Why is it I don't seem to go to sleep these days? Every day I tell myself I need to sleep early. Then it gets to 10pm and I think "Oh, it's still early..." And then it gets to 11pm and I think "I should get ready for bed..." And finally it gets to midnight and I think "Oh, I should be asleep..." And yet here I am... literally.

It's been an emotional few weeks. Actually, it's been an emotional few months. Not for any particular reason. Somehow it's just turned out that way. I always hated those people who would cry for seemingly no reason. I grew up thinking I'd NEVER be one of those people. I'd rather be the person who holds it all inside and never shows any emotion whatsoever. Fat load of bull that turned out to be.

*sigh*
Something's off. If only I could figure out what it was... Other than the mess my apartment's in. Though I think that's an effect, rather than a cause.

Guess I will sleep now. It's not as if I have problems falling asleep. I just have problems getting in bed to go to sleep...
posted by Nikki at 9:07 PM