
think
religion
is
the
answer
it's
midway
between
them
you
need
both !
was larry eigner enlightened or a zen master or what, he wouldn't have recognised those terms !
he
sure
sat alot because he was confined to a wheel chair and vaccine damaged at birth !
how does being damaged fit in?
has
always
been
a
problem
in
zen
and
is
called
a
ghost
cave ”
it
is
by
far
the
norm
since
we
are
all
born
into
one
anyway !
facsimile
[a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SA1f4E9otRs"]a gone[/a]
there you are, you have written html, welcome to the 21st century!
charles bukowski, leaves zen for dead
as i said you have to blinker yourself to writers like him for zen to make sense
celine is another, heraclitus is another etc etc
people in mass are obscene grasping morons, the “hardcore zen” blog/board exemplifies that except that in their moronacy they grasp hot coals that damage them
you
don't
blinker
yourself
the
whole
fiction
evaporates
away !
you
don't
the
whole
fiction
evaporates
away !
skepticism
is
a
philosophically
immature
position
since
by
gödels
incompleteness
theorem
and
one's
own
common
sense
observations
there
are
unprovable
truths
i
don't
wish
you
ill
or
well
and
i
shouldn't !
basic
problem
is
involvement
and
then
you
have
to
unwind
the
involvement
so
it's
better
not
to
get
involved
most
people
intuitively
understand
this
i
don't
and
have
to
the
hard
way !
you
can
argue
with
air
that's
all
you
were
arguing
with
in
the
first
place
anyway !
neo advaita especially eckhart tolle has gutted zen and has implications for springwater since it is such a good good facsimile but NOT identity ?
it takes a first class traitor to do this and that imo is joan who has some undesirable character traits, perhaps typical of people with an obvious disability, maybe they get pissed with life and people, i don't blame them and what i say must not be construed as a criticism, what occurs is life and is always teaching us something and we all have severe flaws !
noe advaita are not particularly smart except for for tolle, they could not have affected such a transfer of vocabulary and style from springwater themselves, especially those who teach in neo advaita, like religious teachers everywhere they are extraodinarily dense and rigid and beside the point !
how did
it
happen
well
it's
not
black
and
white
but
i
think
joan's
books
a
palatable
way
minus
the
real
questioning
which
joan
also
strenuously
avoided
so
there
it
viral
a
world!
i
actually
think
toni's
health
was
damaged
by
the
constant
flux
of
less
than
healthy
people
she
dealt
with
too
much
constant
immune
stimulation
annihilating
the
pancreatic
beta
cells !
that's
what
i
mean
about
life
it's
really
weird
what
we
build
so
carefully
rears
round
like
an
angry
bear
and
kills
us !
a
lot
simpler
if
you
understand
that !
why?
because
he's
half
baked
but
like
the
getty korous
a
fake
so
good
it's
hard
to
tell !
now
the
and
child
by
duccio
di
buoninsegna
is
real !
honestly you are typical americans, untravelled, obtuse and senselessly aggressive
the thing about the net is there's endless potential involvements, is this one fruitiful?
well it has been, i use my posts here as material for my writing, but i feel that has sorta plateaued out as the complete rigidity and schizophrenia of the participants has become apparent
really
good
fakes
become
themselves
works
of
art !
you
can
literally
cross
time
in
a
vision
it's
the
quantum
processing
of
the
visual
field !
fanciful
to
some
degree
yes
to
alarge
degree
no!
what
is
trouble
is
it
is
corrupted
by
common
usage
you
can
make
sense
out
of
it
but
it
is
rubbish !
it
doesn't
matter
how
well
you
are
dressed
the
brain
is
what
counts !
yes
there
are
such
things
as
ghosts
why
shouldn't
my
uncle
come
and
visit
me
after
he
died
i
am
already
half
dead, they
don't
have
to
reach
so
far !
writing
is
investigating
yourself !
if
you
are
a
zen
teacher
it's
about
getting
an
income
while
you
can
investigate
what
it's
about
it's
not
about
arriving
anywhere
and
having
answers !
and
teaching
is
almost
compeltely
self -
defeating !
buddha
is
NOT
A
PERSON
the whole point of posting and writing is to correct and develop thinking, just reacting with views about ourself does nothing
“Arse-water”
anonymous posting, be someone in zen who has never seen it or you wouldn't speak that way
what are you doing in zen if you don't believe in the possibility of directly seeing buddha !
i
was
first
involved
in
zen
i read the blue
cliff
record
and
had
trouble
understanding
it
i looked
at
the
stars
and
knew
it
was
something
to
do
with
that
and
that's
where
i
started
i
live
by
myself
in
the
country
and
some
nights
those
stars
just
BLAZE
down
“ the state beyond thinking
cannot be thought. Thinking is the
plastic bag between the water in the bag and the ocean it was thrown into.”
i don't know why zen demonizes thinking, the problem is not thinking but that it's done badly and inaccurately
i think this “anti-thinking” is a japanese emphasis used as a crowd management technique to control monasteries of unruly monks !
eihei dogen's works are full of thinking he slowly corrects as he gets older !
the great mystery no-one seems to understand is that you can see directly the ocean but it's only occasional and most of life is somewhat alienated, what you might call practice is being open in that alienation !
there is no “way” which is the great fiction of those who have never seen the ocean deeply enough
hahaha, alright, good to go. You haven't got a clue. "
you
are
a
satanist
tell
us
about
it
sorry
you
are
missing
out
of
the
group
sex
but
as
you
“rise”
in
the
hierarchy...
this trait can actually be quite good because you are more open but it's a deceitful world !
like christianities burning of heretics
yet going on about the crucified one
satanism is just a cover for group sex
exorcism is voynichese, that is it's not real but fake but in some contexts passes as real
pure voynichese
very cleverly crafted
being
taken
as
real
so
real
it's
still
hard
to
tell !
skeptic
movement
is
wrong
about
two
things
they
are
wrong
about
there
being
no
god
i'm
not
saying
there
is
god
but
you
have
to
define
it
first
and
they
are
wrong
adopting
medical
political
correctness
a
s
the
party
line !
with the human evolutionary make up there is always going to be war, we are a very aggressive species
not
particularly
dangerous himself
but
why
he
gives
the
time
of
day
to
these
treacherous
public
threats
i
don't
know
except
he's
a
twit !
it's normal for normative reality
is
about
individual
reality
(ed. anonymous posters on bard warner's hardcore zen blog)
you
are
not
wanking
when then
you
become
the
whole
man !
now i'm offended !
ken wilber is a twit, adi da was a ratbag and andrew cohen is a thieving scumbag !
congratulations on being a real person and not some anonymous zenite desperately trying to shore up an eroding levee !
like
your
but
the
man
on
the
inside
and
the
man
on
the
outside
are
not
the
same
and
education
is
a
suckers
game
and
you
are
too
wishy
washy
i
kill
once
a
week
they
die
a
gruesome
death
those
wallabies !
a
copper
bullet
through
the
heart
and
lungs
and
i
quite
like
hunting
i
reckon
joan
tollifson
was
trouble
too
smart
and
dumb
by
half !
aboriginals
and
alcoholism
their
livers
are
too
good !
my
opinion
sitting
is
a
crowd
control
passivation
technique
and
you
got
by
it
toni !
it's
secondary
to
various
intellectual
processes
zen
is
fucked
in
the
head !
the
zen
is
nonsense !
i
suddenly
got
what
you
were
doing !
it's
like
throwing
tomatoes
from
the
cheap
seats comma
why
can't
i
do
that ?
except
my
seat
is
not
cheap !
it
was
sudden
like
an
illumination !
it
doesn't
matter
what
the
fuck
you
say
in
blog
comments !
i
don't
think
a
belief
in
atheism
skepticism
is
after
all
buddha
darling
of
the
panzies
: o )
wank
wank
i'm
a
zen
warrior worrier
that
hides
behind
an
anonymous
nick !
voynichese
beyond
the
gibbous
moon
voynichese
like
the
gibbous
moon !
zen
supposedly
beyond
life
and
death
except
for
its
timorous
adherents
i
feel
inspired
the
gutless
anonymous
wankers
will
be
running
for
mummy
won't
they
i
feel
inspired
all
the
gutless
wanker's
will
be
running
for
mummy
not
in
the
same
class
are
they?
they masturbate their minds !
all
you
bodhisattva
cocksuckers
i
piss
in
your
face !
meditation
is
insane
why ?
i
don't
know !
poetry
writing
and
homilies
are
not !
buddha
a
puerile
dream
of
men
since
before
the
beginning
of
time !
it's about as real as Buddha
all
in dreamland i
am afraid !
the
way
i
problem
solve
sometimes
is
like
a
circus !
it's
hard
to
get
that
some
people
are
so
so
retarded
it's
hard
to
miss
it's
like
a
rocky
cliff
that
you
fall
off
over
and
over
again !
deliberate
use
of
language
to
make
it
appear
to
have
more
weight
than
it
does !
it's
not
the
worse
thing
in
the
world
to
of
a
broken
heart !
a
leaving
not
sudden
and
complete
but
by
dribs
and
drabs !
the proof of the pudding is the anonymous identity
if you can't admit to who you are on a harmless place like this blog then you have some basic issues
most likely you have some position in zen
do any of the old stories talk about anonymous masters or whatever maybe a cloak over their face so they can't be recognized?
you are not winning
just
understanding
a
subject
well
enough
to
explain it !
being intellectually impoverished and inarticulate is not what zen is about.
dogen was highly articulate and broad and artistic
the “grunt grunt” i sit thing is just crazy.
zen and the arts have always gone together, everyone of you will have a skill or ability in one area or another, what has happened to you ?
you
can't
persuade
people
to
sense
if
it
doesn't
hurt
you
and
it
hurts
them
leave
them it
be !
dogen
is
a
trap
catch
the
deserving !
with
much
labour
you
can
dig
a
trench
deeper
that
doesn't
make
it
the
right
place
or
to
any
purpose
at
all !
it's a plagiarized patchwork, all religious prophets are
one
thing
in
buddhas
life
i
relate
to
is
his
looking
at
the
bodhi
tree
for
a
week
well
i
could
manage
several
hours
as
one
day
i
did
under
a
silver
birch
at
nietta
(
now
cut
down)
such
is
the
way
of
man
i think you are just discomforted by the application of intelligence to writing and thinking! most people are
it's ok for dogen to be like this but woe betide any-one else !
just
don't
realise
what
dogen
was
doing
he's
actually
very
intellectual
philosophical
almost !
just
say
something
that
you
have
thought
about
in
plain
english
without
clichés !
it's
too
much
of
an
ask
isn't
it !
i
don't
mean
abuse !
well, that's what that stuff is, movie script, the 6th patriarch is more like the real story
they used to die like flies in those monasteries because monks were never healthy in the first place and if you cram alot of unhealthy people together in insanitary conditions what happens?
think
some
of
those
hermits
were
really
looking at
self
preservation !
buddhism
is
in
theory
about
infinity
why
are
buddhists
the
most
finite?
einstein, newton, leonardo da vinci, heraclitis, sappho, basho, emily dickinson, keats, van gogh, monet, sa'di, wang wei, cao xueqin, wu cheng'en
list
is
endless
is
calm
because
he
had
a
lobotomy !
fact
forces
quite
a
bit
of
objectification
on
us !
being
open
to
being
wrong
is
about
as
close
to
you
can
get
and
i
think
it's
a
huge
strength
of
brad
warner !
is writing three cliché packed sentences “actualization of wisdom” ?
mysterion, thanx for pointing out that the cliché packed three sentences was eihei dogen
obviously in part the translator but it's a huge autistic trait in dogen, the way he picks up clichés and recycles them but not quite
it's towards the end of his life that he starts to write independently
he's really VERY autistic
what
is
buddhism
about
that
everybody
behaves
so
badly ?
it's
about
protecting
a very parsimonious
intellectual
investment !
be
more
parsimonious
and
just
be
open to
being
wrong !
it's
impossible
to
come
to
any
sort
of
reasonable
understanding
in
the
time
frame
of
our
lives
which
is
why
the
writings
of
others
across
the
generations and millennia
are
so
important !
one
bright
endless
the
stupidities
of
zen
teachers
claiming
to
know
what
they
are
on
about
one
bright
pearl
is
itself
in
the
ten
directions
that
is
all !
be
to
die
life's
not
worth
a
shit
if
you
don't
stand
up
for
what
you
believe in !
really ?
first thing is to look at a number of different translations so you won't get hung up on “right” words like merit, in fact i think virtue fits better
there is no virtue because religious institutions have nothing to to do with infinity except estrangement
part of that estrangement is your over confidence or denial in inadequacy of understanding
women have more surviving children if they are loyal, men have more if they stray
well i'm not going to try and brow beat evolution !
well women have more surviving children if they keep the male on a short leash
just a few ferals and and the landscape !
it takes combinations of gender blurring to make talent, without it there would be none, the usual moron breeding humans
just on the verge of unfurling, contain the spring;
the clear moon is held in the cup-like petals
of the beautiful flower i pick and twirl.
of
windows
plum
blossom
throws
itself
to
infinity
is
this
spring ?
NOT !
if
you
read
back
to
hui
neng
he
was
literally
for
half
his
life !
funny
funny
i
think
the
funny
thing
about
zen
is
because
the
way
it
is
approached
and
taught
is
so
wrong
those
outside
of
it
or
were
rejected
by
it
or
rejected
it
have
a
better
idea
of
what
it
is
about !
in the end
sitting
is
a
facsimile
for
this !
the problem with sitting (ed. zazen) imo is
1. it's dangerous from a circulation point of view, also possibly destructive to the knees
2. it takes too much brain power to sit properly because it's such an unnatural position
what i do on some sort of daily basis is just sit in a chair or ly in bed just thinking or what might be called shikantaza, i think it's vaguely productive
i honestly have to say and this is not some snitch i have on zen that people who sit get more damaged than they already are and i know of several people who sat who died from some sort of thrombotic condition !
interestingly the koreans are not so much into sitting, rather lying down, standing or endless walking and chanting which imo is more sensible
kwan seum bosal, sort of hypnotic really !
can't say i would willingly do the chanting tho, but if you are doing solitary retreat it's important to vocalize a bit to get the immune system going in the lungs and sinuses !
“andrew, is this poem by dogen not beautiful?”
no in fact imo it is typical of the problem of dogen, sorta half-arsed but there's something too it!
cuckoo
calls
me
boiled
as
i
am
by
the
SUN !
Here's one I wrote in 1982:
Turned into infant eyes.”
even an infant
needs
to
be
different !
should i be weery of this? ”
last night i was reading bodhidharma's dialogue with the emperor wu who asked the same things, was there virtue in donating to support religious institutions and bodhidharma said NO
i like “weery”, a combo of leery and weary and wary !
descriptive
want
to
sink
into
he
lived !
it's
interesting
to
contrast
the
garbage
of
the
platform
sutra
with
this !
reading
the
platform
is
enough
to
put
you
off
zen
the
first
there
is
nothing
what
would
you
pin
something too?
yup
i'm
the
seventh
patriarch
direct
transmission
from
hui
neng
in
a
vision
tho
he
didn't
say
anything
or
maybe
there
was
something
but
i
have
forgotten !
now
that's
not
sane
by
your
lights !
the
hardest
thing
in
the
world
to
do
a
good
translation !
stopped !
is
a
sorta
endless
hopelessness
to
everything !
i
can't
keep
writing
at
this
rate
necessity
makes
us
do
some
funny
things
what
we
don't
have
to
do
for
a
start !
necessity
makes
us
do
some
funny
things !
when
i
was
a
teenager
i
was
quite
keen
on
the
tv
program
high
and
felt
some
sort
of
attraction
to
victoria
ie
linda
i wondered why
well
she
is
a homily
writer !
“it is impossible to help those who don't want to be helped. they will defeat their good fortune every time.”
“don't spit straight up in the air; it will boomerang back onto you. in other words, don't act from emotion, let your brain have the reins. ”
i quite like those
some are crap , but the ones from her direct experience are ok !
she'd be about 77 now and possibly diabetic as her mother was and from her writing i'd say there were a few brain blood sugar issues !
this homily is really about looking back on something imbibed unconciously as a teenager and seeing what it was about, the core of it so to speak !
well it's sorta the idea of autistic spectrum and life in a waste land as well
things being brutally broken
chaparral is a scruby dry desert
in the homily there's a pic of chaparral country and some cloud which was part of the sense of it
also wikipedia has good page on chaparral
i
keep
exhausting
myself
sometimes
i
exhaust
myself !
how
did
zen
stripped
out
tolle
basically !
how
did
he
do
that ?
plagarize
toni
packer !
clever !
i
know
eckhart
tolle
is
really
smart
because
of
the
way
he
deals/
copes
with
his
wife
very
very
clever !
gives
her
a
piece
of
the
pie
and
it
keeps
her
occupied
and
maintains
her
self-
esteem !
and
they
will
both
be
richer
for
it !
calls
call
again
yesterday
tomorrow
the
day
after !
think
mum's
a
better
writer
than
me
writers
are
not
born
of
themselves
but
of
their
parents !
think
mum's
a
better
writer
than
me
writers
are
not
born
of
themselves
but
of
their
mothers !
dogen
insane
sane
intellectually
retarded
intelligent
of
the
earth
and
of
the
sky !
you are quite right nof course, i am raving mad and i think that's why i relate/get stuck on dogen so much, he's easily the most insane/sane person in zen
the truth of dogen was he was the “ living dead ” which is actually what he called himself !
you
understand ?
NO !
the vertical shit isn't cool.”
oh
tongue
stipd
straight
off
the
sky !
if
it
would
settle
out . . .
men
a
toxic
dish
like
poisoned
fish
in
a
river !
i'd
rather
deconstruct
dogen
earn
money
if
you
are
out
of
your
depth
where
are
you ?