April's Story

in may, i met my soul mate. he was a beautiful, amazing boy named jamie. our friendship grew in leaps and bounds...and just 2 weeks after we began talking to one another, jamie and i became best friends and realized our condition as soul mates.

jamie and i had many things to talk of, but an important one was our relationship status: jamie deeply cared, and had cared for the last 2 years, about his friend courtney. jamie's friend laura, meanwhile, deeply cared for him. jamie was forced to choose between two women that he loved very much....and he chose courtney. this would prove to be a not-too-wise decision.....courtney betrayed his trust. jamie went on vacation for a week after this, leaving time for all of us to think. well, here's where things start for me....i realized that i liked jamie as more than a friend. after jamie came back from vaca, i admitted this to him. but another bump in the road.......jamie is moving in august. so what do we do? he feels for me too but doesn't feel he can go through with a long-distance relationship.

well, weeks go by and i fell in love with jamie........and jamie fell in love with laura all over again. but she cannot return what he feels for her......and he cannot return what i feel for him. my first true love who means so much, who means the world to me could not love me back.

all throughout this hard, hard time i didn't listen to anything besides From the Choirgirl Hotel. the song Northern Lad got me through it all. in my mind, how i've interpretted the song, it *is* my relationship with jamie. i cried.....but i sang like a bird...... all to Northern Lad. when i felt like i was abandoned, like my world was crashing down on me, crushing me....it got me through.....the strength that radiates from that beautiful ballad. i cannot fully express what it means to me, but u can be sure that it helped me.

the hardest thing about growing up is learning. i had never known what true, pure love was.....and now i do. and i am still here; i am still strong. and i am still learning.

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