Nikki's World
I'm not wise and I'm not all-knowing, but the things I've experienced and the thingsI've exposed myself to have taught me that the possibilities in life are endless, which is why I truly believe that we can do anything- if we only put our mind to it. |
Thursday, February 27, 2003
Coming back to this house always puts me in a bad mood. I resent having to live here.
I finally picked up my diploma the other day. Now it's in it's frame, inside it's box, in a plastic bag, on the floor of my room. So much for the all important diploma. When I was picking it up I felt like it should be some momentous occasion or something. But it wasn't. It's a fucking piece of paper with my name on it and the names of four people I've never met before. Yay. I played hooky today and went snowboarding. =) I can say it now because the day's over with for me. I'm off to sleep in the next twenty minutes. It was nice out there. When I got there it was just starting to snow again. And for the first hour it was snowing pretty well. I froze my cheeks (the ones on my face- although the other ones did freeze later in the morning) off on the way up my first run so I had to buy a face mask. Then it stopped snowing for a bit and the sky actually turned blue, but it started snowing again just as I was leaving. Which was a good thing, because I was afraid I wouldn't be able to leave if it snowed too much. And I was afraid there'd be ice all over my car, but the sun melted it all away in the half hour that it was out. It sucked that there was all this fog and rain on the way back down, though. I swear I could only see 10-15 feet in front of me all the way till I got to the 15. Not the nicest driving conditions. But it was still worth it! Even with the nasty stupid fall I took that probably bruised some ribs and totally knocked the wind out of me. Makes me wonder what Big Bear's gonna be like this weekend... Heh! I can't wait! I miss snowboarding... And now I really need to sleep. Monday, February 24, 2003
It's pouring rain right now. =D See the big teethy smile? But does that mean I'm going to have to deal with morning traffic in the rain, too? Eh.
I must sleep now. So much for the update on what happened last night...
My Star Wars personality:
Yoda =) You are wise beyond your years — a sage for the ages, the master's master. That's why your Star Wars type is Yoda. Sure, you might not look too much like the little green Jedi Master, but you have a quiet contemplative way about you that commands respect. People trust you, especially your friends who are constantly coming to you for advice and sometimes predictions. While you may not be able to tell them who's going to win the big game, you do possess the rare ability to see the big picture. You never lose sight of the fact that we're all part of a greater whole. It keeps you grounded and balanced, and it's the perfect cover for a mischievous sense of humor that always catches others off-guard. This mix of wisdom and impish delight promises to bring you long life...another thousand years or so anyway.
Thanks to Blogger's site being down for maintainance last night I coudn't post what I wanted to... And now I'm forgetting.
Oh yeah... I have to expand later, but last night was Saddle Ranch night and I saw a couple very interesting things. Back to work for me... blech. Sunday, February 23, 2003
My fingers are cold.
I finally saw a good movie that was filmed on campus! Old School is hella funny! They were all over the place filming on campus last year, so I figured it'd be another stupid movie like all the other ones that have been filmed on campus before. But you'd think, okay, Luke Wilson and Wil Ferrel... they've gotta be funny. And it was great! And of course, Luke Wilson is so hot! =) And also, there was one scene where they're on top of Kerckhoff that I was in, kinda... Hahaha... I'm technically behind the window they're in front of, but you can't see us. We were having a PCN meeting in the Samahang office. And they asked us to turn off the lights inside so we couldn't be seen. Oh well. But it was still a really good movie! And I wanna go see it again. Hehehe... Two days in a row at the gym is not good for sore muscles. I need a massage. A free massage. Oh damn... gotta go take a shower. It's Saddle Ranch night. Happy birthday Emman and Jen! Friday, February 21, 2003
Interesting article about Blogger being purchased by Google. Click here.
Free reign. That's what I like about the internet. No police, freedom of speech. Which does mean that there are some very weird, off-the-beaten-path sites out there. But it does make for some eclectic reading, don't you think? Just be careful what you read. Muwah ha ha ha ha!!! I am so very tired. Someone at the gym today asked me to spot for him... why, I don't know. Do I look like I know what I'm doing that much? This guy was HUGE. As in, "Hi, I work out for three hours every day of the week and I can bench press you" huge. So I was like, "Uh, yeah, sure. Although I don't know if I'm the best person for it." Do you think it was a ploy to talk to me? God, I so don't look at all desirable when I'm at the gym. So what's with the guys there? It's not a place to pick up on people. Unless, of course, you look like Britney Spears and you work out at the gym. Although I would think Britney has her own private gym somewhere in that mansion of hers. Anyway, the only reason why I think it was a come on was cause after I spotted for him he asked if he could ask me to do it again in a few minutes. And then later he went to one of the machines next to the one I was using and tried to start another conversation. It's just too bad that he was way too huge for me. I like my men toned, not veiny. Eh. I must sleep. I'm so very sore and tired. Thursday, February 20, 2003
I'm thirsty. It's late. I need to sleep.
I went to a career networking thing tonight... only it was mostly those with careers networking amongst each other because very few students showed up. Oops. Hahaha... I didn't mind, though. I think I made a good contact for the evening... so hopefully something good will come out of it. Argh. Sleep... Tuesday, February 18, 2003
I dunno... I just wanted to type. Type type type type type type type type type type... hey, that's pretty good. I was able to do all that without making a mistake till the last one...
I need to go to sleep. Now. Oh gross... I'm breaking out. It's the wrong time of the month for this. Okay... I guess I really need to sleep now. I have to thank God again for getting me to my appointment earlier today, what with me sleeping for half the way there... while driving... Eh. Monday, February 17, 2003
Ack... I'm sleepy.
It was way too warm in the office today. That's what happens when your office is the only office that's open on a holiday! Grrr! ...I just remembered, I did laundry last night. And I left it in the dryer overnight. Except that my mom was doing laundry tonight. So where did my laundry go...? I just want to go on a date. Is that too much to ask for? Sunday, February 16, 2003
Big K-Mart commercial Dawson's that only had two characters was so awwww! Pacey is so much hotter without all that hair on his face. And seeing him and Joey camping out in a K-Mart overnight made me so jealous!
And then I have to wait three weeks for the next new Angel! God, I'm so obsessed with these damn TV shows... Eh... back to work tomorrow. Oh joy. I just need to win 15 million dollars. Then I'll be set for life. Saturday, February 15, 2003
We don't need a psychic to tell us that you're giving off a Crystal vibe. That shimmering, iridescent aura reveals your sensitive, introspective nature. A soft-spoken romantic at heart, you like to think of life as a fairy tale — complete with a happily ever after ending. But when you occasionally misplace your rose-colored glasses, your idealism can take a pounding. That's when you retreat inward, spending meditative time by yourself to restore your sometimes-too-fragile outlook on the world. Because of your delicate sensibilities, you prefer people and activities that don't challenge your ways and views. But once you find a kindred spirit, you're fiercely loyal — friends 'till the end. Quiet and gentle, you're a thoughtful soul with a shining light around you.
Ack!!!
Nicole, you're single because you don't want to slow down. Whether you're working all hours, busy with school, or planning a cross-country move, it sounds like you just don't have time for anyone else in your life...right now, that is. Your timing may be off in other aspects, too. Chances are, you've met that perfect person who just so happens to be married or planning their own cross-country move. So take a step back for a moment. Is there something underlying this? Could it be you're afraid to get involved for some reason or another, and are therefore attracted to people who are simply unavailable? Whether you're secretly sabotaging yourself or not, try a little exercise. Open your mind to those who are around you (and available!) right now. Then let up on your schedule to let that someone in. That is, unless you want to get married to your goals, and not Mr. or Mrs. Right. Haven't I asked myself this over and over enough already??? And yes, I know I'm busy. It's the reason why I broke up the last time. But it doesn't mean I don't want to meet someone nice that I can spend what non-existent free time I have with! Erg. *sigh*
See me breath a huge sigh of relief! *SIGH!* I'm back on DSL! Yay!!! I never realized how deep my addiction and dependency on the internet was until recently... I must admit, my name's Nicole and I'm a dsl-holic...
Valentine's Day surprisingly didn't suck... although, leave it to my cousins to, of course, make a really bad day into a good day. I started off the morning disgusted because I couldn't go for more than ten seconds listening to the radio on the way to work without hearing those two damn words. But towards the end of the day I made plans to go see a movie with Tiffany and instead ended up going to dinner with Tiffany, Tam-tam, Auntie Silay, and Uncle Inting. Wee! Fun! Especially when you go to a restaurant that's got live entertainment- all the waiters are seemingly Broadway wannabes- and yummy food and the BEST apple martini I've ever had! The only down side to the place was that the service was extremely slow. But then that could also have been due to the fact that it was Valentine's Day night and they were incredibly busy. I saw some guy that I recognized from the Four Feathers premiere that I went to and we also watched a cross-dressed Marylin Monroe sing to this one guy at the table across from us. Our theory was that the girls at the table hired him/her for the guy... how sweet of them. Oh, the other two slight down sides: parking sucked (we had to park a block away because even the valet parking was full) and desert was alright. The atmosphere and the apple martinis definitely made it worth it though! Oh yeah... the restaurant's name is Micelli's and it's on Cahuenga across from the entrance to Universal Studios. Anyway, after spending the last hour working on getting my computer connected again (which is about 47 hours less than the time it took with Directv) I am tired. So it's beddy-bye time for me. Night all! Friday, February 14, 2003
Proof of my loss of all socializing abilities:
Last Saturday- Lauren's flamenco show at the Jubilatte Cafe in Santa Monica. I could only work up enough energy to smile and talk to Lauren and Jackie. The rest of the night I was hiding behind Bubbles' jacket avoiding eye contact or else staring off into space- even though I was inside a crowded room full of WAC people. Tonight (the clincher)- Fry's in Anaheim... land of the geeky computer nerds and the wannabe computer know-it-alls (ie. the people who work there.) I was looking at the different computers and monitors on display when this guy realized that his cell phone causes interference to speakers. (Which I hope to God was a line... because how can you own a cell phone and not know that they interfere with speakers and even land line phone reception sometimes.) Anyway, so he held his phone up to the speakers of the computer that I was looking at FOREVER. I mean, okay, so you notice your cell's making this computer's speakers make some nasty warbling noise- kinda like when you're using one of those old radios with the manual tuners where you're trying to get the exact frequency for a particular radio station- so I understand leaving the phone like that for a few seconds. You know, enough time to go "wow, that's kinda interesting." But then after a few seconds it gets extremely ANNOYING. And what did this guy do? He left it there for like 30 seconds. The first time he did it I kind of laughed. I mean, it was funny that he didn't know and he was all surprised by it. But then, after he left it there for so long I just wanted him to stop cause that noise hella hurts the ears. So then he says something like, "look at what my cell phone's doing." And I was like, uh, yeah... they do that. And he's all "Oh really? What kind of cell phone do you have?" And so I just gave him this whole brush off answer and went on my merry way looking at the computers... What a fucking idiot I am. I mean, he wasn't the cutest guy in the world and he definitely wasn't the smartest- I also overheard him talking to a sales guy there about computers and I seriously wanted to butt in with some answers cause the sales guy wasn't doing too good of a job and this guy sounded like he seriously needed help. But no... I just kept on going... The old me would've struck up a conversation and flirted to no end. This stranger that's become me avoided eye contact and stared at the computers for a half hour and then went home. I swear, I don't know what's wrong with me, but it's getting EXTREMELY frustrating. Frustrating enough for me to brave dial-up just to post this in here. Ugh. Oh yeah... and Happy Valentine's Day to me. I'll be at home tonight doing laundry. Wednesday, February 12, 2003
It's the end of the world. God is trying to wipe the earth clean again by flooding and drowning us all out. It's a miracle I made it to this office in one piece. Sheesh... the last time I saw it rain this much at one time was during my freshman year of college. Except then it lasted for weeks at a time instead of just two days.
One thing all this rain made me realize: my car needs new tires and brakes. I'm not in the mood to be at work right now. I want to go home and snuggle into my bed and watch DVD's all day. With hot chicken noodle soup, or maybe chicken tortilla soup, and hot chocolate. Ew... on second thought, that's a gross combination. Er... whiling away my time... I've had a granola bar, a chai latte, a pan de sal, and a Ferrero Rocher to eat today. And I had a nice workout at the Sherman Oaks 24 Hour Fitness again! They really do have nice showers. God... maybe the power lines will all go out and we'll all get to go home early. Geez, it feels like I'm in school and I want to be let out early. Monday, February 10, 2003
Good news... I'm scheduled to be back on DSL again on Fri, Feb. 14. Wee! We'll see how that goes... The one thing that I spend most of my time with is probably the only thing giving me a Valentine's Day present. How ironic...
God... the issues I have. How the hell is it that I go for six days without checking my junk email account and when I finally do I have 163 unread emails?!?! Erg. This last Jason Bourne trilogy book is really getting on my nerves. Ludlum is so freakin stereotypical and racist in his style of writing... it's like reading a historical espionage novel or something. This book was written in 1990- which wasn't really THAT long ago!- so you'd think he'd tone down the way he talks about the "blacks" and the "Orientals." Fuck... someone buy this guy a book about how to be PC in the 21st century. I hope to God his newer books aren't written like this, cause I really do like his stories and I've got another one of his newer books on my waiting-to-be-read shelf. But if they're all like this then he's blacklisted in my book. Oh and what's even better... last night I had a dream that was partly from the book, partly from work, and partly from some messed up subconscious of mine. I was vacationing at a tropical resort that looked like the Caribbean, except that when you looked at it on a map it was actually the beach of Iraq, which was next to Sudan, which was actually shaped like the Arabian peninsula, but it wasn't where it was supposed to be on the globe. Suffice it to say that I was on another planet... the one in my head... and I was in this resort and was, once again, without a guy. So someone from work goes up to me and says that I should ask this particular guy out, because she knows that he'll say yes if I do cause he likes me. (This guy is someone who I knew from UCLA, but never really talked to. I think I could count the times we said words to each other on both my hands. He's not someone I ever really thought about, lusted after, etc., either) Anyway, it's been about 15 hours since I woke up, so the details are fuzzy. But I do know that towards the end of the dream, I was in danger of something and so I was scared of something... but I really don't remember what it was. What a fucked up dream that was... I think I'm having another one of those inexplicable "accident seasons." I used to get them about once or twice a year when I was younger and the last time I can remember having one was probably my freshman year of college. See, every now and then, there comes a few days or a week or two where I'm just completely accident prone. So after it's over I'm usually covered in various bruises and cuts, but usually nothing that serious. The other night, as I was literally getting into bed after I'd turned off my light, I crashed my knee into my desk. I swear it hurt like hell! It still hurts! It's been like 48 hours now, too. The good thing is that there's no bruise, except that I don't think there'd be one anyway cause there are no blood vessels where there's only skin and bone! But it hurts to touch it and it hurts to bend it and it kind of hurts to walk on it. Argh. When I get hurt I usually bitch and complain, but that's about it. This one had me crying in the dark for about ten minutes cause it hurt so much. I hate it when this happens... I think I'd make a damn good writer. Hahaha... that was random. Anyway, I guess I should go and do the things I was supposed to do when I finally signed on tonight. I've been trying to keep the dial-up to a minimum, cause all it does is frustrate me. So this is probably the last time I'll be online till I get my new DSL hooked up. (Thank God!) But I have to say Happy Birthday to two people first. First, Happy Birthday Ryan!!! And second, Happy Birthday Jay!!! I know they're both sometime around now... heh. =) You'll have to forgive me... when I did the haphazardous spring cleaning when I moved back into this hell-hole all my old planners and things got thrown out. So I lost a bunch of birthday dates. *blush* Anyway, I miss hanging out with both of you! I wish we could get the time to hang out more, but I guess that's the way things go eh? God, I hope blogger doesn't screw up again and lose my post... This was hella long... Wednesday, February 05, 2003
Directv DSL 3 February 2003 Great connection, tragic end Grrr.... dial-up is... So. Fucking. Slow. I want my DSL back. Tuesday, February 04, 2003
Argh and eh and all that...
I'm still online. Can you believe it? Wow. *knocks on wood* Okay, so I'm finally reading the last book in the Jason Bourne trilogy... and is it just me, or does this one kind of suck? I really don't like the way it was written. Nothing about the plot, but just the writing style. It sucks. I am not setting my alarm clock for tomorrow morning. Yay! I've been eating two oranges a day for like a week now... I've got this perpetual orange taste and smell in my mouth. You know when you eat too many carrots you supposedly start turning orange...? I wonder if that happens with oranges also...? There needs to be a website that tells you how much the gas prices are at all the gas stations in the area. That way you don't have to drive around looking for the cheapest gas station... you could just look it up and go straight there! Oh the convenience... and if someone steals this idea from me you damn well better pay me some copyright earnings! Erg. I should sleep... Monday, February 03, 2003
Eh. Today was full of eh.
I'm still online, yes, and I'm going to enjoy it as much as I can while I can. I want a new computer. Damn Alfredo. It's all his fault. =-p I'm so tired. Eh.  |