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Well, there's not a lot to it. As I said, I'm a po' white boy from Pennsylvania. I live in Columbus, OH now. I change colors quite a bit according to lighting, wardrobe, and recent exposure to the sun, but I'm generally a blue-eyed redhead, just a little above average in height, intelligence, and creativity, a little below average in weight since I stopped eating other animals. No one ever said I was blonde before the summer of '97, but it comes up fairly often now; I bleached in the sun.
By blood, I'm a mutt: half Italian, the other half being about equal parts Pennsylvania Dutch, Native American, Irish, English, and a little more Italian. This is what I wrote about my personality in 1997-8-or-9 for the first bio page: My personality is hard to pin down. I have a slash-and-burn method of personal growth,large chunks of my personality simply disappearing and new ones surfacing with little or no warning. This usually happens immediately after multi-week periods of intense activity, or of absolutely no activity. The former is much more common than the latter these days. I haven't given a lot of thought to my feelings, morals, beliefs, etc in a good while, so I really don't know who I am at the moment.
Well, the very first and very last things I wrote still ring true. My personality is hard to pin down. I really don't know who I am at the moment. At the time I still believed in the idea of a self, some singular me-thing that might change a little and might be out-of-focus in places, but was definitely in here somewhere. Since then, I've explored that self through research, contemplation, meditation, and experience, and found that it is no thing: an empty box. It is a container I shape around my experience of life. It can shrink down to just a few characteristic behaviors and cherished objects; it can stretch to a few other people, friends or family; or it can expand to include absolutely everything at once. And who is this "I" shaping the container? It can shrink. It can stretch. It can include everything. You see how this goes? Still, one needs a social interface. If you're reading this, you're probably trying to form an idea of who I am. My advice is keep absorbing information, and the idea will form whether either of us likes it or not. Chances are whatever ideas of me you come up with won't be half as wild as some I've believed myself. Most of the information in the Bonfire pages is still about five years out of date. For me this makes it more fun to explore; for you, new material will probably appear first on the blog, memestream, as I'm relearning html. Some of the pages I'm not touching, like my cd collection from 1999, fully annotated. I might even repost some of the old journal, if I can find a frickin Zip drive. In the meantime, have fun. People are interesting, even me.
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