okay...i don't believe in a god per se...probably a divine force, but thats about the extent of it. i know he doesn't control things that happen on earth. this gets into what i think about destiny and everyything.,...well....the world is goverend by one script one line and we travel down this liine..and i think god created this line, or perhaps a god...not the god
like i sed...fate is a strate line, it consists of chi\oices that we cannot make. we think we decide for ourselves what is really for uss...but in reality..it has already been decided...it has already been written...what we were meant to do...we are doing...and notghing can alter that...if someone comes bak from the future to alter the opast..it has already been done...therefore they are a part of the past,....even if they are fropm the future...thus....the future cannot be changed...o0nce something has been decided by the god, a god, or our god....it cannopt be altered....there are side roads...crossings where our choices barcnh off angd become alter universes and parrallel to pours...but we do not live that...but our lives... and our decisions do affect how the parrallel will become.
this is similar to god....but not exactly..i beleive that religion was created by man and made for man...in the beginning it was used to explain things of the world...and soon science replaced it....and now adays....religion is used to console and comorft the self, the soul and to provide relaxation and support....sure..in times of bleakness....it is sed that jesus christ is the only one that will be there for you...but that is a lie...alond with the rest of the lies that ppl hav fed you along in your days...as it turns out...wher is he? od you see him? when your sad and crying and on the verge of suicide...does jesus christ reach a hand out for you? i see no hand...i see no lifeguard....i see nothing but my ow n death in front of me....and about jesus....that later…basically…I don't believe in organized religion…everybody makes their own religion…and they shouldn't follow the doctrines dictated by society….
i believe in jesus christ....and i hav accepted him...but he is nnot my god and he is not my savior...i acknowledge the fact that he has died for me.,...and he has given the ultimate sacrifice....god...for us...this i believe...and this i honor him..but he has not saved me...i am still boiling in my sinns...i am still drowning in my own life....and i do not see him there for me....he has sacrificed so much,...and has suffered so much...and is a good role model...but he is not the almighty himself....if he was born of god....the more the sacrifice that was given because his father turned his bakc to his only son...and this is a sacrifice no one should hav to make...even if they wre created by man....and i believe that the miracles that jesus has doen....like walking on water and akll that other jazz...is just a preview of what humanity can do...what the human man can accomplish....and ablout the second comming
i believe taht it is not jesus that will come...because he has already died...he has gone to hell and bak to heaven and now lays by his dead father that has been murdered by man....and he will look down on us and he will see us...and we will hav achieved the profecies taht he has spoken....we will hav accomplished miracles taht man was never meant to accomplish...we will hav survived the apocolapse...and armageddon soon apporaches us...but niothing will haoppen.....jesus will fertailze another and another will come,....the second coming...but this not without notice form humanity itself....many before, in times of old, hav profecized the second coming, but they hav all been wrong...we will only see the second coming when we hav reached the goals jesus has set for us
it has been sed that we use only about 10 percenmt of our brains..but io believe this is not truye...in reality...we really opnly use about 5-8 percent...but ther are those out ther that utilize much more....like the pyschics...altho the ones portrayed on television are mear inpersonators...i beleiive one can read and see the future...it is ther....it has already been dictated...and nothing can change that....and these ppl that can see teh furture..vibrate on such a higher level than the rest of man.that one can hardly see them...you can say that they exist on a higher plane or perhaps exist in a sepret dimension taht is a part of ours...i also believe in telekinesis…which is just a step up from telepathy and other 5things like that…and its all about the same…the whole thing about energy and stuph and vibration….and this goes with brain use…as more of the brain is utilized…the person's personal energy increases it becomes unbareable for the body that holds the energy…thus…it begins to degrade….but things like superman can notr exist…ther is no way that someone can be so physically strong….the closest thing that I'v seen to that would be that guy that had so much muscle mass that he had a heart attack and when the doctors tried to stick a needle into his heart…they couldn't get it through his muscle…
for a wise science teacher once told me of extra-dimensional realsm...wher upon our 4 dimension world, lies another....perhaps millions of dimesnions...wher they can look down on us and we cannot see them...in fact...this very room you are sitting in can perhaps contain millions perhaps even an infinite number of entities other than yourself...another wise physics teacher told me of looking into the second dimension and even the first...and a world of the two dinmesnional...in the planor universe....they travel in lines...and cannot see out...for the 3rd dimesnion does not exist for them and one day..one of the inhabitants of the planor universe \, a magician, a wizard, a mage, saw into the third dimesnion and flipped around....he popped out of the 2nd and entered the 3rd for the preficst of seconds an in this time flipped his body around and faced the other
direction.....and all the ppl were in awe of this great wizard....when he flipped...no one could see him because he was no longer in the 2nd dimesnion but in the 3rd...perhaps this is true with us....the other day i was reading up on super strings, or striung theory, and it sed that the strings vibrated and existed in a 10 dimensional world...one of time and 9 of sopace.....we live in a 4 dimension universe...on of time,...and 3 of space....and many of us cannot see ourselves as 4 dimensional but of 3....this gest us on to the toopic of super strings and time travel....
time travel is possible....but not in the ssense of those taht see it in science ficti0on...you can look into the past and look into the future...but you cannort exist ther,...the only way that one can travbel through time would prpobably be with magical talismans….but ther are theories aboyt particles and other things like that that can travel fatser…or close to the speed of light….such as the tachyeon or other such theoretical particals….many particales hav been simplified to the simple string theory
like I mentioned before…string theory is the basis of all particles and atioms…think of them as rings or strings….thus …string theory….these strings can vibrate on and at different frequencies….think of it as a cello…and the vibration of the string will determine its properties…and whetther its open or closed is another thibg that will change the properties of the particle….therefore…according to string theory…everything is made up of strings….tiny miniscule strings….and in order for these strings to exist and to behave the way they do….they hav to exist in 10 dimensions….one time….and 9 space….and since its so small….these extra dimensions are squeazed in to the little space…
I think space exploration is extremely valuable….it serves for communications and educational purposes….it shows us things about the universe and provides solutions to the energy problem, the population problem and even perhaps the food problem…many things that we use in everday life can be attributed to the space race of years past…but lack of interest from the population has made space exploration old and inefficient…many rockets used by the US today are the same models from the old Apollo program….unlike russia….who has tested and improved its rockets and other spcaae technologies extremely….we hav fallen behind…during the entire cold war and after…russia continiued to test its rockets…and today hav rockets that are cheaper and more effiecient than any rockets made by the us…this can most likely be attributed to communism
ideally….anarchy is probably the best form of government….but anarchy cannot be achieved…it is like a utopia…and ideal that was set by man to reach for…..but willl ultimately fail….on the other hand….communism is the same way…..but on a more rigid scale…in a communist society….you are provided for….everything you need…the governemmnet provides for you…but again…communism has failed because of the inherent flaws and errors of mankind….if it weren't for greed, corruption and laziness inherent in humnauty…communism would be a hugge success….as would anarchy…but ppl are not thus…my theory for communism combines democracy…which has werked to a point…and communism…which has favporable aspects….if you combine the two…you could gain a lot…for instance…the government would prvide everyone with jobs and stuph./…what ever the ppl needed..the government would provide….food…shelter…clothing….everything would be given to you….and in your job…instead of giving evryone a government job…ppl can werk for themsleves…or werk for others…and their wage would be calculated by the amount they accomplish…similar to democracies' capitalism…but in a communist world…a company would not be alouyd to reach emmense sizes….such as microseoft…..corporations like microsoft would not and could not exist….communsim would force microsft to split..as did at&t did bak in the days of old…when ther was only one telephone company…and instead of serving reqionally….they would be forced to compete with each other….driving down proices…and incouraging growth in industry…under this…the economy would be strong….amnd since the government gives every one food and shelter…and basic clothing…ppl would be able to spend their money on other things…such as entertainment….ppl would be able t9o live better lives…and ppl that hav enuff money..can buy out of their homes…but ppl would not sell them to each other,…they would go through the government….although the government controls a large aspect of our lives…irt would be a government of the ppl….in this way…it would be a democracy…there would be not one president…but 3….and there would be a congress…..but a regional one…and ther would of course be a court system….this would also be regional…another thing…since the government gives you everuyything you need…everyone would be up to date..ther would be no real need for money…..everyone would be equal….
communsim would restrict it and limit its size…it has grown to a point wher ther is little or no competition….example….netscape is better than internet explorer…not by much..but it is…. but microsft is controls the dominant operating system…windows 95….which is one of the most ill produced os's on the market…..yes..tehr are others…but win 95 is just horrible…..the memory requirements in ram and hard drive space…not only that…but win 95 tends to be etremely and highly unstable…crashing..what? every 5 minutes? and all computers now adays comes with win 95 installed on it….i think ppl should be able to hav a choice…and if win 95 does come on the computers…it should just be that..ppl should specify what they want….if they're stuypuiid…and odon't know what they want…they shouldn't be buying a computer,…..they'll just be taken in by the store guy and they'll be ripped off…
ppl that don't know anything should stay out of the business of those that do know something…like…a fisherman couldn't go hunting…nor could a hunter race cars…..it doesn't werk…ppl that are ignorant just load down the rest of us that know what were do9ing…tehrs so many ppl out ther that hav no idea how to use their computers…and these ppl go on the net..and what do they do? they clog the pipelines….making the connections for the rest of us that know what we;r'e doing slow…..another things is beginners….sure….i was a begginer to…and I sympathise with the rest of you…but you should stay on your turf…for instance…..i go snowboarding ever once inawhile…and all I see are skiers and snowboarders strewn all over the place because most of you assholes don't know what the fuck your doing….and I tell this tpo everyone…get the fuck off the mountain!!! ther's a beggginers area…and that is wher you should stay…I know I was a beginner once…and I stayed on the beginner slopes till I could handel the others…and if you are a beginner..and you try for the harder ones…its okay..as long as you don't get in the way of everyone else…..its not rite to sit in the middle of the slope eating snow….i'll just come by and take your head off….,maybe that'll teach you a lesson…I hav nothing rong against beginners…its just beginners that stop…if your hurt…move off to the side…but most of you that I see are just standing ther or sitting ther like a dumb fuck…for instance…tehrs this one trail aht shawnee….and thers this big intersection wher like 3 or 4 trails converge….and thers a turn…what does everyone do? they stop right at the turn…and I'm coming down the moubntain…burning up the snow…and thers all these fucken ppl…and you complain that I'm recklesS? what am I supposed to do? stop? I don't think so…so when I come and knock you over.,..don't get pissed off…just move..i hav nothing against you…as long as you don't get in my way…anotjher thing is…you damn skiers….you always stop or slow down when you geet to the jumps…what the fuck? I'm trying to hit the jump…and you get in my fucken way…skiers should just get off the mountain…
fear is a good thing…it keeps us from getting hurt…but fear inhibits us from doing things…thus…it inmhibits others form doing things as well..example: on a mountain…thers so many skiers going off the jumps and stupoh./.and sin ce they're all scared and shit…they can't go off….they go up and come down..or are just too slow….yah…. know I'm like tha sumtimes….and I know I'm a hipocrit
yah…I'm a hypocrite….and I'm proiud of it…at least I admit I'm a hypocrite..thers tons of ppl out ther that ar hypocrites and won't admit it…these are the ppl taht piss me off….i mean…at least acknoledgeth the fact that you'r a hypocrite…at least you'r being honest…its oall those ppl that think they'r all high and mighty because they'r not hypocrites…but in reality they are….all these ppl should die….all these ppl that look down on others….they should die
truth is a good thing…..thers not enuff ppl in this world that tell the truth…oh..sure…ppl are honest…but that doesn't mean they tell the truth….like when sumone asks you if they'r fat or not..why do you tell them they'r not when they are….i be;live that you should always tell the truth and be honest about it..instead of telling a lie and beinhg honets about it…but when it comes to things wher they mite not to hear what I haf to say…I'll ask them if they really want my opinion or not….cuz ther are ppl out ther that don't really want your opinion..they just want to hear wahat they want top hear….and tahts why a lot of ppl don't like me….but that’s okay….you ppl that don't like me can go fuck yourselfs….cuz I don't really give a fuck about you…
sex is one of those things that I want to save….not just because its sacred or anything…but you don't know what will happen in the fiutire…and its not anything religious or anything…its just…that sex is a very intimate thing….and I believe that by having sex…you open a part of your soul to the other person…and you don't know what's going to happen later on…do you want them to see your soul? the furthest I woild go would be sodomy….if you don't know what it really means…it means unnatural sex…like giving hed…masturbating…eating usmone out….ass fucking….this is all sodomy…even tho I don't condone ass fucking…tahst what you like to do…tahts yoru busines….personally…I think its disgusting…the asshole is an exit…not an entrance…
I see the soul as something that we are…it contains our personality and our memories….but our perosnality is pulled from our memories…even if they'r deep rooted memories that we can';t even rember..they are ther…when we get to know ppl…we giv them a piece of our soul..and in tern…we receive a portion of theirs….and its in this way that we gain relationships…our souls are interconnected and entwined…as we grow…we pump more of our soul into them…and them in to us…..as our memories grow together,…we feed our souls….and it is a symbiotic relationship…this is aloso true with family…from the moment of birth we are given a piece of our mother's soul….this is what makes us so attached to our mothers and why we cling to them and why we feel secure in the begiunning….we are a part of her soul….thus…we know it…thus…we ar comfortable wityh it….as we grow within the family sphere…we learn of pour father…and souls are exchanged….other family aswell…you live with the family…and you gain souls from them…but since your mother contains parts of souls from the rest of her family….like sisters and mother and father….we are given a part of their souls as well…..this is what is known as blood lines…we feal the souls…even if we do not recoknize the,….they are ther…as we grow up…these portiuons of the soul slowly recede and fall away because of atrophy….over the years….with lack of contact….we no longer knoiw tahyt portion of the soul….but the more we are around someone…intearcting with them…spending time with them…we feed our souls…and they grow…and we fill the space inside us….the soul will literally grow….another aspect of the soul is the mind and the heart…heart as in emotyion..and mind as in tho9ught…because souls are connected because of relationships…so are the mind and the hearet….this is why when our frends feel sorrow…we experience it with them…this is why we are hurt…they can feel us too…not only this…but our minds are connected….this allows the passgae of thoughts…it is true….when two ppl get close enuff to each other…they can sense what the other is thinking…what the other is feeling…in fact…ppl can pass entire thoughts and images unknowingly to each other….this connection provides for conicidences and completion of sentences…the down side to having a shared soul is when that person dies or leaves…in either case….it is the same….in death..one that is sudden…the tragedy is most great..because they'r life force has stopped vibrating..thus they'r soul dies….and without warning….the soul is torn from your body…this is what causes the emptiness and the hurting when experienceing a loss…the greater one was attached to that person…the loinger one has known that person..the more memories that we hav shared…all this adds to the cotastrophy…it all adds to the size of the soul that is ripped from you…but not only that…but your soul is lost as well…as they're soul is in you…your soul is in them…and at the losss…your soul is lossed as well…and this also leaves you with an emmense shattered and paineful feeling…it is as if your soul has been torn out from your chest…smashied and hsattered…torn and ripped apart…and after all the paine is goine and it subsides….it is placed bak into you…and it is mended…and the knitting of the pieces tears at your flesh..and the paine is un bearable…on the other hadn…when one chooses to leave….it is as if it dies as well….but when it is a slow death..or a slow leaving….and one does not sense it or see it…it will cause emmense paine to one person….lets take for example that I am un aware that this person is going to leave me…I still pump more of my soul into them…while they slowly take theirs bak….whne the time of seperation comes…they cut my soul out form me and take it with them…they see that my soul is still within them…so they drop it off and leave it in front of me…this leaves me empty and hurt..while the other is realtively unscathed….i pik up my heart…and it is damaged…it is slowly dying…and it hurts….even tho ppl die…and ppl go away…we still hold parts of their soul…this is in the form of memories…and we hold them….we live off them…and they are a part of our soul now…they are a part of us…and we hav grown..no matter how much we hav lost…we nvr lose everything….only when we forget…do we lose everything….
the life force is given to us by a vibration…and energy that is inherent in everything…only tings that are living vibrate at a higher level then those that do not…the life force can be called a soul….but it is more….it gives us will..and it gives us thoughts….and it gives us powres…like telekenisis….and other things simli;lar to it…thoughts, creations…imagination…all this flow from the liufe force
memory is in images or in audio…or perhaps neither….it is stored not only in the brain..but in the soul….in the brain…this is wher you can access it…it is like ram…many hav made memories analogous toholograms…..holograms are pictures…..wher even in the smallest component of the picture,……you can still see the entire picture…I believe thius is true with memories as well…as time passes….the mind degrades…and memories are combined and memries are lost….but it is never forgotten…everything you hear and everything you see in ypour entire life makes up your memories…even if you think you don't rember them.,..they are ther….they are just way in the bak reaches of your mind…every face you see on the street…every voice you hear in a choir./..each one is placed ther in your memory
friends are a strange thing…they ocme in 3 groups…aquaintances…ppl you know….and frends…you talk to the ppl you know…you trust them…but you don't tell them evcerything about yourself…you don't tell them everything….they're just fun to hang around with and to be with…or perhaps they satiisfy sumthing inate….then ther are frends…those that you confide in….you trust in…you tell them everything….you show them your emotions and your thoughts and don't think anything else of it…and finally…ther are aquainatcnes….those ppl that you kmnow…you talk to everyonce inawhile….but nothing more…perhaps you go on outings…but you rarely see them outside of a certain context…a good example would be skewl mates….you see them in skewl…and you talk to them in skewl…otherwise…..you hav no relations with them
I think ther is a serious distinction between a gf and a frend…sure…the gf has to be your frend…and you haf to be a frend to them….but you haf to be one of the other….you can't go from bing frends to being gf and bf…it doesn't werk…in the end…..you end up losing a gf and a frend…on the other hand….you can't go form being a gf to a frend….thers just too much residual feeling from biung a gf…its hard to be seen in a different lite after being gfs
on homosexuality
I hav nothing against homosexuals…or gays….often times….i act gay…even tho I know I'm not….i think its okay to be gay…it’s a life style…and it’s a preference….i herd once…that everyone is bisexual…and we just hav a certain sexual prefernce…that’s all…and I happen to prefer women….and gays happen to prefer guys….but you haf to get this strate…I will not tolerate a gay hitting on me…tahts rong….just like I find it rong that a chic hits on a gay man….and I think pl that deride on ppl that are gay or bisexual are not secure with their own sexuality…they'r ppl too….and just by beeing guy doesn't make them bad
that goes the same with diff races…stereotypes are okay….it’s a generalization…but its not rite to judge someone just because of theyr' skin color…even tho I myself do it….i treat them all the same….i ignore them all…
okay….i don't like gooks….sure…thers plenty of good gooks out ther…..but the majority of you suk…and I hate you….but yah….i'm a hypocrite and I know it….i'v found that all male gooks are psychos…and the females are players….and that’s the way it is,….i havn';t found a single gook that doesn’t fit my stereotype
I see women as equals…women hav fought for their equality…I say..why not giv it to them? if they want to be treated equally..i thnk we should…they should get alll the shit that we get….women hav had it good…men put them up on a pedastal…but I treat them the same as I treat men….i'll deride on them…and I'll make fun of them..and I'll curse them out….and I'll beat them up…if they want to be treated like men…they haf to take it like men…I think this is true with guys too…..like…women are aloud to wear nail polish…hav long hair…wear skirts…and all that stuoh…why shouldn'ty men? I wear nail polish….my nails are blak…as are my toes…I also hav long hair….does that make me gay? no….does that make me want to be a gurl? no….its just that gyrls are aloud to wear shorts and pants and other stuoh./….we should be able to wear what women wear….its only fair…andi think that you guys that can't handle it are pathetic…you find that your manliness is so threatened by the opposite sex?
I think that the world needs children…but personally…I hate children…they piss me off so much…they'r smelly and noisy and annoying as all hell….the main point is….they should stay away from me
okay…I know this isn’t the greatest view.,….and I know its wrong…but this is my opinion…sinice aids is a virus…that means it can mutate…and it has mutated….even tho it isn't the most deadly of diseases…it is one of them…so I think that the best way to end the aids epedemic is to just round up all the ppl that hav aids and put them iinto camps…kinda like concentration camps…but better….to do this…you just get everyone tested…and then hav them kidnapped or arrested and placed intio these camps…that way…they can't spread it anymore…but we haf to get evryone to get bloodtetst….and then we could just go behind thgem and test for aids and stuph….well…this is what I thin they should do….i know its not the best..and its not a very good soultion…but it would werk….
the odds of having aliens out ther is just too great...think abouty it....our sun has 9 planets orbitting it...and ione of those hav life....now think of all the other suns and stars out ther....and think about how many planets are orbitting those stars....look at the size of our galaxy....thers like prob a fe billion maybe even a few trillion stars...in only our own galaxy.'..not ther are bbillions upon billions of galaxies out ther....and all of them contain billions of stars....the chances of ther being life is exponential....and the num,ber of stars being created as we speak is so great....it has already been found taht life in the form of bacterium can exist in a vacuum and can exist in super sub zero temps....they hav found asteroids with bacterium in it.....if bacteriumcan exist anywher in the universe...perhaps this is the basis of life else wher...and if you look at all life...all it is a combination of different bichemical things and what givs it life? energy....if you look at frankenstein...or even the paramedics...electricty can bring sumone bak to life...if not animate them fisrt...those that go into cardiovascular arrest can often be brought bak by voltage...then why couldn't things be started by voltage? it is the same concept...only on a diff level. astronomers hav already found planmets that can possibly support life...about 5 of these hav been found....this supports the theory that ther are more planets out ther like ours...that ther is a planet wher the dice can be rolled and life will start.....ior perhaps ther are condisions wher life can exist and life can grow that we don't know about...look at all the vast creatures in the sea...millions upon millions live in a habitat that we could not bear without the aid of technology....and look at the bacterium and the other microscopic organisms taht float in the startosphere....this just shows us the wide range of life possibilities on our planet....what abou the other planets....what about the science and the biology we havn't discoverd yet....
to this point...it has been generally accepted that black holes do exist....ther is evidence taht they exist from the affect it has on neighboring stars....even einstein's theopry of relativity (which has been proven) supports black holes, even tho einstein himself did not acknowledge them, there is too much evidence to support it....all a black hole is is a neutron star...a star that is so dense that it pushes down on the fabric of space time....in this 4 dimensional world we reside in...you can view it as a plane....and in this plane is time...thus....when space is curved....tuime is curved as well...einstonian physics tells us taht all gravity is...is a bending of space time....and black holes just happen to bend it infinily...as if it tore a hole in space....they say taht the garvity in a black hole is so strong that light cannot escape...but that is not true....the light doens't actually go into the balck hole....but it continually circles it.....it never enters it...but since it is curved around it...no one can ever see it cause the photons never leave that area....as things approach it...they are pulled into....actually...objects fall into blak holes....say we were to apporach a bl;ak hole....we would not feel anything different...but our mass has increased....ourlength has decreased....and time has slowed down for us....in this way..we see everything outside of us coming to a virtual stand still....once we reach the event horizon...wher we see time itself...we are locked in an infinitismal splitting of atoms...our mass will be so great...and the pressure will be so high...we won't see ourselves being torn part by the star...once we hav reached this point....one can not go anyfurther....even tho time continues for us....it dowes not really....it is like at a crawl..and anyone that sees us...will see us as a still.....vaporized instantaneously...while we look in a mirror...it is nothing...perhaps uyoou cna call it being immortal..i call it reaching tyhe edge and standing on the verge of death....what happens when you pass the event horizon? some believe yiou will be teransported to another dimension...perhaps a diff universe.....but i say none of these...all blak hoels are emmense masss...when you enter a blak hole..you stand on the surface of the star that has collapsed...and this star is infinitly small.....thus you become nothing...you are one wiith nothing....and life has become and endless cycle....
I don't see daeth as a restricting thing at all…if anything..it is a relaeas from the tortures and the paines and the sadnesses of this mortal plane….when death coomes…or when the threat of death comes…we should embrace…not shy it away….or run from it…or try and defy it….it is a natural part of life….and ther can be nothing bad of it….death is a very sacred thing…when thy die…they hav no will..they hav no more thoughts….no more feelings…and they forget about this plane wher we exist….and wher we go….we all end up in the same place
on the hereafter
ther is no heaven or hell…ther is only a realm wher our spirits exist….a place wher souls can exist….infinite….one dimensional…only time….but time doesn't really exist…it is a state wher nothing can be seen or fealt…evrything is senced and everything is a memory…wher you know everything that has happened and you know everything that will happen….you look down….and a second flashes by….but to the ppl down ther….or up ther…or around you….all you see is that a milllion years has transpired…we continue to exist in a weorld or vibrations….wher we are placed depends on our vibration….for instance…if we hav a low vibrati0on…we fall down to a gray area…a place that is cold….not hot…and is very dark….this could be called hell…and you exist here…you feel all the paines and tortures….you feel sadness…but if your vibration is higher….you lift up into a warmer….light area…wher you feel a euphoric sense….wher nothing can go wrong…and all is happy and good…you feel emmense love…but in either case…your vibration can change…as feelings do…and you can rise or fall between these two relams….or you may reside somewher in bewteen….ghe middle ground is a place like pergatory…you sit or walk around…and you can see into both realms…and you can interact with other souls….another way to look at the hereafter is that we will return to this plane….perhaps you can say it is reincarnation…I believe so….once one has stayed in this extra-realm for a ceratin period of time…they fall back into the earth plane….here…they will try and rember their past lives…they will try and rember their past extra-realm existance….but once we enter the world…we forget….the soul that is given us….ignites the life force that is in our old soul….but the new soul will predominate….and the old one is pushed into the background….
on music
music is a crutial part of my evryday life….i am listening to music proabbly every minute of my life….even when I'm asleep I hav a radio on…..when I'm on the computer…like I am now….i am listening to a CD….when I'm in the car…I'm listening to either a CD a tape or the radio….on the bus to skewl..i'm listening to my walkman….if I had my way..i would listen to music during calss…although many ppl don't agree…..music helps me concentrate….i can read better with music on..and I can do more werk…and more productively with it on…..i read of a study wher 2 groups of kids….one that studied with music…one without….and music had no effect…not only is music a major part of my everyday life…it is a very emotional part if my life….many songs hav emotional meaning to me….if not directly..indiurectely…and often times…certain songs wi,ll invoike certain feelings…others allow me to relieve my feelings in them….this is especially true when I play the guitar…depending on my moiod..it will alter what I play..or hopw I play it….when I'm angry…I'll bash at my guitar and hit out violent chords and stuph…music can convey images and emotioins….this is what makes it such a big partt of my life…sometimes…I see the starangest things in mny head…depnednig what I'm listening to….
although I see prostitution as another form of occupation…I find that in modern days….it is not exactly the safest of occupations…with all the std's and other things that can be passed around…prostitution is not appealing to both the vendor nor the costomer…this is why I think we should get rid of prostityution….except for myabe ones that test both you and the prostitutre…if they went through that….i think it would be okay….
on drugs
I think that the US should legalize marijuana…so many ppl are using it anyway..and besides…its not worse than cigvbarettes…in fact.,..its better for you thean cigarettes….and the the government could gain money off of it by taxing it like they do alcohol or cigarettes…not only could the government benefit…ppl that use it would too….with the government on the scene…the growth and production of marijuana could be controlled….a lot of the stuoh you get on the street could be laced with speed or crack or oither things….it may not be marijuana at all!! it could be some herb or some other thing that those that don't use it regularly would be seduced by….it would alos cut into a big protion of the blak marke t drug problems this country has….many teengaers use pot as an escape…a major deviation form the path of righteousness….if it is leagal..many wouldn't see it as this….it would not be glorified as it is now…with the drug education now adays…we see many younger and younger kids trying drugs..many because they are curuious and they want to experiment…not only could they get addiceted by all the other addatives…they may not understand it…all the drug programs wtell you about what it does to you..and often times…this is appealing to kids…if marijuana wasn;t taught about…ppl wouldn't hav the urge to try it as much….if it isn't talked about as much…it wouldn't be one the kid's minds…thers also the medical side of marijuana….it helps aids patients that hav trouble handling all the drugs they take to counter the effects of aids….and it helps glocoma patients…and cancer patientst that undergo kemotherapy…it is also an extremely good stress reliever…
I strongly oppose censorship of any kind…may it be on television…in books…on the internet..on the radio….no matter what…ther should be no censorship….we hav the 1st amendment….the right to fress speech…in any form..that means communinications…the internet is just another medium…sure…its easier o get porn..but you can get porn anywher…..you can walk into a book store and start looking at porn…you can changet he channel on tv and get a porn chan…and just because some pppl find it offensive…that doesn’t mean they haf to listen, read, or watch it….no one is forcing them read porn…or to watch porn…or to read this…no one is forcing them to listen to it on the radio…may it be porn or just offensive language…fuck and shit and asshole and all those others are a part of society…they are a part of language…why should we discriminate against words? just because we don't like the word fuck…we make it so it can't be sed….what about say…chair….i don't like chair…I don';t like how it sounds….does that mean I hav the rightt to preven t you form sayiung chair? all it is is another word…if it happens to hav a bad conotation..it has a bad conotation….fucking is just so much easier to say than to say capulation…and many adults believe that they need to protect the children…well..the truth is…amny children..by the 4th grade….know almost all the swears…at least the more common ones…even tho they may not know what it means…they may never know what they mean until someone educates them…besides…we out law one word like fuck….another word will be pout in its place…like screw….or nail….they all meen the same thing..why are we forced to deface perfectly good words like screw or nail with this other conotaion? now…when we use these words in conversation…or perhaps an essay…many will snicker…"hee hee….screw…hee hee….nail" why not just use fuck? Perhaps one of the most interesting and colorful words in the English language is the word "Fuck." It is the one magical word, which, just by it's sound describes pain, pleasure, love, and hate. In language, "Fuck" falls into many grammatical categories. It can be used as a verb, both transitive (John fucked Mary) and intransitive (Mary was fucked by John). It can be an active verb (Mary doesn't really give a fuck); or an adverb (Mary is really fucking interested in John); and as a noun, (Mary is a terrific fuck). It can be used as an adjective (Mary is fucking beautiful). As you see, there are very few words with the versatility of "Fuck."
Besides It's sexual connotations, this incredible word can be used to describe many situations:
It can be used in an anatomical description - "He's a fucking asshole."
It can be used to tell time - "It's five fucking thirty."
It can be used in business - "How did I end up with this fucking job?"
It can be maternal - as in "Motherfucker."
Valuable Vocabulary Chart Below:
Greetings....................................."How the fuck are you?"
Fraud..............................."I got fucked by the car dealer."
Dismay................................................."Oh, fuck it."
Trouble..............................."Hell, I guess I'm fucked now."
Aggression................................................"Fuck you."
Disgust...................................................."Fuck me."
Confusion........................................."What the fuck...?"
Difficulty................"I don't understand this fucking business."
Despair..............................................."Fucked again."
Exasperation......................................."For fuck's sake."
Enjoyment...................................."This is fucking great."
Hostility................."I'm going to knock your fucking head off."
Stupidity..............................."Geir Bergerud is a Fuckwad!"
Incompetence..................................."He's such a fuck-up."
Ignorance..........................................."Fuck if I know."
Displeasure........................."What the fuck is going on here?"
Lost........................................."Where the fuck are we?"
Disbelief......................................"Unfuckingbelievable!"
Retaliation...................................."Up your fucking ass."
Surprise.................................................."Fuckin A!"
Surprise......................................"Well, I'll be fucked."
Suspicion.............................."What the fuck are you doing?"
Contempt....................."Fuck you and the horse you rode in on!"
Famous quotes.
General Custer's last words: "Look at all the fucking Indians!"
Mayor of Hiroshima: "Holy FUCK!"
Captain of the Titanic: "Where is all this fucking water coming from?"
I think abortion is a valuable toool for todays' woman…I don't condone the use of abortion for birth control…but those that do not hav the financial strength to care for a child….or rape voictims…or maybe you'r just not ready for a child….but just because you'r aloud to use abortion…deosn't mean that you can go around fucking every signgle guy and aborting very time you get pregnant….tahts just wrong…and a missuse of a valuable tool….
cloning….of course…is a reality now…many knew that it would be…it was just a matter of time…but ppl are shying away from clongin ppl….well..i fullly support the cloning of ppl…ther are so many potential uses for this…think about it…burn victims who hav lost almost lal their skin…we could clone the victims' skin….speed up its growth…and then the guy has skin…or ppl that need organs…instead of rejecting someone else's….why not clone another one? not only that….but the potential for test subjects…you could grow the ideal test subject…instead of pumping innocent animals full of drugs and diseases…you can have ppl do it….they could also be used for recreation…instead of hunting anuimals…why not hunt ppl? they think…they know what's going on…although they can';t communicate…they still know when they are to be harmed…and this would provide more of a challenge….we could also hav clones do much of the more dangerous werk…specialize clones with specialized senses….we could hav ones with excelllent eyesight…or super hiearing…or super sniffers…or say your baby that was just born was premature…and consequently died in a few days….why not grow the exact same baby…but this time…oits healthy…ppl could be great pets too….they'r easy to train and they learn fast….and they can talk bak…instead of talking to your little dog…you caould talk to a stupid person…they would be like a life time companion…not onlyt that…but they could be the toys of geneticists…they could [play areound with the clone's genomes perhaps extend the human race further…
personally...i think healthcare ios a waste of the tax payer's money....ppl should learn to save for rainy days and use insurance...just because your old...doesn't mean you should be able to waste money like taht.,....
same goes for social security...the old ppl don't know hwo to invest...and all teh goevernmentr does is it takes money from you while you're werking and goivs that to the old ppl....we shouold be able to keep the money we make...we earned it..its ours....
i think taht guns should be controlled to a point....but we can't out law them...or prevent ppl from getting them....more like a waiting period...or somethin like it
i think its okay to hav property tax....but income tax and sales tax are jjust rong....the price of siomething should be the price of it...the werst is when the tax is diff from state too state....and income tax is just a leech taht the government uses to strip the ppl of they'r hard owned money....
dinosaurs were warm blooded....they had the speed to be warm blooded...and they're body size would require them to be warm blooded...or they would be just lyiing ther all day....
yah..i believe in ghosts and spirits...like demons...and angels....but the gghosts are not really ghosts...but souls that hav not transcended to the extra-realm....these spirits could be souls...or they could be extra-dimensional beings taht we can'[t expoerience...or taht exist in other planes of reality...on the other hand...ther are demons and angels...but i don't think ppl can be possessed by demons unless they want to be....they haf to will the demon into them...this can go the same wuith angels...you haf to accept them into you....but demons and angels...all they are are souls taht are gathered in teh extra-realm to be used in armies....and just like how this reality has armies and political factions...so does the extra-reality...and they both want to fight for their side...to gain more territory..and to uphold their believes...
if you don't know.....i hate ants...i think they'r evil and should all be destroyed....they come into your hoim,e...tehy steal you food....and they spread disease...they hav a hive mind..which makes them smarter than we think they are...this enables them to do things thta we think are inpossioble....i believe tah ants are trying to take over the world...slowly...they inhabit every part of our loife...and slowly kill us off....tahts why we haf to take teh inniciative and erradicate them now....
squirrels are evil to....they try and kill you...they hide in trees....and wait till you walk by...and then start throwing things at you...or they might swoop down and try and take your head off.....especially those nasty flying squirresl...you never know when one will strike....they look alll cute and cuddly on the outside...that just makes them the more evil....they hav hands like ppl...and they constantly chatter away....
i believe ther should be a universal language...and i nominate english...only because english is so versatile..and many of the ppl in the world already know it...english is constantly changing..as does the world...this makes it extremely suitable for everyday..and business use....
voting is an important part of democracy...it allows us to choose our leaders....but i think that we should not hav elecorates....we should hab a direct election...wher the popular vote will win....this way california won't be cut out of the elections
i see the apocalypse as a time when the world ends...may it be by war...a divine force...or nature itself...i belivee taht man is currently on the road to s destruction....the rate we're going...and the consumption of fuels will destroy mankind...
armageddon is a war between the extra-realms.....they fight for supremecy....in order todo this...they recruit souls taht hav entered the extra-realm and turn them to angels or demons....this is a war that will never end,....it is constantly being fought...and one day..it will be brought down to the earthly plane...and all reality will be destroyed by it....
i see education as a tool...but it has failed...or has not lived up to the expectations of this world....places like asia hav a very strict and thoruough hard and extensive coriculum...while many places in the us are lackiong.....some more than others....i think either way is a bad extreme....asia has the right idea of starting kids out early...but they start out oo much all at once...yes...it does prepare them for the real world...but school often doens't teach the real world...us skewls often times focus more on creativvity and self...this is good...bugt to an extent...many courses offeredby skewls are lcakcing in many of life skills...for instacne...biology...the likelihood of using this i n the real world is rare....but ther are those that will go into the field...i see k-5 grade as a preporatory of life...we should teach the kids things that they will need to kniow..things that will help them get through life...like how to manage money...or other tthings like taht....from 6-8 it should be a preporatory for college...high skewl...teaching what is like to be on your own..wher you manage yourself...and high skewl should be the same as college...with the same difficulties and the same chourses...college has been sed to be the place wher we become adults...wher we become men....but i think high skewl should be wher we become adults...this is wher we decide what will happen to us later on in the future...and high skewl dowes not prepare us for this..college should be a place wher we further our education..wher we learn waht we want to be and how to do that...how to accomplish things in the world at a higher level...wher we transscend society...
ther are many diff places wher energy can be tapped...for instance..thers the sun, thers fusion, thers fission, and ther's coal and other natural fuels...but coal and petroleum are being diminished...if it weren't for the oil companis...ma many of the car companies would invest more in alternative energy sources...many homes are already powered buy alternative sources such as hydro-electric, solar, or nuclear...but fission is not the most efficient...nor is it watstefree....although it doesn't seem like an interest at this point...i see it as one of the greatest importantaces of the modern age...i believe that in each era we must transecend something...with the rate techonoolgyy is advancing today...we hav the ability to trancscend this goal....
although i see anarchy as an ideal...one taht we must strive for,....humanity will not allow us...mainlky because of what is inhherent in human nature. aranrchy is a government wher ther are no leaders...thus ther are no governments..it is the ultimate individualts' domain...but anarchy can not be sustained...human nature dictates that greed of money....greed of power will take over...this is natural..look at the work force...the work force has been split iunto a monarchal type pyramid...wher the ceo or the owner of the corporation is high king....thisi is what will happen....ppl will oragnize into small plots of land...and in fear of their naighbors...ppl will join together into clans..thus...feudalism....
on polotical decay
ppl will oragnize into small plots of land...and in fear of their naighbors...ppl will join together into clans..thus...feudalism....ppl will battle it out until one persion that is strong enuff or has enuff influence that they rise up into power....this creating a socialist or fascist regime...ppl will be unsettled by a malevolent dictator...and will rise up against him...creating either another monarchy..or perhaps advancing into communism or democracy...
this is a transcript of a copbnversation about communist zits...or commuzits
Babykorn1: u know
Babykorn1: i have this zit on my nose
Babykorn1: and it's pissin me off
Lessthanjb: hee hee
Lessthanjb: pik it
Babykorn1: eww
Babykorn1: can't
Babykorn1: it's like not on my nose per say
Lessthanjb: uhm.,
Lessthanjb: okay
Babykorn1: like
Babykorn1: it's that lil crevesse where the nose meets the face
Babykorn1: hard to pick @
Lessthanjb: eew
Babykorn1: and it hasn't blossomed enuff to pop it
Babykorn1: yup
Lessthanjb: burn it
Babykorn1: haha
Babykorn1: very phuni
Lessthanjb: shoot it
Babykorn1: u can't even see it, tho
Babykorn1: just feel it's presense
Lessthanjb: thats good
Babykorn1: kinda like it's god...
Lessthanjb: okay
Babykorn1: yeah
Babykorn1: i'm a strange child
Lessthanjb: silly gyr; with a god like zit
Babykorn1: so?
Babykorn1: u don't like my zit?
Lessthanjb: nope
Babykorn1: fine
Lessthanjb: i think we shoudld kill it now...before it can to power
Babykorn1: b that way
Babykorn1: can to power?
Babykorn1: uhhh
Babykorn1: yeah bond
Lessthanjb: can come to power even
Babykorn1: settta;s leavin
Lessthanjb: i know
Lessthanjb: i'm almost done
Lessthanjb: i'll caht wit you soon
Babykorn1: w/ what
Babykorn1: k
Lessthanjb: my helping
Babykorn1: u don't havta
Babykorn1: o
Babykorn1: n/p
Babykorn1: brb
Lessthanjb: i will
Lessthanjb: natalya is gunna take a shower, and she wants me to stay
Lessthanjb: i hope you'll stay too
Lessthanjb: go get a blankie or sumthing
Babykorn1: bak
Lessthanjb: wb
Babykorn1: eh
Lessthanjb: natalya is really down
Babykorn1: ugh
Babykorn1: oh
Babykorn1: sowe
Lessthanjb: she got stood up
Babykorn1: o
Babykorn1: natalya isn't int he shower
Babykorn1: she's workin on her profile
Lessthanjb: so i'm gunna use my experiemce
Lessthanjb: welll..she''s gunna shower
Babykorn1: u gave me zit parnoina....
Babykorn1: ugh
Babykorn1: i put sum zit cream on it
Lessthanjb: hee hee
Babykorn1: but i took so long cos i couldnt' fine ne
Babykorn1: i was like dmanit, where is it?
Lessthanjb: your afraid your zit is gunan start the communist revolution and kill your face?
Babykorn1: haha
Lessthanjb: like teh romanovs
Babykorn1: but what if it spawns
Babykorn1: or i see troops apearin?
Lessthanjb: sop the revolution b4 it begins
Babykorn1: scary shit, ...
Babykorn1: yeah, yeah
Lessthanjb: artillery
Babykorn1: no1 ever sees my zits
Lessthanjb: send in the death squad
Babykorn1: bond!
Lessthanjb: send in...007!!!
Babykorn1: stop
Babykorn1: haha
Babykorn1: very phuni
Lessthanjb: doo duh doo duh doo
Babykorn1: double o 7 zit buster, huh?
Lessthanjb: send in that asian chic!!
Babykorn1: blow those suckers rite off my face...
Lessthanjb: bzb
Babykorn1: k
Lessthanjb: british zit buster
Lessthanjb: use the golden gun
Lessthanjb: one shot...and they're ded!!
Babykorn1: uh-huh
Lessthanjb: wipe them off the face of the face!!
Babykorn1: like to see u try that
Babykorn1: i was thinkin that!!!
Babykorn1: hey
Babykorn1: damnit
Lessthanjb: birn it off wohth the moonshine laser!!
Babykorn1: bond
Babykorn1: stop ur scarin me
Babykorn1: my zits arent that bad
Lessthanjb: xenia
Babykorn1: u can't even tell they're there
Lessthanjb: yah they are!! they threaten global pece and stability
Babykorn1: u have an odd def wish
Lessthanjb: they may undermine democracy everywher!!
Babykorn1: bond
Lessthanjb: def?
Lessthanjb: i';m def
Lessthanjb: i cna't hear you
Babykorn1: they're invisible zits on my face
Babykorn1: haha
Lessthanjb: what?
Babykorn1: death
Lessthanjb: i can't hear you
Babykorn1: ...i'm to lazy rmemeber?
Babykorn1: fuck
Babykorn1: u
Babykorn1: bitch
Babykorn1: arse
Lessthanjb: hee heee
Babykorn1: whore
Lessthanjb: haa haa
Lessthanjb: what?
Lessthanjb: did you say sumthin sunny?
Babykorn1: sunny?
Babykorn1: fuck u
Babykorn1: ugh
Lessthanjb: hee hee!!!
Babykorn1: u know
Babykorn1: ugh
Lessthanjb: yah~
Lessthanjb: :D
Babykorn1: i'll leave u and ur old geezer phrend...
Babykorn1: here
Babykorn1: ...
Lessthanjb: no!
Babykorn1: nerr
Babykorn1: sure?
Lessthanjb: 007 zit buster killed the old geezer
Babykorn1: k
Lessthanjb: he was really an old zit
Babykorn1: i'm sooo cold
Babykorn1: haha
Lessthanjb: awww
Babykorn1: u know
Babykorn1: bond...
Babykorn1: nerrr
Lessthanjb: yah~
Babykorn1: i don't go dissin ur zits
Lessthanjb: hee heee heee
Lessthanjb: haa haaaa
Babykorn1: or makin stories outta their non exsistant lives
Lessthanjb: well, mine don't try and take over the world every nite
Lessthanjb: (i'm laffing my ass off)
Lessthanjb: :)
Babykorn1: mine aren't 2 lab mice, ok
Babykorn1: fine
Lessthanjb: hee hee
Babykorn1: while i'm stressin and ziting
Babykorn1: ur laughin
Babykorn1: ugh
Lessthanjb: hee hee
Lessthanjb: (i'm still laffing)
Babykorn1: well, @ leat my zits don't pop and spill all over my face...
Babykorn1: grrr
Babykorn1: i curse thee
Lessthanjb: mine don't
Babykorn1: one day...
Babykorn1: one day...
Babykorn1: u'll get a painful zit up ur arse...
Babykorn1: and u can't pop it...
Lessthanjb: mine don't try and take over the world and spred they'r ecommunist disease ridden faist members all over the face of the face
Babykorn1: and u'll just feel it....
Babykorn1: shuddup
Babykorn1: dmanit
Lessthanjb: hee hee
Babykorn1: my zit's not a communist!!!!
Lessthanjb: (i'm still laffing my ass off)
Lessthanjb: HAAA HAAA HAA
Lessthanjb: no..they're facist!!
Babykorn1: welll...@ least i don't have a smily face or nething
Babykorn1: haha
Babykorn1: laff while u can
Lessthanjb: hee hee
Babykorn1: cos one day ur gettin that arse zit
Babykorn1: blah...
Babykorn1: bleck
Lessthanjb: i odn't hav a smily face, ythast kim
Babykorn1: and spu
Babykorn1: natalya is gone...
Lessthanjb: she went to take a shower
Babykorn1: oh
Babykorn1: hmm..
Babykorn1: k
Lessthanjb: whileshe still can b4 your zits take over
Lessthanjb: once they take over
Lessthanjb: they'll out law whowers
Lessthanjb: cuz thy think showers will destroy them all
Lessthanjb: und KIENE EIRE!!!!
Lessthanjb: and they'll ban soap too
Babykorn1: fuck u
Lessthanjb: so use the zit cream b4 they destrouy it all
Lessthanjb: oh...its gunna be a smelly world wheny your zits take over
Babykorn1: bond
Babykorn1: shuddup
Babykorn1: my zit is covered
Babykorn1: k
Babykorn1: it's got zit cream on it
Lessthanjb: they don't care who they pop to get to the top 9forewhead)
Babykorn1: k?
Babykorn1: what
Babykorn1: top 9 forewhead
Lessthanjb: get to the top (fore head)
Babykorn1: haha
Babykorn1: <bitter look>
Lessthanjb: and from ther, the face of the face!!!
Babykorn1: u knwo
Babykorn1: grrr
Babykorn1: grrr
Lessthanjb: hee hee
Babykorn1: shuddup
Babykorn1: fuck u
Babykorn1: ur makin me stress
Lessthanjb: laucnh off the nose.....out into outer face!!!
Babykorn1: if my zit grows into this huge thing
Babykorn1: i swear
Babykorn1: ur sooo dead!
Lessthanjb: haa haa
Lessthanjb: its not my fault
Babykorn1: what?
Babykorn1: huh?
Babykorn1: what?
Babykorn1: yest it is
Babykorn1: cos ur agrivating me
Lessthanjb: i'm telling you to quell the rebel uprising so it doesn't take over the face of the face
Babykorn1: fuck u
Babykorn1: it won't hell
Lessthanjb: get it it.....outer face? outer space?
Lessthanjb: hee hee
Babykorn1: it didn't even start
Babykorn1: oh yeah
Babykorn1: ur phuni
Lessthanjb: haa haa
Babykorn1: ugh
Babykorn1: y do i bother
Babykorn1: i hope ur enjoyin urself
Lessthanjb: (i'm lafinbg so hard)
Lessthanjb: yes i am
Babykorn1: u suck
Lessthanjb: but this is a serious matter
Babykorn1: fuck u
Lessthanjb: those zits are a clear and present danger
Babykorn1: how did my zit become "zits"
Babykorn1: just one zit, bond
Lessthanjb: we must eradicate them before they unite and spread communist pimpels across the face of the face
Lessthanjb: haaa gaaa
Babykorn1: 1 ZIT!!!
Babykorn1: JUST 1 ZIT!!!!
Lessthanjb: hee ehee
Lessthanjb: one zit now
Lessthanjb: tomoroow..the FACE!!
Babykorn1: it was only 1 zit to begin w/
Babykorn1: nope
Babykorn1:bond
Babykorn1: don't curse me
Lessthanjb: ahhahah ahah hwsha;e
Babykorn1: ugh
Lessthanjb: (this is too phun E) :)))
Lessthanjb: we must send the UN in and search for chemicla wepaons
Lessthanjb: we have reason to suspect the testing of anti-cream missiles
Babykorn1: wgat?
Babykorn1: oh bond
Babykorn1: ur too much
Babykorn1: i have anti-zit gel
Lessthanjb: we must speak to sadam zitcream
Babykorn1: haha
Lessthanjb: the new testing of a biological weaopmn
Babykorn1: ugh
Lessthanjb: zit thrax
Lessthanjb: airborne zit infantry
Lessthanjb: able to land anywher in outer face
Babykorn1: bond...
Lessthanjb: haa haaa
Babykorn1: stop it now!!!
Lessthanjb: hehe hadhhadhdh
Babykorn1: my zit is sooooo not even there
Babykorn1: and now...
Lessthanjb: i'm having too much fun!!!
Babykorn1: by tommorrow
Lessthanjb: hahahshshh
Lessthanjb: the fcae!!!
Lessthanjb: the face will be ther's !!!
Babykorn1: ur gonna give me soo much stress that it's gonna be this big arse thing!!!
Lessthanjb: stop them mle
Babykorn1: them?!?!
Babykorn1: just !
Babykorn1: um, 1
Babykorn1: y cant u c that?!?!
Babykorn1: ugh
Lessthanjb: the fate of the face is in your jars
Babykorn1: ugh
Babykorn1: fucki u
Lessthanjb: hassajsasad
Babykorn1: my tubes...
Lessthanjb: ( ican't stop laffing)
Babykorn1: i odn't have jars of zit cream
Lessthanjb: your tubes
Lessthanjb: fire tube one
Babykorn1: yeah, i figured
Babykorn1: haha
Babykorn1: not phuni
Lessthanjb: it has no effect on them sir!!
Lessthanjb: fure tube 2
Lessthanjb: its not werking
Babykorn1: captin, we need more power!
Lessthanjb: they hav sum sort of anti-gel misiile
Babykorn1: i'm givin her everything i got
Lessthanjb: its destroyuing the cream before it can touhcthem
Babykorn1: bond
Lessthanjb: we must go t oour secret wepn
Lessthanjb: no
Lessthanjb: not
Lessthanjb: yes
Lessthanjb: the TOOTHPASTE!!!
Babykorn1: there's a differect between gel and cream
Babykorn1: SHUT UP!!!
Lessthanjb: the bliue kind or the regular?
Babykorn1: look
Babykorn1: it's the white paste bond
Babykorn1: the blue doesn't work
Lessthanjb: blue..we must see if we hit on target or not
Babykorn1: and it temporarly stains ur skin...
Babykorn1: no!
Babykorn1: bond...
Babykorn1: my skin's not white
Lessthanjb: we must mark the target so the paste can be pasted on the target
Babykorn1: u can see the white paste
Lessthanjb: ready sir
Babykorn1: what?
Lessthanjb: mark the target
Babykorn1: bond
Lessthanjb: blue paste qawya
Babykorn1: i give up
Lessthanjb: we hav pasted the targets
Babykorn1: it's only 1~~!!!!
Babykorn1: bond
Lessthanjb: relase "TP" (for toothpaste) bomb
Babykorn1: ur gonna curse me w/a face full of zits
Lessthanjb: it has no effect!!!
Babykorn1: bond
Babykorn1: stop
Lessthanjb: the zits are spreading!!
Babykorn1: just stop
Babykorn1: bond
Babykorn1: NO!!!!
Lessthanjb: they've already taken over half of face
Lessthanjb: look at the size of that thing!!!
Lessthanjb: thats not a mooon
Babykorn1: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
Lessthanjb: its a face station!!
Babykorn1: STOP U MEANIE
Babykorn1: STOP
Babykorn1: GEEZ...
Babykorn1: STOP
Lessthanjb: turn around
Lessthanjb: kik in auzillary power
Babykorn1: Y?
Babykorn1: UGH
Babykorn1: ...bond...
Babykorn1: i've had enuff
Lessthanjb: we're caught in puss beam
Babykorn1: i'm goin to bed
Lessthanjb: we can'yt get out
Babykorn1: haha
Lessthanjb: its too stikcy
Babykorn1: bi, hon...
Lessthanjb: no..don't go
Lessthanjb: i'm sorry
Babykorn1: u've hurt my feelings...
Lessthanjb: are our zits gunna hunt me donw now?
human nature is evil...we do everything in the pursuit of one things....sex...everything we do...form day one..is to propogate..or perhaps just hav a good fuck...athletes...they become big and strong...atgtractive perhpas....appealing to women...then the nerds...they work to gain knowldge....thus...going to a good college...wher they will learn more and then get a good job...and once they hav a good job...they get money...and money gets chics...no matter what ppl strive for....amy it be for adventure...it givs them a look or heroism which is attractive to women...everything that is done...is in the pursuit of women...if not women..the oposite sex
parents play a very important part in the growth on an individual....they are the main factor, if not the sole factor, on how a child grows up in the wreal world....the parents teach their kids, they punish them, reward them, and tell them things.....in the early stages of developement, a child must be with their mother for support, more so than food or any other type of nurisment.....in the childs life, the parent shows the child things...the way they treat them will decide how they treat others iun the furture....if the children are abused, most likely, they will become abusqive themselves....often tuimes not knowing...everything you do to a child, directly, or indirectly, has a major effect on the child....if you tell the kid that you can't play often enough, the child will stop wanting to....its conditioning, and everybnody does this.....for instance, while i was a child, i was often times neglected....i was provided for, i ihad food, and i had a roof over my head, but my parents were always studying or whatever...so i devel;oped a sense of withdrawal and shelteruing, being independent and caring about nothing and no one other than me....i had few frends if any , and i still hav few frends if any....once a child reaches a ceratin age, they itry and draw away from their parents. its the common thiong to do.....and as a result, the parent tries to draw closer, pushing the child further away...parents can fall in to 2 catragories, those that continuie the cycle, or those that go to the other side....for instance, a parent taht was abused as a chiold can either abuse their children, or they will dpo the exact opposite....one that was neglected and deporived of alot of things can spouil their children....most successful parents learn what was good from their parenst, and throw out the rest....keeping in mind the resuklts of the actions...
there is no law except for that which is dictated by society....although many of ius....well, some of us, choose not to follow it, or even acknowqledge it, there is no denyingh that it is ther....but this is the flaw, one of them, the flaws of man...we care too much about society, how we appear to others....even if we want to oppose society...we dress or act a certain way that society didictates...look at the people that dress all preppy or nice, they want to impress everyone thereby iimpressing them selves....and then there are the ppl taht dress all ion goth, most of these ppl dress because of how they feel or what they want///but its also a way of fighting bak at society...but society has told thm that this is a way fpr them to fight back, therefore, they are stioll following society...society is the cause of mnay evils....appearances...in the workplace, in leaisure, or just thoughts and beliefs...no one hhas an identity anymore....everyone follwos what is laid out for them....accepting everything for truth when in reality, in this dream, it is all a big fucken lie.....
animals are ppl too....you look at them, they'r smaller, maybe not as intelkligent, but ppl aren't that intelligent themselves....i say, why is it okay to test on animals? why not test on ppl too? oh...because hiuman life is more valuable....not true....human life is worthless....a death here, a death there....it doesn't matter...ppl are inherently evil....an animal life is more imporatnat...animals never hurt ppl...ppl hurt ppl...
computers have become a crucial part in our lives...not only at home, but in business and the world as a whole....everything is controlled by computers in one way or another...the air bags in your car, the temperature in your house, the screen you'r looking at rite now....all of it is controlled by a computer...and eventually, everything will be contriolled by computers....compuyters are already playinga major role in combat fighters, processing most of the flight systems...everything you see....all the appliances in your house, one day, everything will be connected to each other...you'll bve able to activate or control diff appliancres in your house from your computer or from your tv....computers have helped us in every way...making life easier, making work easier, and making medicine safer...but the emphasis that we hav placed on computers is too high...we depend on them too much...me included....and any kind of dependence is bad may it be alcohol, drugs, food, water, or this computer you'r staring at....computing power will ocntinue to grow, it is still growing, many of the desktops have the processing power to compete with high end mainframes, and soon, if not already, super computers will become obsolete....and everything will be done quicker and faster....information will be power...and he who hoods that information will rule the world...tahst why i'm so against bill gates...he holds too much power within one scope...
violence is a necesity that we need to release....those that tell you nopt to fight, or not to lash out....they don't know what they'r talking about....when violence builds up within you...may it be verbal or physical....it will consume you and it will grow...if you are the bottle, it will break free and run rampant....the only way to get ridf of the violence is to get rid of the violcence....let it but...scream or smash things....all this energy that accumulates will destroy your body, literally...you can use this energy itowards other things...like sports or platying a musical instrument....like me, when i want to let out my violence...i either smash at my guitar....scream my head off....write poetry....or smash a hole in the fucken wall....but that’s me,..abnd i'm not saying that you haf to be that way....i found that these things werk....you haf tio find what werx fro you..
manson is not the devil, he is nopt satan, and he is not the antichrist...i think he is far from it....he's just another one of thiose ppl out to make ia buk....a smart businessman....a good composer...i don't think that oppl should follow the beliefs or fall into the show just becasue of the music...the music is music....and everything else is not a part of it...although many will associate stereotypes and certain parts with the music...often times it is a false connectino taht has real no analogy...
government is a necessary evil....used to regulate commerce and to maintain order...also uised for diplomatic purposes between diff cultures....
war is one of those things that come arouind evry 560 years or so...sure tehres those littole side battles....but those aren't really anything...i['m talking about those massive world wars....every 50 years.,..ther is a major war...and its about time we've had one...war is a way for the planet to mainatin its balance of population....it shifts power...weaking those in power so new ideas can arise....new threats and new technologhies....and thus...starting a new age...just look at the age we're in now...ever since the second waorld war...we made so many advances for the war...even if it was for militarial purposes....it still had uses in the civilian sector....
history repeats iteself....no matter what..it will happen again...everything...no matter what...it will come around again...its a matter of the life cycle...it may manifest itself in different forms...but underneath it...its still the same thing....and its our goal, as a a human race to learn form what has transpired...so we can handle the next time it come around...not necessarily prevent it...because you can't....but to stop it quickly once it has started...
on tests and homework
tests are a way to test the skills of a person on a certain suibject matter....but those tests taht are designed to trick you with the smalelst of details don't test you on knowledge...but test you on observation...and tahts not the goal of the test...taht is unless it is a test of observation...and homeworkl is one of those things that can be helpful..but it sohouldn't be one of the mandatory things...it should be like....okay...the homework will help you if you need it...but then there are the ppl that don't learn well from homework....then they shouldn't have to do it....whatever werx best for the individual....tahts why i don't think they should penalize y9ou for not doing homework...
money is one of those necessary evils....without it...you basically can't live...but its also the root of all evil...there are so many ppl out ther that willdo anything for a dollar...and others taht will sacrifice everything fr it...all this society focuses opn is money..and i agree....i focus on it to a pioint...butyou cna't let it take over your life...and you cna't let it consume you...
terrorists fight for what they believe in...and who are we to say that they can't believe in taht? sure...they harm ppl's lives...but look at the revolutionary war...taht started out as terrorist action...just because its a terrorist...iit doesn;'t mean that its bad...alot of terrorists in the states are fighting the states...and i support them...like teh oklahoma city bombing....it just shows you that one man can make a difference...
clowns are probably one of the most evil things on the face of the earth.....you see them....they hide behind a mask...painted over...and who knows what they really are...or who they really are....and clowns are always around little kids...touching them and stuoph...and who would suspect that the clown would do any harm? under that guise of happy and innocent...lies a heart of pure evuil...all clowns shhould die...be locked inside a nuiclear reactor....
on dragons and other fairy creatures
dragons are one of those mythical creatures...that i believe once existed..not necessariily dinosaurs...but dragons...like the kind that attacked the castles and stuph...i think taht these creatures do exist...but you really can't se them..like nymphs and elves and stuyph...they exist on a higher level then we do..but along the same plane...kindof like a hyper-reality
evolution has been proven...although no link has been made to connect humans to monkeys...everything poibts to it....but evolution as a concept has been proven....animals do evolve..this is called genetic mutations...and everything is constantly changing..even as we speak...and although ther has been no connection to monkeys yet...it is almost certain that everything came form teh same thing....nothing so advanced could have just started out by itself at the beginning of time.... we needed a small singular cell to start irt...and if you look at the dna...ever creature;'s dna is so similar yp all elses....christians don't like evolution because it ghoes against the bible..but you can make it so taht ity doens't...its the conservative cristians taht don't want to accept it....they interpret the bible literally...
creation is some what...if not complete;y implausable....the thought that everyone started out from 2 ppl is ijust too implausable...ther would be too much inbreeding and gentetic defects...its more likely that tribes were the beginning of it....this is the only way you can explain how all the diff dnas are so similar....many contemporary christians view evolution as creation...that god started the beginning and set it all in motion...i like to believe that it was mere chance and we just happen to hav arisen from it....
at this point..the big band has pretty much been proven…ther were these astromnomers that were trying to fiind residual heat, or noise from the big bang…well…there was this other group of scientists that had a machine to hear low level radio signals in the sky…instead.,…they stumbled upon what was left of the big bang..this resonate fuzz….the pope has even supported this claim..so for all you that think god created averything in seven days…I don't think so….
the fitier is liek a scroll...ot has already been written...everything atht has happened and will happen...has already been defined....and here is my vision of the future:
in the future, we will live, not as a single race, not even as a single nation, but as a single entity. connected world wide by the electrical currents already beiing established, soon to be replaced by lasers and the speeds of light. this will make thought and connection the much gfaster and also the detruction of the earth. it will result in massive devastation all across the globe. we will plunge into a new drakest age where lives and hopes and love mean nothing. only the will of living and surving will take us beyond ourselves so we may break into a new light and a new era. but we will never accomplish this. fisrt we will have to go thru a series of devolutions. where we slowly recede back into ourt minds and our thoughts. technology will continue to grow, but the lack of peopel to serviuce to technololgy and the l;ack of peo0pel to use it, the expansion will colpse back upon itself. it will then devolve like the rest of the human race. and since we are all connected, we will deveviole at a faster rate. the machines and technologies will crtash down faster than we will. then there will be a revival, no matter how short lived., and the true age of death will be upon us. where a new race of man will toil upion the face of the earth. a new being will arise from the midst of destruction and will gain controol. just like the ancient dinosaurs, they will ide off, and tis pitiful race of man will once again rise to its glory. we will not know what has transpired before, nor will we be the same, we are no longer human. we have become sonthing that can not even be imagnined. adapeted to a world where life will soohn end. devistation and waste will be the planet we live on. we will struggle day after day for meare survival, but since we have been here vbefore, our past minds are still in us, we will grow past this and at a a higher pace to exceed what we have now in a matter of millenia. and the cycle will once again start up anew. and we will die again.
breakfast is one of those meals taht i'll eat if its around lunch time....oitehr than that,...i see no need for it.....mainly...i have no need for breakfast..its a rather wasyte of time...
sleep is one of those necessary things to live...kindof like food oor water or love or whatever....if you are deprived of sLeep for a ceratain amount of time..your body shuts down and you die...its that simple...but the amount of sleep differs depending on time and person..like during the summer...i can get away with only sleeping for about 4 hours a nite...while on the other hadn..i'm in skewl..i'll haf to sleep about 7 or 8....but sleep is a very peaceful and relaxing state....it allows your mind to think over things of the day...and of life....i also see it as a gateway to teh futuer...a way for you to see what will happen....
i dunno....i'm just obsessed with the number 30
i see nothing rong with gambilong..if you wanna throw all your money away..tahts your propbklem...as far as i can tell...the governmente has no rite to regulate gambling...
popularity is something taht everyone is to obsessed over...i mean...like rock stars...and like the president..they all want public approval for what they do....but does it really amtter? most of these ppl just want to show ooff....and like those populariity contests...they're all so stupid....there's so many diff ways of becoming popular...it all depends on how you do it....i think its those groups of ppl taht stay popular with only a select few....a god example is korn...most ppl that like korn are like hard core...and then others jhate them....ther's really no middle ground...and they don't really care what everyone else thinks....thats the down fall of all musicians...once they get popular...its like thaey haf to sarisfy the fans....instead of doing what they want to do....a good example of this is smashing pumpkins...although i love the pumpkins and all...but they sold out....tehy started going techno...which...personally...i think blows....but anyway...they'r selling out to the masses...its not really about music anymore..its all about money.'..another example is cow candy...i went to one of their shows...and the skewl wouldn't let them perform any original shit....they had to play things ppl would know./....now i think that sux big dik...they're a banmd...tehy hav original werx...why not let them perform what theyu are?
ther is some porn tahts decint..but thers that bondage stuph and kiddy porn and beastiality....thats just wrong...but if tahts what you want tio look at...tahts what you want tio look at....personally...i['v grown out of porn....i'll look at it everyonce inawhile...but i'v become desensatized to it...like i hav been to violence....it just isn't excioting....one of the reasons for thuis is prob cuz i'v been exposed at such an early age....but thats okay....its a good way to lern about the human body....and i see it as an art form...as long as its in taste....
i don't really see anythiong special about the melliennim....except for maybe a time of change...alot of new technologies will be available to the masses....and everything will basically hav stepped up a notch....but anything in the supernatural sense...or like sumthing like it...i doubt its gunan happen at the turn of the century...its gunna be one fuct up new years eve party thio....
do you know what love really is? does anyone really know what liove is? how do you tell the difference between love and infatuatuion? love and lust? i thought i was in love...and for awhile...i know I was...but i don't know what happened....its been probven that when you fall in love...ther are alot of biochemical chnabgs that occur in the body...but i'v discovered a long time ago that love comes in many forms...and if iwe don't see it when it comes...we may loose something...but sometimes you see love where ther is none....there's love between frends...love between signnificants.//..ove between family....and just general caring..but all these different types are different....i'v come to lern tah love is only a disguise for other emotions...you don't know its love until other emotions rare their ugly heads....ion other words...love is paine in sheeps' clothing...it sneeks into your bed at nite...and at the moment of sexual climax...it cuts your genetalia off...but thats just me...
i lerned a while ago taht hate is one of th9ose things that are misdirected...if you hate someone so much taht you constantly think about them...isn't it the same as loving them? you spend so much energy hazt8ing a person...why not love them? hating takes up a lot of energy...maybe this energy could be utilized for further uses....
this is a conversation I had with laura:
NiSReDRUm: Hello (this is laura)
x5hatt3rDx: hey
x5hatt3rDx: sorry about yesterday
x5hatt3rDx: i was watching the korn thing
x5hatt3rDx: and ims lag me up real bad
NiSReDRUm: :)
NiSReDRUm: :)
x5hatt3rDx: so...how's joyce?
NiSReDRUm: actually not good
x5hatt3rDx: awww
NiSReDRUm: she can't go to school becuase they think she's suicidal
x5hatt3rDx: that's too bad
x5hatt3rDx: not like thers anything good in skewl anyway
NiSReDRUm: how are you?
x5hatt3rDx: dunno
x5hatt3rDx: i'v become numb to myself
NiSReDRUm: aww..
x5hatt3rDx: ironic isn't it
NiSReDRUm: how?
x5hatt3rDx: dunno...i just like pointing out irony
NiSReDRUm: where do you see irony?
x5hatt3rDx: life is one big irony
x5hatt3rDx: everythihg you do
x5hatt3rDx: everything you accomplish
x5hatt3rDx: everyone you meet
x5hatt3rDx: everything you see
x5hatt3rDx: everything that is not reality
NiSReDRUm: who's to say what's reality?
x5hatt3rDx: me
x5hatt3rDx: i define what is real and what is not
x5hatt3rDx: and to me
NiSReDRUm: there's one way of looking at it
x5hatt3rDx: the only thing that is real
x5hatt3rDx: is death
NiSReDRUm: well.. who's to say that we aren't already dead?
x5hatt3rDx: exactly
x5hatt3rDx: we're all living in a dream
x5hatt3rDx: and when we wake up
x5hatt3rDx: we're already dead
NiSReDRUm: I agree with you, although I think that people are given many oppertunites to "wake up" but the subconiously or conciuously choose to stay asleep..
NiSReDRUm: it's easier to "numb" yourself that way
x5hatt3rDx: ther is no chance to wake up
x5hatt3rDx: the only chance you get is suicide
x5hatt3rDx: you may think you'r awake
x5hatt3rDx: but its just a pigment...a shadow of the dream we all die in
NiSReDRUm: No, I don't think I'm awake.. not at all.. not it the least, although I do think that I have been given chances to "wake up" but haven't taken them becuase subciounsly (well, I guess now conciously, but not really) decide not to take them
x5hatt3rDx: thats the thing
x5hatt3rDx: ther is no chance to wake up
x5hatt3rDx: you think ther is...but its one big fucken lie
x5hatt3rDx: just like eevrything else
x5hatt3rDx: nothing is triue in this dream
x5hatt3rDx: not love
x5hatt3rDx: not frends
x5hatt3rDx: not god
NiSReDRUm: no, I think everyone has their own truths
x5hatt3rDx: not family
NiSReDRUm: Although maybe sometimes it's good to beileve those "lies"
x5hatt3rDx: thers no use in believing in lies
x5hatt3rDx: only thig to do is believe in truth
x5hatt3rDx: believe in death
x5hatt3rDx: if we don't hav that
x5hatt3rDx: we don't hav anything
NiSReDRUm: but we don't really have death ethier and maybe once we're dead we won't even realize that we are supposed to be awake.
x5hatt3rDx: when we die...we awaken to the reality....and taht is when the true torture begins
x5hatt3rDx: this life in dream is just to prepare us for the ultimate despair
x5hatt3rDx: there is no hope
NiSReDRUm: are you "awake"
x5hatt3rDx: there is no help
NiSReDRUm: (?)
x5hatt3rDx: ther is no release
x5hatt3rDx: there is nothing
x5hatt3rDx: that is waht we hav to look forward to
x5hatt3rDx: that is the truth
NiSReDRUm: wait, so are you "awake"
x5hatt3rDx: no one is
x5hatt3rDx: only those that we think are "sleeping"
NiSReDRUm: so how do you know the "truth?"
x5hatt3rDx: if thats not the truth...what is?
x5hatt3rDx: what else do we hav to look forward to?
x5hatt3rDx: see the irony?
NiSReDRUm: actually.. yes
x5hatt3rDx: :)
NiSReDRUm: that's kinda depressing
x5hatt3rDx: exactly
x5hatt3rDx: isn't it grate?
NiSReDRUm: actually that's really depressing
x5hatt3rDx: this is the state i was born into
x5hatt3rDx: this was the state i lived in
x5hatt3rDx: and this is the state i'm left to die in
NiSReDRUm: maybe there are little reliefs?
x5hatt3rDx: no no no
x5hatt3rDx: only temporary lapses in the dream
x5hatt3rDx: a transission wher tyme stops
NiSReDRUm: what about your realtionship with Joyce?
NiSReDRUm: ohh...
x5hatt3rDx: thats what it was
x5hatt3rDx: a temp lapse in this horrible dream
x5hatt3rDx: a pase of tyme
NiSReDRUm: hmm..
x5hatt3rDx: and when its over
x5hatt3rDx: its like if it was never ther
x5hatt3rDx: but it still leaves its wounds
x5hatt3rDx: and those wounds will never heal
x5hatt3rDx: and every day
x5hatt3rDx: i stare at the cuts
x5hatt3rDx: and i see them bleeding all over again
x5hatt3rDx: my heart and mind is gripped with an unspeakable paine
x5hatt3rDx: and i throw myself down to the ground
x5hatt3rDx: and pray to all the gods taht i should awaken from fthis nitemare
x5hatt3rDx: so i can see how truully horrible it is
NiSReDRUm: :( that's really sad
x5hatt3rDx: its ironic
x5hatt3rDx: ther's a difference
x5hatt3rDx: ppl starving and dying of disease and suicide is sad
x5hatt3rDx: this is ironic
NiSReDRUm: and there's nothing that you can do that would help... "relieve" this pain?
x5hatt3rDx: you name it...i'v tried it
x5hatt3rDx: the only way is to embrace it
x5hatt3rDx: and never let it go
x5hatt3rDx: you know the saying?
x5hatt3rDx: "keep your frends close, and your enemies closer"
x5hatt3rDx: instead of rejecting the paine
x5hatt3rDx: i reject the happiness
x5hatt3rDx: and i revel in the paine
x5hatt3rDx: so when it gets worse
x5hatt3rDx: it doesn't seem as bad
NiSReDRUm: aww..
x5hatt3rDx: i thought i could find a relieve in:
NiSReDRUm: that's really awfull and great in,. like, the same way
x5hatt3rDx: frends, love, family, christ, me
x5hatt3rDx: and nothing werx
NiSReDRUm: maybe you haven't tried them the right way?
x5hatt3rDx: its like suicide
NiSReDRUm: or the right ones?
x5hatt3rDx: it doesn't werk
x5hatt3rDx: so maybe you should try it a different way
NiSReDRUm: Joyce wasn't the right one?
x5hatt3rDx: i don't trust my memories...and she is a memory
x5hatt3rDx: a painefully beautiful one
NiSReDRUm: she was really mean an dawfull to you.. she wasn't the right one to try.
x5hatt3rDx: i hav the scars to prove it too
x5hatt3rDx: 30 beautifully paineful scars
x5hatt3rDx: if one thing i lerned from joyce
x5hatt3rDx: its self mutilation
NiSReDRUm: no, she was mean and awfull.. she's not the right one to base anything
x5hatt3rDx: does it matter?
NiSReDRUm: yeah
x5hatt3rDx: i dpm
x5hatt3rDx: ugh...i don't think so
x5hatt3rDx: like i sed
x5hatt3rDx: it was a pause...and my dream didn't skip a step
NiSReDRUm: but maybe one day you can find someone who can revel with you and who will love you bac
x5hatt3rDx: love is a lie
x5hatt3rDx: its dressed up in sheeps clothing
x5hatt3rDx: it slips into your bed at nite
x5hatt3rDx: and at the point of sexual climax
x5hatt3rDx: it tears out your genetalia
NiSReDRUm: that's pleasent
x5hatt3rDx: yes
x5hatt3rDx: you know how love is hard to define and everything?
NiSReDRUm: I guess..
x5hatt3rDx: maybe ou can't define it because its not really there
x5hatt3rDx: its just other emotions or feelings in disguise
NiSReDRUm: yeah.. but if you combine emotions then they can make new emotions
x5hatt3rDx: what do you get when you mix paine with pleasure?
x5hatt3rDx: masakism
NiSReDRUm: S&M games
x5hatt3rDx: sadness with happiness
NiSReDRUm: ok.. sorry.. shoud have waited
NiSReDRUm: rain
x5hatt3rDx: confusion
x5hatt3rDx: you cna't be happy and sad at the same time
x5hatt3rDx: your mind splits and you go insane
x5hatt3rDx: i'v been ther
x5hatt3rDx: emotions don't mmix
x5hatt3rDx: they dominate
NiSReDRUm: ok
NiSReDRUm: I'm agree..
NiSReDRUm: although not compltely..
x5hatt3rDx: oh sure
x5hatt3rDx: you could be happy for weeks
x5hatt3rDx: but underneath it
x5hatt3rDx: its not ther
x5hatt3rDx: its like pot
x5hatt3rDx: it doesn't last
x5hatt3rDx: and even tho it feels good...it sux at the same time
x5hatt3rDx: ever do pot?
NiSReDRUm: yeah
x5hatt3rDx: you know how its all good
x5hatt3rDx: but you get all paranoid and shit?
NiSReDRUm: yeah
x5hatt3rDx: and for me at least
x5hatt3rDx: the next 2 days i feel like shit
x5hatt3rDx: thats the way happiness is
x5hatt3rDx: its like a drug
x5hatt3rDx: and even tho it feels good for a split instant
x5hatt3rDx: its overwhelmed by those feelings of sadness and despair
NiSReDRUm: but split instances build into seconds that build into minutes that build into life times
x5hatt3rDx: that don't last
x5hatt3rDx: when its over...its like if nothing happened
x5hatt3rDx: you hav the scars and the memories
x5hatt3rDx: but life is a dream
x5hatt3rDx: so how do you know it really happened?
NiSReDRUm: yeah.. but maybe you would have enjoyed it while it lasts?
x5hatt3rDx: it only lasts a split second
x5hatt3rDx: "time flies when you're having fun"
revcenge is one of those things taht you do becasus someone did something to you...it can either be poositive or negative...but I don't think it should be in exsess....when someone dowees something to you...you should do the same to them....good or bad...kind of an eye for an eye type of thing.....but this goes beyond that....it goes for all things....it kinda relates to that hole equal opurtunity thing....like if someone got me a guift...i would haf to giv them a gift.....but when someone does something to me...it doesn't mean i do something to them...when you do something in revenge...it doesn't haf to be directly bak at them....it can by symbolic...like if someone hit me..i could hit a wall instead...its just the action...u see...i believe ther is a balance in this universe....and it must be maintained....or nature will take its course and maintain it for us....its the hole conservation of matter and ebnergy deal....
i think everyone should be treated equaly...even tho we're not all equal...tahts evident...just lok at us...some of us are taller than others....and some ppl are smarter than others....tahts the truth....and ppl taht don't believe taht are just naive....just because ppl are different doesn't mean taht we can treat them any differently...i think that everyone should be treated the same...if your stupid, short, old....whatever....i'kll treat tyou the same....but when it comes taht you'v done something to me or one of my frenmds...y0ou better watch out....cuz even tho everyone should be treated the same....i don't follow this doctrine...some ppl just don't deserve to be treated the same...like iif someone killed my best frend...no way in hell would i treat them the same....
i see nothing wrong with unnatuiral sex./...would it be oral, masturbation, anal....but when it comes to animals....thats wher I draw the limits...i think that we should keep it in teh species and around teh same age...like a 45 year olf shouldn't fuk a 19 year old...i think it should be at least within 5 years....personally...i think anal sex is dishusting...but aceptable....its one of those
things that yoiu can do...and i won't care about it...as long as you don't do it to me....
i support piracy 100 percent.....sure its detrimental to the companies...but thtas they're fault for pricingh them so high.....i see it as an advantage to ous little ppl...we don't hav any money...so why not? its not like it costs that much anyway....tahts the prob with everyone...tehy say they do it for ebntertainment...but it costs too fuken much.....and alot of times its the retail stores that drive teh prices up/.....look at audio cd's....recently..all the stores jacked they're prices up by like a dollar or 2...its not like the cd's are more expenisve to make,....actually...they're cheaper now...but the dumbass corporate assholes all just want the fukn money
i see nothing wrong with smuggling...except for maybe foods and stuph...but thast about it...and maybe ppl...i think its wrong....food becasue it could bring diseases and other pests into a world that doens't know it...abnd ppl...for teh same reason....some one could ahev some sikly disease and when they're introduced to the nnew system,....it can knock out the system....
everyone is dependent on someoine else...physically...or emotionally..or mentally....everyone is at one point....and thru most of their lives.....they icontinue to be...we need ppl to give us food...provide love...frendship....wehn we come into relationships...we form a dependent bopnd between them....no matter ihow hard you try...a slight dependence iwkll be formed...the closer you groiw..the more dependent you become../.and ther is nothing you can do to stop the dependencce,...nor should we try...it is a naturual aspect of live..and we cannot upset the orcdr..no matter how hard we try,,.,,,,when we try and lessen or wend the dependence...the only thing you can do is lessen the relationship or ebnd it...may it be in death or just an ending..either way....often times...when this dpendence is broken..it cannot be resestablished...no matter what...
relationships is a word we use to catogarize actions betwen ppl..no mater what..we fall into realtionships...frends enemiwes...lioves....they are all relatiobships...its just a matter of how strong and of what aspet they are...when y0ou cform a love relationship..or a ffrrend relationship..iot is often times the same...at least for me...a frend can't be anything else,....and with relatuonships...it can only grow or stay the same,..once the relationship begins to decline...it is very diffiucklt to reestablish it...unl;ess the gaps are fixed in teh early stages...teh teasr in the relationship will ocntinue to widen until ther is no relationship....after the relationship fails..ther is no way to restablish it.....that kind of feeling can never be regained....ther is too much residual effect and emotion left over....although the relationship ends..kit doesn'ty really...it becomes a part of your being...a part of your soul...and nothing cna take taht away...it is deep rooted in your memories and feelings...the more intense the memory or the emotions..the less likely it is to have it reestablished....
hyper-reality is like an area taht is parallele to this world...where we can see everything that goes on..buyr we are vibrating at such a higher level taht they cannot see us....we cannot interact with reality either..ubnless with extreeme strength of will....in thjsi case..tehr are distortions in reality and the effects can be felt, seen or herd....
eyes are windopws to the soul...when you look into someones eyes..you can see what they are feeling...and if you look hard enuff...you can see what they are thinking...you can see they'r memories...for taht is what we all remeber things by.l...the way that it is sseen or percieved by our eyes....often times..ppl won't belivee things unless they see it for themselves...
hands allow you to feel what the other person is thinking, feeling, or seeing...when pl are blind...they use their hands to see what is in fron t of them....its is in this way that we can see things as well...feelings, paine, visions, memories..all these thigs can be passed bewteen two hands...tahts why prayer is so pawerfulk..tahts why when you gather together and hold hands you can accomplish so much..becuse your hands are a maaor conduit for energy,....evil energies..good energies...they all flow from yoiur hands....
Okay…tahst basically my thoughts on everything…but if you want to know more…like about something I haven't mentioned here…don't hesitate to give me a few suggestions…thanx.
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