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DEDICATED TO ARNOLD VOSLOO

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The sun comes up

I think about you

The coffee cup

I think about you

I want you so

It's like I'm losing my mind

The morning ends

I think about you

I talk to friends

I think about you

And do they know?

It's like I'm losing my mind

All afternoon, doing every little chore The thought of you stays bright Sometimes I stand in the middle of the floor

Not going left, not going right

I dim the lights

And think about you

Spend sleepless nights

To think about you

You said you loved me

Or were you just being kind?

Or am I losing my mind?

I want you so

It's like I'm losing my mind

All afternoon, doing every little chore The thought of you stays bright Sometimes I stand in the middle of the floor

Not going left, not going right

I dim the lights and think about you Spend sleepless nights to think about you You said you loved me

Or were you just being kind?

Or am I losing my mind?

I don’t know how to love him

I don't know how to love him.

What to do, how to move him.

I've been changed, yes really changed.

In these past few days, when I've seen myself,

I seem like someone else.

I don't know how to take this.

I don't see why he moves me.

He's a man. He's just a man.

And I've had so many men before,

In very many ways,

He's just one more.

Should I bring him down?

Should I scream and shout?

Should I speak of love,

Let my feelings out?

I never thought I'd come to this.

What's it all about?

Don't you think it's rather funny,

I should be in this position.

I'm the one who's always been

So calm, so cool, no lover's fool,

Running every show.

He scares me so.

I never thought I'd come to this.

What's it all about?

Yet, if he said he loved me,

I'd be lost. I'd be frightened.

I couldn't cope, just couldn't cope.

I'd turn my head. I'd back away.

I wouldn't want to know.

He scares me so.

I want him so.

I love him so.