When I began Kindergarten I was diaganosised with Attention Deficet Hyperactivity Disorder. With this my parents were much relieved to know they did not infact have a demon possesed child. Just Kidding. I was a monster though. Durring Kindergarten we lived in Impe rial Beach, CA.I spent most of these years on Ritalin.
In 1st grade we lived in Imperial Beach,CA and attended Centeral Elementry School and mid year we moved to San Diego, CA where I attended Chesterton Elemnetry
In 2nd grade we lived in San Diego, CA I again attened and Honolulu, HI. where I went to Nimitz Elementry School
3rd grade was also spent in Honolulu,Hawa ii. And I attened Aliamanu Elementry School
4th grade we lived in Honolulu, HI again attending ALiamnau Elementry School and Aber deen, SD. where I attended May Overby Elementry School.
5th grade we lived in Aber deen, SD. and I continued to go to May Overby Elementry School.
6th grade we lived in Mitc hell, SD. where I attended Mitchell Juinor High School
7th grade we lived in Aber deen, SD attneding Simmons Junior High School and Yank ton, SD. Where I attended Yankton Middle School
8th grade we lived in Yank ton, SD I again attended Yankton Middle School and Palm Desert, CA. where I went to Palm Desert Middle School.
9th grade we lived in Palm Desert, CA and I attended Palm Desert High School LaQuinta, CA.
10th grade we lived in LaQu itna, CA. and attended Palm Desert High School.
11/12 grade ( I was a three year graduate) we lived in LaQu inta, CA and Palm Desert, CA. I atteneded Palm Desert High School and transfered and graduated at Esperanza High School. ( the districts teen mother school)We lived in California, Hawaii, and South Dakota durring these years. I don't remember much of these years. I do however know it was the time frame I developed my love for hidding.. I would hide anywhere... including at the top of the shelves in my closet or in a cabinet in the basement. It was the one way I knew how to make every thing around me slow down so I cold think clearly and not be in a whirlwind... A queit , confined, small, place.....This has always been my safe place..
I remember bits and pieces and one incident that stands out in my mind is I told a friend in 5th grade that I had a crush on somone and she tricked me into walking by his house on the way to school... I went into a complete rage... I litteraly felt like a wild animal... I know I appeared psychotic and I still wonder to this day what Chad ever thought of me and if he thought I was a complete lunatic.Anyhow the school years were quite boring. We moved around alto because my dad was in the military. I often felt left out, not because I wasn't liked, but because I was always the new kid.
Between sixth grade and eighth grade we moved 5 times... Even after dad retired from the military he couldn't stay in one place for long.
Eighth grade was a very traumatic time for me. Not only was it necessay to adjust to becoming a teenager.... I also had many things happen at once. When we left South Dakota our family was a big fish in a small pond... and when we moved to Palm Desert, CA we became small fish in an ocean. I was really lost... I can not tell you how hard I tried to swim and catch up.... but I ended up sinking...
We moved there in January of 1986. That year I went throug enormous pains trying to adjust to the new enviroment, which could be devestating at any age. The Palm Springs area is literaly a whole nother world.
That year I was also sexually assulted. From then on I would never be the same. I became a runaway, battling eatting disorders, abusing my self, and by the time high school rolled around I was well on my way to becoming an alcoholic and drug addict...Again the unhappiness and being out of control continued thru this stage of my life...
