"Hey anyone call for a wheelchair? Just came off the........! Lanie, what's wrong? And where is A.J.?" Brian asked looking around. "He left. " I said. "You didnt answer my question. What is wrong? Why are ya crying?" Brian asked coming over to the bed and sitting down. "Oh, A.J. just said he...I mean we cant you know, like each other, be boyfriend/girlfriend type, because he is in a tourning band! I am very happy for you guys! All of you are my angels! I dont want him to choose, but I would never make him choose over me and the band, never!" I started crying again. "Hey, Hey, dont do that, please! A.J. just broke up with Marrissa, he is hurt. She hurt him so bad, I guess he is just scared. And I dont think you wanted him to choose." Brian said, trying to comfort me. "Thanks, but I'm hurt both ways right now! Is that wheelchair for me?" I asked. "Yupper! Come on, I will help ya. " Brian said getting up and helping me in the wheel chair.

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"Oh God, Lanie, are you alright?!!" all the girls said as they came up to me. "Yes, I'm fine. Brian helped me into this thing!" I said looking up at him. "Yes, she is a real sport!" he said laughing. "Oh, Yeah, right! I was screaming at the top of my lungs, in there!" I told them. "What did the doctor say?" Howie said. I told all of them what he said, and they all sighed in relief. "Well, we better get this crazy girl home, and in the bed!" Goobey said. "Yes, mother!" I said laughing. I was still sad inside, from what A.J. said. I guess I'll just have to face it. I am an obsessed person. And it was going to get me in trouble sooner or later!

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"Like I was saying last night over the answering machine. Jive Records and The Backstreet Boys are having this contest for the their next opening act!!!" Donnie said excited. "Well, what do you have to do?" I asked. "Well, first of all you have to sing real good. Second, you have to send the club a music video tape of your group. Then if they call you, you will audition at the club Friday night!!" Donnie said. "Oh, sounds interesting." I said. "You're not excited that The Backstreet Boys are coming to this town? It's just what you wanted!!" Donnie said. "Huh?...Oh, yes, I'm sorry, I was just thinking that's all." I said. "Well, are you gonna tell the others? You know how they love them too!" Donnie said. "I might. I just have alot on my mind, that's all!" I said. He just sit there a few minutes twidling his thumbs. "So..........You gonna do it?" he asked. "Do what? " I asked. "Audition!" "Donald, please, I already told you! I'm a choriographer,not a singer!" I said. "Damnit, Lanie, you are a damn good singer!! Why cant you just admit it?! I mean, Gees, you sing all the time, but never pursue it!! I want to know why?!" Donnie shouted. "I dont want to talk about it, Donnie!!" I screamed. "It's about Selena's death, isnt it?!" Donnie asked. "This has nothing to do with Selena!!" I screamed. "Admit it,Lanie, you're scared, that if you pursue your singing career, it will end like Selena'a did!!!" Donnie said. "Damnit Donnie, I dont want to talk about Selena!! I already told you the reason!!" I screamed. "Lanie, face up to it! Selena is gone, she is not coming back!! I know you two were best friends, but she is gone!! Dont you understand that?!!" Donnie said. "I know that!! Just leave me alone!!! Just............Just...................!!" I started crying. "Hey, what is all the comotion in here?!" Sarah asked walking in with Brian. "Nothing!! I dont know why you just had to bring her up, Donald, but dont ever do it again!!! She is still in my heart and my memories!!! Stop saying those things, she is here, I can feel her!!" I screamed. "Hey, just who are we talking about?" Brian shouted over us. "Nobody!" I shouted and ran up to my room, crying.

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