I hear a loud bang,
Then my world goes blank
I'm very scared
and unable to think
Here I lay, in the arms of a friend
Still not quite sure of what has happened
Scenes of my life, flashing before my eyes
I'm realizing slowly, I'm about to die
I'm trying to fight, I'm not ready to go
Why this happened, I do not know
So many things, I still wanna do
How scared I am, if only you knew
There are so many people
I'm leaving behind
They're all standing around me
with tears in their eyes
Please do not cry
My spirit's still here
Though I'm going someplace far
I am still very near
I hear a man's voice saying "Adam come home"
Though it's comforting, I feel so alone
"My son" he says, "It's time to go"
I follow, but ask, "Will you let them know?"
"Tell them I love them
And I'll miss each one
My eternal life,
Has now begun"
My flame is lit, and my star is placed.
Standing alone, in a wide open space.
Flashing many colors, radiant and bright,
Almost appearing, like a small neon light
The boy I once saved , has taken my life,
My chance for marrying and having a wife
No children to be born, to carry my name
Irresponsible hands and a gun to blame
I know now, what I was sent here to do
I've been taught a hard lesson, to pass on to you.
As a child growing up, like all boys,
A fascination with guns, portrayed as toys.
Had the tables been turned,
And I had the chance to survive
I would've tried my best
To save other lives
Please listen my friends, its all up to you,
Now that you know, what will you do?
This is life and death, its not a game
I know, my family, will never be the same.
Written by:
Carrie Lee Hartman and
Christopher Michael Martinez
In memory of Adam Scott Martinez
07/25/77 - 08/30/98
Carrie's Letter I
The Childrens Memorial I