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Song For My Mother (10/27/01)
There was a warmth within your breast
That I will never fully feel again.
A
lulling song inside your chest
Haunting me now, from here until when.
The hand that rocked my wooden horse,
The
shoulders that I would mount to fly.
But years rush on, age resumes its course,
And those youthful stages have passed
me by.
I can walk now, in my own designer shoes,
And sore in jets with nobody but myself.
I can follow directions,
and take my own cues,
And count the virtues that color my wealth.
But I was all the more rich in your motherly gaze,
That now needs a mother of its own.
Your lipstick and coco times filled my days,
Knowing, I would never be alone.
But I saw you hiding in a cloud of smoke
And heard the growing hoarseness in your gentle throat.
And now its too
late to repair all thats been broke,
As I help you with your wig and watch the weight you tote.
I would give you my
lungs without a second thought,
If your love would allow me to.
Id give you the youth that you have sought,
Just
to return that angels smile to you.
I see the fear trace another wrinkle on your cheek,
As the poison in your blood
forces you to tears.
Knowing I can not give you the help you seek,
And hiding that I too, have endless fears.
It
does not grow inside of you and spread,
But sits there, a tiny lump of pissed off death.
Youre alive, but see yourself
as the walking dead,
And pant although you have the right to deep breath.
Its not getting better, nor is it getting
worse.
Anticipation alone, can leave you dry.
You wonder why you were kissed by this evil curse,
Youre too young
and beautiful to watch your time go by.
But I am here, in your admired matriarchal role,
Ready to cradle and baby
you back to your immaculate state.
The men in white coats warn not yet to sell your soul,
As the reaper hasnt wandered
onto your path of fate.
Be strong for me mommy, keep daddy strong too,
And trust love and laughter to carry you beyond.
We are an army fighting to break you through,
And no cancer can ever break our diamond bond.
9-11
10/03/01
Everything you were meant to be
Can be challenged in a single day
Despair can rain in sheets of
debris
Sweeping ambitious dreamers away
How fear can alter five billion smiles
Tuck them away through veils of
tears
When you thought man kind has leapt for miles
Time reminds you its been a matter of years
Its to late to
go back, to soon to move fourth
And reminders adorn your every turn
The world around you begins to morph
As fire
in the hearts of the free world burn
They say there is no peace without justice
But no justice without eternal peace
Raising the whispering voices inside us
As the masses of allied souls increase
You are proud for your very freedom
You are proud for your right to speak
But when your rights are cast down by ransom
Strength comes with minions,
accompanied by the weak
You know youll be strong
And the core will not crumble
You know you chose to unite in
song
Nor will you forget the deafening rumble
That quenched the thirst to right this wrong.
Broken Up 10/9/2001
Why do fantasies have to break apart
Like a puzzle left by a fickle child
There should never be an end to
the start
And every storm should be quick and mild
I have kissed atop a hidden Alpine palace
And danced by the
banks of the river Wye
I have drank fine wine from a rhinestone chalice
And lay in foreign valleys watching clouds
go by
I have found love worth crossing oceans for
And stood the test of mocking time
Not taking a moment for granted
or
Gave up once the final bell has chimed
But there is no love quite like new love
Where all appears so safe and
shiny
Waking to the song of the morning dove
Something eternal grows from something tiny
Is shouldnt end in peaks
of lost laughter
Or chase away the most sacred heart
It will haunt you from now to hereafter
Dont let the kisses
fall from being your art
Now comes the time for mending glue
Where storms come to fruition for silence
Something
that forever binds me to you
That keeps us held in our highest excellence
Swimming With Dolphins (10/30/01)
Into the icy Floridian lagoon
And under the shimmering waters
You let me into your playpen
Allowed me
to ride on your waves.
You spoke to me in an undersea chorus
Of snaps and clatters and cold wet kisses.
Slippery
smooth blue-gray skin,
Eyes as black as depths from where you came,
But gentle as a hand that heals your heart.
Everyman (11/5/01)
Everyman is deluded in his own special way
Weather he sees his life as an empty
flash of time
Or sees himself as the most posh pea in the pod.
Everyman in nameless in a place far away,
Where
life has gone a bit topsy-turvy,
And concerns are higher than neckties and flambes.
Everyman is superior, at
least for just a day.
Over a race well run, or a joke well told,
They are the best in the eyes of someone unknown.
Everyman views the world in their own whimsical way.
Weather its foundation is the gods or the sciences
And
he may find that love and beauty are the anesthetic to reality.
Its Not You (11/5/01)
You thought
you were the unicorn
Holding the wisdom and honesty safe in your horn.
But your horn is nothing but a bloodstained
rapier
Dripping with nectar of your self inflicted wounds.
You thought you were the mystical phoenix.
The
rainbow in your feathers masked the evil in your tricks.
But those feathers were nothing but sculpted construction paper,
That cut the fingers of all who may reach to touch you.
You thought you were the golden child
With every
gift to make the Grecian Gods smile.
But those gifts were simply dollar store pranks
That broke from your rough and
callous play.
You thought you were the high noon sun
Seen as superior by everyone.
But your nihilist words
burn your image like rays,
And leave a charred shell of a wanna-be lady.
You thought you were the next in line
for Queen.
Where make-up and baby talk would hide the mean.
But you dropped your crown and fell from grace
And
nothing is left but an average, scared and quivering girl.
Love For James (12/3/01)
Waking up to
the warmth of my own devoted man,
His young, pale features, the sun that greets my eyes.
He rises to kiss the dream
world from my heavy lids,
And prepare for the lonely weekday hours apart.
His English accent wishes over my stars
and stripes lips,
Gently corrupting, altering my native tongue.
As he wraps me in his Union Jack,
And adores me
in great American liberty.
Why he conquered the mighty Atlantic,
Just to cook me a holiday meal,
And fought his
way back time and again
Just to hold me until morning breaks.
How rare is love worth crossing oceans for?
I would
do it one thousand more times
To embrace the hero that sacrificed his past
Just to be the center of the circles in
which I travel.
And when I wake to his ebbing sweetness,
Wrapping my fears in a song of enchantment,
All my lifes
regrets are long forgotten,
As nothing matters, I found the gatekeeper of my soul.
Cirque Du Soleil (12/3/01)
Allow me to fly with you on silken ribbons,
And spin my way to the heights in your hoops.
Oh, the times I
watched your big top grow from the gravel
And then entered the tent, with tears of anticipation.
I may see the elements
come together in an ariel ballet,
Or sweat drops of lust at a singing man,
Whose ethereal counter-tenor kidnapped
my dreamers heart.
I want to be a clown, the sad type from Russia,
Carrying a suitcase, prepared to run away towards
the horizons.
But I just sit, letting the contortionists seduce my imagination
And let my mind fly away with the double
trapeze.
As my mouth lets the made up lyrics I know so well,
Escape to dive into the blackened pools of O
And
flip out in preparation for an oceanic banquine.
Maybe, someday I shall join you
In painted face, and beaded costumes.
Find my home beneath the blue and gold chapiteau,
Find my life along the fast track.
Run away to be an artist
of the unknown.
Oh, to run away with Cirque du Soleil.
Grace (12/3/01)
If you were to go,
My
heavens would part to show stormy skies.
Id fall from grace like a dove shot from the clouds,
Into the wretched pit
of hells loneliest chamber.
And still, Id sit and wait for you.
I dont want to know life after this,
As you bring
heaven all around me,
Youve melted the frost of hell on earth
And created a soul for our sharing.
Worthless
Religion (11/26/01)
Stop telling me to believe
Something they cant prove as right.
They tell me only faith
Will lead me through the night.
But I say, walk away with your lies,
Your war creating cause.
A single book
doesnt make it universally so,
And your hate has led honest lives to pause.
You can paint your churches in ancient
blood,
And stain the mosques with long lost tears.
Why would I want to worship the worlds
Leading cause of death,
destruction and fears?
What god would let a great ship sink
Or millions die in mid-winter camps?
What god would
let an empires skyline fall
And allow devils men be heroes and champs?
Ive got the ground under my feet to be thankful
for
And the air in my lungs to speak words of praise.
But my compliments are to the living love around me,
Because
I dont know where I go at the end of my days.
I couldnt kill because I felt a few words were right,
Or conquer because
scores disagreed.
So stop telling me god allowed pain for a reason,
Any god that condones suffering will never be
a part of me.
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