I must have sat there crying for about 10 minutes, I was lost in my own sorrow. It was all my fault. Why couldn't I have remembered my family when I was younger. Why did I have to tear Tori away from her mother? Why, why why? I didn't realized what was happening. I felt myself being lifted off the ground. All I knew was to scream. I screamed my head off. "HELP,HELP,HELP!!!" I kept yelling over and over again. I was crying and screaming at the same time. "Rachel!" Someone screamed at me. I kept on screaming. "Rachel, please." Someone said again. I opened my eyes, to see Taylor carrying me I was in his arms, I don't know where he was taking me what I was doing there. All I knew was that someone cared, but then again, I don't know if they really did. I heard them talking, but I didn't really hear them. I was lost in my world. The world I had never experienced before. I buried my head in Taylor's shoulder and cried the most tears that I had ever cried before. It was like the day Tori left Tulsa, I felt lost. I was feeling lost now. I needed something, and that something I didn't know yet.
Tori
I had searched the nieghborhood where the Hanson's house was located. Unfortunately, I didn't remember the area that much, and couldn't find Ray. I made Tay go out and look for her. He knew just where to look. About ten minutes later, he walked up with Ray in his arms. She was crying hysterically. I had never seen her so upset. "Rachel! Are you OK?," I said, running up to them. She just looked at me, and kept saying "I'm sorry, I'm sorry" over and over again. Diana came out and took her inside. "Tori? Why is she sorry?," Taylor asked. "She thinks it her fault that I'm not with my real family. Because she led me away from them in the airport earlier," I said. "That's nuts," he said. "Not so nuts. Remember, I think it's my fault that Ray was taken away in the first place " I said, miserablely. "Tori, it's not. Okay? We don't blame you. It wasn't your choice to leave. It wasn't anyone's fault but May and Jay's fault, OK?," he said, looking me directly in the eyes. "Yeah, okay. That's what yu say. Nothing you say can stop me from thinking it's my fault," I said. "Tori, it wasn't your fault. Stop it. I don't blame you at all. Not at all. Now, tell me that you believe me," he demanded. I looked at him. He was telling the truth. I could tell. He was never able to lie that well anyway. "I believe you, "I whispered. "Good," he said, smiling. We went inside.
Rachel
I was upstairs in the bedroom that Tay, me,Ike,Zac, and Tori shared, The room was packed, overly packed. I had kind of settled down but things just kept going through my mind. Mom had me on the trundle bed with wash clothes all over my face. I wouldn't stop screaming. Screaming made it feel good. i saw my mom's worried face. She just kept patting the washcloth. I knew I needed to stop for their sake. I was never one to be selfish. "Mommy." I whimpered, crying. "Shh, honey,shh." She said giving me a hug. I was down flat on the bed, my whole face wet. I must have fallen alseep.
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I woke up feeling weak. I looked over at the next trundle bed, to see mom lying there alseep. She had a book on her chest, like she was waiting for me to get up. That made me feel great. I saw Taylor and Tori asleep in the other two bed's. I didn't know how I felt now. I felt like I had made a fool out of myself. I needed to talk to mom, and tell her something. "Mom." I whispered shaking her lightly. She woke up jumping. "Oh, honey, are you ok?" She asked with concern in her voice. "I think so." I said falling back on my pillow. "I feel so sorry for everything. I'm sorry for not remembering that you were my family, I'm sorry I just ripped Tori away from her parents. I'm just sorry." I said getting the words out. "Rachel, no, don't be sorry, you are making yourself nuts, you did all your things for good, nothing to be sorry for, I'd never forgive myself if you felt so sorry. Please." Mom said. I knew she meant it, I could feel it. "OK, I love you mom." I said.
Tori
I heard Ray and Diana talking softly. Diana left Ray alone to sleep. "Ray? Can we talk?," I whispered. "Sure," she whispered back. I got up fom my bed, and walked over to her trundle bed. "Ray, don't blame yourself for what happened at the airport," I said. "Oh, Tori, how can you ever forgive me? I'm such a horrible friend," she said. "No, you're the best friend I could ever have," I said. "How can you say that?," she asked. "You were only looking out for me. Like a friend is supposed. What more could I ask for?," I said. "Really? You don't think it's my fault?," she asked. "No, of course not!," I said, We hugged, and I hoped that I had made her feel better.
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"What did you say their last name was?," Ray asked the next day. "Um, Denesin," I replied. We got the number, and I dialed. "Wish me luck," I said.