try to tell you about
a day in the life
of a person living
with HIV and cronic
Hep B.
THIS PAGE CONTAINS SOME ADULT MATERIAL!!!!!!!!!
This page will always be under construction. I will update it as often as I can. I would like to start a page of animated red ribbons. If you have one or more please let me know. I would like to get as many as I can. I will link the new ribbon page to this one so anyone can use the ribbons. Thank you for your help and support.
Over the last few years things have not gone well for me. My infection has become trouble some at best. I was also told that I have Cronic Hep B. Nearly three years ago I filed for disability. I am still to this day fighting for it now. I have not been able to work for the last 3 years. Thus I have no income, save for what the state gives me and that would not feed my dogs, Say nothing about me.
There that should put us up to date for the most part. In the following days, weeks, months, I will tell you of the day to day struggles and joys I will and do face.
Please sign my guest Book it is important for me to know that people are really reading this. Perhaps some one might even learn some thing from it, Understand what a friend is going through, Stop and think about what I go through and not make the mistake I did. That would be the best thing I could ever do with this page.
After I left work, the lover I was with and I began to have trouble. Sex was the most of the problem. I became increasingly uncomfortable with having sex. We were both HIV positive but he did not have Hep-B. I did not want to put him at risk any more than he had been. He refused to use a condom and things went down hill from there. This was to be the start of the hard times. To My doctors, it became more clear that I would not be able to go back to work. My mind was beginning to feel the effects of the HIV and the Hep-B. I became more agitated and less social. I was also suffering from extreme diarrhea and unbearable stomach cramps. Very bad head aches became a daily fact to face. After long talks with My doctors it was determined that it was time to start medication. Over the next 12 months I would go through such drugs as; Viramune, Zerit, Crixivan, Epivir, Norvir and drugs to treat depression such as Paxil, Zoloft and Serzone. These were take in many different combinations. Some of them worked for a month or two and then lost ground. In the end all failed to provide the much disired affect. I chose to go off the drugs and give my body time to recuperate. I am still off all drugs.
During this 12 months I had begun my claim for disability upon the advice of my Doctors. My initial claim was denied as soon as it was received. At least within a month. I appealed and 6 months later it too was denied. I requested a hearing in front of a judge. He found I was in fact unable to do the work, yet denied my claim all the same. it was sent to the board of appeals and they returned it to the judge saying they disagreed with him. I now await for his determination.
This last year has been enough stress to drive a herd of racing turtles over a cliff to plunge into the rocks below. I would have cracked long ago had it not been for a guy that I met on the net. He answered an ad I put in the classified. He was the only one who stayed with me even through the truth. The whole truth. He has become the light in the dark. He is my best friend. He does not fear my illness nor does he fear my touch as so many do when they hear those three letters H I V. He brings such joy to my life. He is one of the thing I look forward to seeing each week. You will hear of him often in this page. His name is Shawn. Ok that should put us at as close to current as we need to be for the moment. Click on a link below to go on.
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