this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don't warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here



pending poems  index



chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page



audio files can be complemented by listening to them  with the eyes closed   !



good


discussion


of
postmodernism


definitions

















good


discussion


of
postmodernism


definitions
















every


generation


is


post


modern


to


itself !


i.e.


voynich
















fred


without


people


like


you


what


i


write


wouldn't


have


any


any


meaning


the


world


wouldn't


be


the


way


it


is !
















fred


without


people


like


you


what


i


write


wouldn't


have


any


any


meaning
















suckered


by


pretenders


:


o


(

















i


think


i'm


mad


to


care


about


people


who


don't


care


about

themselves


enough


to


do


anything


proactive


for


themselves


that


works !
















all


the


fatigue


and


heaviness


what


is


there


to

do?
















all


the


fatigue


and


heaviness


what


is


there


to

do?


nothing !
















dogen


was


a


very


slow


   developer !
















dogen


was


a


slow


developer !
















dogen


was


a


slow


   developer !
















every


generation


they


seem


to


make


the


same


mistakes !
















it's


an


illusion


you


can


just


sit


or


come


to


any


sort


of


understanding !


it


will


not


happen !
















the


christian


churches


are


being


wiped


by


their


own


intransigence !
















“ i


am


not


a

nice


person ”


isn't


being


a


nice


person

a


bit


of


a


fiction?
















“ i


am


not


a

nice


person ”


isn't


a


nice


person

a


bit


of


a


fiction?
















i am the lesbian autistic's worse nightmare !


a


competent


attractive


 male !


:


o


)


(
















with


visions


it's


never


been


important


to


me


that

it


occurs


when


they


do


i

am

surprised


and


it


is


beyond


interest


or


gratification !


if


you


are


seeking


such

a

thing


to


occur


i


think


that's


strongly


inhibitory


of


such

a


thing


ever


occurring !
















infinity laughs with both of us ! i'm not sad, not happy, not pleased or unpleased, tho your attitude perplexes me abit and i cannot stand or understand because it occurs !


( ed. last post to donna willams on her  blog  on my being banned from posting ! )
















“ what is to leave me is everything.


if only, if only.”



but the “me” doesn't leave me does it?


and zazen just adds to the me !


+


zen

me


+


dogen


me !
















every


generation


they


seem


to


make

the


same


mistakes !
















it's


an


illusion


you


can


just


sit


and


come


to


any


sort


of


understanding


it


will


not


happen !
















is


this


 meaningful


or


    meaningless ?
















is


this


meaningful


or


meaningless?
















life


is


wasted


it


is


only


disguised

a

s


   meaningful !


:


o


)
















life


is


always


wasted


it


is


only


disguised

a

s


   meaningful !


:


o


)
















striving


to


be


needed


not


striving


not

needed !


:


o


)



that is, if we don't strive to be needed we are not needed


like me always forcing myself by giving advice on the web


i strive and if i don't they don't need me


i think it's that you and i are the usually the ones striving to make ourselves acceptable and if we don't the contact falls away
















“ very

intelligent

but

nutty

as

a


fruit


bat ”


“ thick

a

s


shit


but


sane


as


anybody ! ”


:


o


)
















i


had

a


vision


of


mother


teresa


standing


in


front


of


me


in


her


blue


rimmed


sari


with


her


hand


on


my


forehead


it


felt


cold


and


mine


on


hers


and


we


both

told


each


other


it


was


all

a


mess !!!


and


silently


communed for


a


while !
















sweet


echo


i

had


this


vision


of


entanglement


:


o


)


(
















my


death


lines


“ fuck


i


am

going ! ”


:


o


)
















do


you


all

have


to


be


as


crazy

a

s


the


rest ?

yes


you


do


have


to


be


as


crazy


as


the


rest !
















fuck


there's


enough


bloody


madness


around


isn't


there !
















fuck


there's


enough


bloody


madness


around


isn't


there ?
















is


the


echo


saying


because


nothing


sour


is


allowed


to


be


reflected


it's


all


sweet ?
















i


think


the


thing


is


islam


is


an


evolution


of


judaism


not


surprising


in


hindsight


is


it ?
















why


do

w

e


always


have


to


be


crushed ?
















why


does


life


always


crush


us?
















what's


in


the


heart


no-one


knows


tho


it


can


be


written


pretty


clearly


in


the


external


world


:


o


)
















what's


in


the


heart


no-one


knows


:


o


)


(
















“you would think that staring at a wall would help, but ...”


staring at the wall does nothing, staring at the sea and dusk sky does something !
















“i'm an expert”  i'm not an expert,  it's easily said on paper (and the computer screen now)


as


stalin


said


paper


will


bear


the


weight


of


anything


written


upon


it


like


execute

22,000


men


in

the


polish

officer


corp !
















what


i


am


saying


with


translation


is


there


is


normally


a

huge


degree


of


removal


from


the


original


a


great


translation


of


course


there's


not !
















what


i


am


saying


with


translation


is


there


is


a

huge


degree


of


removal


from


the


original

















i'm


not


arguing


you


can


be


schizophrenic


or


you


can


be


sane


your


choice


if


it


is


a


choice !
















the


human


male


is


just


like

a


bull


going


over


a


cow


then


what


happens


is


real !
















sex


blinds


  us !
















the


hero


is

a


god


but


what


good


is


a


hero


especially


to


himself ?
















if


it's


bad


enough


to


be


noticed


medically


it's


a


real


problem !
















charles


dickens


wasn't


happy


with


the


children


of


his

first


wife !



“You don't know what it is to look round the table, and see reflected from every seat at it…some horribly well remembered expression of inadaptability to anything.”


 article
















life

is


just


one


long


crucifixion


beginning


to


end


if


we


look


at


it


carefully !
















actually being open to what upsets us and not removing what we don't like to think about is the road to vaster truth! and not in spacy blathering about “Infinite Truth”


also known as “functional humility”
















the


three


teresa's


teresa


of


ávila


(a copy of an original  painting  of teresa of ávila in 1576 at the age of 61.)


thérèse


of


lisieux


“ the


little


flower


of


jesus ”


and


mother


teresa


two


saints


and

a


non


saint


all


autistic !
















there


you


are


our


present


universe


is


a

re-incarnation


of


the


previous


one !



“but corichi and singh have modified the simplified LQG theory further by approximating a key equation called the quantum constraint. using their version, called sLQG, the researchers show that the relative fluctuations of volume and momentum in the pre-bounce universe are conserved across the bounce.


“this means that the twin universe will have the same laws of physics and, in particular, the same notion of time as in ours, the laws of physics will not change because the evolution is always unitary, which is the nicest way a quantum system can evolve. in our analogy, it will look identical to its twin when seen from afar; one could not distinguish them.” singh said.
















relationship


and


love


is


too


much


of


a


killing


field


i


am


just


a

little


murdered


waif


:


o


)


(
















re


“ jundo ”


is


it


worth


getting


involved?


NO !


so


don't


get


involved !
















“ for whomever emptiness is a view, that one will accomplish  nothing


this is what i call a  “dual”  it's the simultaneous imposition of two meanings


nothing is a synonym for emptiness so having “a view of emptiness” (also) means you can accomplish emptiness and in fact the very original uttered by nagarjuna would have been this runaway recursion of the actual sense repeating and mirroring down to infinity itself !


a


rather


elegant


fractal


in


fact !



i think this is the whole problem with translation, you are trying to catch/capture the layers of meaning and actually you can't, the original is always more densely textured and richer than you can ever convey !


i think one of the problems with dogen and nagarjuna is a combination of their very recursive writing/speaking style and the removal of very different cultures and what would seem to us rather strange webs of associations inhere-ing/rooted in their medieval (dogen) or ad 200 indian culture actually makes what they write seem over simple and rather spacy and voynichy to us and if in fact they were writing now it would look very like poetry and it's always a great joy and amazing to me when something translates out that reads sensibly and understandably because you know that's what they were writing and not the fake gobbledly gook all the translators with their inept undertanding are pushing as voynich !
















writing


homilies


you


are


actually


creating


some-one


who


advises


you


outside


yourself !
















with


a


homily


you


are


actually


creating


some-one


who


advises


you


outside


yourself !
















the


MMK


it's


written


by


a


human

and


not


the


absolute


truth
















men


are


ruled


by


their


testes
















women


they


are


ruled


by


their


ovaries !
















apparently


it's


only


important


to


appear

to


know


what


“ emptiness ”

is


or


to

fool

yourself


that


you


know


or


appear


to


know, it's


that


sort


of


twitism !
















“emptiness was explained by the victorious ones as the abandonment of all views; they declared those for whom emptiness is a view incurable.”


emptiness was explained by the victorious ones as the abandonment of all views, itself being a view they then abandoned, so they ceased to declare that those for whom emptiness was a view were incurable or indeed in need of curing or otherwise or even that it meant anything sensible, since it was itself a view !



(ed. MMK chapter 8, verse 13 and my reply!  “were incurable” instead of “was” as below !)
















“emptiness was explained by the victorious ones as the abandonment of all views; they declared those for whom emptiness is a view incurable.”


emptiness was explained by the victorious ones as the abandonment of all views, itself being a view they then abandoned, so they ceased to declare that those for whom emptiness was a view was incurable or indeed in need of curing or otherwise or even that it meant anything sensible, since it was itself a view !



(ed. MMK chapter 8, verse 13 and my reply!)
















the


fundamental true


condition


is


malfunction


and


unhappiness


happiness is to live


in


the


disguise !
















you


can't


fix


things


by


trimming


the


things


that


go


wrong


you


can


only


fix


things


by


moving


ahead


in


a


meaningful


direction


and


letting


that


displace


the


other


stuff !
















there's


a sufi


who


wrote


about


800


years


ago


infinity


is


a

slut


you


go


to


embrace


her


and


she


puts

a


dagger


through


your


guts !
















there's


a sufi


who


wrote


about


800


years


ago


infinity


is


a

slut


you


go


to


embrace


her


and


she


puts

a


knife


through


your


guts !
















this


view


that


zen


has


of


visions


being


makyo


is


what


keeps


it

one


dimensional !
















after


sex


it


does


open


the


mind


open


the


minds

















after


sex


there


is


a


receptivity




there


















after


sex


there


is


a


receptivity




there



it


does


open


the


mind


open


the


minds


or


there


is


a


receptivity


there !
















what


we


need


and


what


we


do


can


be


very


different !
















what


we


do


and


what


we


need


can


be


very


very


different


things !
















a


voice

recorder


widow


a


new


term


:


o


)
















a


man


can


be


informed


and


an


expert


on


something


it


doesn't


mean


he


will


give


a


right


opinion !
















a


man


can


be


informed


and


an


expert


on


something


it


doesn't


make


him


right
















i


am


slowly


bothering


it's


better


to


get


there


late


than


never !
















people


are


happier


not


seeing


things


truely


if


they


see


things


truely


they


become


unhappy


and


can't


handle


it !
















maybe


when


you



are


close


to


something


you


can't


see


the


whole


of


it


and


when


you

walk

a

way


you


can !



by eileen prunster
















it's


funny


how


we


can


build


little


worlds


of


meaning


for


ourselves


and


when


we


walk


away


they


look


meaningless
















it's


amazing


what


the


body


does


during


sleep


you


go


to


bed


tired


and


you


wake


up


feeling


like


doing


things !


:


o


)
















the


body's


like

a


spider's


web


one


link


goes


and


the


others


support


it


is


not


like

a


car !


:


o


)
















it's


fortunate


it's


not


100%


but


80 !
















somethings


you


can't


explain


or


argue


away


they're


not


going


to


change



you


can


just


minimize


the


friction



the


hassle's


not


worth


it !
















people


are

like


blocks


of


ice


you


try


to


teach


them


something


and


they


just


don't


get


it


it's


not


they


don't


know


it's


they


don't


want


to


know


if


they


knew


they


would


become


different


people


and


it's


too


frightening


for


them !
















maybe


you


don't


like


yourself

a

s


a


person


and


i


like


myself


as

a


person !
















it's


funny


life's


just


this


endless


trauma


that

w

e


always


expect


to


be

otherwise !
















a


woman


velcro


to


her


feelings !
















that's


always


been


my


problem


actually


being


over-


right


ah


that's


righter


than


people


can

handle !
















that's


always


been


my


problem


actually


over-


right
















there


are


somethings


in


life


you


should


not


say


they


may


be


true


but


you


should


not


just


say


them !
















it's


like


the


orthodox


jews


praying


at


the


western


wall


in


jerusalem


pure ritual it just has no meaning at all


what


has


it


got


to


do


with


god


praying


to

a


wall?
















it's


like


the


orthodox


jews


praying


at


the


western


wall


in


jerusalem


pure ritual it just has no meaning at all

















the problem


with


writing


a


book


is


you


are


always


competing



with


the


vast


amount


of


free


material


on


the


web


some


of


it


quite


good



and


with


orders


of


magnitude


better


distribution


than


your


book


will


ever


have !
















the problem


with


writing


a


book


is


you


are


always


competing



with


the


vast


amount


of


free


material


on


the


web


some


of


it


quite


good



and


with


orders


of


magnitude


better


distribution


than


the


book


will


ever


have !
















you


don't


see


you


don't


want


to


see


and


you


never


will


see !
















it's


this


whole


idea


of


voynich




which


is


where


bullshit


is


made


to


appear


it


has


substance !
















women


they


call


it


love


i


call


it


murder !


:


o


)


(
















3000


years


those


characters


just


jump


across !



(ed. the chinese of the shang dynasty used bones, chiefly the shoulder blade from an ox or water buffalo, or the bottom shell of a turtle, to foretell the future. the bones were heated until cracks appeared, thus answering the question that was posed. the result was carved into the bone as a record.


this bone reads "On guihai (day 60), (the diviner) made cracks and divined: 'In the next 10 days, there will be no disasters.' ")
















the


world


ended


not


with


a


bang


or

a


whimper


but


a

piece


of

spam


:


o


)


(
















zen


is


a


mystical


tradition


like


the


carmelites


or


at


least


should


be !
















personally i think the “connection” thing is a bit of an illusion ! i would go further and say there's no such thing.


“the swirling masquerade of life” ! well it's just a swirl, you can call it a connection if you like!
















first: infinity is a process


no


matter


where


you


are


you

are


part


of

that

process
















“ povere leter rimon mist(e) ispero ”


i hope the poor  letters  remain jumbled but create the illusion of making sensible words


(ed. link is to a photo of the voynichese purported to be the anagram of that translation)

















there you are fred,  immortalised , in 600 years this will be a koan, “ fred gets dissed by the 7th patriarch again ! ”


i


think


you

have

a


great


future


as

a

koan


fall


guy !
















fred writes:


“Hey, come on guys, it's not easy being a 7th Zen Patriarch. There's a lot of responsibilty involved, and the pay's crappy.”


my


reply


what about all the free abuse !


once they surrounded the sixth patriarch in some forest (we would call it bush here in oz) and set it alight, he only escaped because he was able to creep between some rocks and so avoid getting burnt to death !


all he was saying is all i'm saying , that your investment in buddhist ideology (which is what you have done) is worthless and you are quite wrong minded !


in the words of my very good translation of nagajuna, you are punished by being blind, just as i am punished by seeing


you know this which is why you get upset


the trouble is in life i have learnt you have to take the shit with the pearls !


they


actually


come


together !
















fred , wang wei good, carlos castaneda bad !
















“ i salute the poisonous one who, pathetically, taught that true justice is to make the whole world blind. ”


(ed. the above is a literal english-sandskrit of the mulamadhyami-kakarika with my translation below)


“ infinity is abitch, in punishment she made the world blind! ”


makes me wonder about gnostic christianity and nagarjuna actually !
















the garfield translation is a vapid and spacy translation of what originally was vapid and spacy prose, nishijima's and warner's insight is that basically the mulamadhyami-kakarika is voynich and they have attempted a literary reconstruction which is the only way to go with it !


i think what's upsetting people is this notion that a revered classic can be voynich !


 how much of religious writing is not voynich?


very


  little !
















what's


the


lesson


from


toni


packer


you


just


compress


and


decompress


and


bust

a


gut


and


your


health


suffers


:


o


)


(
















“real practitioner” said:


“ those who can't write, teach. and those who can't teach, translate.”


those who can't translate write


those who can't write


translate


those with egg between the ears teach


  those who don't know what egg is practice !
















“ the fundamentals of the middle way ”   pdf


chapter one


1.1 existance has never arisen. it is a  “seeming”


1.2 to exist a thing must be self supporting, fault tolerant, insane


1.3 covered by 1.1



it's actually like translating early and mid dogen, pure voynich !



it's


very


hard


to


get


used


to


the


way


religions


will

promulgate

crap


over


thousands


of


years


it


beggars


belief !
















i


think


the


big


advantage


of


anonymous


posting


is


you


see


the


honest


opinions


of


the


poster


without


any


constraint


of


him/her


having


to


conform


to

a

public


position


the


big


disadvantage


is


that


thus


concealed


they


can


rag


the


board


and


engage


in


effective


warfare !
















my


hardcore


zen


blog


perseveration


your


yelling


session


if


you


can


spin


out


of


it


the


right


way


is


the


best


you


can


hope !
















i


can


see


they


don't


have


the


fundamental


insight


and


never


will !
















yeah


i


cacked


too


much


for


me


too


much


for


infinity


:


o


)


(
















the


hardcore


zen


blog


comments


like


riding

a


bronco


bull


no


matter


how


hard


you


hang


on


you


will


get


tossed


at


some


point


bruised


but


perhaps


better


for


it !


:


o


)


(
















if


you


see


something


very

clearly


you


don't


make


the


same


mistake


again


if


you


don't


see

it

clearly


you


make


the


same


mistake


again !
















people


are


way


too


much


work


too


much


processing !
















the hardcore zen comments blog comments section is too much work ! they lack the fundamental insight and never will have it ! too tiring too wearing and i think the value extracted versus work has dropped right off !


another


pointless

journey


GOD !


:


O


(
















infinities pulling me away i can feel it now ta da!


(ed. hardcore zen blog)
















god


i'm


like


brad


warner !


way


happier


with


abuse


than


worship !


:


o


)


(
















god


i'm


like


brad


warner !


way


happier


with


abuse


than


worship !


:


o


)


(
















“ what opportunity would that be, oh great one? ”


step out side the macdonald's religious store !


what i find is you have no appreciation of the work involved or the level of dysfunction in life that occurs



it's a killing field from beginning to end


this

board (ed. hardcore zen blog)


kills


me


i


don't


have


to

worry


about


more


covert


murders


sneaking


up


on


me !


:


o


)


(
















“ how


do


i


get


off


the


samsara


rail


tracks? ”


i


have


never


been


concious


of


working


at


it


though


i


can


see


in


hindsight


that


i


have !


it


comes


from

a


deep


brain


insight


that


is


either


there


or


not


i


think !


most


people


are


involved


peripherally


lacking


this


deep


insight


but having dysfunctional lives or caught in the angst thereof


or


only


having


it


partially !
















zazen


or


prayer


or


meditation


are


tools


aren't


they?

something


you


do


conciously


to


facilitate


and


approach


to


buddha


or


the


absolute


or


god


whatever


it


doesn't


work


that


way


only


take


you


in


the


opposite


direction !
















zazen


is


a


tool


isn't


it?

something


you


do


conciously


to


facilitate


and


approach


to


buddha


or


the


absolute


or


god


it


doesn't


work


that


way


only


take


you


in


the


opposite


direction !
















“ ah i think the vision thing i don't have to discuss ”


Ah, come on bro. (ed. fred)


-------------


you don't know and you never will know, will you?


like the rest here, stuff around in the buddhist “tool box” for the rest of your lives


i have sorta spoiled things for you, having come across me and now knowing what “authentic” is, even tho you don't agree you are always going to be dissatisfied and wonder deep down what you are missing !


it seems odd to me that you will never move off your “samsara” railtracks given an opportunity to do so, but that's the way it will be !































“ Since you think you rcvd transmission from some dream image of the 6th Patriarch, does this mean you also think you are enlightened? ”


enlightenment, like zazen is a false idea that comes from not having crossed the curtain EVER !


it's just a looking from a conventional “tool box” perspective and lacks that strangeness of having been and being on the “other side”


   i am glad i appear strange or mad to you, how could it be otherwise : o ) ?
















sitting


is


just


a


stage


you


go


through


because


you

don't


know


any


better


and


are


captured


by


the


voynich


of


zen !
















you


just


think


the


world


is


all


there


is !
















your


adulation


or


abuse


doesn't


mean


anything


to


me


!


:


o


)


(
















you all think you know it but you don't


when you've been the other side of the curtain everything looks very different so i won't make sense to you


you won't even believe in the possibility which is why zazen seems attractive to you !
















so alzheimers is a quiescent state of abilities compared to say a younger man in compos mentis!


it's actually a bit poetic, implying a loss of abilities is quiet which is more a view from infinity !
















you know life is just this evolution of error and i am wrong more often than most because i go outside the boundaries more than most!


of course the sheep never think they are wrong even when they go on the truck to the slaughter house !


and


actually


they


die


still


thinking


they


are


right !


BBBBBAAAAAAAAAAAA!
















eileen


i


had


a

vision


of


your


face


over


the


sea


benign


and


smiling


:


o


)



eileens reply :


all sounds very nice perhaps i was dead


it doesn't un fit mine... (ed. vision)
















intuitive


design


means


it


sorta


aligns


with


the


way


people


think !
















there's


no


money


in


it


you


may

a

s


well


get


it


right


because


there's


nothing


else


in


it !
















a


decent


sleep


is


as


good

a

s


aholiday !
















you


are


not


going


to


get


great


intelligence


without


great


stupidity !
















zazen


itself


is


the

“ silent


illumination


heresy ”


what

is

meant


by


silent


illumination


in

a


truely

spiritual


or


poetic


or


visionary


sense


is


quite


different !
















mysterion writes


“My understanding and practice is based upon quiescence ”


yeah


ALZHEIMERS


this is actually the heresy of “silent illumination”


it's rather fascinating to read the very old criticisms of it, hakuin and the old chan masters and to see the problem they are criticising be so inwired in modern day zen !
















fred there's something called the default circuit in the brain


this is basically the daydreaming or whatever that kicks in in the absence of external stimulation or activity


what happens in zazen is it just digs a deeper rut


schizophrenia is this default circuit overriding external feedback so you get the characteristic out of touch fixed views !


you'll notice i don't actually say schizophrenia is bad, in fact it's necessary and all the great “spiritual” figures and poets are schizophrenic with this difference


that their fixed and internal views become true, or truely true


so that's what it is about, this trueness of vision and how does that happen?


zazen and “practice” are a facsimile of truth, what matters is the real process and how it occurs i don't actually know!


here we are talking about this on this blog and what is really unique ?


that brad warner unlike any other zen teacher is permitting it, that is he has a real process of being open to what true is


you don't have to agree, you just have to be open to it and permit it to develop !


as i say this is absolutely unique in zen which says alot about how unreal and pretend it usually is !


my personal opinion is that zazen is a root cause of this closemindedness as per my reasoning at the begining !


i think actually it's zazen in combination with a lack of looking around at other writings, poetry so there's nothing to derail the track deepening of the default circuitry


it's not zazen but solitude that's important!
















full lotus is nothing to with anything except yoga


 zazen is nothing to do with anything except schizophrenia !
















eckhart tolle is not doing a real process along with the rest of the neo-advaita/non duality bandwagon


but at least he/they are making money


zen practice and zazen is not a real process either and neither is it making money


i


am


not


sure


what


is


more


insane !/?
















“brad warner says that 66% of the people attending his lectures will not practice.”


there is some real process


zazen

and


    zen practice is not it however !
















“ cutting ”


might


be


preferable


to


alcohol

or


at


least


less


damaging
















if


you


stop


saying


how


things


should


be


and


just


look


at


how


things


are
















i


have


always


done


and


am


always


doing


stupid


amounts


of

work
















most


of


life


exquisitely


thick


:


o


)


(
















jundo what i like about this nishijima lineage is the way you all knife each other in the open : o )


it's all so massively dysfunctional (visualize eckhart tolle bent double by his takings on the way to the bank passing by some squatting beggars squabbling over acorns they can't eat anyway)


that i feel really at home !
















jundo what i like about this nishijima lineage is they way you all knife each other in the open : o )


it's all so massively dysfunctional (visualize eckhart tolle bent double by his takings on the way to the bank passing by some beggars squabbling over acorns they can't eat anyway)


that i feel really at home !
















mark you have to start thinking for yourself and not let others think for you !


when you do that you conclusions will be quite different from what they are now !
















sometimes


i


think

women


have


to


see


what


men


are


about


and


that


they


still


need


them


:


o


)
















sometimes


i


think

women


have


to


see


what


men


are


about


and


that


they


need


them


:


o


)
















zen's


most

famous


“ sitter ”


dogen


was


schizophrenic


and


got


TB !


is

there


any


connection?


there


are

mechanisms


for


both


the

above !
















people worship medicine, they really do !
















“don't deny that you are an animal, and optimal health requires nutrition in line with our evolutionary development.


in other words, eat real foods, no grains and eat good, well-sourced meats. include organ meat and plenty of eggs.”


some


people

are

ultra

efficient

   iron absorbers, i am for sure and really benefit from donating blood !


a big side benefit is brushing off soliciting charities with “oh, i just focus on donating blood thanx : o )”


there's not much they can say to that !


in actual fact even with donating blood four times a year i still have to limit my iron intake from animal foods
















it mightn't be safe for me to visit the usa anymore, mysteriously killed by a yam shoved down my throat, the vege bastards !


i actually have had a death threat, some dao spinning twit going to snipe at me from the hills with depleted uranium bullets


:


o


)


(
















a warning on health, i don't know if you are familiar with bonnie treace (myotai in the zen parlance crap), but she was john loori's most competent dharma heir and really the only one capable of keeping the mt. tremper “monastery” going in any state of intellectual vigour but she got fibromyalgia which is rather dehabilitating so john got rid of her (ex-lover !) and unfortunately for her she is a total buyer of the conventional medical paradigm which can doing nothing for it so is on the gruelling slide downhill into the usual chronic health problems of zen


at the end of the day if you don't have health you don't have anything !


cause zazen is very still the lymph doesn't move and i think it was a big factor in dogen getting TB and a lot of the current health issues in long time sitters, with no lymph movement you are going to get cancer more readily and permit stealth viruses and the like to get afoothold


genpo merzel has the right idea, lots of sex and minimal sitting !


genpo if you read this , i will point out you have a right of reply, for the reader, if you see no reply, mr. merzel has flaked out on “big mind” in a way even a child can see !
















better than zazen, a half hour workout posting on the hardcore zen blog ! good for the circulation and gets the brain going


and totally futile which is very zen : o)
















“ Shariputra, i'm just spinning a pile of crap the gullible are going to spew for thousands of years ! ”


my comment on the heart sutra!
















there


was


no


buddha


just

a

s


there


was


no


jesus


christ


tho


life


histories



sayings


or

talks


are


ascribed


to


them
















the buddhist canon


is


like


the


christian


tradition


it's


just


the


writings


of


various


people


over


the


ages
















the


problem


with


writing


is


it


takes


about


10


years

to


get


any


good !


:


o


(


)
















do


i


like


it


do


i


dislike


it


do


i


want


to


spike

it ?


:


o


)
















what idiot readers is totality ?


it is the darkness and the light


the emptiness and the fullness


the crap and the diamonds


suicide and death


a

babies


smile


a teenager's

angst

and


old


man's


guile


:  o  )




reply to the “sutra on totality” from the samyutta nikaya
















what idiot readers is totality ?


it is the darkness and the light


the emptiness and the fullness


the crap and the diamonds


suicide and death


a

babies


smile


a teenagers

angst

and


old


mans


guile


:  o  )




reply to the “sutra on totality” from the samyutta nikaya
















“ nothing comes from nothing ”


  something comes from nothing and nothing goes to something !
















the cut and paste game


your


own


thoughts


however


impoverished


are


worth

a


billion

times


somebody


else's


blurge !
















pseudepigraphy used to be the norm about 1600 years ago and earlier, there was no historical buddha, what happened was somebody wrote something or said something they made up themselves and then said “the buddha said!”


taking this stuff for what an actual historical sakyamuni said is like taking a a painting of christ as being of an actual historical jesus !


something

that

took


me


a


while

to


work


out


:


o


)
















you


all


want


it


too


quick


you'll


die


gagging


on


it


infinity !
















disciples


these


guys


are


not


idiots


they


are

highly


specialised


in


using


people
















disciples


these


guys


are


not


idiots


they


are

highly


specialised


in


using


you
















i'm


always


taking

shortcuts


that


compromise


the

final


result !


:


o


(
















WWII


the

german


artillery


was


shockingly


good


and


particularly


devastating


on


the


eastern


front


if


the


war


had


depended


on


artillery


they

would


have


won


but


it


didn't


so

they


lost !
















if


there's


flare

ups


at


work


it's


going


to


flow


through


to


you !


:


o


(