would I be not better living my own caring for none?

the talk they make, and the littlest heed they not pay

not understanding a friend but going along a stupid sense.

Or did I just hum along and follow the trend?

respected their feelings, tried not hurt

listened to their sorrows and complains

burdened not them with mine...................

and I cared, they called me scared!

is this how they value my sentiment and my affection?

never thought I would need to reconsider

the love that I felt for those others

with no sense and no goal

always sincere I thought I was

what to gain from them, I was?

mistakes I might maketh but,

conscious I am always and do careth

best I try that my friendships never endth

Feel I like, friends I am never to offend

share my opinions and be honest

that's what bring you closest 

what I have to gain from a friend?

but cherish a relationship that's grand

and I hope you understand!

friend I never try make,

maybe, I fear its all fake!

and perhaps they are right,

making friend gives me fright.

a friendship lost..

that might hurt..

....and now I am Scared

then...

sometimes I wonder what would it be like knowing none?

would I be not better living my own caring for none?

Life filled with riches and laughter

All the pleasures and comforts available

is it Peace that we seek?

What is that we are after?

Life has become routine and the lusts have become necessities

Diverging us even further from realities

Everyone making lousy excuses for their forgotten duties

Why do we lust for this world?

Why we chose this life so material?

And not care about the life that is eternal?

In life so short, time we still waste

In time, before it's too late….

To the Creator as a creation we must duplicate

In prayers, as one we all should bow and supplicate

Nothing will get you through when time comes

Count not your material gains

But the tough moral battles your soul wins

Before you commit another blunder

Life wont wait for you to wonder

Take a moment and now you ponder

I am a believer, less I care what them others say

As I know I can achieve the glory which is my destiny

Here I exist to fulfill one goal common to all

Understanding the Will of my Lord and to follow His Accord

A captive of my own whims, my lusts held me back

Material world--beauty and wealth had me distracted

Living a life, full of fun and laughter

Never worrying about the Hereafter

Enjoying the company of friends and family

Ignoring the existence of any Divine Being,

Still waiting for some unknown time to repent

When I have nothing better to do and end beckons me closer"

........PONDERING......

once I was a little careless and now I seem to be lost...

its wilderness, its magnanimity seems to have found the dumber of me...

now when I take the moment to ask myself, what have I done?

I have dug myself deeper into the marsh

But sad as it might be, I find myself left with not many options...

I sometimes think to seek help from others,

but then I decide, to believe in myself and have trust in my LORD,

for HE will help me find my way back if I hang tight by HIS CORD...

thus I seek the light that comes from HIS torch

all I wish is a healthy life of HIS appeasement

I fear ONE and seek HIS Forgiveness, none can survive HIS abandonment

maybe I need to grab on to something stronger....a love greater

trying to focus on higher aspirations

foregoing pressing needs of companion pleasure

and unable to move on much further

confusing thoughts swaying emotions cause me fright

lurking hopelessly away from the bright

hoping to be guided by a ray of Divine Light

maybe I desire more than I deserve

then I think I should get, all my cravings so dire

only if I ask the ONE and to HIM submit all my desire

and not provide another breeding ground for hate and anger

but cultivate feelings of love and passion inside that burn like fire