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history
is
so
important
you would
think
that
the
modern
era
totally
subsumes
the
past
but
the stupid
have
been
breeding
for
too
many
generations
without
the
stars
astrology
without
the
stars
is
a
cartoon
like
quality
to
great
art
why
go
to
university
to
learn
philosophy?
you
can
do
it
much
better
quicker
cheaper
on the
web
and
there
was
no
job
at
the
end
anyway
one
thing
you
realise
with
humans
is
there
is
not
a lot
of
original
thinking
around
the
trouble
with
logic
is
we
are
in
limited
possession
of
the
variables
the
tragedy
of
martin
heidegger's
life
was
he
never
married
hannah
arendt
what
i
like
about
the
net
is
the
freedom
to
write
what
you
think
poetry
is
a language
use
that
includes
nonsense
if
that's
a way
of
putting
it
i
don't
think
philosophy
does
that
intentionally
anyway
the
university
system
crucifies
intelligence
what
is
a
philosopher?
goethe
was
a
poet
and
writer
schopenhauer
was
a
philosopher
goethe
said
life
we
make
language
work
in
a provisional
way
because
we
just
signify
superficial
relations
as
soon
as
we
speak
of
deeper
relations
there
suddenly
comes
up
another
language
the
poetical ”
this
is
not
to
invalidate
philosophy
but
say
that
philosophy
is
part of
poetry
there
is
an
interchangeability
of
lovers
in
the
mating
process
that
is
difficult
to
get
used
to
the parentage
of
children
is
not
interchangeable
or
maybe
it
is
one of us
is
right
you
go
your
way
i
go
mine
women
their
greed
for
sex
themselves
and
their
babies
the
cost
of
philosophy
is
too
high
ruining
your
sleep
and
life
what
is
now?
a sort
of
condensation
of
infinity
a
clutch
of
possibilities
amongst
many
the
law
of
repulsion
what
i
deserve
is
repelled
from
me
which
is
just
as
well
in
the
majority
of
cases
what
is
justice?
a false
question
what
is
fairness
something
that
can
be
explained
that
is
the
difference
between
poetry
and
philosophy
you
could
say
justice
was
the
intrusion
of
human
supremacy
on
a
simple
notion
philosophy
is
just
a
step
or
two
into
the
discrete
space
of
meaning
to
be
be
very
successful
at
what
it
is
attempting
theres a whole
problem
with
intellectual
property
the
difficulty
of
retention
of
rights
patenting
is
a
bit
of
an
illusion
pain
takes
you
past the point
of civility
stops
breath
renders
you
deaf and blind
wears
love
down
eileen
am
i
doing
something
to
some
purpose
unbeknownst
to
me
or
is
it
just
endless
investigation?
theres
nothing
really
more
to
understand
long
shadows
evening
light
is
there
a
stronger
bond
than
love
i
don't
think
so
you
just
want
to trust
the
fellow
traveller
business
a
bit
more
its
a
stronger
bond
than love
how
mixed
everything
is
why
is
that?
religion
is
the
same
i think
conditioning systems
for
the
transfer
of
money
and
labour
from
you
to
them
the
african
psyche
is
inherently
more
fractal
than
the european
that is
it
is
more
open
to chaos
and
the power
and
instability
of
that
which
of
course occur
in
plenty
in
africa
i
don't
want
to
be
a philosopher
they
have
such
a
bad
track
record
in
their
personal
lives
poets
are
nicer
tho more
doomed
stability
frightens
women
i
don't
know
why
maybe
i
do
its
that
the
energy
of
chaos
dries up
all the self righteous prim little norms so PROUD of the mental mediocracy that passes for stability!
the
really
weird
thing
about
zen
is
the
way
it
threw
back
to
a
pre
printing
culture
does
schopenhauers's
live ”
translate
as
evolutionary
drive?
crowds
want
their
pound
of
flesh
before
letting
you
join
them
of
their
mediocrity ”
conversely
they
will
kill
you
if
they
can
im
always
the
shifting
sands
trying
to
cement
myself
eileen
now that i understand
that
stress
causes aging
i know
why
humans
niggle
each other
a
slow
subtle
assassination
eileen
think
the
reason
AS
is
so scared
of
because
the
scars
they
take
run
too deep
eileen
we
are
subservient
to
the
kitchen
stove
that we
it
and
i
will
continue
or the stove will
go
or
me
but that
things
will
continue
for
ever
i
still
don't
get
that
i
will
die
i
think
i'm
going
to
live
forever!
the
difference
between
poetry
and
philosophy
is there
is
some
hope
of
understanding
poetry
with
philosophy
even
the writer
did
not
understand
what
is
life?
a
cosmic
joke
tragedy
farce
all
these
things
its the flight or fight part of the brain that is active
so dreams are always usually traumatic
we
remember
them
the
whole
notion
of
lineage
in
zen
is
nonsense
because
buddha
never
existed
historically
zen
is
mysticism
for
the
dandelions
i
think
with
pregnancy
men
just
get
swept
along
with
something
they
have
caused
rather
startled
until
they
die
flawed
in
the
outset
failed
in
the
onset
defeated
in
the
endset
communism
my rifle
me?
the
mental
bankruptcy
of
now
is
really
depressing
theres
just
nothing
around
the
surprising
thing
about
you
tube
is
the
way
it
makes
video
since
world
war
2
accessible
crossing
several
generations
out
of time
i
view
and
command
the
surprising
thing
about
now
is
there
is
no
audience
just
the
splatter
brained
dead
suppression
of
the arts
and
philosophy
is
essential
to
communism
because
it
claims
to
be artistically
and
philosophically
correct
what
that leads
to
we
all know as unbearable kitsch
understand
teenage
girls ”
-
their brains
are being
ripped
apart
by
neural
pruning
its
as
literal
a
process
as
pupation
tho
beauty
is
in
the eye
of
the beholder
;o)
its
a
particularly
raw state
of
being
the
the
shrew ”
is
a
farce
that
doesn't
quite
come
off
poems
a
mix
of
the
personal
and
synthetic
practice
being
subtly
assertive
with
cold
telephone
sales calls
people
never
ask
what
is
true
and
what
is
not
they
follow
what
they
have
been
taught
there
are
deeper
things
than
love
evolution
designs
i
think
its
a deliberate
process
of
construction
according
to certain guidelines
minimium compedence
total heartlessness
ultimate failure
serendipidy
confusion
in
some
cases
huge
resilience
in
others
total fragility
god
doesn't
exist
what is it
that
doesn't
exist?
what
am
i
doing
and
why
am
i
doing it
its
all
about
going
backwards
if
you
REALLY
believed
in god
and
jesus
it
wouldn't
bother
you
that
people
say
they
don't
exist
its
only
because
you
don't
believe
it
and you
regard
other
peoples
opinions
more
valid
than
your
belief
that
you
get
upset
evolution
views
life
as
disposable
if
you
get
ill
its
not
minded particularly
wether
you
recover or
not
only
an idiot
would
argue
that
the
jesus
interpolations
in
josephus
are
genuine
and
they
do
the general
intellectual
level
of
humans
is
so
low
its
not funny
maybe
sense
is
not
adequate
maybe
confusion
is
more
adequate
than
sense
maybe
what
is
mine
is
not
necessarily
mine
and
what
is yours
is
not
necessarily
yours
either
better
young
and
stupid
than
old
and
clever
do
you
understand
it
or
are
you
projecting?
the
entire
world
would
be
socialist
except for
the
fact
it
doesn't
work
that is,
it follows
human
behavior,
inclination
and
power
strategies
but
it
doesn't
work
its
tyranny
by
uncultured
thugs
want
to
be
happy ”
well
i've
given
up
on
being
happy
actually
such
a
relief
to
be
able
to
sleep
fortunately
i
had
parents
with
some
brains
and
between
them
i
have
a
mix
that
passes
deconstructing
ads
how
are
they
made?
its
pretty easy
give
me
some
credit
for
having
a
few
brains
since
its
your
brains
this
is
written
with
no
concessions
to
the
public
taste
and
one
or
two
concessions
to
my
privacy
and
that's
about
it
its
not
that
you
can't
understand
it
its
that
the
many
roads
necessary
to
understanding
are
severed
from
you
by
who
you
are
and
what
you
do
the human brain can't think
straight
if
we
thought straight
we
wouldn't
breed
we
are
here
because
of
evolution
children
are
so
sapping
of
the
adult
identity
if
parents
didn't
identify
children
as their
own
the simple
egoism
of
life
would
not
work
its
all
a
vale
of
illusion
necessarily
in
terms
of
genetic
survival
women
don't
understand
them
selves
they
are
machines
with
purpose
they understand their aims and
how
to
get
them
though
if
i
never
had
any
bearings
how
could
i
lose them?
the capacities
required
for
successful
breeding
are
not
those
of
the philosopher
indeed
quite
the opposite
if
it
was
up
to
men
children
would
never
survive
its
given
of
god
so
to
speak
no
charge
its
enough
that
you
value
it
and
like
god
comes
and goes
may
be
there
or
not
on
message
boards
theres
any
number
of
gouls
and
ghosts
and
monsters
ready
to
drag
you
down
instructions
on
death
here
what
would
you
do
with
a
body ”
am
i
instructing?
there
is
out
for
you
what
there
is
though
is
unseen
potential
for
things
to
come
right
and
go
wrong
i
guess
how
much
difference
is
there
between
right
and
wrong
anyway?
not
a
lot
nihilism
the
belief
in
nothing
i
like that
:o)
nothings
straight
forward
in
tasmania
bosal ”
is korean
for
the
goddess
of
compassion
must
be
a
different
universe
the madness
of
the
mad
everything
is
eternal
emptiness
robyn
you
are
an
intelligent
woman
but
i
don't
know
that
you
are
a
good
listener
why
is
everybody
else
always
wrong?
well
they
are
not
the
nature
of
what
you
do
changes
you
there is
something
in the
journalistic
process
that
is
destructive
to
intelligence
probably
the fragmented
and
cursory
nature
of their
material
like
doctors
and medicine
SHARDS
i
am
strange
in
a
strange
world
full
of strangeness
i
think
one
gets
more
confident
with
ones
viewpoint
after
a while
just
writes
things
as
one
sees
them
its
no
big
deal
everything
i
write
and
think
is
in
a
state
of
constant
revision
except
the poems
and homilies
pages
depressing
really
i
am
always
exploring
boundary
conditions
of
being
and
non-being
everyone
is
just
pissing
sperm
into
millions
of
empty
vaginas
how
i used
to
be
owing
nothing
to
time
displaced
in
nowhere
but
that
has
changed
maybe
its
not
our
perishability
but
our
perishing
Basic
driving
advice
keep
the
visual
field
on
the road
shooting
is
a
combination
of
intellect
and
athletic
performance
that
i
find
difficult
on
both
counts
i
think
people
are
unnecessarily intimidated
by
aboriginal culture
and the dreaming
its
actually
quite
straightforward
and
not
that alien
to european
culture
tho
it
might
appear
to
be
artistic
sensibility
and
autism
are
the
prior
conditions
when
all life
is
a
rolling
disaster
area
you
get
inured
to
offense
women
are
tanks
put
a
foot
wrong
and
you
find
yourself
staring
down
a
rather
large
barrel
the
ady
gil
part submarine
with its
bow
knocked
off
after collision with the
japanese
whaler
shonan
maru 2
a strange echo of
the
pacific
war
in
world
war
II
obituary
to
steve
irwin
i
don't
think
people
should
be
upset
with
the
death
of
steve
irwin
it
was
spectacular
and
way
he
would
have
wished
to go
violent
sudden
and
fatal
he
was
of
the
lizard
dreaming
never
quite
happy
with
being
on
this
earth
and human
nothing
like
being
involved
in
a
charity
to
get
your
ideas
sorted
out
about
life
people
want
help
on
their
conditions!
killing
themselves
for
their
work
van
gogh
nietzsche
syphilis
maybe
their
madness
consisted
of
overgiving
themselves
for
their
work
quality
thinking
is
ignored
in
its
own
lifetime
and
plagarized
in
every
other
the
untrue
has
a
big
place
in
life
a bigger
place
than
the true
even the kind that doesn't require money
eileen
i never find computers easy
breaks my brains at times
one just has to chip away at them
you
go
forward
but
you
don't
go
backward
when
you
need too
i
spill
water
everywhere
why
does
that
have
to be?
its
impossible
to
discuss
god
because
properly
considered
its
not
really
definable
and
improperly
considered
the
definitions
are a waste of time
theres
something
wrong
with
journalists
mentality
they
are
not
right
upstairs
hurtful
and
murderous
BEWARE!
maybe
they
are
just
responding
to
an
audience
but
i
don't think
so
a
lot
of
the
problem
with
misinformation
is
the
press
a leader
who
favours
“yes
men”
is
always
going
to
come
to
grief
modern
lives
are
missing
the
brutality
of
our
ancestors
the constant
killing
and being killed
the mistreatment
of
animals
the
constant
pain
of
illness
and
injury
i'm
not
saying
it
doesn't
happen
now
it
does
but
in
a
way
that
rends
the
brain
and
thought
soppy
and
unrealistic
a
caste
system
is
an
evolution
of
inheritance
is
the usual
crass
way
when
biological
and
cultural
intelligence
falls
below
a
certain
necessary
level
which
is
what
happened
in
india
the
general
run
of
the
mill
human
being
is
too
prone
to
its
own
comfort
and
the
need
for
the
satisfaction
of
its
own
desires
to
ever
think
of
anything
useful
which
is
why
most
poetry
and
philosophy
is
rubbish
if
only
they
left it
at
that!
but
on
top
of
that
they
murder
what
conflicts
them
regardless
of
how
stupid
their
own
position
is!
everyday
if
you
can
just
increment
understanding
things
a
bit
better
there
may
be
other
disasters
floating
around
but
at
least
you
have
incremented
education
is
fucked
because
the
people
in
it
are
fucked
that
is
both
teachers
and
students
without
the
institutions
you
don't
have
such
a problem
you
would
think
people
would
learn
something
more
than
their
own
aggrandizement
but
they
don't
what
is
god ?
is
it
just
a
badly
defined term?
theres
contradictions
that
are
the
best
you
can
do
and
there's
contradictions
where
the
dissonance
matters
i
think
its
important
to
reach
the
end
of
a
few
learning
curves
at
least
in
some
things
we
are
in
a
modern
macdonalds
mass
culture
i
guess
it
used
to
be
religion
jane
campion
missed
the boat
on
keats
and
love
its
all
there
in
urn”
i wonder
if
she
captured
that?
too
advanced
i suppose
the
masses
like
abstract
like
they
like
sandpaper
sex
tho
they
live
it
all
the time
well
maybe
she
got
the
boat
a bit
janet
frame
washed
somewhat
off
onto
her
film
is
like
a
sculpture of poetry
but quite
a bit
is
lost
in the translocation
an
intelligent
man
is
going
to
look
like
an
idiot
to
god
i was reading
With baths, mills, and canals that run not dry,
While good men have to pawn their goods for bread:
Pray, who would give a fig for such a sky? (verse 492)
thought
to
myself
death
claws
through
us
all
twitter
the
dribbly
rubbish
from
everyones
lives
vacuous
a.d.d.
hyperspace
its
the
endless
narcissism
that
gets
me
i suppose
this
is
the
normal
human
condition
perhaps
its
only
a
computer
its
only
consumed
half
my
life
why
shouldn't
it
consume
half
your
life?
things
only
occur
the
way
they
do
because
there
is
no
other
choice
when
i
look
at
humans
i
think
that
species”
tho
i
am
a bit
what
is
holding
the
net
back
is
not
technology
or
twitty
spammers
but
learning
inertia
if
you
are
reading
a
why not
read
hawkes
translation
of
of
the
stone”
or sei shonagons
they are so
enlarging
cultured intelligence
if
that's
not
an
anachronism
recommended books
am
i
more
sinned
against
than
sinning
against
i
don't
know
probably
some
call
it
love
others
call
it
licensed
murder
lying
by
omission
is
by
far
the
most
common
form
of
concealment
and
dissembly
so
common
can
one
call
it
lying?
it
is
particularly
effortless
and
without
friction
initally
anyway
you've
seen
what
the
world
worships
money
and
stupidity
on
trial
one
woman
for
telling
the
truth
guilty!
say
her
peers
anything
is
endless
theres
no
position
of
comfort
from which
you
can
say
i
have
got
it
right
theres
no
further
to
go
sylvia
plath
don't
get
pregnant
you
don't
owe
the
world
your
genes
there's
a lot
of stylistic
conventions
that have to do
with printing
costs
that are
not
applicable
on the net
like
not
repeating yourself
i repeat myself
now
people
with
a
bad
attitude
i
have
learnt
the
hard
way
no
matter
how
much
you
help
them
they
just
want
to hurt
you
the
whole
point
of
making
a
bad
mistake
is
to
learn
from
it
schizophrenia
is
a
complex
notion
true
genius
is schizophrenic
since
you
have to
be fixed
about
some
central
point
the
forms
of schizophrenia
are many
and
varied
but
they all
have
this
in
common
fixidity
below
25C
i
start
to
die
chronic illness
and
schizophrenia
go
together
writing
how
do
you
tell
who
is
who?
shakespeare is forging sir henry nevilles
signature
keats has run out of ink
and is writing
in blood
and the editor is preparing rejection slips
for
the other
two
citing
“stylistic
ambiguities” !
need
for
editors
is
born
from
the cost
of
ink
on
paper
since
the net
has
no
such
cost
go hang
yourselves
fuckwit
editors
why
would
you
choose
something
that
is
true
over
something
that
is
false
because
what
is
true
is
a better
explanation
and
more
predictable
when
imagination is
reality
and
reality
imagination
jimanji
is
not
abstract
its
a
fractionated
existance
if
you
are
not
prepared
to hide
behind
the
various
shields
of
fakeness
you
get
killed
people
submerge
their
identity
in
a
fetid
sea
of
social
propriety
“make
the
world
a
better
place”
people
seem
to take
that
as
an
opportunity
to
crush
me
more
the
illusion
of
the new
year
nothings
changed
except
the
date
i'll
be
like
van
gogh
die
never
having
made
a
penny
from
my
work
there is an overdivision of
labour
in
modern
society
between
men
and women
or
rather
division
in
the wrong
places
the
“feminist”
or butch
lesbian
agenda's
for
women
are
wrong
minded
that
does
not
make
me a
“male
chauvinist”
btw
or
maybe
it
does
sanity
is
unlabelled
you
may
not
like
it
but
does
it
suit
you
or
is
to
your
ultimate
advantage
often
it does
if
i
ever
did
anything
that
made
sense
please
tell
me
there
was
actually
some
cultural
intelligence
before
world
war
I
the
selective
heavy
and
extraordinary
losses
of
WWI
ruined
everything
when you think about it
relationships....
a war waged
not a relationship at all
writing
is
all
a
form
of
memory
its
not
popular
nonsensical
stupid
and intelligent
so
many
contradictions
there
has
to
be something
to it
coming
up
the long
leg
of
a
T
intersection
and
not
looking
on
the
right
CRASH!
is more love not less
there's
damage
so
there
is
a
real need
perhaps
that's
more
love
and
not
less
i
think
principles
are
a
male
notion
what
do
women
want?
orgasms
and children
and
oh
i
forgot
the
queen bee
instinct!
sometimes
i
feel
i
have
lived
several
lifetimes
my
thoughts
are
like
a
trash
heap
that
gets
shuffled
around
and
every
now
and
then
get
a
pretty
pattern
like
a
kaleidoscope
its
not
a
problem
until
its
a
problem
the
law
of
attraction
is
a
load
of
nonsense
but
to
some
extent
life
does
accomodate
your
need
if
you
give
it
the
necessary
attention
anything
very
worthwhile
on
the
net
has
a very
long
time
frame
that's
just
one
of
its
modes
the
whole
problem
with
eternity
is
it
tends
to persist
in time
and
this
gives
rise
to
a
number
of
illusions
pox
on
theologians
insane
sickos
is
still
inside
something
insolent
know
it
all
bloody twits
christ
descends
into
hell
christ
is
the descent
into
hell
the
whole
problem
of
thomas
aquinas
too
segmented
see
how
much
more
simply
it
can
be said
taken
as
a
whole?
divine
know
ledge
cannot
be
deceived
why
can't
divine
know
ledge
be
deceived?
divine
know
ledge
transcends
non
deception
and
deception
divine
know
ledge
transcends
divine
know
ledge.
divine
know
divine
.
“wether it was fitting for christ to descend into hell”
actually
unbelievable
how
wrong
religion
is
that
so
many
for
so
long
can
be
so
wrong
and
that's when
it
starts
to
make
sense
you
are
on
the
balance
point
you
are
going
to
fall
off
occasionally
when
i
was
six
or
seven
actually
i don't know quite
how old
on
my
parents
farm
at
rotoma
i
saw
the sky and
clouds
fold
in
i
thought
that
must
be
what
is
called
god
no
god
no
infinity
just
the
wide
eye
of
the
moon
flowing
over
the
overgrown
grass
of
the paddocks
you
will
always
lose
an
evenly
matched
fight
humans
are
totally
at
home
with
violence
we
only
shed
tears
for
ourselves
and
not
others