UNFINISHED
Another four seasons have changed
And you say that you can't really tell
Cause you're not thinking about that, much
Hell, you is all that I can think about
And I wish I've crossed your mind least once
But I have my strong doubts
That you found the time for - what I consider - me
How would you explain the closeness that we feel
We're so much alike, that the difference is unreal
Still you turn your heart away from me
Giving it to another who also wants you and needs you
But only I was made for you
Can't you see how I try to break inside your mind
And when I get through to you
You don't understand why
I use all that effort to touch you
On the only place where you seem to feel me
And nobody else can know
Though it seems you have a hard time acknowledging it
Yourself
It's about time I found a star up in the universe
That would be up there for me
One that wouldn't pass out after I look at it
But it seems they're turning themselves off one by one
Just like your star
Yet there is a small difference
You still know me, and we still communicate
Probably more than we ever did
And that's why the star left the shade
A clean spot where it used to be
So I hope that it stars shining again
One day
Soon
Because that doesn't take away the pain
The deadly pain of loneliness
A special kind of loneliness
That many friends can't take away
Even you
From the place you stand in
You can't reach me
In the way I want you to
In the way you should
To make me happy
To change my world
And make that star sparkle once again
This time just for me
See it's not the first time
I'm being unconsciously ignored
But subconsciously felt
Open your heart
And I just might fall in with the rest of the things
I really doubt you need
That your mind says you want
Too bad you need a long time to smell it
By then you'll find yourself hurt - again
For you're being loved for what you represent
Not for who you are
I don't want to let that happen
I can't..
But there's nothing I can do about it
I guess I'm too much in love with you
To hurt you by admitting that what I said is true
A confession that you need to hear
And certainly don't want to
Because things just crave to become complicated
And every decision hurts
Especially wrong one
Which turns into a time bomb
One's already ticking in your heart
All this time I've been waiting
My heart's been busy fighting feelings
So around itself it made a wall
Out of corduroy and silk
But as all of this is going on for far too long
I produced too much of that material
Since there's no one I can give it to
I'm suffocating underneath all that
So beautiful and soft
Just like I dreamt of heaven
But I can't share it with anyone
Something or someone always makes me fail
Always makes me stop
Just as I open up
To show what my heavens are made of
What I am made of - what I'm really all about
Blinding their eyes
Numbing their feelings
Until they turn away
And I came up with a list of three
Responsible for all the bitter ends
First it's time
Then it's me
But the worst is our society.
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