24 july 1999
3:21pm
travels

i've been having strange dreams lately. or maybe not strange, more like really vivid. i can remember a couple dreams from last night:
shawn and i were traveling together. we were staying in south africa, and i wanted to take a walking tour over the border into "north africa" (yes, it was a place in my dream).
i had this blanket on my bed, which i was looking at and thinking of david. it was his blanket, and i was remembering how he had my blanket; we had exchanged blankets for the summer.
i was playing this softball game, but pretty late at night. when i came up to bat, i hit the ball really hard, right into this building that was on fire. i realized that since the ball was in the burning building, no one could go get it, so i got a homerun. after i ran around the bases, i went and looked into the burning building, and saw 2 dead people sitting up in chairs inside.
so, those were some dreams. can't say i know what they mean. i think i liked the dream of being in africa with shawn the most, though the last dream about the softball game is the most vivid.

i've also been really lonely lately. that realization just hit me today- i've been rather moody. there's no one at work that i really get to spend a lot of time with, so my hopes of meeting a good friend aren't being realized. there are a couple people that i have fun with at work, but that's about all. i've been thinking a lot about the return to swarthmore, but that hasn't been so much about seeing friends as it has been about just thinking about how my last year there will develop. i want to do as much as i possibly can. i can't wait until david comes out here, though i haven't heard much from him lately. it sounds like he's going to come out here in later august and then fly back to swat with me. i really like that, since my entire family is leaving for a week on 23 august. so with him here, i'll have company, plus we'll have a lot of freedom in terms of car use and even better in terms of time, since i won't be working anymore (yea!!!!).

the first session of camp is over with and i'm glad. halfway done with this thing. my kids were just getting to me in the end, though the 2 that i'd really like to be done with are coming back next session. so... only 20 more days of kids. well, 21 if you count the overnight, and 22 for the saturday i'm working this coming week. but that's do-able. i can make it without a major breakdown. this first session has taught me a lot and i'm really going to change some things for next session.

i've promised myself that tonight i will go to barnes and noble so i can write david back and also so i can work on my lesson plans for session 2. tomorrow i'd like to either go to the gilroy garlic festival, go to berkeley, or head south a bit and go to the beach. maybe i'll make my way down to halfmoon bay or santa cruz. i really just want a day to myself.

3:38pm